WARNING: LEMON!

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-VQ

6 AM

Rin woke up and took a shower. She walked down the hall to see if Kagome was awake and bumped into Inuyasha on her way there.

"Oh, Good morning. Leaving for work?" She asked him.

"Yeah." He replied before noticing the exhausted look on her face. "You alright? You don't look like you got any sleep."

"I'm fine!" She said with a smile. "I'm just nervous about this evaluation Sesshomaru has today."

"Oh. I hope everything works out for you. See ya." And he walked downstairs.

Rin sighed and headed to see Kagome. She knocked on the door gently, waiting for an answer.

"Come in!"

She peeked in to see Kagome still lying down. "Hey, it's me."

"Hi, Rin. What's up?"

"Do you have anything I can wear to work? It would be a tad inconvenient to go all the way home now."

"Uh…you can just look in the closet." She said, pointing to the door directly across from the bed.

Rin searched through the closet and found a shirt and skirt that fit her. "Thank goodness we wear the same size."

"Yeah. Oh, the shoes are in this closet." She said, pointing to a closet by the window.

"Do you feel safer staying here?" Rin asked curiously as she walked up to the shoe closet.

"Definitely. Inuyasha's dad is always home. I just get a bit bored. Inuyasha was the one who decided I should take my maternity leave for my entire pregnancy."

Rin laughed as she took down a pair of shoes. "He's just trying to protect you. I'm sorry you got mixed up in this mess."

"I'm sorry you got mixed up in it too."

"It's alright! I don't think Sesshomaru would let anything happen to me."

"Mmhmm. Neither do I."

"Things really got out of hand last night, huh?"

Kagome laughed. "Those two are so stubborn. They both care about one another but they're too focused on what's in their own brains."

"I wish there was a way to bring them closer together."

"Let them find their own way back to each other. They'll never have a perfect relationship but even if things can go back to the way they were back then…"

"You're right. Thank you for lending me these clothes. I'll return them as soon as I get a chance."

"Don't worry about it." She said in a sleepy voice as she waved her hand.

"Try to get some rest, okay? We want this to be a smooth pregnancy." Rin said with a smile as she let herself out.

Rin went back to her room, quickly got dressed and made sure she was ready for another day of returning to the hospital. She let out a heavy sigh before dragging herself across the hall to Sesshomaru's room.

She knocked on the door and waited for a response.

Two minutes had gone by and she hadn't heard anything at all.

Knock. Knock. Knock.

No response.

"I'm coming in, okay?" She said as she slowly opened the door.

Sesshomaru was sitting up in bed, already dressed, staring out the window.

"Hey." Rin said as she let herself in and shut the door behind her. "We have to be at the hospital by 8."

No response…again.

"Are you alright?" She asked as she slowly approached him.

Not a word.

Rin had finally gotten across the room and stood beside him, staring at his distant face, wondering why he was ignoring her.

"Sesshomaru? Is something wrong?" She asked as she went to put her hand on his shoulder.

Just before her fingers made contact with his shoulder blade, her hand was roughly smacked away.

She let out a startled gasp as she held her hand. 'What was that for? Yesterday he kissed me, now he won't even speak to me.'

"Are you…mad at me?" She asked, seemingly hurt by his actions.

He turned his head and stared at her, showing no emotion in his eyes.

Rin's heart sunk deep into the pit of her stomach from that cold glare. What happened to the softness in his eyes? What happened to the slowly melting ice? When did his world become so cold that he turned to a solid block of ice again?

'I need to put my feelings aside and keep my mind on the issue at hand.' She took a deep breath and changed her focus.

"Alright. You're going to have a psychiatric evaluation today. You're going to be asked compound questions like: 'do you get bored easily?' and they'll often pause in between questions to spark some kind of reaction. O-or to make you talk. Don't be analytical; don't say what you think they'll want to hear. Just…don't do anything that can ruin this."

Rin stood there, awaiting a response of some sort. The moment she stopped speaking, he simply looked away, continuing to look out the window.

"O…kay. Well. I guess that's all. We should leave in an hour."

As she headed for the door, she looked back at him, wondering why he was giving her the cold shoulder.

Not even her blaring sunlight could affect this frigid disposition.

Somewhere…

"I need you to tell me what's going on. What have you done? This wasn't why father created this group! It was to bring together humanity. Not to influence human superiority and murder!"

