A/N: Ohhhhh I don't think you's are ready for this..
No seriously, I don't.
Go get ya self some popcorn though 'cos shit is about to go dooownn... *slurps tea*
Big shout out to the wife and side piece, Lux and Roy, for their help with this!
The group chat was wild lemme tell you.
You both keep me sane ladies, and I just wanna say that I lov- think you're both alright.
Anyhoo, try to ignore my evil laughing in the background and enjoy!
K~
Chapter 20 - What goes around...
Crimson eyes bore into the phone screen for what seemed like forever.
Why wasn't Tala responding?
All the times before he had replied to him almost instantly and now is when he decides to be busy?
He roughly set the phone down onto the counter with a smack, keeping his palm on top of it.
He had to let go of it or he'd crush it with his bare hands.
Only he didn't and slid it off the counter to pick it straight back up again.
Maybe he should text him one more time.
No, Kai, put it down.
He slammed the phone on the granite again, a cocktail of rage, adrenaline and alcohol coursing through him, and the fact that he could see Tala had read the message was only enraging him further.
Really? He was just going to leave him on read?
Maybe it was a good thing that he wasn't responding though...
All that was running through him was a recipe for disaster on its own so throwing the redhead in the mix would only make things worse.
Like he had originally been, maybe Tala was done with whatever this was too? Gone back to his normal life and like he had been, pretending none of it had ever happened.
Maybe his wife had the kid already? If he remembered correctly she only had a few weeks to go so perhaps becoming a father again was a reminder for Tala that he had all these responsibilities and he'd realised the error of his ways and had decided to drastically change?
Yeah.
Maybe when pigs can fly.
A growl escaped him as he picked up the phone again, knowing he'd kick himself after for this, as what he was about to do just screamed desperate, but before he could talk himself out of it the phone was up to his ear and the dial tone was ringing out... and ringing.. and ringing...
'I'm sorry, the person you are calling can't answer at this time. Please try again later.'
REALLY?!
He'd only ever called him once. Two times max.
One had been to do with the yard, the other to rip him a new one when he found out he wasn't only married, but had a kid too.
So considering that track record, Kai could understand why he wasn't picking up.. But still!
Tala was the one that wanted to continue this! Gave him all that spiel in the restaurant bathroom!
He should be jumping at the chance to see him again!
Bringing the phone back down he opened the text thread and beside himself messaged again.
[Where are you?]
He furiously pounded on the touch screen and poured himself another shots worth of whiskey once he'd sent it, only to choke on the liquid a few moments later as his phone pinged in his hand.
[T: Oh. Fancy hearing from u. I'm busy. Y?]
Clearing his throat, the after burn of the alcohol still on his throat Kai frowned to his phone before quickly replying. Like hell he was busy!
[I want you to come over.]
[T: Oh? Need some hedges trimmed?] Came the slightly delayed reply.
A scoff escaped him paired with an eye roll, the agitated bounce in his leg coming to a pause whilst he typed.
[Sure. Are you free or not?]
[T: Just said I was busy. Wat u want?]
[You.]
His response was instant. Shameless almost.
He'd never cared what Tala had thought of him before so why start now? He knew what he was to him, and vice versa.
Nothing more, nothing less.
Kai paced back and forth, the rage within him only building, everything that had just transpired on his driveway replaying, over and over.
He poured himself another shots worth.
He just wanted whatever he was feeling to go away..
This hurt.
It was one thing being told Ray had fucked her in the first place.
Another him admitting that there'd been feeling behind it.
But now he was going to father a child?
Whilst Kai's coping mechanisms were far from healthy, it was the only way he knew how to deal with such anguish.
It wasn't for a good minute or two before his phone pinged again with another message, nearly making a rut in the floor, clutching to his empty glass before he came to a sudden halt.
[T: Well isn't this a nice surprise. 2 wks and you cum crawling back to me.]
He read it, that wasn't the answer he wanted and before he set his glass back down on the counter, fingers going back to mashing his screen he was hit with another message.
[T: Give me 1 good reason y I should.]
Kai's jaw clenched, his thumb hovering over the keypad for a moment entertaining the idea of playing along but he was in no mood for his usual games.
[Really Tal? What do you want me to do, beg?]
The reply came back faster than all the others this time.
[T: Yes.]
Kai huffed a laugh though wasn't finding any of this remotely amusing.
This day can just fuck right off.
Bet Ray didn't have to beg to get on top of that.
Fine though.
[Please.]
It took a few more minutes before the reply came again, whatever Tala was doing better as hell be important right now to keep him waiting like this.
[T: B there in 10.]
Kai's heart started racing even more than it already was as his eyes darted to the clock.
That gave them a few hours before Ray was due to come home - perfect.
Can get his fill and then when Tala was long gone he can tell him allllll the good news.
Though.. what was going to happen after that he wasn't sure...
[Doors open.]
[T: Not the only thing that's going 2 b open ;) ]
It had been thirteen minutes and forty six seconds when his front door was pushed open.
