PRT 5

The Boneyard was The Pogues home away from home. Countless nights spent there dancing, drinking, smoking, and socializing with Tourons. Tonight, was no different. Kiara found herself leaned back against a tree watching all her friends. John B and Sarah sat around a fire giggling quietly too each other, and Kiara couldn't help the happiness that flared inside at the sight. Never knowing she would have ended up friends with Sarah Cameron again, there was no denying it, she was thrilled Sarah had become a part of their little group. Pope stood by the keg chatting up a brunette with glasses, hopefully she didn't find his constant facts a turn off. The dark hair girl laughed and laid a gentle hand on his arm, and he blushed. Kiara was happy for all The Pogues tonight. There was one missing though, probably in the woods with another random girl. Kiara tried to convince herself that JJ's antics with girls did not bother her, but who was she kidding?

Searching the crowd, spotting a mess of blonde hair, she was surprised to see JJ siting alone. The surprise did not last long when a tall blonde with legs for miles came and sat right against him. Watching as he wrapped his arm around the girl's waist, annoyance busted throughout Kiara since she knew what it felt like to be wrapped up in those arms. Downing the warm beer, she headed towards the dance floor. Subconsciously swaying with the music, Kiara froze when a hand landed on her waist. Turning to face the owner of the hand, ready for a fight, she stopped when blue eyes bore into her. Moving his hand from her waist to her hand, giving a twirl. Unable to contain her giggle, she returned the favor and twirled her blonde friend.

JJ moved closer, catching her waist with his other hand, swaying against her. Kiara became very aware of their closeness and her cheeks began to heat. Looking up, she couldn't contain the jealousy that laced her next words to him.

"What happened to your blonde friend?" JJ stopped moving and looked at her, a familiar smirk rising.

"Why Kiara Carrera if I didn't know any better, I may think you were jealous." Spinning her again he let out a laugh.

"Well, it is a good thing that you DO know better, isn't it?" Her laugh filled the air, and he couldn't help but glance at her lips. Kiara's mouth went dry and she moved impossibly closer against him. JJ stilled. The look in his eye changed from the familiar playfulness to a soft almost vulnerability. Gently he moved a stray piece of hair out of her eyes. Slowly inching closer. Kiara had wanted to kiss him for along time, and it was finally going to happen. Nerves got the better of her and she broke eye contact as he was only an inch away. The moment shattered, slowly he began backing away from her.

"JJ…wait" But it was too late, he was hurrying down the beach away from her. Unsure of why she didn't give into the moment, she found herself following him.

JJ had made his way back to the Chateau, sitting with his legs hanging off the dock, staring into the dark water. Slowly making her way down the dock, plopping down next to him. They sat silently for a while, until the silence was too heavy.

"Kie…I'm sorry, I really don't know what came over me." His voice was soft, sad.

"JJ, don't apologize-"

"No, I need to, I don't know what came over me." Still refusing to meet her eyes.

"It's okay."

"No, it isn't okay. It is so uncool of me to do that. I know how you feel about me Kie, I just got caught up in the moment. I really am sorry."

"JJ, you don't know how I feel about you." Gently she put her hand on his shoulder. He stood up, casually brushing her off.

"Kie, I do. You are the most amazing girl I've ever met. You are this badass, beautiful, smart person. I mean your freaking perfect. You deserve someone perfect in return. I am never going to be anything but a cut garbage. I don't know what I was thinking, trying to kiss you, twice now." He was pacing around the dock as she spoke.

"JJ- "Cut off again, he couldn't hear what she had to say, any more rejection, not tonight.

"I am sorry Kie, we will just go back to everything being normal. I am just going to give you some space. I…I am really sorry." With that he jogged back to the house, ignoring Kiara calling after him.

Once back at the house she went to Big John's room, to find the door open. Then she heard the motorbike skidding out of the driveway. She laid onto the pull out with a huff and closed her eyes. When had life gotten so complicated?