"That's what made him weak!" Kohaku growled angrily. "He was expendable. That's why with these hands I—"

"No!" Sango cried out. "Y-you couldn't have!"

"I had no other choice! I was next in line to be leader! The Slayers needed a serious overhaul! What's the point of being called Slayers if we don't slay anyone?!"

Sango backed into a corner with a frightened look on her face. "Kohaku, why?! What happened to you?"

He shrugged. "I've become a man."

"A man?" She spat. "Not the man you were supposed to be! You've become a monster! Rin will never accept you like this!"

Kohaku became furious. His eye twitched and his blood boiled with anger. In a moment of impulse, he drove his swords through his own sister's neck.

He watched as she slid down the wall with tears in her eyes. He roughly pulled the swords out, causing her jugular to spew blood out in his direction.

"I'm sorry sister, but any more interference will be a burden." He said apathetically to her lifeless body as he sheathed his swords and left the place that used to be his home with no intention of returning.

Back at the house…

"Are you ready to talk, Father?" Sesshomaru questioned as he entered his father's study.

"Ah, yes. Have a seat." He told him sternly.

Sesshomaru sat in the rolling chair and slowly swiveled it from side to side.

His father gave him a strange look, causing Sesshomaru to get testy.

"Why are you staring at me that way?"

He put down his morning paper and smirked. "I see some of Rin's child-like demeanor has rubbed off on you."

Sesshomaru gave him a fierce glare as he stopped swiveling in the chair. "Do you have important information for me or not? If you don't, I will take my leave."

"I wanted to discuss the origin of the Slayers. They were originally a civil organization that was formed two decades ago. Their dogma was to slay the barrier separating human and demon , rather than slay demons altogether." He explained as he rubbed his chin. "This is how I knew the leadership changed hands. This…Kohaku. I have seen him once before. At the time, his eyes were not those of a demon, but they had a challenging bloodlust within."

"I see."

"Sesshomaru. What do you intend to do when you meet this man? Staying with Rin will increase your chances of confronting him. Will you kill him? That will only continue a cycle of—"

"I do not know what I will do, but I will find another method to deal with him."

InuTaisho's eyes widened. "So you have changed, indeed." He chuckled slightly. "Let me give you a word of advice—if you truly care about this woman, treat her kindly for all that she has done for you."

"Hmph. Giving needless advice. How ridiculous." He said as he walked out of his father's office.

An hour later

Rin and Sesshomaru got in Jaken's car and he drove them to the hospital.

She noticed Sesshomaru had sat in the front seat next to Jaken. Now she was positive she had done something to make him angry with her.

The distance he was creating between them was causing her so much pain, but maybe it was necessary. She didn't have to worry about her fear or doubts if he was intent on creating space between the two of them. It only gave her time to think. How could she keep this space between them without feeling so much pain? Being so far from him didn't feel right.

At the hospital

Rin brought Sesshomaru to the third floor to see Dr. Yu. Neither of them were looking forward to seeing that man but what could they do? She walked up to his receptionist with her usual smile and asked for the doctor.

"I'm sorry, he's not in today. He had a family emergency. Your patient is here for a psychological eval. correct? He'll need to stay overnight and wait for Dr. Yu's return."

"What?!" Rin shrieked. "Is that what Dr. Yu said?"

"Well, no but that's usually how we do things."

"Absolutely not! Being in this hospital alone triggers traumatic and stressful memories for Mr. Taisho. I don't know how Dr. Yu and the others treat their patients but mine is a free man—"

"Well, technically but—"

"You find someone else to administer the evaluation right now. He is my patient. Things will be done on my time." She asserted.

The receptionist stared at Rin with her eyes wide. "M-my apologies, Dr. Asano. I will call another doctor right away. Please, have a seat outside and I will be right with you."

Rin smiled triumphantly as she headed towards the door and sat in the chair outside.

Sesshomaru sat beside her, still astonished by her attitude a moment ago. He realized the sun wasn't just a bright ball of happiness. It was also a blaring flame: One that was millions of degrees hot and could destroy you inside and out in less than a second.

The more she burned, the more his feelings grew. He was slowly turning into a puddle in her presence.

Rin turned to him and noticed he was staring at her. She flashed a sweet smile and he looked away, causing her smile to fade as quickly as it appeared.

"Dr. Asano? Dr. Akiyama is waiting in 402. He will perform the assessment."