Not that he'd been counting or anything...
Instantly easing himself up from his seat on the couch when he caught sight of the flaming hair, Kai threw back the remainder of whatever number whiskey he was on now and chucked the glass amongst the other shattered shards of what was his coffee table in the centre of the room. Clearly not giving a fuck for anyone or anything anymore the redhead noticed.
He tensed slightly at the sound, his head snapping to catch a mere glimpse of the scene of chaos in the living room, throwing over a look confusion before hesitantly closing the front door behind him.
What the actual fuck has he just walked into?
Before he could even try and put two and two together or even think about high tailing it back out of there the man of the house was with him in the hall and spouting out demands.
"Upstairs, now." Kai ordered with a slack point to the steps opposite.
Red brows furrowed again as he looked him up and down, wondering who the hell he thought he was talking to and took a step back as his alcohol infused breath assaulted him.
"Ever heard of a breath mint, or a please? What, no kiss and 'welcome home darling'?"
"Don't fucking start with me." Kai sent with an exasperated sigh, not even caring for the bite in Tala's tone. "You know why you're here so cut the shit. Go."
Tilting his head to the stairs again the redhead just sent him another look.
"How drunk are you?" He seemed to tut, wasn't even three in the afternoon yet and he was shit faced. "What happened, Kai?"
He received a dark laugh in response and watched as a palm came up to the others forehead before sliding down his face.
"Do not. Pretend to care Tala. Seriously." Kai bit before pushing past him and stepping up on to the first step. "I don't need some shoulder to cry on, I need you to get up these stairs and just fuck me, k? That's it. Plain and simple. Now I suggest you follow me."
Blue eyes rolled before he lunged after him to grab his wrist, stopping his start on storming up to the bedroom.
"Woahhh woah alright, okay, but come on now... I'm into a little craziness Kai but this is no way to get me hard." He reeled off, huffing a laugh and having another slightly nervous glance to the living room. "Clearly some shit's happened here so spill. You after the whole angry sex thing or something?"
"Sure, let's go with that." Kai dully replied pulling his wrist from out of his grip and leaving him with no time to object further as he started on his ascend of the stairs.
A sigh escaped him as he watched him go, the view of his ass not enough to stop him taking a good look at the broken furniture and glass all over the floor in the room adjacent.
Least he was the one driving, he shuddered to think what kind of damage Kai would do to himself in his state right now.
Slowly he followed up after him, treading almost carefully to the familiar bedroom and shut the door behind him.
Sure, he didn't care, but after two weeks of being ghosted he deserved something..
Kai reached for the hem of his own shirt and pulled it off over his head, dropping it carelessly on the floor before setting himself down on the bed to watch Tala enter and take in his surroundings the same way he'd done before; Blue eyes taking in the display of skin though his usual smirk never appeared.
Where was the chase?
He liked the chase...
"Soo care to share with the class now? Is there a particular reason why you're so eager?"
Kai rolled his eyes, letting his head fall back as he groaned out in frustration.
"Oh my goddd, why are you fucking questioning it?! You wanted to do this did you not? So here we are!"
Tala shrugged his shoulders, unfazed by the increased volume as he licked the front of his teeth, "Been two weeks. Figured you were living it up with the cat, so what gives now? Where is he?" He asked, stepping more into the room and pulling off his own shirt as he went.
Kai watched him, staring up as he leant back on his elbows and exhaled a sigh through his nose.
"Just drop it. Does it matter? Are you really complaining right now?"
Every time Tala had tried to get in his pants previously he'd played hard to get, trying to convince himself he was a decent person. Whatever little morals he still possessed momentarily getting in the way before allowing it all to happen anyway.
But now, when he was practically offering it on a plate, he questions it?
"Uh... Yeah?" Tala mocked back, "Two weeks Kai. Sure, we're not in love or anything sappy like that, but you didn't even call to say hi... Hurt my feelings..." He fake pouted and stopped near the edge of the bed, taking in the sight before him and put his hands to his hips.
Kai sat himself up, hands immediately going to touch him as he stood close enough, holding either side of him and caressing his skin as he placed kisses on his bare stomach.
"Well let me make it up to you.." He purred between kisses, skin erupting in goosebumps when Tala's hand raked through his hair.
"I get it, you want your itch scratched Kai and clearly I'm the only one who can..." He'd adopted the same alluring tone before tightening his grip on slate locks and shoving him off of him back onto the bed.
"..But I want to know why."
Kai let out a noise as his back abruptly connected with the sheets. Sending Tala a look as he clicked his tongue, easing himself back up onto his elbows.
Why couldn't people just drop shit when he asked?!
"Just had a bad day alright? Fuck, you missed me that much or something?" He redirected. "Is your life that dull?"
"Oh, far from it." Tala waved off his comment, sighing through his nose as he realized he wasn't going to get what he wanted in an answer and figured he'd just get to what he came here for.
