Ok, so this is going to have another part. I just get so excited, and when I start to write, like really write, I get these monsters that shouldn't be just one story.
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Spread the word my friends. Josh and Maya are endgame.
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"We were supposed to have someday. We were supposed to play the long game. We- I-I'm so stupid. I'm the one who told her to-" Andrew's hand gripped around my shoulder.
"Let's go home." I looked up at him and nodded the feeling of loss overwhelming me. Andrew lifted me up most of the way and helped me walk back into the apartment building we were living in.
Hangovers.
I almost forgot why I even had a hangover.
Almost.
I forced myself out of bed and into my restroom. I threw water on my face and gripped the sink to stabilize myself. My reflection stared back at me, and I almost didn't recognize myself. My eyes were swollen, my lips were dry, and my mouth tinged with cotton mouth. My body ached, and my face was flushed. My grip on the sink hardened as I willed for yesterday to have been only a nightmare.
I love you.
I love you too.
I let out a breath I didn't realize I was holding.
Will you marry me?
Yes.
I fought to take in an even amount of oxygen. She said yes to marriage, to a future with him.
Where did that leave us? My hands unclamped from the sink.
There was no us.
There never was an us and now there never would be.
Maya Hart was getting married.
I don't think I actually ever believed how much a broken heart could affect a person. Days turned into weeks, weeks turned into months, and months turned into years-2 to be exact. Two years of my life were spent on autopilot. I barely registered anything. Time was no help. If anything it had taught me that just because the world moves on doesn't mean you do. I've avoided any kind of confrontation with her-until now. I stood in my brother's apartment- no one trusting me to come along to this thing- shrugging on my leather jacket in hopes of bringing back the me who had only seen her as my niece's best friend.
"Uncle Josh?"
Riley had grown up, and much to my dismay she had grown up so much that he hated taking her anywhere near campus. There wasn't a pair of eyes that weren't on her when she entered a room. People used to gravitate her because of her personality, well now they gravitate towards her for entirely different reasons.
I smiled at my niece in her short, purple dress.
"You look great Riley." She smiled in thanks walking towards me briskly.
"I know this is hard for you-"
"Riley-" I warned.
"I know this is hard for you Josh, but I'm glad you're here." Her eyes held a tinge of sadness, but a whole lot of sincerity.
"That makes one of us." I finally muttered offering her my arm.
"Let's just go get this over with please before your dad comes looking for us." Riley's smile didn't reach her eyes like how it normally did. She took my arm in silence and we walked down to Topanga's for the rehearsal dinner.
It wasn't so bad at first. I almost forgot where I was, being surrounded by the people I love. My parents, siblings, niece and nephew, and the Hunters. I was surrounded by the people who reminded me everyday why I am blessed. I laughed as Riley's boyfriend-Farkle, showed Shawn his birth certificate.
"I still can't believe that Minkus reproduced." Shawn spoke in disbelief.
"HA!"
Riley and I couldn't stop the laughter that escaped our mouths. I doubled over in laughter at the confusion etched on Shawn's face. I was wiping tears of laughter from my eyes when I saw her. It had been so long since I've seen her. Her long blonde hair cascaded down her shoulders to her mid torso. She wore a mid length blue dress that had me rubbing my hands along my jeans.
"Hey everyone." She spoke to all of us, but her eyes never left mine. A small smile tugged at the right side of her lips. God, I forgot how gorgeous she was, or rather how nervous she makes me when she looked like this.
"There she is, oh Baby Girl you look beautiful." Katy pulled Maya into her arms with the rest of them in suite. She greeted every single person with a smile and a hug. Before I knew it she was in front of me and I stood up meeting her level, thanks to her heels.
"Josh." Her voice was soft and her eyes, my goodness those brilliant eyes. I swallowed nervously refusing to back out of her gaze. My hand subconsciously went to rub the back of my head and she smiled.
"Nervous?" I cracked a smile at her teasing tone.
"That's normally what happens to me around gorgeous women." I hadn't realized what I said until after I said it. I looked away from her immediately and noticed everyone's stares divert quickly hoping I hadn't caught them staring. I cleared my throat attempting to diffuse the awkwardness brewing between us. My eyes made their way back to her and she also had looked away from me. She was chewing on her bottom lip and I couldn't stop myself from being more enamored with her. Everything about this girl made me crazy. I was about to reach out to her when I heard him. My arm withdrew back to my side so quickly and my insides felt like coming up. I've never felt more sick in my life.
"Hey, baby I'm sorry I'm late. Don't hate me." He ran into Topanga's stopping at her side. My eyes narrowed into slits and I looked away in disgust when he leaned in to kiss her on the head. I took great interest in my shoes as he kept on talking. I was drowning, suffocating, I needed air.
"Josh, hey man! Nice to see you!" He greeted me barely noticing it was me who Maya had been occupying herself with.
I forced a smile on my face and simply nodded my head.