"That was quick! Thank you." Rin stood and escorted Sesshomaru to the designated room.

He sat in a metal chair across from a red haired man with blue eyes and glasses. The doctor adjusted his glasses on his face and smiled at Rin.

"I'm sorry Dr. Asano, you'll have to leave the room."

"I know." She rubbed Sesshomaru's shoulder and let herself out.

Dr. Akiyama's face quickly turned serious as he opened a portfolio. He turned on an audio recorder on the table and clicked the end of his ballpoint pen.

"State your name and age for the record, please."

"Sesshomaru Taisho, Age 35."

"Thank you. Now, in this evaluation I will ask you a series of questions, which you will answer as you see fit. There is no right or wrong answer, so no pressure. And you are allowed to pass on just one question. If anything I ask makes you feel too uncomfortable, you are allowed to say 'pass.' Do you understand?"

"Yes."

"Excellent. First question: Do you abuse any substances such as drugs or alcohol?"

"No."

"Have you ever in the past?"

"No."

"Do you resent being given advice?"

"That depends."

"On what, Mr. Taisho?"

"On whom is giving the advice. I will not take pointers from those that I know can easily mislead me."

Dr. Akiyama said nothing in response. He jotted down a few notes and simply looked at Sesshomaru, as if waiting for him to continue.

'This must be one of those pauses Rin spoke about.'

The pause went on for about two minutes before he continued.

"Do you worry a lot?"

"I never worry."

"Oh? There isn't even someone in your life that you worry about? Perhaps someone you care for deeply?"

Sesshomaru paused, causing the Doctor to be confused. He looked on eagerly, waiting for an answer.

"Pass." Sesshomaru responded.

There was another pause.

"Were you ever abused? Physically, emotionally, sexually?"

"No."

"Do you ever have a problem with anger, such as a bad temper?"

"Yes."

"How often?"

"Not as often as I used to before my sessions with Dr. Asano."

The doctor nodded in understanding, jotted a few notes and paused again.

"Have you ever tried to harm yourself?"

"Yes."

"When was this?"

"I was three. I stuck my hand in boiling oil."

"What made you do that?"

"My mother said it was hot. I wanted to check for myself. That was all."

The questioning continued for another half hour. The doctor closely watched his behavior, body language, and movements and even listened to the tone of his voice to discern any truth from lies.

Rin stepped inside to speak to Dr. Akiyama about the results. Sesshomaru watched from outside through the two way mirror as the doctor spoke so freely and flirtatiously to Rin. It made him absolutely sick.

Inside

"So everything went well?"

"Oh, yes. He's still quite closed up but I noticed some signs of vulnerability showing within. Revealing a part of his childhood is a major step for a patient."

"Indeed it is."

Dr. Akiyama shook Rin's hand. "Dr. Asano you have done well for Mr. Taisho. He certainly trusts in you. Continue to work with him and I know he will be officially discharged in no time."

"I agree. Thank you so much for conducting the evaluation." She said happily with her joyful grin.

At home…

"I'm really proud of you. That evaluation went very well."

He still hadn't said a word to her.

Rin sighed. "Please. Please talk to me. The way you're making me feel right now—"

"Is that the only thing that matters?" He asked her.

"Did I do something?"

"You have too many doubts, Rin."

"I just…I don't want to lose you! Okay? That's why I want to make sure we follow every rule in regards to your conditional release! I don't want to be the one that ruins it."

Sesshomaru picked Rin up and flung her into his bedroom then pushed her onto his bed.

"I have been patient with you, Rin, as you have been with me."

"I-I…but…"

"I don't like following rules. Especially rules as ridiculous as those." He got on top of her and pinned her body down with his arms and hands. "Now tell me…what is it that you want?"

"I-I want…um…"

"This is no time to be bashful. What happened to that fiery woman from earlier at the hospital? I know she's in there."

"I…I want you! I want this! I want us!" She blurted out.

"I'm finally willing to talk about the shower incident."

"R-really?"

"I expected you to run away the moment I stepped in." He said as he began to claw the buttons off her shirt. "You were as flawless as you were fearless. From that day on…" he continued as he got her shirt open. "I wanted you. I don't know how I managed to control myself all this time. Perhaps it was because of the respect I have for you." He admitted as he began to slide her skirt down her legs. "But what's the point of waiting any longer if I know how badly you desire this?"

