It has been two weeks since he left. I found out a week ago about my illness- I have ovary cancer. It is quite bad, they say I have about a year left. Until yesterday I thought it was best that the Cullen's already had left but then I found a box of things that I thought Edward had taken when he left, it was under the floorboards. There are pictures, CD's and most importantly a letter from Edward.

My Bella, I'm sorry for leaving you the way I did. I lied. I do love you. I love you more than anything, I leave my heart with you and I hope that you will have a long, happy human life. I love you, my Bella. I'm sorry. Yours always, Edward.

I have read it over and over all night. Now I know he still loves me. Now I know I need to find him before I die. I will start today...

"Bella?" Charlie yells as he comes home from work. He walks into the kitchen and looks incredibly confused when he sees me at the kitchen table. The table is filled with articles, books and, well, anything that could help my cancer or help me find any of the Cullen's.

"What are you doing?" He asks and I smile slightly.

"Cancer articles." I explain and he smiles sadly to me but nods.

"What's for dinner?" He asks and looks into the oven.

"Harry Clearwater's fish fry." I say and he smiles widely. "It should be done in about 10 minutes." I say and he nods enthusiastically.

"I'll go and watch the game." He says and I nod. Charlie has been taking it quite well, my cancer I mean. He doesn't care much for the Cullen's anymore.

There is a lot of research about cancer, but I'm not only looking at cancer articles. I am looking at every article I could find that has almost nothing about the doctor who wrote it. I hope one of them is Carlisle… When the timer beeps I yell at Charlie to come eat and after we have eaten I get up to my room and continue my research. I don't find much. Tomorrow I am going first to the hospital to ask about any contact information to the Cullen's (I have asked once, they refused, but I didn't have cancer then so I hope they have changed their mind), then I'm going to the post office and see if they have any forwarding address, then *sigh* then I'm going to the Cullen house.

Next day:

I wake up early and then I wait for Charlie to leave before I go down. I eat a quick, healthy breakfast and then I head straight for the hospital. I am starting chemo next week and I want to get done as much as possible before that, they say I'll probably become quite weak afterwards. As I enter the reception the nurse looks pitying at me- the biggest news in Forks is that the Cullen's dumped me and I got cancer. I walk over to her and take a deep breath.

"Hi, I wonder if you have any contact information for Dr. Carlisle Cullen or any of his family. I have something important to tell him." I say and she looks even more pitying at me.

"I'm sorry honey, we don't have any and even if we did we are not allowed to give it to anyone." She says and I nod and walk out of the hospital. Well… that went as expected. Next: post office. I ask the lady and she says that they don't have any contact information either so I head straight to the Cullen's house.

As I pull in on the already overgrown driveway I feel a sense of home. This will always be my true home, even if they aren't here anymore. I park in front of the house and just sit there a few minutes. It looks so empty, so hollow like me. I get out of the car and walk up to the door and knock out of habit. There is of course no answer. I try the door and it looks. I sigh frustrated, why the hell couldn't I think about that before? I lean my head against the cold door and just stand there for a while and then I decide to try the garage door. It's locked. I look at the small glass window beside the door and then I sigh and pick up a rock. I throw it hard against the window and it shatters- wow I didn't think that would work. I pull the sleeve down over my arm and then I unlock the door from the inside and walk in. The garage is empty except for Carlisle's car Mercedes S55 AMG- I think. I look around and then I see the door into the house from the garage is open so I walk inside. This feels so wrong, breaking and entering a vampire's house, smart move. All the furniture is still there- it is just covered by clothes. I walk over to the piano and lift the cloth up to be able to see it. My Edward's piano. I sigh and correct the blanket. I search around after any clues and then I take a paper and a pen and write them a message.

Hello, it's Bella. Edward I found your letter… I'm sick, or actually, I'm dying. I have ovarian cancer and it's very bad. I have about one year to live according to the doctor's. It's two weeks after you left right now… I'll try to find you but you know it will probably be impossible. I just want you all to know I love you, I never blamed any of you for anything, and I know you all love me to- yes even you Rosalie. I hope I'll find you all in time but damn you are good at covering your tracks.

