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Chapter 5 : Some archwizard's thoughts

Today was awful !

Even while thinking about it, I still cannot believe it's true!

Kazuma...

He came at the guild's Inn and saw me, sitting here craving for anything that could be tagged as ''food''.

I knew he was coming of course ! I'm a smart girl ! Everything was calculated the moment my belly started to ask me that food I could not afford.

And since I knew that today was the day we were supposed to train together, the only thing to do was to wait at a place Kazuma could buy me a meal easily.

But nothing went as planned ! He sat to my left, look at me after I begged for food and then he told me :

''Okay then.. let me kiss you'' with a weird voice.

I was shocked, obviously I wasn't expecting him to say that. After all, why didn't he try to do that on Aqua ? She look more in Kazuma's taste than me.

Adding to that, It would have been easy. That girl keep begging, asking him food/money all day, Kazuma could've abuse of her in certain way that I refuse to imagine if he wanted to.

..

I said I refuse to imagine it ! I can't see myself now but I'm sure that my face is totally red !

But maybe he already did this to aqua or darkness.. I'm not always by his side, checking what he doing so I can't tell..

But It's not my problem since I'm not supposed to be interested in that stuff anyway. Nonetheless the question I keep asking myself since that time is quite simple.

Why did I let him do that to me?!

Kazuma came closer and closer and instead of rejecting him, I stare back and let the kiss happened.

The answer is maybe simple... I was kinda curious how that could feel .

Any girls around my age can't stop talking about romance and stuff, how much it is fun to have a boyfriend or how pleasant is to do ''lover'' stuff with your partner.

At first when I heard ''pleasant'' I thought directly of a giant explosion cloud, wiping everything on it's path as it's slowly raising up in the sky.

''….''

The sort of explosion that starting to excite me ! now I fell like casting my ultimate power !

I guess I'll do it when everyone will look away.. hehe.

But I dont know.. when Kazuma approached, my body refused to move for no reason. And so I can understand a little bit now. Its effectively pleasant to do kiss but, explosion are still number one in my heart !

We've got trouble this day too, a giant man came threatening us, looking for the person who exploded his castle.

It-It was me of course..

But I'm the greatest wizard in the world ! So I came to him, denounced myself and I even told him how strong I am !

I was really looking almighty and all !

But..

He didn't even understood my name ! What up with that town ?! That's their name that are weird not mine !

That guy was a leader of the demon army, somebody really powerful. Maybe even too much for me. And before I could avoid, he thrown me a spell, a deadly one that was supposed to kill me within a week.

My view was troubled, my body was painful and once I was able to get my thoughts together the first thing I saw was Kazuma holding his broadsword facing the men, ready to attack him at any time.

That wasn't like him to act this way. He is clearly not strong enough to face that kind of enemy and I'm sure he knew that. Usually he would just get as scared as everyone.

Who know ? Maybe It was because he wanted to avenge me..

I don't know what Kazuma really think of me, most of the time he only treat like a troublesome child.

And there was this time at the guild's inn when he looked at with lusful eye and then kissed me.

It's weird but deep inside myself I still believe he was there for saving me, like if he was a sort of fairy tale's knight, always protecting me when I'm in trouble. Ready for me, at any time.

But that just the beginning of the story. The demon, as he saw Kazuma acting heroic, categorized me as his ''beloved'' in one of his sentences.

At the time I heard those words I felt like my heart would explode in my chest ! It was a premiere for me ! Not even me witnessing one of the strongest explosions in the world could compete with that intense feeling.

But if I'm Kazuma's beloved does that mean that he's my boyfriend ?

.. No ! No ! No !

Kazuma is a great friend that is ! And beside I have other goals in mind, I sweared myself to be the strongest wizard of all time after all !

Anyway Kazuma said it countless time, he prefer big chested girl with a mature body.

I wonder.. Do boy just look at your appearance or what ? I should not even think about underestimating myself since I got some shape too !

It's not like I usually care about that sort topic but somehow I cannot stop think of it..

So the question is.. why would he pick me ? It angering me to say it but..

Like I said I haven't grown enough in some places yet.. At least not enough to compete with darkness for example.

But just wait ! In some year I'll finally have something to show ! I'll be wonderful !

…

Let get back to the story.

I followed him as he was ready to go to the castle for lifting my curse.

At this time I felt way to guilty about being a bother for the team that the idea of tagging along was a good way to payback about it.

On the way, Kazuma did not talk about anything or even look in my direction once as he seemed concerned, usually kazuma have a lot to say at any given time so I was kinda curious to know why he was shutting up.

Was he mad at me ? Did he regret the kiss and didn't know how to say it ? Or do he is embarrassed because that I was tagged as his beloved ?

I asked myself some similar questions but my growling stomach pushed me to ask him for the promised food instead.

Of course I totally forgot that it was for food that he kissed me at the first place..

Kazuma is a pervert so I need to be careful around him as he proved himself able to use his money to be make me do... some high physical bondship.

Anyway I do not understand him ! He told me I was a kid once again ! I was begging for the food, and then he tried to help stand up since I was exhausted and while doing so he said

''You're really a spoiled kid''

After all he did to me he still see me as a kid ?!

Hmm.. maybe ''after all he did to me'' sound like he did more than just barely kissing me...

Somehow he totally triggered me and as like if it was fate, I kicked him right in his crotch.