Holding Kai's eyes with his, he stepped closer, edging between his legs as his hands moved to his zipper and button, slowly pulling it down and set himself free.
A mischievous glint appeared in his eyes, paired with a faint smirk as Kai watched the zipper come undone.
This was more like it..
"Well then," The redhead continued in a seductive tone, hand slowly working himself to get hard and ready, "Without a proper answer on why you decided to kick me to the curb, I guess all you can do is come here and make it up to me..."
Pushing himself back up off the sheets again Kai obliged, reaching across, grabbing at Tala's hips and roughly pulled both his jeans and boxers lower down his thighs.
Taking a glance back up to meet hungry blue eyes he licked his lips before responding in the same manner.
"I'll see what I can do..."
Brushing Tala's hand off himself, he replaced it with his own firm grip and started to work him slowly, feeling the muscle twitch and become solid almost instantly with his touch.
Tala licked his lips as he looked down to him, his free hand now back to running through slate hair before reaching to the darker strands on the back of Kai's head, inching himself closer to his goal.
Taking the not so subtle hint, Kai's lips parted as the tip of his cock inched closer to him, slipping out his tongue he circled around it before easing down, taking another glance up to lock with the icy orbs he hated to love so much.
Tala let out a deep growl, hands closing to a fist in his dark hair as the warm, wet mouth worked him.
"Mmm.. good boy.." He purred as he pushed his head a little to guide how he wanted it.
He'd never admit to it but he had missed the miserable prick in some twisted sort of way. He knew how to scratch his itch and vice versa.
Why else would he have practically asked 'how high' when Kai had text him to jump?
Truth be told seeing his name appear on his screen made him feel like a giddy teenager. Excitement swirling through him over the fact he had messaged him first.
He pushed on his head harder to pick up the pace, both wanting to let his eyes screw shut while at the same time not wanting to miss the visual feast for a second.
Soaking up the praise from him Kai continued sucking him towards heaven, easing further and further down his shaft with every bob of his head.
At the firm possessive grip in his hair he let out a throaty moan that vibrated up Tala's length causing a shiver up his spine and Kai's own pants to feel a size too small now.
Deeming that enough of warm up for him he pulled himself back, releasing the cock from his mouth with a pop, a mixed trail of saliva and pre-cum still connecting them.
"Pretty sure I'm the one that's had the shit day here.." He dully said wiping his mouth with the back of his hand. "Or what, did you think I ordered you here just for your own pleasure?"
Tala panted a little as his smirk came back, his fair hand connecting with the others bare chest and pushing his back onto the sheets.
Kicking off his pants and underwear completely before he pounced, he grabbed the top of Kai's pants and yanked at them roughly. Wrestling them off along with his boxers and tossing them aside.
With him now stripped and just how he liked him, he dropped to his knees, pushing his legs back and spreading them.
"Let's not forget I give the orders here.." He growled as he smacked the side of his ass, running his tongue up his length, "And I'm pretty sure you know what happens when you sass me."
Kai bit back his own smirk as he lay there, shivering slightly as his tongue finally made contact with his, up to press, rudely ignored cock.
He was more than aware of all of Tala's moves by now. More than familiar with his arrogant spiel. Though, like a child, he'd be lying if he said he didn't mind re-watching this same movie, over and over.
"Hmm.. might have to remind me?"
Tala huffed a laugh, withdrawing the little tongue that was touching him.
Very well.. Bad boys didn't get treats.
He brought himself up, his large, strong hands gripping Kai's hips and using the mattress to bounce him, manhandling him hard enough to flip him. He roughly pulled his hips up to bring him on to his knees and shoved his face down in to the bed before leaving him to get the lube.
"Now you stay right there.."
Kai's gut knotted with excitement as he lifted his head back up from the bed sheets to watch Tala saunter over to the stash drawer. Doing exactly as he'd been told he stayed put on his knees, his ass up in the air as his eyes followed him around the room.
"Yes sir.."
Tala turned around and frowned.
"That means head down." He snapped sternly.
Crimson eyes rolled in response before silently obeying and resting his head back down into the covers, though kept peeking up every so often to catch a cheeky glimpse of him.
Tala meandered back slowly, admiring the view and running a long finger gently down the line of his spine as he made his way back down to the business end.
He grinned as he saw the goosebumps raise and the muscles beneath his pale skin twitch. He was going to make him beg 'til his cock was purple. Teach him a lesson..
He leisurely lowered himself down, giving the fleshy part of his round ass a rough and sharp smack, just cause he was being a dick.
Kai gasped out as the palm made contact with his skin, it reddening instantly.
"Stop teasing.." He growled as he sent a glare to him over his shoulder.
Tala narrowed his eyes, face hardening as he threw another one in almost the same spot.
"Head down!"
Kai hissed, sending him another look before setting his head back down.
"Prick.." he mumbled into the cotton sheets.
He was starting to think twice about inviting him over now..
