Hey guys! Here is the update for the week! I decided to add a bonus chapter before the epilogue. So here is the last chapter before the epilogue. Enjoy!
Chapter 12: First Day Of Forever
CPOV:
I grab the black dress and step into it zipping the side up and looking at myself in the mirror. Married at 18 and now a widow at 23 years old with three children to raise without their father. I sigh deeply checking my hair once again. Izzy used a whole can of hair spray and half a jar of hair gel so I know it will stay. I kind of feel bad, I really want to wear my down like Luke loves but hey I have to look presentable. A knock on the door pulls me out of my thoughts.
"Come in!" I raise my voice ever so gently and see Jon walks in with baby Lucian.
"Are you ready? The cars have just arrived and Will and Jace is putting the car seats in for you." I nod my head getting one last look in the mirror before grabbing my son and heading out the door.
In the car it's deadly quiet. I stare out the window looking at the landscape and the cars filled with happy people, happy families unsure as to why we had to be the ones to bury a loved one. I promised myself for the children's sake I wouldn't cry. But right now I am dangerously close to breaking that promise. Getting to the private cemetery I take a deep breath as we pull up slowly to the spot Lucian Christopher Greymark SR body will be laid to rest for the rest of his life. Jon grabs my hand and gives it a gentle squeeze I turn to him and offer a weak smile. It's all I can give to him right now. My heart is aching and I don't want to think about another human's feelings other than my children's and my own. With Adele to my right and Lucas to my left I sit in the chair and exhale as the Father Fell who was originally suppose to bless our marriage begins speaking.
I zone out staring at his coffin. His chestnut mahogany box his body will be buried in the grown in for the rest of eternity. I will never have a hug from him, I will never cuddle with him again, never get a kiss hello or a kiss goodbye from him. My heart aches and I don't know what else to do but tell myself to hold on for our kids. The ones I promised the love of my life that I will raise and not push onto someone else. I am brought out of my thoughts by my name being called by the good father.
"-Greymark will like to say a few words in honor of her fallen husband." Clapping sounds all around me as I hand Lucian Jr over to Jon and make my way to the front. I touch the casket as I grab the cordless mic.
"Lucian always told me that no matter what our love would see us through. And I of course believed him; I still to this day believe him. Because even though he is not with us anymore I will always love him from the bottom of my heart. And I know that without a shadow of doubt Lucian loved me even after he died." I pause taking a deep breath. "When I was kidnapped and I finally had the opportunity to be reunited with Luke he said something to me that I will never forget. I don't even think he knew I was still awake. He said 'I love you, and I will love you until the day I die. And if there is life after that, I'll love you then too.' I wondered how could I be blessed with someone so sweet, so pure of heart and so perfect. But I realized that God loved me so much he created Lucian perfectly and purely for me. So Luke this is for you." I nod my head as the song begins to play.
If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in a river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song.
Flashes of the first time Luke and I meet came to the fore-front of my head. I was a little girl dazzled by the smile and attention of the older boy who handed me my fallen teddybear.
Uh oh… Uh oh…
Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you
When she stands under my colors
Oh and
Life ain't always what you think it oughta be no.
Ain't even grey and she buries her baby…
I look over at Luke's mother I've only meet twice but she is still wiping the tears from her eyes.+
The sharp knife of a short life…
Well, I've had just enough time
Flashes of Luke and I on my birthday cuddled in bed talking and him rubbing my belly when I was five months pregnant.=
If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses.
Sink me in the river at dawn,
Send me away with the words of a love song.
Flashes of Luke and I laughing, crying with smiles, kissing, and dancing came to me and I couldn't even help but smile as silent tears slid down my face.
The sharp knife of a short life,
Well I've had just enough time.
And I'll be wearing white,
When I come into your kingdom.
I'm as green as the ring on my little cold finger.
I look down at my wedding band and flashes of Luke singing to me as he dropped down on one knee came to mind. The day he decided to ask me to become his wife.
I've never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my mind.
A flash of Luke holding my hand as he stroked in and out of me came. The night after he told my mother to leave after she threw me out for being pregnant.
There's a boy here in town,
Says he'll love me forever
Who would have thought that forever would be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life…
Well, I've had just enough time
Ooohhhhh yeah. Oooooooooohhhh…..
So put on your best boys
And I'll wear my pearls
Flashes of Luke waiting for me in a tux as I walked down the aisle and I couldn't help but look up to the sky.
What I never did is done….
A penny for my thoughts
Oh no! I'll sell them for a dollar.
They're worth more after I am a goner.
And maybe you'll hear the words I've been singin'.
Funny when you're dead the people started listenin'
Flashes of Luke visiting me in the maternity ward came to mind with him telling me how much he loved me.
If I die young bury me in satin,
Lay me down on a bed of roses.
Sink me in the river at dawn.
Send me away with the words of a love song…
Uh oh!
The ballad of a dove.
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears
Keep 'em in your pocket
Save 'em for a time when you're really gonna need 'em
Oh!
The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I've had just enough time.
So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls.
I look at the casket as it's being lowered and take a fist full of dirt and release it onto of it.
"I Love you now and forever Lucian Greymark."
This chapter I dedicate to all those who have lost loved one in the line of duty. Whether they were police officers, military personel or even if they died trying to protect their family. I know what it's like and my sympathy is forever with you guys.
This is the last chapter next is the epilogue. Please review for me. Hoped you all enjoyed it. Until next time guys!
Kiss Kiss Babes! ;)