No Mind Vs. No Mercy
"Hello, this is doctor Marcus Angevin, one of the leading doctors at Dawn Valley Sanatorium. I'm making the recording on my personal experience with two patients that I've been tasked to inspect and treat, with my own discretion. In the last three days, I witnessed how these two interacted with one another and how an unforeseen and tragic incident lead to the demise of one of them, but it also leads to the discovery of unknown knowledge we've yet to see from a particular patient. Either way, these two had a violent encounter with one another and lead to several disastrous results which lead to the Asylum in a state of panic. To make sense of the devastation, I should start at the beginning of this whole tragedy. It started on Thursday where I was assigned the patient Tonny Miller, a patient that made the front line news as being an unstable monster in the eyes of the public. I was brief with the information I was about him but I knew that to know more about him, I had to discuss more his nature and what makes him so unique."
Day 1: Thursday, 16 May, 2:05 pm.
"Hello there Tonny, it's a pleasure to make your acquaintance." said the doctor.
"Hello, doc. I'm guessing that you're here to evaluate my condition as well," said Tonny.
"Yes. I know that that in the last three years, you have two semi permeant therapist that had several discussion and evaluation with you but they were reassigned, new patients. But as of now, I'm your permanent doctor for the perceivable future." said the doctor.
"That's fine." Said Tonny.
"Within three minutes of simple introduction, I noticed that he always remains calm and without a shred of excitement or disconcert within his tone. I've been told that his mask prevents him from showing others his mutilated face and from showing emotions but to keep a level head is somewhat unexpected."
"Now, I'll ask some questions about you and you'll answer them to the best of your ability. Think of them as ice breakers for you and me. I may have your file from previous doctors but I choose to get to know my patients face to face. Will that be all right with you?" said the doctor.
"Yes. That's fine by me." Said Tonny.
"Well let's begin. First, when were you born?" said the doctor.
"In April. On the sixteen," said Tonny.
"How many siblings do you have?" said the doctor.
"None before I got here but I have been told by my family that they're going to have a baby on the way. Apparently, it's a little girl." Said Tonny.
"Are you surprised by this news?" said the doctor.
"Very but that moment will have to be in the forms of letters," said Tonny.
"How unfortunate but true enough. Now on to the more personal or should I say, 'Dynamic', questions. Now, when did you begin to suspect that you were showing signs of having these afflictions?" said the doctor.
"Maybe when I was in school and felt stranger than normal, like was feeling more aggravated from all the excessive teasing and that I would feel this sense urge to stop it." Said Tonny.
"I see, what else?" said the doctor.
"There was this time where I skipped forward in time. It went something like this, I blink for a second and I was in my fifth-period class. I later found out that I was going into autopilot the whole time and had no recollection of what happened at the time but soon began to remember some things that I learned within the time I was in my classes." said Tonny.
"However, what caused you to change was when you encountered a run-in with those hoodlums when you walked home, right?" said the doctor.
"It went off without a hitch, I didn't even know that they were there or if they followed me but when they were bullying me, one of them knocked me out and that's when it happened. I lost consciousness and my more aggressive side began to correct the issue I was dealing with but in the most violent way possible," said Tonny.
"And the worst way possible is when your emotional response is to end the life on the living being that is causing you so much anguish. Correct?" said the doctor.
"Yes," said Tonny.
"Tell me, is this aggressive side of yours the dominant version of yourself? To be clearer, is this version of you a more dominant or wholesome part of you that you kept repressed for some reason, like schizophrenia?" said the doctor.
"No or at least, it's not a personality thing. It's more emotional than an identity disorder. I know the difference between what schizophrenia is and what I have. For me, it's like having an emotion and not acting upon it healthily. I kept my emotion in all this time and never released them in the open or expressed them and when I do release them, it's now in a more violent manner." Said Tonny.
"Can elaborate more. How would you describe it in your own words when this situation happens." Said the Doctor.
"Well, I didn't express my emotion before because I felt like I had to show them that they didn't get the better of me, the people who were teasing me, of course. But when I had my facial injury, that caused me to hide my face behind a mask and I couldn't express my emotions more so than before because of the disfigurement of my mouth and the lingering burn scars from the accident." Said Tonny.
