Hey guys, in case you want to get in the mood, I recommend "What Would I do Without You" by Drew Holcomb & The Neighbors. She came back to grimuld street wondering how to this without him. what the hell was She supposed to say to Sirius ? She can't just pop in and say:
"Hey padfoot,it turnes out I wasn't sick because I was worried about the funeral. Apparently I am pregnant with my 21 year old dead husband's baby. How ironic is that?"
She felt herself shiver from the news. She thought about the rumors and got scared about what everyone would think. They would think it was James', they would think it was Sirius'. They would call her a whore. They would call him a dirty bastard. They would say that James a poor pathetic man who didn't see what was right in front of him. They would all be so hemulitated and insulted,and the rumors would destroy not only her and Sirius but Harry as well. Merlin. She sighed. It was so damn scary. What would Harry say when he grew up? Would he belive her when she said she wasn't with Sirius? She begged every god there was that the baby would look like James so everyone would belive her. She didn't really care about what peaple said herself,the only reason she cared was Harry. The rumors would destroy his life. They would make fun of him. They would tell him that his mother was whore who destroyed two pure-blood bloodlines. They would say that his father was a blind idiot. The bastards at school would wreck her son. What was she going to do?
She reached the door of number 12 and opened it. She heard her son giggle and smiled at the sound. She entered the living room to see Sirius holding a blanket in front of his face and Remus holding Harry and saying "where is paddy?"
Harry looked puzzled and tried to find padfoot and said "Pada?"
Then Sirius lowered the blankt and Remus said "There he is" and Harry stated giggling and loudly said "PADA" and leaned towards Sirius fell into his lap and started pulling on his hair and rings, looking at them in amazement with the biggest smile on his face. Padfoot laughed at him and cuddled him. Lily smiled. "Stop laughing at my son Black!"
"Black?! Back to last name basis? What's wrong?"
"Nothing." She said with a sadness in her tone. "Whoaaaaa,What happened?Is this about the funeral Lily?It's been only two weeks since his death,no one expects you to be better and the fact that feel sick and vomit is completely know I've been sick too."said Sirius with affection and sadness in his eyes as he looked at Lily with concern.
"Oh yeah,that reminds me,How did it go at the hospital? Was it the flu?or stress?"Remus asked worriedly "Oh um... about that...I ummmm. How am I going to say this I ummmm"
She hesitated,breathed and looked at Harry. He looked exactly like James except for his eyes. When Harry smiled at her,she felt like James was smiling at her,encouraging her to share the big news.
"I'm pregnant"
Both their smiles faded away as they looked at her with schoked and amazed looked.
"What?"Sirius asked looking wierd "I'm pregnant with my dead husband's child" she said as she started sobbing Remus took Harry from Sirius and took him to his room to put him in his crib to sleep but Harry who had saw Lily crying started weeping and saying"Mama" over and over again. Sirius got up as soon as Remus took Harry from his lap and hugged Lily as she cried. "oh, Sirius, what the bloody hell am I supposed do? How the bloody hell am I supposed to do this without James?How am I going to this without him? I can't do this alone."
"You're not alone Red,you have me and Remus and Harry. We can do this together. All four of us."
"But Sirius,I..."
"What Lily? What is it?"
"What about the rumors? They will ruin Harry's life. And my life. And your life. And Harry will belive the rumors and will hate me for them. And so I have to spend everyday of my life drowning inside the sea of my son's hatred." She said as the tears rolled down her face. "What rumors?"
"Sirius,I live with you. You found me and Harry on that night. You were James' best friend. You practically lived with us when we were in hiding. I'm pregnant. What rumors do you think?" Lily stated as a matter of factly. Sirius hesitated and thought about what Lily had said and then after a few minutes.
"I get that they will ruin you and me but how will they ruin Harry's life?"
"Because if the child doesn't look like James, Harry will belive the rumors and then he will hate me no matter how much I try to tell him they are not true. Then he will lose both me and you because he hates us and he will be alone. And of course he will hate the baby. Oh and..."
"Lily anyone with mind knows that you wouldn't do something like that."
"Really? So you think no one will think I'm a prostitute?"
"Anyone who's important won't. Red, if they can't see the love you have for James,they are not important and it doesn't matter what they think. They can go stuff it for all I care. "
Lily buried her face in his chest "I love you, padfoot. you always make me feel better. Thank you you're an amazing friend."
"I know red. I love you too."
He kissed the top of her head. "Now let's go tell Remus before he thinks you're broken forever."
She chuckled at his joke.
"Fine." She smiled "Let's go tell Harry that he is going to be a big brother."
When they got there, Harry was asleep and Remus looked worried so they reassured him that Lily was fine and...happy. She said that she is happy that she is pregnant. And then as walked down the stairs she said "Do you remember the day I told James I was pregnant?"
They all remembered that day looking both amused and sad.