"I'm just going to-" I pointed to the door walking away from the couple. The night air enveloped me and I breathed it in trying to rid myself of the anger, the heartbreak. I pulled out a chair to one of the outside tables and sat down. I took a few deep breaths and tried to stop my hands from shaking. How could she do this? How could she possibly do this to me? How could she unknowingly make me so crazy about her?
"You know Josh-"
"Ah!" I gripped on to my chest startled at the sudden intrusion.
"Holy mother of-can you warn a guy next time Shawn!" I glared at the man before me before looking back at the table trying to calm myself down. He laughed at my antics and joined me at the table I was at.
"Reckless spontaneity."
What? My eyes drew together in confusion. I looked over at Shawn who was tugging his coat closer to his body. He once again laughed over my way before speaking again.
"I loved Katy long before I proposed to her. I would have never asked her if I hadn't buried the fear and found my reckless spontaneity again." His lips pulled upward in a smile before fully turning towards me.
"Josh, you have been so concerned about how other people will perceive your relationship with Maya-"
I shook my head, "I don't have a relationship with Maya."
"-and whose fault is that?" Shawn stared at me like he was a man on a mission. His arms rested on the table his focus solely on me. I looked down at the table unable to answer that question when we both knew the answer.
"When you were a baby you were born really sick."
My lungs.
I nodded so he knew I was keeping up with him.
"You scared all of us Josh. I haven't been that scared in a while, until now." My head tilted to the side as I took in what he was saying.
"Shawn, why are you scared now?" He sighed before speaking.
"I'm about to watch my daughter marry someone who she can't love to the fullest of her capacity. I'm about to watch my daughter marry someone who she shouldn't be married to." His conviction in both his tone and his eyes moved me.
"Why are you telling me this?" I whispered looking back towards my hands carelessly playing with them.
"Because I have watched you grow, and I've watched her grow. I went to school with Corey and Topanga for goodness sake. I know what love looks like Josh. I'm telling you this because you're about to lose your shot at everlasting happiness and for what?" I nodded my head in understanding.
"I've already lost it Shawn. She's getting married." I muttered looking up to the sky.
"Tomorrow. She's getting married tomorrow. So, I'm going to tell you again what I told you that night when you were in the hospital. You're in a real bad way. Don't go out of town like I did looking for something you're not going to find. Don't go anywhere. Life is right here with these people, with your family, my family. You've got the greatest family there is Josh. We want you to be with us so we can watch you change, watch you grow and make memories together. Our family loves you Josh. Our family also loves Maya. Our families would love you both even more together, finally giving in to the happiness you both have denied yourself for so long."
I was a pool of emotion. I couldn't speak. All I could do was look at him. His words were so genuine, and heartfelt I couldn't begin to thank him for entrusting me with what he said. For attempting to even have a talk with me about her. I was grateful he took time out of his daughter's rehearsal dinner to tell me this, but he was wrong. She doesn't love me.
"Dad?"
Maya's head popped out of the door and while Shawn rose to meet her I looked the other way hoping to mask any emotion that resided on my face after a conversation like that.
"We're about to serve dinner. Are you guys coming?" She asked hopefully. I wasn't staring at her, but I could feel her eyes boring into my head.
"Sure, yeah, yeah. Let's go." Shawn waved over to the door before walking into Topanga's completely. Maya turned to face the door just as I finally let myself look at her. I wasn't expecting her to stop. I wasn't expecting her to turn around and face me one last time. I wasn't expecting her to ghost a smile at me before reaching for the door. And I most definitely wasn't expecting the words that came out of my mouth that stopped her right in her tracks.
"So much for the long game, huh?"
She stood back towards me, frozen for what felt like hours. I could hear the blood rushing in my ears.
"Excuse me?" She finally choked out turning to face me slowly.
I shrugged casually the hurt finally rearing its ugly head.
"It's okay. Most people don't last for the long game you and I both know that first hand don't we?"
Hurt clouded her expression. A twinge of regret seeped its way into my body as I watched her expression go from hurt to angry in less than two seconds.
"The long game? Josh we agreed to see other people or do you not remember that day at the ski lodge? 'You live your life and I'll live mine' speech? Ring any bells? Let me remind you!" She moved closer to me only getting louder.
"You don't have to remind me Maya." I snapped pushing my chair back and standing up.
"Clearly I do Josh because-"
"I told you I was playing the long game that night! We told each other someday Maya, and now you're- you're-" My eyes looked past her and to the door behind her.
She shook her head at me dejectedly.
"Someday for what Josh, huh? A crush?" Her eyes began to water. I found myself wanting to hug her, comfort her even though I was hurting too.
I closed my eyes and exhaled.
"It wasn't a crush."
"It was always more than that." Her bright blue eyes bore into mine. I took a step closer to her.
"We were always more than that." I pushed a strand of hair behind her ear slowly caressing her face along the way.
She seemed lost for a minute, but the moment she found herself again she pulled back instantaneously and retreated from me towards Topanga's, towards her fiancé.