"Ahh you love it.. that's why you keep wanting more, don't you babe?" He said teasingly as he spread him wide enough to let his tongue lap just as teasing while his hand gently reached between his legs an stroked.
Where was the lie though?
As much as Tala pissed him off, (and he really pissed him off), found none of his jokes even remotely funny, and thought he was a complete dickhead, he did, he kept on going back for more.
His snake like hands knowing exactly what to do and where to go.
He'd been the first one to cross his mind the moment he'd slammed the door in Mariah's face knowing it was only he that could even begin to make him feel better.
And with his hands gripped around and working him he had no regrets.
A muffled moan escaped into the sheets and the redhead's cock twitched at the sound.
That was better...
He continued to keep a loose and gentle hold, running the pad of his thumb over the tip while his own tongue kept working.
Kai was desperate for more, but didn't dare lift his head up for fear of another swift smack on the same reddened area of his ass.
Writhing under his touch he lurched his hips forward, gagging for more contact from the wolf's hand.
Feeling him try and get more friction, Tala pulled his hand away completely, hearing a slight whimper at the loss of contact but he'd told him...
He made the rules.. he called the shots..
With a click, the cap of the lube popped open, coating his fingers he gently slipped one inside him, feeling the other tense up immediately at the intrusion before relaxing.
Finally they were getting down to business.
Another moan slipped out of him as Kai pushed back onto his finger, taking it down to his knuckle.
"Ooooh you want it bad huh?" Tala panted feeling himself riling.
He lived for reducing him to this.
Making such a tall man buckle in need for him.
"Mhmm.." Kai hummed out as he nodded as best he could with his head down. "Please.." he added in a shameless breath, lifting up just high enough to have his words heard.
Tala bit his lip and slipped in another finger, getting him good and ready while wanting him to beg for more.
"Ah fuck.." Came the moan as Kai relaxed, getting used to the feeling quickly. "Come on Tal.." He pleaded, rocking his hips back.
At hearing his name coming out like it did and his hips move to fuck himself on his fingers, even he'd had enough of the games.
He eased out his fingers, dribbling lube over himself to get it good and greased before he placed his tip at his desperate hole, taking hold of his hips as he quickly eased himself in.
Once he was buried, his hips went relentlessly. Desperate to hear him again.
With a stupid grin on Ray's face, he pulled up in to the drive to his home. Not taking in the car that was parked on the side of the road out front, too excited to really care what was really around him to pay attention right now.
It'd been a while since he felt this way coming home, and rightfully so, but there was an extra dash of it running through his veins.
He was home early! As a surprise.
Sure, lying and feigning sickness just so he could was bad, but it wasn't completely a lie.
His ass was still sore, legs still a little weak from being in the air (even if it had been a few hours since the last time they were up there and going numb.) Oh, and the hickeys between his thighs kept rubbing on his pant legs, so that hurt every time he walked.
But it was fine, he was home now and ready to do it all over again. This time with no distractions of work or therapy sessions.
They had each other all to themselves till they tired or broke the bed, whichever came first..
Meanwhile Kai was already in bliss.
His shameless moans continuing to tear through his throat so loud neither he nor Tala heard the key get turned in the front door.
"Fuuck yes.." he praised as he threw his hips back to meet and smack with the redhead's.
This is what he wanted, what he needed.
Drink and fuck the pain away.
It had worked fine for him before.
Before Ray. Before any of this.
With a slight bounce in his step, stupid smile plastered on his face, it all drained the second Ray got the front door opened and took in the damage to his living room.
His heart kicked up fast in his chest at the glass scattered all over the floor, the coffee table broken and shattered in lumps of wood and glass.
What the hell happened in here?! It looked like a tornado had whirled through. Or worse, they'd been robbed.
His heart leapt in his throat as the idea planted itself in his head, worry coursing through him at where Kai might be and if he was hurt. Or worse.
Only for those thoughts to get washed and drained out of him as his ears perked at a noise coming from up the stairs. Not only did his heart continue to race to the point it was painful, his face drained of any color and he swallowed the bile he felt rising up.
Carefully, as if he wasn't sure this was what he wanted to do right now, he unsteadily made his way up the stairs. Having to grip and hold the railing as his knees threatened to buckle out from under his weight.
Every step up closer to the top, the noises getting louder but at the same time seeming to drown out around him like his head was stuck in a bucket of water, he finally made it to the top and to his closed bedroom door.
He was shaking, hard, fighting down the bile best he could as his stomach tightened and twisted in knots. The moans of ecstasy raging behind the door, followed by the sound of the headboard smacking into the wall.
This had to be a dream, a sick, sick twisted dream.
With a small sweat on his skin he grabbed at the door handle, still trembling uncontrollably and shoved his way in.
Eyes wide and getting a thick film of tears in them as his mouth didn't know what to do, that bile he kept fighting down near enough shooting out of him as he stood there and watched Kai getting it rammed up his ass and howling like he couldn't get enough of it.
