Harry was drifting off to sleep when Dumbledore and Remus arrived.
Remus quickly made his way over to Sirius and Lily but he stopped when Sirius' wand rose."what do we call you and why?"Sirius said holding Lily's waist tighter.
"Mooney,because I have a furry little problem"
he chuckled at his own joke,the joke that qas actually James' way of saying that Remus was werewolf in public,but instead of smiles he saw that both Lily and Sirius' faces paled. "Where is James by the way?"
Harry,who was half asleep,half awake,woke up and said"dada?" and looked around thinking James was he didn't see James he closed his eyes again. Lily was shivering so much that Sirius took Harry from her,rocking him softly so he would go back to sleep. Remus was suprised to see Lily shivering and said:
"Lily!If you're cold why don't you wear a coat? Is everything alright?"
Lily's shivers turned out to be sobs she was holding in. Tears fell down her face"He was..."she started crying and decided that she needed her son to calm down so she took Harry from Sirius and kissed him. Then she let her head rest on Sirius' chest, probably looking for comfrot, and she felt comfrot and ease wash over her body as she heard his heartbeat. It was like she needed to know that at least Sirius hadn't left her,that he was still there,with regained her composure and continued:
"He was here,Voldemort I mean."
She wanted to continue but she saw that Remus pushed her aside,held Sirius by the collar of his shirt,put his wand on his face and said "How could you sirius?you played all of us for 11 years. How could you sell them to..."
That was when Lily who had given Harry to Dumbledore broke them apart and stood in front sirius who was panting and said "Remus he didn't sell us."
"He was your secret keeper. There is no other way. Who else could have done it?"
"No,Remus,he wasn't. We changed it to Peter. We were going to bluff Voldemort. We didn't think he would take Peter as one of his death eaters. We thought we could trust apparently we couldn't. He sold us to him,remus. Peter was the rat spying in the Order and sending information to him. Peter sold us not sirius."
Remus who was breathing heavily shot Sirius an apologetic look and recived a sad smile which made him wonder how were they alive if Voldemort was there. "Then how are alive if he was here,not that I'm ungrateful. I'm just wondering." He asked "And how did Harry get this curious cut on his forehead?"Asked Dumbledore calmly Lily had a feeling that Dumbledore already knew what had happened to James and that's why he asked about Harry. She also knew that Remus knows that James is gone and he was asking because he was just hoping what he thought was not true.
"James is... he is... oh god"she started crying again,tears wetting her face.
"James is gone, ."said Sirius coldly.
"WHATTTTTTTT?"
"Be quite...at this rate...you'll wake...Harry" Lily said"professor... how about we... go to hagwarts ...and use your pensive... I can't ...say 's... too much."She said in between her sobs.
Dumbledore gave a sleeping Harry to Sirius and said"I can bring it here but go inside. It's dangerous out here."And with that he disapperated.
They all went in. Sirius said that he was going to put Harry in his crib but Lily insisted on Harry sleeping on the couch where she could see him.
"You should go see him Sirius."she said as the tears were covering her face."Remus is and Harry will be fine."
Sirius went upstairs. Remus already knew the awnser but he just had to be sure. "He is upstairs? By he you mean James' body?"
Lily only nodded. Somehow her tears were still coming. It was like they were never going to felt his reality turned upside down. He couldn't belive it. James Potter was dead. Peter was traitor. Lily and Harry were alone now. Harry had no father.
Remus started crying. His best friend, the boy who turned in to a stag for him, the boy had just become a father, the boy who who asked out Lily Evans more than ten times a day when he was 16, the boy who showed such kindness that was not humanly possible, was dead? No that couldn't be right. He had to see the body himself to belive.
It was as if Lily could read his mind "You can go see him when Sirius is done."she said."but I reckon that will take a while."a sad smile emarged."they were brothers." She said still letting the tears come down from her eyes."what am I going to do without him Remus?"
Remus hugged her and said:
"we'll be fine Lily. We will go through this togather, me, you, Sirius and Harry. It'll be hard but we'll manage. We'll be fine,I promise."
Just as Sirius came down the stairs with very puffy and red eyes and a very wet face, Dumbledore apperated with his pensive and ushered for them to come. Lily gave him her memory and then sat down with Harry saying that she didn't need to see her husband's death again. They put their heads in the pensive and a few minutes later came back up. Remus and Sirius' faces were very very pale and Dumbledore's eyes had lost their usual spark.
They looked at Lily who was now patting her son while he was asleep and admired her strength.
"If it that had been me red,I would have killed myself."Sirius said,his tone indicating he really meant it.
"Me too."agreed Remus "You are very strong Lily and belive me when I tell you that is exactly what harry needs growing up, a strong mother, just like you." Said Dumbledore Lily mummbled under her breath"Thanks."
"So where are you going to go and live after the funeral red? I've got a feeling that you don't want to stay here." Said Sirius "I don't know.I'll rent flat or something, I haven't figured it out yet."
"I'm not Sirius Black if I let you rent a flat."
"What?"
"Lily,I will die before I let one of my best friends,who happens to be my brother's wife meaning my sister in law and her son go rent flat when they can live with me."
"Nooo Sirius it will be too much trouble."
"No Lily,I mean it. Ilove both you and Harry so much as if you were my sister and he was my son. Also Lily, I don't think either of us should be alone right need each lost the person who was close to the both of us."
"You're too sweet. Fine. But I will move out as soon as I can."
"We'll se about that."Sirius said with a smile. Deep down they both knew that was not going to happen. And suddenly they realized Remus is gone.
"He is probably off to see James"Lily said as she started crying loudly for the first time that sat beside her and held tight as she moaned. "why?...why?... why? He didn't do anything wrong. Whyyyyyyy?"
She cried when Harry woke up and started crying and saying dada. She cried because for the first time in her life she could't tell her son that it would be alright because she knew it wouldn't be alright. She cried because she couldn't tell her son that dada was outside and he would be back soon. Dumbledore looked at them with sadness in his eyes,thinking why. Remus came down and joined his crying friends. Dumbledore felt a tear coem down as he saw Lily softly rocking Harry and moaning why as Remus and Sirius held her.
"Why indeed" Dumbledore thought.

Hi. I hope you are all satisfied with where the story is leading to. I feel so happy to share this little part of my imagination and I feel so happy that you like it. I update as soon as I can.

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