Six months later: I still haven't had any success, but I'm not dead either. Chemo is hell, I can't move without feeling like puking. I constantly live in the bathroom and I still haven't got a clue on where the Cullen's are. I have been thinking about that vampire family they said where their cousins, they lived in Alaska. I want to go and see if they are there but I can't go because of my cancer and since it wouldn't be so smart to search out some vampires you don't know. My phone rings.
"Bella." I say hoarsly.
"Bella, it's Jasper. I met an old friend, Peter. I think you might have met him?" He says and I gasp.
"Oh Jasper please don't hang up." I beg desperately.
"Of course not, but Bella why are you looking for us? Peter said it seemed to be something serious?" He says and I take a deep calming breath.
"I… I-" I try to start but my voice breaks.
"Calm down Bella. What is it? You know we will help if we can." He says and I breathe out relieved.
"I need you to come back. I have cancer, I only have six months left… I found the letter Edward left about him still loving me and I want him to be here my last few months- I want you all to be here. I miss you all so much." I start sobbing and then I cover the phone as I have to puke again. When I lift the phone to my ear again, the line is completely quiet.
"Jasper are you still there?" I whisper, afraid that he is not.
"Yes I am. I need to get back to the others, call this number if anything happens. We should be back within three days." He says and I exhale relieved.
"Thank you Jasper." I whisper and I can almost feel his love through the phone.
"Don't worry so much Bella. We'll be there in no time." He says and hangs up. I stay there on the bathroom tile, just waiting for the phone to ring again.
Jasper pov:
When Peter told me about Bella I became very worried, then when she told me about her cancer… I now I need to get everyone together and back there to help her. I run back to the house in Alaska and then I gather Carlisle, Esme and Alice in the living room.
"What's so important Jasper?" Alice asks annoyed, she hasn't been her usual self since we left Forks- left Bella. Well no one really has.
"I got new about Bella." I say bluntly and they all light up at her name. "She has been looking for us. She has cancer. Six months left to live. She wants us to come back." I continue and their emotions switch between concerned, sad, caring, loving but they all end up in worrying.
"We have to get the other's home. We will leave right now. Get the others back in any way you have to." Carlisle commands quickly and I instantly pull my phone out and call Emmet, he and Rose are out on a 'honeymoon'. They instantly agree to go back to Forks, they will be there a day after us. Now it's only Edward left. When we have gathered in a car and are heading towards Forks, Carlisle calls him.
"Yes?" Edward answers annoyed.
"It's time to come home, son." Carlisle says and Edward instantly sighs deeply.
"Bella has cancer!" I yell right before the phone call ends, then the phone rings again.
"What did you say!?" He exclaims and everyone breathes a sigh of relief.
"Bella has ovarian cancer, she has six months to live. We are heading there now. She found your lette Edward. She needs you- she needs us." Carlisle explains calmly.
"I'm only three hours away from her. I have been moving subconsciously in her direction for a while. I'll run there straight away, how far out are you?" He answers and we sigh.
"A day, maybe a half if the roads are empty." Carlisle answers and then they hang up.
Bella pov:
I sit there on the cold tile, arms wrapped around my too skinny body. The chemo is taking its toll on me. Suddenly the bathroom door bursts open and my God is there, my Edward. I don't even have time to think before he holds me tightly in his arms. I wrap myself as tight around him as possible and he seems to do the same.
"I'm sorry, my love. I'll never leave you again. What can I do for you? Carlisle, Esme, JAsper and Alice will come tomorrow at the latest and Rosalie and Emmet will come the day after that." He whispers in my ear and I just breathe his scent in deeply.
"I just need you to hold me." I whisper and he instantly hugs me a little tighter.
"I'll hold you forever then." He whispers and I nod.
"I'll hold you to that." I whisper and then I finally fall asleep.
When I wake up I'm in my bed with Edward holding me tightly. I sigh contently and he kisses my cheek.