"Hey padfoot,it turnes out I wasn't sick because I was worried about the funeral. Apparently I am pregnant with my 21 year old dead husband's baby. How ironic is that?"
She felt herself shiver from the news. She thought about the rumors and got scared about what everyone would think. They would think it was James', they would think it was Sirius'. They would call her a whore. They would call him a dirty bastard. They would say that James a poor pathetic man who didn't see what was right in front of him. They would all be so hemulitated and insulted,and the rumors would destroy not only her and Sirius but Harry as well. Merlin. She sighed. It was so damn scary. What would Harry say when he grew up? Would he belive her when she said she wasn't with Sirius? She begged every god there was that the baby would look like James so everyone would belive her. She didn't really care about what peaple said herself,the only reason she cared was Harry. The rumors would destroy his life. They would make fun of him. They would tell him that his mother was whore who destroyed two pure-blood bloodlines. They would say that his father was a blind idiot. The bastards at school would wreck her son. What was she going to do?
She reached the door of number 12 and opened it. She heard her son giggle and smiled at the sound. She entered the living room to see Sirius holding a blanket in front of his face and Remus holding Harry and saying "where is paddy?"
Harry looked puzzled and tried to find padfoot and said "Pada?"
Then Sirius lowered the blankt and Remus said "There he is" and Harry stated giggling and loudly said "PADA" and leaned towards Sirius fell into his lap and started pulling on his hair and rings, looking at them in amazement with the biggest smile on his face. Padfoot laughed at him and cuddled him. Lily smiled. "Stop laughing at my son Black!"
"Black?! Back to last name basis? What's wrong?"
"Nothing." She said with a sadness in her tone. "Whoaaaaa,What happened?Is this about the funeral Lily?It's been only two weeks since his death,no one expects you to be better and the fact that feel sick and vomit is completely know I've been sick too."said Sirius with affection and sadness in his eyes as he looked at Lily with concern.
"Oh yeah,that reminds me,How did it go at the hospital? Was it the flu?or stress?"Remus asked worriedly "Oh um... about that...I ummmm. How am I going to say this I ummmm"
She hesitated,breathed and looked at Harry. He looked exactly like James except for his eyes. When Harry smiled at her,she felt like James was smiling at her,encouraging her to share the big news.
"I'm pregnant"
Both their smiles faded away as they looked at her with schoked and amazed looked.
"What?"Sirius asked looking wierd "I'm pregnant with my dead husband's child" she said as she started sobbing Remus took Harry from Sirius and took him to his room to put him in his crib to sleep but Harry who had saw Lily crying started weeping and saying"Mama" over and over again. Sirius got up as soon as Remus took Harry from his lap and hugged Lily as she cried. "oh, Sirius, what the bloody hell am I supposed do? How the bloody hell am I supposed to do this without James?How am I going to this without him? I can't do this alone."
"You're not alone Red,you have me and Remus and Harry. We can do this together. All four of us."
"But Sirius,I..."
"What Lily? What is it?"
"What about the rumors? They will ruin Harry's life. And my life. And your life. And Harry will belive the rumors and will hate me for them. And so I have to spend everyday of my life drowning inside the sea of my son's hatred." She said as the tears rolled down her face. "What rumors?"
"Sirius,I live with you. You found me and Harry on that night. You were James' best friend. You practically lived with us when we were in hiding. I'm pregnant. What rumors do you think?" Lily stated as a matter of factly. Sirius hesitated and thought about what Lily had said and then after a few minutes.
"I get that they will ruin you and me but how will they ruin Harry's life?"
"Because if the child doesn't look like James, Harry will belive the rumors and then he will hate me no matter how much I try to tell him they are not true. Then he will lose both me and you because he hates us and he will be alone. And of course he will hate the baby. Oh and..."
"Lily anyone with mind knows that you wouldn't do something like that."
"Really? So you think no one will think I'm a prostitute?"
"Anyone who's important won't. Red, if they can't see the love you have for James,they are not important and it doesn't matter what they think. They can go stuff it for all I care. "
Lily buried her face in his chest "I love you, padfoot. you always make me feel better. Thank you you're an amazing friend."
"I know red. I love you too."
He kissed the top of her head. "Now let's go tell Remus before he thinks you're broken forever."
She chuckled at his joke.
"Fine." She smiled "Let's go tell Harry that he is going to be a big brother."
When they got there, Harry was asleep and Remus looked worried so they reassured him that Lily was fine and...happy. She said that she is happy that she is pregnant. And then as walked down the stairs she said "Do you remember the day I told James I was pregnant?"
They all remembered that day looking both amused and sad.
Sooooo next chapter is going to be a falshback to the time Lily told James she was pregnant in 1979 Hope you enjoy reading this 😘😘
Happy reading Stay tuned for the next chapter. Sorry this one was a bit short.