Seeing the door open in his peripheral vision, Kai's half lidded eyes shot wide open and his head snapped towards it so fast it almost hurt.
"R-RAY?!"
Whilst the whole point of this was to get back at him, was his twisted idea of some sort of revenge, he'd never have wanted him to have front row seats to it. Would never have wanted him to witness first hand what he was capable of doing to a person.
Like flicking off a switch, Tala had stopped mid thrust, heart and erection vanishing completely as he too snapped his gaze, open mouthed to the other male.
Ooooooh shit...
Immediately Kai launched himself forward, grabbing at the bed sheets to cover himself, trying to regain some of his dignity that he had royally lost just now whilst Tala stood at the edge of the bed, covering his wilting self with his hands.
He should probably just keep his mouth shut...
Ray's eyes darted to the familiar redhead, Trevor or Travis, who the fuck cared about his name right now and then to Kai and back again a few times like a ping-pong ball.
This hurt, in more ways than one. He wanted to throw his fist into something, wanted to crumble to his knees and cry and puke on top of screaming till his lungs were sore.
By some miracle he kept standing though, just looking like he was taking a screen shot of it all before he finally snapped to.
"Oh no, don't stop on my fucking account or anything, wouldn't want to ruin this!" He spat, gesturing out at the two of them while trying to hide his body shaking harder.
He wanted to wake up, wanted it something desperately, but had a feeling this was reality with no way of doing so.
Tala took a glance over to Kai who looked even more paler than usual before shifting where he stood. Taking a swift peek down at himself to ensure his goods were well and truly covered behind his hands.
"Bit late for that to be honest.."
Ray felt his eye twitch as his vision constricted, the sick feeling had being replaced by the burning anger that had been mixed in there.
He was going to rip his dick off and shove it in a grinder!
"Oh?!" He spat again sarcastically, this time shaking from the pent up rage as his claws dug into the palms of his hands.
"My sincerest apologies then!" His voice strained, never having yelled like that before in his life.
Kai's stomach twisted and his whole body noticeable tensed up once the sound had made it to his ears. He'd never heard Ray's voice reach such notes, crack with such pain, never even during all of their arguments prior to this. Never knew he possessed such rage... and he'd caused it..
Tala internally hit himself. So much for keeping his mouth shut.
"I should.. probably just leave you guys to it..." he said in a small voice as he scanned the bedroom floor for his pants.
Kai sent a look to him, still clutching at the bed sheets, before crimson eyes dared to look over at gold.
A whole mix of emotions polluting his insides though he didn't have a single word for him right now.
He just stared blankly at him. Knew an apology was sat on his tongue, but then, was he sorry?
If he hadn't have got the stupid bitch pregnant they wouldn't be in the predicament they were now.
So whatever pain he was feeling.. Ray had brought it upon himself..
A low feral sounding growl rumbled through Ray's chest, stepping away from the door as he watched Taylor pick up his clothes off his bedroom floor, in his house!
He told himself to bite his tongue, but that anger seeping through his pores made his mouth open again.
"Wonder what your wife thinks of you screwing someone else behind her back." He hissed out with another growl.
Tala let out a small chuckle.
"Well, probably the same thing Kai thought when he found out about you and the pink haired chick you went to China for." He smugly clapped back without hesitation.
He had no right to be throwing sass right now, but he and Bianca it would seem were the least of this guy's worries..
Kai shifted as he silently looked between the two of them, visions of a throw down fixing to happen in his bedroom and not the kind he'd want to join in with.
And he thought the double date was awkward.. wooow this was nothing compared to that.
He'd do that date ten times over if it meant he could erase all this now.
"Excuse me?" Ray asked as his brow twitched more furiously, his pupils disappearing in the color of his eyes they got so thin.
They shot towards Kai, stupid and silent on the bed as his fingers itched to him more than Todd at the moment.
He talked about that, with this fucking prick?!
"You have five seconds to get the FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE!" His already strained voice screamed and strained more.
Pulling up his zipper and casually shoving his shirt over his head another chuckle escaped the redhead.
"Didn't no one ever tell you that people in glass houses shouldn't throw stones?"
Whilst Tala's face was laced with false innocence, his tone was dripping in arrogance as he sauntered passed him heading for the bedroom door, daring to continue taunting as he did. "We ain't all that different kid, so don't even try it with the guilt trip."
Kai swallowed to relieve his dried up throat as he apprehensively watched the other two stare each other down.
"Just do as he says Tala.." He warned. "Go.."
Tala huffed another laugh, keeping icy blue locked with dulled amber.
"Yeah yeah I'm going... Have fun figuring out whatever the fuck this is." He scoffed gesturing between the two of them before opening up the bedroom door.
"You've got my number." He cheekily added with a click of his tongue before leaving, the sound of the front door opening and closing several seconds later.
The sound of the front door closing was just another dull and drowned out noise that still somehow rang in his ears, before Ray felt a sudden punch to the gut.
Tala...