"Are the others here yet?" I ask and he shakes his head.
"They will be here in an hour. Do you want them to come here or do you want to go to my house?" He asks and I smile.
"To you." I say and he smiles and gathers me in his arms and jumps out of the house, then he walks a block before he puts me into his car and drives us home. I study him the whole time, even when he has carried me inside and we are watching the TV. He seems to be doing the same, then the door bursts open.
"Bella." They breathe at once and I smile weakly to them.
"Hi." I say and then they take turns in hugging me gently. "I love you all." I whisper and they smile to me. Jasper looks slightly nervous so I smile to him. "What is it Jasper?" I ask and he sighs.
"I'm sorry for your birthday." He says quietly and I sigh.
"I never blamed you." I say and he smiles relieved.
The four following weeks, the Cullen's stay with me. Carlisle is trying to find a cure for me but most importantly my relationship with Jasper has gotten much better. Now, Carlisle's new prognosis is that I have only two months left, today I'm planning to talk with Edward about it.
"Edward…" I start and he instantly looks worried at me. "I think it's time to change me." I state and he instantly looks incredibly sad.
"No Bella, I won't change you but as soon as you… die, I'll come right after." He says and I gasp and then I feel the tears burning in my eyes.
"You mean you'll let me die? Even when you can save me?" I ask with a thick voice.
"Don't think of it like that Bella, please. I want you to live your human life, I don't want to damn you to this existence." He says and continues talking but I tone his voice out.
"Leave." I say quietly and he looks surprised at me.
"What?" He asks and I set my jaw.
"Leave." I growl and he caresses my cheek gently but I jerk away from his hand and roll over on the other side of the bed and pull the comforter over my head with my back facing him. How can he just stand there while I'm dying? Doesn't he love me? A cold hand pries the comforter out of my hold.
"Edward, I told you to-" I start angrily then I look up to meet Jasper's eyes. "Oh hi Jasper." I say and l lay my head down again. He sighs deeply and sits down on the edge of the bed.
"Emmet and I threw him out for a few hours." He says quietly and I smile thankfully and sadly to him. "He is an asshole." He states and I chuckle and nod.
"He is stubborn, close minded and arrogant. I hate it but at the same time I love him… I just can't understand how he could stand by and watch me die." I say and he smiles sadly to me and then he sighs.
"I'm here to give you an option… if you want I can change you. Carlisle hasn't been completely honest with you. You actually only have a week left, Edward didn't want you to know since he expected you to ask him this. The others and I found out today and we have come to an agreement. Carlisle has always had the plan that when you got a week away from dying he would give you the option but the thing is that he hoped Edward would give in, but it doesn't seem like it. The thing if I change you now is that Edward might be mad, although I think he will be relieved that the decision was taken out of his hands and that you'll live. Carlisle will call Charlie and give the knews about your death tomorrow and Emmet, Rose and I will take you with us to Alaska far away from the closest humans, then the others will come after a few days. Charlie has already agreed with us arranging the funeral so we will have a closed casket so you don't have to play dead. Bella, what do you think?" He asks and I wait a moment and think it through, then I sit up and bury my face in my hands. He pulls me into his embrace gently and I sigh.
"Do it. Edward will just have to deal with it, I'm not prepared to die yet. But my I ask why you?" I say and he smiles slightly.
"I have changed many, during my time in Maria's army I helped her change humans and then I trained them. My poison seems to work faster. You'll probably only be out two days." He says and I nod understanding and then I sigh.
"Can we get it over with as quickly as possible?" I say and he smiles slightly.
"Are you sure about this Bella? I can't exactly undo it." He says and I nod.
"I'm sure-" He bites me quickly in the neck and then my wrists and ankles. Instantly my body starts burning violently, then I hear the voice of my angel. He is there, my Edward is here. He will be with me through the change.
"I… love… you…. Edward." I whisper and then I become fully engulfed by the flames.