And as I was doing so it confirmed that the legends were true, this is really the true weakpoint of a boy..

Kazuma was having a hard time, his breath was ragged as he got trouble to stand up but the only thing that count is that Kazuma finally gave me something to eat, a whole boar on top of that !

Hehe, I won again!

Meanwhile he didn't mention it but I knew he was holding his pain at a point I was starting to be sorry for him.

And so once arrived to the castle where we were supposed to fight the armored demon, I finally decided to atone and apologies to him.

But he didn't get it at first and pushed me to precise what I meant!

Immediatly, in my head it went like that '' He isn't supposed to be the ''smart person'' of the team ? And me that was thinking he was smart and everything !''

I dont know.. maybe I Idolize him to much.

Maybe! Or certainly! Since he did way worse than the kiss !

Suddenly we heard a sinister laugh coming from inside the castle and his reaction was to take my hand and hide behind a pillar.

I know he did that for allowing us to not be caugh by the demon but yet !

It was to much emotion for a single day..

And that pervert didn't stop here...

He-he, held me... In his arms.

Even it that was for the ''mission'' sake it was not something I would have done if I were him !

Kazuma was not using too much strength.. instead he was more gentler than anything.. finally, I came to a conclusion that it was pleasant and let myself relax in there.

''...''

Why I am remembering that anyway ?! I- I dont want to remember ! I feel like I'm having a stroke !

I cannot say that it wasn't good but.. it felt like that if I were to abuse of this I would quickly became addicted to those interaction.. Why I am even restraining myself anyway ? If I pleased I mean..

Maybe that because I know nothing about it and wasn't even interested in all of this at the first place.

I don't know anymore, just minding about exploding thing was soo much easier than physical interaction..

Hopefully at this point I wasn't caring anymore, all I remember is kazuma warm hand touching my back directly under my clothes and his another one petting my head like if I were a small animal.

But I wasn't an animal of course and his wasn't only petting me in a neutral way. No I felt kazuma desires, I somehow felt it throught his hand lurking for any shape of my body as everything melted around me, and soon enough I wanted him to keep going. Even if there was someone ready to kill some meters ahead..

I must have been under the grip of an evil spell I swear!.. Everything will be different now, our reliationship will not be same now. Not after what he did to me.

Speaking of the demon, he actually spoted us, and since my energy was drained by the death sentence spell, kazuma put me on the ground and started fighting him alone.

The demon leader summoned a lot of undead aiming directly at Kazuma, of course he fought them thoroughly but obviously wasn't going to win on a longer period.

So I've came to think that desperate like he was, He tried to take my wand to use it against the demon lord.

What a foolish men he make..

If I had more strength I would have prevent him to ! Explosion spells are the most dangerous type of magic both for the user and the opponent, he was going to fail and risk his life !

And then I speak on my own.. I told him what were on my mind.

''I dont want to loose you ''

At this time I felt tears coming up, I was ready to do everything to stop him but..

Kazuma took the wand, aimed for the opponent and say some pretty cool line before casting the spell.

He said something just before the explosion, while the demon asked what Kazuma was going to achieve this way.

That idiot aswered that he was ''saving his beloved''!

He was talking about me ?!

Be-be-beloved ?! .. This word again ?!

I really think now that there a probability that he is in love with me, and so..

What I gonna do ?!

Our friendship was enough.. and now it's too late to go back ! I cannot see him the same way I usually did now !

Idiot !

But I guess that I underestimate my women's charm a little bit hehe, and say that I didn't deployed my full power yet. I'll be even better in some year !

..

Ah yes ! we were talking about the demon !

That was a great explosion, all the disgusting creature went flying away totally destroyed by the violent impact.

I think kazuma did well for a first try. That was lacking a bit of velocity and size but the vibrations were good enough.

But of course he wasn't using it correctly, Kazuma let himself get submerged by his own casting, on the process, getting injured.

I was really afraid of him dying but hopefully he only lose consciousness, falling on the ground, his face literally eating dirt.

The demon opponent was hit by the attack but slowly recovered, still alive. He got up, contemplated the explosion's hole and slowly oriented his helmet toward us.

And no he didn't kill us .. On the opposite, he was somehow subjugated by the ''heroism'' of Kazuma and in a moment of kindness, seemed to gave up on terminating us and say something like that.

''I cannot kill you, no, not today''

''As it turned out, you were rather interesting to fight that it would be a shame to not reiterate this battle''

''You know what ? It's decided, we gonna meet again boy, make sure to train yourself..''

The demon then, looked at me and raise his hand.

''You didn't beat me. But. I'll save her. Consider this like a present for all this entertainment''

An then with a throaty lauch he disappeared out of existence.

Kazuma was still on the ground, motionless. I dont know if he heard all of that but I was ready to loose consciouness myself too anyway so it's was the last of my worries.

And so the last thing I saw was the inhabitants of axel leaded by Aqua and darkness running toward us.. the word worried plastered all over they faces..

While closing my eye I've came to a conclusion, a good way to close this agitated day .

''I'll became even more stronger that the whole Kingdom of Belzerg will prostrate in front of my power !''

''And for Kazuma.. We'll see ! I don't know how to deal with that !''

[Chapter 6 coming soon]

[currently working on it and planning to release it in more or less 2 day]