That was his name... That was the same broken off noise Kai had made their night home from the restaurant.
A hand clapped up over his mouth, trying to breathe through it all again now that he didn't have to stand strong in front of Tala.
His feet took him back until he was pressed up against the wall of the bedroom, hand still over his mouth as his eyes welled up harder.
Kai still didn't have the words for him, yet had a whole lot to say at the same time.
So many questions... A lot of explanations, and a bucket full of colourful language.
Considering that Mariah had come here so desperate to speak to him he could only assume that Ray had no clue at all. Or maybe he did and it was all just some fucked up plan for him to find out about the two of them..
No he wasn't thinking straight.. though couldn't blame any of it on the alcohol now as the second that bedroom door had opened he'd sobered up instantly.
Was it nerves? Lord knows he was riddled with them right now, and he knew he didn't find any of this funny, but a small laugh dared to escape his throat.
He could understand why Ray was fixing to cry right now, but surely the only one who should be feeling broken inside was him.
The laugh that rolled out of Kai dried his barely falling tears, hand coming away from his mouth as he once more just stared at him in silence.
This had to be a sick twisted and royally fucked up dream now, it had to be... He wished it was.
Or, this was just Kai's way of punishing him for his transgressions. And then getting a good kick out of it after practically kicking him in the nuts.
"This is funny, is it?" His voice dipped out eerily, a headache beginning to settle in the side of his head.
Though currently he wasn't sure if was from the events, the constant backwards and forwards of emotions running rampant inside him, or that his eyes were straining from being slit for as long as they were now.
Either way, it didn't help any of those things as he kept himself against the wall for support and stared down his lover still sat on the bed.
"What. The. FUCK, KAI?!" He screamed, releasing some of his pent up anger out on the wall behind him as his fist came back and slammed into it.
The remains of the others faint smile diminished as if all that had just happened had been drip feeding into him and it had just slowly sunk in that this was in fact his reality.
Maybe he was losing his fucking mind, maybe that's what that laugh was because he knew it had no reason to have emitted from him at a moment like this.
Kai just sent him a shrug, his eyes glazing over as he stared down at the sheets in front of him.
"I.." He sighed out the rest of his breath, before looking up to him and shrugging again.
What did he want him to say?
Welcome home? Surprise?
He'd been caught red handed, an apology wasn't exactly going to cut it.
Oh, I'm sorry you had to witness another man balls deep in your boyfriend but hey at least I didn't knock someone up?
Would that cut it? He thought not..
"I don't know what to tell you." He plainly sent him.
Ray's stomach curled, his fist going back into the wall behind him with a sickening crack that was more than likely a bone popping instead of paint chipping.
"How long?!" It was good enough place to start as any, not that it would matter in the grand scheme of things.
Like he'd read his mind Kai just sent him a dull look.
"Does it matter?"
Ray's bottom lip quivered, his body shaking again as he couldn't hold back his tears anymore.
No, and yes. It was hard to really explain it. But he wanted answers, even if they'd just hurt him worse.
"Back at the restaurant..." He started, voice scratchy from screaming and yelling so much.
"You weren't outside... You were with-with him..." He choked out.
Even if he hadn't seen it, it was like he could now. And he wished he didn't.
Kai's gaze lowered.
Whilst a part of him had no regard for Ray's feelings right now, the other still wanted to protect him with his life.
Ray wasn't stupid though, and having seen that just now, it was only a matter of time before everything else would click in to place. Every piece of this fucked up puzzle slowly being completed as he worked it all out.
Kai ran his tongue over his teeth then pressed his lips together.
Was no point even lying now at this point. He'd already lost him in his eyes so may as well just be transparent. Like he'd been with Dr Lange earlier, give him complete honesty.
"Yeah.. I was.."
Like he knew it would, despite wanting to hear it and have it confirmed, Ray lost his breath for a second as another punch to the gut shot right through him.
He couldn't hold it in anymore, running to the trash can by the door and hurled.
Spitting and sputtering, his eyes burning as everything came out in a gush, he felt more winded once it calmed, though couldn't find it in himself to stand anymore.
Pushing the can away from him, but not out of reach in case he needed it, he slumped to the floor and put his fingers through his hair tightly.
"Why...?" He heaved in a breath, shaking his head as his claws dug into his scalp before looking back up at the bed.
"WHY?!"
Kai's own eyes started to water.
What was left of his own broken heart shattering further at seeing him like this, but he wasn't the only one hurting here.
"Really? Do you really have to ask Ray? After everything, you really have to fucking ask why?!"
Like a fire had been lit under his own ass Kai's voice started to soar, building in volume and gaining bite.
That dark part of him taking over, loving the pain exuding from the other on the floor, and he still had another card to play.
Still had that ace up his sleeve that would just be yet more fuel on this raging fire.
Though he didn't even know how to tell him.
Didn't even know how to bring it up.
The news just sitting on the tip of his tongue, just waiting for the right moment to snap.