Love you, Bella.

PS: Sorry about the garage window but…. I had to get in somehow.

I write and then I walk upstairs and check the bedrooms after clues. In Alice's room I find a few magazines and a subscription letter from Tiffany's. I pick up my phone and dial the number to Tiffany's.

"Welcome to Tiffany's. I'm Heather, how may I help you?" A young woman answers.

"Hi I want to surprise my friend with a gift subscription." I say and I hear her type on her keyboard.

"Yes and your friend's name is?" She asks.

"Alice Cullen."

"Yes I found her. How long subscription would you like and do you want to send a message?"

"One year and yes I would. I would like it to say 'I miss you and I love you, I need you close right now. Call me ASAP.'" I say and she types again.

"And who is this from?"

"Isabella Swan." I say and she types again.

"An invoice will be sent to you for this subscription. Can I help you with something else?" She asks and I bite my lower lip nervously.

"Would it be possible for me to get her address?" I ask and I hear her sigh.

"I'm afraid not." She says and I sigh.

"Thank you, I understand. There was nothing else, goodbye." I say and hang up. Okay, one way of getting contact with them is done.

"Carlisle? Are you home?" Someone yells suddenly and I instantly recognize it as a vampire's voice. Shit! This wasn't a good plan. "I can hear you!" He yells and I sigh and walk down the stairs and meet the vampire in the living room. He is quite tall, he has brown hair and is quite muscular. He scrutinizes me closely and I look into his eyes and see that they are dark red. Shit, he is probably thirsty as well as a human hunter.

"Do you know where Carlisle is?" He asks politely and I smile sadly.

"I'm afraid not. I'm here to try to find him." I say and the vampire nods and walks around me slowly, looking at me as if I am something to eat- well to him I probably am. "How do you know Carlisle?" I ask and he smiles slightly.

"Old friends and I thought he lived here now, I must be misstaken. How are you connected with the Cullens?" He asks and then he leans against the couch in front of me.

"They are friends, they moved about two weeks ago."

"Ah." He says and then he sighs deeply. "Did you break in here?" He asks and I try to keep my heart from racing.

"Yes I did. It's very important I get a hold of them. Do you know where they might be?" I ask and he smiles amused.

"I'm afraid not. But if I meet them I can tell them you seek them out?" He says and I nod.

"I would appreciate that." I say and he nods to me, then he sighs.

"What's your name?"

"Bella Swan." I say and he nods again.

"Peter Whitlock, old friend of Jasper mostly." He says and I instantly flash back at the little information I know about Jasper's past. I just know it was dangerous and violent. I nod slightly to him. "Do you know the Major closely?" He asks and I look confused at him so he smiles. "Jasper." He explains and I smile a little.

"Not really, he has always been keeping his distance from me. He doesn't seem to like me very much." I say even though I knew it was because of the temptation to my blood. "Do you have any clues on where I might find them? I'm sure you are closer friends with them than I am." I change subject and he smirks as he notices my change in subject and then he sighs.

"No I can't say I have. I think I'll be looking for them in Alaska next, but who knows? They like to move around quite a lot." He says and I nod slightly and then I look at the clock and smile slightly to him.

"I hope you find them and if you do, please send them my regards. I'm sorry but I have to go, my father is expecting me home soon." I say and he nods understanding and motions for me to go. I walk towards the back door that leads out into the garage and suddenly he opens the door for me. I jerk since I didn't see him and then I look surprised at him.

"Sorry, I'm very unobservant today it seems." I say and shake my head a little as I walk out through the door. Was he trying to see if I knew about vampires? Or is he trying to play with his food? I walk towards the truck and get in with my heart in my throat, then I drive home. Bolting at every unsuspected sound. I make a stew and am done right as Charlie walks in.

"Hi dad, food is done." I say and he smiles gratefully and sits down. We eat under silence, then I get up to my room. Wonder if the vampire read my letter to the Cullen's? Will he come and kill me tonight? Will he kidnap me or something? I sit crawled up in the corner of the bed, looking intently at the window all night but some time during the night I must have fallen asleep.