"Now when I feel anger or hatred, my mind will stimulate my body to fix or end the issue that is causing me to feel that way. But that causes the rational or the part of me that suppresses those emotions of me to lose consciousness." Said Tonny.
"I see. This all stems due you not being able to speak your mind or remaining an emotionless doll, but that is only what's up on the surface, in actuality, you were holding back all that pent up rage, and now, it's caused you to release it without you having a say in the matter. Quite a troubling predicament." Said the doctor.
"Two more questions before I finally assess my thesis about you. What have you noticed or understand about your condition? I hope that you were paying attention to your own psychotic evaluation." Said the doctor.
"I know that when I go to my 'unstable side', I become stronger than before but I never am aware of any of this because I'm unconscious of the time. I noticed that I remember certain things like, how to disarm traps, where someone might be, what someone's habits or patterns are, and if I'm stuck somewhere, I will know how to escape from that situation, all of these things were tested on me when I was here. It was meant to know what would happen should I go 'unstable'." Said Tonny.
"I hope that the practices were humane. Were they?" said the doctor.
"Yes." Said Tonny.
"Did you physically harm or, worse, kill someone during these practices?" said the doctor.
"No. They did controlled experiments and they used dummies. It seems that if it's objects or something that is not physical like music, a non-human noise, art, or anything that makes me frustrated or annoyed, I will have corrected it in an involuntary but fully aware state of mind. However, if it's a person then that's different and varies, depending on what they are doing. But because they used dummies, I was fooled for a bit and targeted them but became more aware that my targets were the dummies and not real people." Said Tonny.
"Interesting. In this state of mind, your ability to process information becomes more clear to deduce what is causing you discomfort and who is causing, over time. Not only that but it seems that any information you gained when you were in this state also transfers back to you, so you can relive it as a memory and vise versa when you enter this state of mind and your subconscious self becomes aware of potential traps and patterns from repeated attempts or new encounters." Said the doctor.
"Now then, this is the last question. Are you ready?" Said the doctor.
"Yes." Said Tonny.
"How did you feel after killing those five people and the group that attacked you on your way home?" Said the doctor.
"To be honest, I felt terrible at first but after a day or so, I feel nothing. Like the guilt or sadness that comes from killing someone just left and that feeling never comes back. Even remember it now doesn't make me feel a bit troublesome or satisfied but I do feel like I got something off my chest like a weight has been released." Said Tonny.
"Very good." Said the doctor.
"After my conversation with him, I now knew the type of person he truly was from the time he and I spent. A calm demeanor and un-nerved mind, an aware sense of self but at the same time, lack of control and balance between his life and the troubles around him. I've come to realize that he is an unstoppable force that if we let go unto society, at hit's worst, he will cause insufferable chaos towards those who wrong him. But the worst part about this is that he is a victim of his devastation, in my own words, as a sober patient off his/her med, he cannot help himself when the temptation sets in, especially if those same meds are a natural part of himself. It all comes down to how his body reacts and he does afterward."
Day 1: Thursday, 16 May, 4:46 pm.
"I have been review his physical reports for the last three months now and I'm still astonished by what the results say. His physical strength is tripled that of a normal person, being able to bend a steel metal rod presents, almost, no effort. This likely due to his state of mind becoming more feral or releasing limitations that once were held in place due to him being in a calm state of mind. His endurance is also noteworthy. Because he is unconscious at the time, he is unable to feel any pain at all. From being brutally beaten by any blunt trauma, stabbed in several areas of the body that cause the most pain or blood loss, shocked by a standard-issue police taser or from a car battery, or even shot by a handgun, he will not react in any agony, what so ever. However, that only comes from his reaction to pain, his physical being is still vulnerable but, that's easier said than done. It has been shown that his body can withstand said punishment without any signs of damage. To be more clear, if I would swing a 2x4 on to his back or his head, it would break, if I smashed a cinder block on him, it would crumble to pieces, if using a metal rod on him, it will bend and not a single one of his bones would have craked from the time I swung at him. He truly is an unstopped monster with no mercy or thought, within him."
"Starting tomorrow, I'll be interview another patient. Goes by the name, "Billy The Terrible", by the patients. His real name is Billy Boswell, a real piece of work. I wish I could go into more detail but I don't have time. I must study Tony's' documents some more and then prep myself for Billy afterward, said that I go without know what makes him tick, I could be the next doctor to die by his hands."
End of Day 1.