"One time Kai! One time for me while you've been doing this behind my back constantly!" Ray argued back with his slowly dying voice.
"And with a man who is married with two kids no less! You want to throw stones here? Really?!"
The same rage that ran through him earlier was beginning to flare back up again not appreciating where Ray was trying to go with this.
He wants to talk about stones? He had a fucking boulder for this guy.
"Like that fucking matters Ray!" Kai spat referring to Tala's personal home life.
Whilst it hadn't sat right with him the moment he'd found out himself it still hadn't stopped him. Hadn't stopped either of them from doing what they did because simply neither of them thought about it.
When they were deep in their dirty episodes Tala wasn't husband, father of two, he was that young and wild rogue that no one would ever take home to meet their parents, only the bedroom and he was fine with that.
Kai too wasn't the hard faced big successful boss man in control of everything and settled with partner and long time friend.
No.
He was back to that free bird that did whatever he wanted, whenever he wanted and with whoever he wanted.
No control, no responsibilities.
Their real lives never came in to it because it was their real lives they were trying to escape from.
During that hour of no inhibitions the two had literally swapped roles.
Kai relinquished his dominance whereas Tala gained it.
The two of them being so wrong for each other yet so right in another life.
"Oh I'm sorry, so your one time just gets erased does it? Doesn't matter? Makes perfect sense! Let's all just pin this whole fucking thing on Kai because sweet and innocent little Ray only did it the once! Is that how it is?! Huh?!"
Yes, he'd done some fucked up shit.
Yes he continues to do fucked up shit.
But why was he always the bad guy?
Regardless of what Lange had said, this whole thing really was getting put on his shoulders. He was getting the blame for everything. He was being considered the cause of this mess. Not Ray.
Not precious fucking Ray.
So what that he fucked his childhood sweetheart whom he still had feelings for AND GOT PREGNANT.
Kai was the only bad guy here!
"Don't try fucking pin this on me Ray. YOU DO NOT GET TO PIN THIS ON ME!" He screamed back at him pointing his finger to his bare chest. Everything that had ever been bottled up inside of him spewing between these four walls now.
He will not get the blame for simply reacting to Ray's bullshit!
"At least I can call mine a mistake! Yours was a choice!" Ray spat back, "What, didn't get enough this morning so thought 'hey, why not?' After everything we have been doing to try and fix this! What more do you want from me?!
"I apologized, profusely for it, if I could I'd take it back! But no! That wasn't good enough for you! Had to go and shove it in my face like this instead of just being normal and kicking me out instead." He took a breath, though it did neither calm him or give him any decent air in his burning lungs.
"No, that would have been the easy way. Why not just drive in a knife, really get him good and right. Where. It. Fucking hurts!" He spat again, sarcasm dripping out of him completely as he was close to snapping something.
"This what you wanted?! Revenge, pay back? Any more punishments you have lined up and ready to go for me here?!"
Kai's lip wobbled at the relentless onslaught of words, his ears well and truly ringing now.
Ignoring the lone tear that had just trickled down his fair cheek, he was raging.
"Was it a mistake though Ray? Was it? Because the huge, big fucking difference here is that I don't actually give a shit about that guy." He sneered, gesturing outwards.
"Whereas you!" He let out a dark laugh. "Oh, what was it you said? 'I'll always have feelings for her.''" He mocked in a voice that sounded nothing like the male standing opposite, looking far from amused.
"So humour me and tell me how the fuck it was a mistake Ray when it was probably everything you fucking wanted and had been wanting again for a while!?"
It was then Kai's lip curled into a twisted smirk as his last sentence seemed to linger with him for a moment.
What he'd been wanting for a while..
Wasn't the only thing he'd been wanting.. maybe now was the time to let him know he was getting it.
"I didn't want it!" Ray cried back.
After having gone and pushed the memory as far down as he could, it suddenly sprung forth like a giant tidal wave and smacked into him.
"Not at first! I tried to stop it, all of it." He shook his head, legs curling up to his chest as he grabbed his hair again.
What would it matter now to try and plead his case, continue to keep begging for forgiveness.
He couldn't take it back, and it haunted him to this day what he'd done.
But the truth was, he had tried to push her away. Before, during, and only succeeded once the sin had already been committed.
Why? He didn't love her, he loved Kai. Even told her that and then she turned around and poisoned his thoughts again.
"And if he loved you, you wouldn't be here." She had said, and at that time he had agreed.
If Kai loved him he wouldn't have been there to start with, and not certainly where they currently were now.
Maybe they just didn't love each other as much as they thought they did anymore.
Kai huffed another laugh.
Like he hadn't heard this bullshit before.
"Well maybe you should have tried a little harder in stopping it because that alleged 'mistake..'" He signed with his fingers, "Is going to now haunt you for the rest of your fucking life.."
Kai's tone was dark now, easing himself up out of the sheets, he snatched at his clothes and started to dress himself having it in mind that as soon as he drops this bomb he'd be the first one out of here.