"Tell me one thing." She said through her heavy breathing. "Why did you skip that one question during the evaluation? What was the answer? Yes? Or no?"

He pulled her clothes off her completely, viciously tearing off whatever was in his way. "Allow me to explain without words."

He pulled his shirt over his head, allowing her to witness the skin that was scarless, even free of the injury he received the night before.

"Please…It's my first time. Please be gentle." She implored.

Sesshomaru lowered his pants, leaving him in only his boxers then gave her a confused stare.

"Despite every painful ordeal you have been through that has gotten you to where you are, you're asking me to be gentle? Hn. That's outrageous."

"B-but I thought the first time was supposed to be slow and gentle…" She said innocently.

"What was that word you used to describe me? Ah…that's right." He recalled as he pulled her from the middle towards the edge of the bed. "Passionate."

Rin stared at him in awe, and slight concern about how much her first time was going to hurt.

"There is nothing gentle about passion. It is a strong outburst of emotions. And besides…" he said as he spread her legs open "why would I be gentle if I know you're going to beg me to go faster?"

"A-a-a-are you sure we should be doing this? I mean what about—"

"Be quiet. Save your oxygen. You're going to need it."

Rin froze as his fingers found their way to her nipples. She stared up at him wide eyed, as he gently twisted and tugged at the sensitive skin. She had never been touched like that before and didn't know how to react. She let out slow, frequent pants. He squeezed her breasts with his large hands, causing her to sigh with each movement he made on her body.

Sesshomaru watched, as she lied there, frozen and confused. He wanted to make her react even more. He wanted her to burn brightly. He intended to change the forecast in that room to 80—no 100—or 1,000! Who knew the temperature when getting this close to the sun? Only he knew that feeling. There was going to be a heat wave today—he just knew it. He could feel himself melting and burning inside with the desire to touch and feel her body even more.

He trailed his claws down from her breasts, to her stomach, to her thighs. He parted her legs up once more and watched as she slowly began to drip.

"Hmm…"

"Huh? W-what is it?"

"For what I am about to do, I ask that you return the favor."

"Uh…okay."

He placed his hands underneath her thighs and pushed her knees towards her breasts. He drove his tongue into her tight core and she began to scream.

She could hardly fight the force of his powerful demon strength that had her legs locked in one position. All she could do was straighten out her legs over her head and curl her toes instinctively.

Her aroma, her taste, the scent of her warm blood inside her body: the ferocious dog demon he was thrived on her body and he wanted to tear her open. There was no victim, no unsuspecting prey, no act of vengeance that could satisfy the new craving he was developing for Rin's body.

Rin reached her hands into his hair as he tongued inside her, occasionally darting at her clit, causing her body to tense up as she moaned for the first time.

He stuck one finger inside to see how wet she was, and he could barely pass it through her tight canal. He had broken a lot of things in life, but this was going to be the best thing to destroy.

"S-Sesshomaru. It…it's going to hurt isn't it?" She breathed out as he continued to finger her.

"Yes, but not for long. I promise."

Rin began to laugh through her heavy breathing.

"What's so funny?"

"You made a promise to me—for the first time." She said in a soft and cute voice.

Sesshomaru could feel a warm feeling in his heart, followed by fast thumping and a fluttering sensation in his stomach. Love—again?

No.

This wasn't the puppy love he had as a teenager. This was deeper; Deeper than the depths of hell and hotter than its flames. Rin had a puddle before her, waiting for her flames to boil it.

He stuck a second finger inside her causing her to groan slightly, but she endured it. Sesshomaru pulled his fingers out the moment he felt a slight tearing and licked her blood off his fingers. The taste was sweeter than victory and more fulfilling than revenge. What a waste life was before Rin.

He stuck his tongue inside once more, feigning for the taste of her again. The taste of cum mixed with blood and the mix of fragrances swirling into his nose made him throb so badly his veins began to pulsate. It had been so long since he felt the inside of a woman—but this time was going to be different.

Rin was human. She was going to feel the pain and pleasure of losing her innocence. Eager wasn't the word for what he felt.

Rin moaned loudly as she felt the way he tongued her. She could tell he was tasting her. 'Is it that good?' She wondered.

"Um…" She spoke up shyly. "W-what…do I taste like?"

Sesshomaru picked up whatever juices he could with his tongue and hovered over Rin. She felt that wild, fleeting sensation when their eyes met before he leaned down to kiss her and his tongue slid into her mouth. His rhythmic tongue movements in her mouth slid the juices of her body onto her tongue. She could taste a bit of blood, salty, sweet and tangy as the juices slid down her throat.

