Hello! I hope your enjoying the AU so far! The next 3 chapters will be off flashbacks of what happened in 16x21 and just after it in the perspective of Teddy, Owen and Tom! Please leave a review for any suggestions though!

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Teddy stood there as her surroundings started to disappear again. But this time her surroundings never changed again.Her whole surf in dings were blank. She felt like she was in photo studio, up against the blank walls except no matter where she looked everything was blank. Confused, she turned around desperately trying to work out what was happening again. That was when one of the walls started to become transparent- like it was a balcony looking at the world below. Like it was the OR viewing gallery. But instead of seeing an OR below, she saw herself a few weeks ago. In disbelievement, she looked more carefully she was seeing herself on that night. The night that she was meant to get married.

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She drove home from the hospital confused. She couldn't forgot what Tom said to her. She did love Tom and she loved Owen and she was about to marry him. Yet all she could think about was her time with Tom. Tom made her laugh, Tom let her feel special and on top of the world while Owen made her feel loved. Owen made her feel safe and calm and she had this perfect family with him. But yet she had always doubted if her and Owen would last and her family would go away over night. Yet she was about to marry him in about 45 minutes and she was certain that was what she wanted but after her events with Tom that day she wasn't so certain.

When she went home, she snook in the back the door and went to her and Owen's room to get changed as her and Owen had agreed not to see each before the wedding. Nervous, she put on her dress and ring and walked into the kitchen expecting to see Owen there but instead her world came crashing down.

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After spending the last 30minutes putting Leo to bed, she stood there staring at her peaceful two sleeping children- they looked so calm and so oblivious to what was happening between their parents. Tears rolled down her face. How could she betray Alison and Leo so much? They didn't deserve this? Leo wasn't legally her's anyway but never the less she loved him and she didn't know if she would be able to see him again. She then went over to her baby girl.

'Allison.' she whispered giving a kiss on the head to her baby girl and then back to Leo. 'I'm sorry. I love you both so much.'

She then slowly walked out their room and closed the door, looking back at her two children while tip toeing into her room. Her's and Owen's room. It hurt so much thinking about how much pain he must be in. She knew he would never reschedule the wedding no matter what surgery- he would make it in time. How did he know? She dreaded to think how. Was it Tom? Was it Maggie? Did he hear some rumour? She couldn't stand thinking about how much pain she caused. Quickly, she placed a note on the bed, packed a bag and left.

She stood there staring at ,who would of been her mother in law a few hours ago, put all the decorations. She had always been so good to her - the closet thing she had to a mother.

'I'm just going to go somewhere, I'll be back soon.'

She didn't think anyone heard her speak but she didn't care.

'Teddy, wait honey...' Evelyn called after but she was too late as she was already in her car driving off.

She drive for hours not knowing where she was going. She just kept heading straight south on the freeway until she was too tired to go much further and pulled over to a small family run motel that looked half decent. It was 11pm and she was just shattered. Despite the racing thoughts, she slept like a log hoping this was all one big nightmare...

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Teddy lent back from the balcony into that night and turned around. It was painful enough to think about it let alone witness it. It was like she was living in a nightmare and she had no idea how to escape.

By the time she turned back to face the balcony, it was gone and she back in her completely white surroundings. Yet she felt like she was still in a nightmare.