"Question." He started again, pulling on his jeans. "Did a particular someone happen to visit you at work yesterday?"
Ray's blood ran cold, heavy head lifting only to nod slowly.
"And I kicked her away, slammed the door in her face."
"Ah.. well you see that's the funny thing with mangy cats, if they're turned away they just show up some place else.."
Pulling his shirt over his head Kai then sat himself down on the edge of the bed and looked down at the other on the floor.
".. Like here."
Ray just stared at him, waiting for the rest while dreading it at the same time.
Why?! Why didn't she just get the fucking hint and leave him be?!
For some reason he couldn't even ask Kai why she'd shown up, part of him not wanting to know while the other screaming in his head for Kai to just hurry up.
None of this was going to end well, he knew that, but he could hardly prepare himself for it right now.
Seeing the expression on his face Kai's own remained deadpan, again, one half relishing the pain this was going to bring him, the other reluctant to send him the words and he knew the moment they were uttered, there'd be no coming back from this.
"She's pregnant."
Ray continued to stare, the words fizzing in and out of his hearing as they settled into his head before he slowly shook it.
That wasn't... It couldn't... No...
"No... No..." He continued to shake his head, claws again digging into his hair.
"No! She said she was on birth control!" He snapped at no one in particular, that giant tidal wave coming back and smacking into him.
Sure, birth control failed. But had it just been a lie? It wasn't like he asked her to prove it to him.
Then there was the issue of him trying to get her off before the end, and she had him pinned and continued to keep going before it was too late.
His heart stopped momentarily as his tear stained face paled.
It had been a trap... All along...
Kai just sent him a look.
"Oh? You had a decent enough conversation beforehand then? Most thought out mistake in history this one Ray." His words sagged with sarcasm.
Ray shook his head again, "That's not what happened..." But why waste his words anymore?
Kai got his revenge. He dug himself a grave that he couldn't get out of. What more was there left to do here?
"I saw in literal black and white Ray what happened.. The evidence of what happened shoved in my damn face before she then skipped back down the fucking driveway!"
It was then Kai's voice cracked on him, crimson glistening further and his lower lip wobbled, Ray catching sight of it before he'd quickly turned his face away from him.
"You always did want kids so, congratulations, now you have one..."
Ray shook his head again, it about the only thing he could do right now as his world tilted upside down and spun.
What had he done?!
He couldn't even form words right now, his head feeling like it was filled with static where he sat and felt sick to his stomach all over again.
He couldn't even apologize again, what would be the point? It didn't matter how sorry he was, wouldn't matter how many times he got down on his knees and begged, at this point he didn't even deserve a sliver of Kai's forgiveness.
It didn't take away the sting for what he'd just learned, nor did it justify it any either, but how could he keep fighting with him now?
They were one for... However many on Kai's side.
He weakly lifted his head, silent tears streaming down as he locked eyes with him.
"When did it start?" That was all he wanted to know, why he still didn't know but wanted to hear it. Hammer in the last nail in the coffin.
Kai broke his gaze off from him as he thought.
When did it start?
Debatable..
Whereas some considered flirtatious messages an affair, some didn't consider it one until things became physical.
Tala had been fixing for it since he'd first sent over payment for his work in the yard. The two of them texted back and forth most of the night whilst Ray was out living it up with her.
So if it was then... Hell, almost two months ago?
Nah. It had been harmless then. He'd just brushed him off, genuinely.
Sure he might have gawked at his picture a little too long, but he was only human.
There was the night at the club when he'd met up with the team...
Again debatable.
He couldn't remember shit.. Had things gotten physical then?
He was trashed...
There was an instance he was sure about though... that was the only truthful answer he could give him and he was sure this was going to sting the most.
".. the night I dropped you off at the airport.."
Ray winced a little once Kai finally spoke, taking in a heavier breath as he eased himself up on his unsteady feet.
So then what? First time wasn't revenge, and Kai said he didn't care about Tala, so then why? Why start it at all?
Did he even want to know? What would the point in knowing do anyways?
His head was too cloudy to care either way, hand itching to lift and smack as hard as he could as he stood in front of him as his tears continued to roll down his face, though pulled back before he could.
It wasn't worth it. None of this was.
Even with the hurt and sting at Kai's admission that he'd gone and stepped out of line first, he did his best to hold himself up higher than he thought possible.
"I'll get my stuff tomorrow when you're at work." Was all he said, damning how scratchy his voice box still was but wasn't all that surprised with how much he'd been screaming.
Kai took a glance up to him once Ray had rose to his feet before quickly looking away from him again.
Well that was it. He'd admitted it.
Finally confessed it all to him though he didn't feel like any form of weight had been lifted off his shoulders.
He still felt pinned down. Swamped with guilt, anger, pain..
Even though he was feeling so much he still felt empty. Numb almost.
He just nodded to him. He had nothing else to say to him..
There was nothing else to say.
They were done. Over.
Finished.