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'Olivia...'
'No! I said I'm not leaving and I meant it.'
It was the following morning and everyone was back inside the chapel. Alex was sleeping again due to the pain medicine the Abbess had given her and Elliot and the others were trying to convince Olivia to go out into the woods with them. The brunet had become ghostly pale even under her olive skin and the dark circles under her eyes looked set to become permanent. Munch had volunteered to stay with Alex but Olivia was still refusing to go.
'Liv,' Elliot said testily, his patience already used up, 'you're not helping her by making yourself sick. You need the fresh air!' Olivia just shook her head.
'She won't even know you were gone.' Casey tried but still Olivia refused to budge.
'She doesn't want to see you!' everyone, including Olivia, turned round to stare shocked at Rafael. 'she's scared of you,' he continued shrugging his shoulders, 'she didn't want to leave the castle because she thinks you're all going to kill her and last night only proved she still thinks that.' Olivia was shaking her head and turning away but he didn't stop. 'Your friends can pussy foot around you all they want but everyone knows that if you care for her, you'll leave. Seeing you right now won't help her!'
The others held their breaths as Olivia clenched her teeth and breathed deeply, looking away from them all and back at Alex. Finally, just when Amanda had been about to speak, her shoulders slumped and everyone breathed out once again as she nodded slightly at Rafael and started walking towards the door.
'When she's calmed down Liv, that will be when she wants to see you.' Rafael said softly putting a hand on her back and following her out of the door.
It had been hours since the others had left and Munch had been napping in the midday sun when a noise startled him awake. Blinking his eyes against the light he turned in the direction of the noise to see that Alex had accidently knocked over the cup water at her side. Her expression was panicked as she looked over to see him awake.
There was a moment of silence, where they just stared, each looking as panicked as the other. 'How long have you been up?' Munch finally asked, pushing away his fear and finding a smile. He got to his feet and came to kneel beside her. He hadn't expected her to be awake this early. When he'd volunteered to stay it had been with prospect that he could nap in peace; not attempt to offer comfort. Alex said nothing. 'Are you hungry,' he continued unsure of what to do, 'you must be hungry.' Alex again said nothing. 'I'll go get you something.' He walked back off the dais ignoring Alex's silence and filled a bowl with some of the broth the Abbess had left. 'Here,' he said after walking back and presenting it to her, 'just take a sip.' Alex kept her lips resolutely closed. 'It's not poisoned I promise.' he said with a grin trying to break the tension. 'Look' he took a sip from the bowl then shoved it back under Alex's nose, whose only response was to raise her eyebrows. 'Common Alex,' he sighed, 'none of us want to hurt you. Just eat!' The panic was now gone from her eyes instead replaced by a stubbornness that let Munch know he wasn't in for an easy fight. 'I wouldn't lie to you.'
'Oh well in that case…' Alex said, the sarcasm slightly lost in the weakness of her voice.
'No I wouldn't,' Munch replied smiling again, 'Thou shalt not bear false witness.'
Alex hadn't wanted to speak, hadn't wanted Munch to know she was awake. Apart from Olivia he was the one that she knew best in the camp but she still didn't know him well. He would talk to her, as if she were actually a person, and though she never responded often it didn't stop him from making conversation. She got the feeling that he spoke whenever he didn't know what to say. She hoped that if she spoke just a little he might decide to go away and nap again.
'You believe in God? I got the impression that you were all heathens who were hiding from the church in the forest.'
'Well…. some of us might be, but not me. I was a friar remember.' He got off his knees and sat next to her chest so he was looking down into her face. He settled the bowl in his lap and tried to prepare himself for the conversation that he'd really rather not be having. He wished he'd never persuaded Olivia to go and knew he'd have to reign in his usual sarcasm. Perhaps if he just talked to her like he used to, like he talked to everyone else, and not like an invalid she would open up. 'God is everywhere. He is the Lord above all Lords and he sees everything… the sheep Alex.'
'What?' Alex had surprised herself and almost laughed- she hadn't thought she could ever smile again- and would have if it wasn't for the extremely serious look on Munch's face.
'The sheep are angels in disguise Alex.'
She looked up into his face and this time couldn't help but smile. During her time in the ravine the others had said Munch had his strange theories but this was the first time he'd ever explained one to her. 'Angel Gabriel is pretending to be sheep to spy on us?'
'No of course not!' he said appearing extremely affronted by the idea. 'It's not the important ones of course… it's the smaller angels. Why else do you think the Bible talks about the flock of God all the time…?'
'Okay...' she said nodding, choosing to just go along with the crazy idea, slightly annoyed that his 'theory' had baited her into talking. 'But that still doesn't mean you aren't lying to me, there are no sheep here.'
Munch looked around as if to check and her smile grew wider, 'No, I guess there aren't.' he said somewhat sadly. They sat and lay in silence for a time as Munch tried to think of way to gain her trust and Alex once again succumbed to the memoires and thoughts that plagued both her dreams and her waking moments.
'Do you think Olivia is a bad person?' he asked suddenly.
'No.' Alex replied quickly surprised at the question and not giving it any thought.
'Do you think anyone of us want to hurt or kill her?'
'No of course not.'
'Then why do you think we want to hurt you?'
Alex dropped her eyes, 'It's not the same.'
'Why isn't it?'
'I betrayed you… I…' Alex was angry that he was making her explain everything she had done, everything she hated thinking about.
'Why?'
'Why what? Ask an actual question!' Alex's patience, shortened by pain, was gone in a flash. She hated thinking about that day, remembering what she had done.
'Why did you betray us Alex?'
'I don't understand the question.' she said still not meeting his eyes.
'Did you hate us?'
'No.' she was angry that he could even think that.
'Did you want us to die?'
'No! Stop asking that.'
'Then why…. Why did you lead him to us?'
'I just…' Alex was panting now trying to push back the tears she felt in her eyes. Her throat was closing and she was finding it harder and harder to speak. 'I just wanted it to stop.'
Munch reached forward slowly and gently cupped the side of her face as she fought to regain control of her breathing. 'You didn't betray us Alex.' He said firmly making sure she heard every word. 'When Olivia was captured we moved camps,' she caught his eyes again looking surprised. 'Yes, we moved. Not because we thought Liv would betray us but because torture is torture. No one, not matter how good they are, can withstand it.' She lost her fight against the tears and felt them roll down her cheeks. 'No one here blames you. No one.'
They sat in silence once again as Alex's tears slowly came to a stop and Munch removed his hand from her face. 'Actually,' she said quietly after a while, looking up at him again, 'I am quite hungry.'