He pulled away from the kiss and worked his way down her body with his mouth: from her neck, to each breast, to her stomach, then back up again, until he hovered over her once more.

"Are you about to…"

He nodded.

Rin flashed him a smile and squeezed her eyes shut. Sesshomaru effortlessly slid out of his boxers and teasingly poked at Rin's clit with his solid, throbbing member. She gasped from the feeling. His skin was so warm and soft that she couldn't stand it.

He began to slide inside her as he felt the skin tear away completely. That was it. He had taken her. There was nothing that could compare to such an accomplishment.

Rin balled up her fists from the overwhelming pain of him finally being inside. As he slowly began to pull out, the pain began to lessen, and as he slid back in again, and out, and in once more, the pain was gone and there was only a new, erotic feeling of having a man inside her.

She slowly opened her eyes and saw a new softness in his eyes. She was confident that he loved her.

Sesshomaru loved the resistance of her tight, gushing center wrapping around him.

"C-can you go…faster?"

"No." He said, though he was only teasing her.

"Please!" She begged as she wrapped her legs around his back.

Sesshomaru displayed a smirk that taught Rin to be careful what she wished for.

The sex became rough as he slid in and out of her at a faster pace, making loud smacking sounds each time their bodies met, exchanging burning body heat.

Rin couldn't believe what she was feeling for the first time. She used to want to wait—she thought it would feel better after marriage but this was something she needed.

"Yes! Yes! Sesshomaru!" She cried out loudly.

She wrapped her arms around his neck as he bucked his hips and continued to thrust into her. Rin watched with her terribly flushed face as he looked at her lustfully and bit his bottom lip.

Her jaw dropped and her mouth became dry as he picked up speed and she continued to gush out onto him.

Rin's first climax snuck up on her and Sesshomaru pulled out of her, and stood up, watching as her legs trembled.

She felt helpless. 'What is he going to do to me next?' She wondered.

"Can you sit up?" He asked.

Rin attempted to sit up and after a moment of struggling to recover, she was finally upright.

Sesshomaru stood in front of her, reacquainting Rin with something she used to avert her eyes from.

"Do you remember what I asked of you?"

Rin nodded as she reluctantly grasped him in her small fingers. "I'm not exactly sure what I should be doing."

"Do what you want to do."

She gave a slow, gentle lick before taking him into her mouth. She slowly bobbed her head back and forth, tasting herself all around him. She heard Sesshomaru release a low groan as he placed his hand on the back of her head.

As she felt more confident, she picked up speed and took him as far in her throat as she could. She knew about gag reflexes—from Kagome and deep throating—also from Kagome. Even though it was her first time, she had a general idea of what she should do.

Rin began to jerk him off as she continued to suck, earning a small growl from him. After a minute of her 'returning the favor', he pulled himself out of her mouth and lifted her off the bed.

"Where are you—oof!" She was pushed up against the wall and he pushed himself inside her very slowly.

Rin loved when he went this slow and made love to her. She could really feel him with each stroke and it caused her legs to tremble again. It was a good thing he was so strong or she would have fallen for certain.

"I've never been with a woman with scars." He said as he nipped at her neck.

"I-I'm sorry. It must be…awkward…for you." She said as she breathed heavily.

"They're beautiful."

Rin's flushed face beamed. Sesshomaru was the first to see many of the scars on her body.

"How did you get this one?" He asked as he ran his hand down the side of her ribcage.

"I was hiding from the burglars in my home under the couch and some…uh…I don't know…metal spring or something was under there and it cut me."

"What about this one?" He asked as he ran his hand up her right upper thigh.

"Climbing a fence after stealing from a flea market." She said sheepishly.

"Hmm. And…this one?" He asked as he planted a kiss on her chest, right beneath her collar bone.

"Uh…Kohaku did that."

Sesshomaru could feel his temper about to flare. He wanted to throw Rin on the bed and rush to wherever Kohaku was. "Why did he do that to you?"

"He was drunk and grazed me when he was shooting a crossbow. B-but I don't want to think about him anymore!" She said as she pulled his face towards her and kissed him.

Sesshomaru picked up his pace once more so he could finally reach his climax.

"I…love you." Rin confessed for the first time through her moans.

He threw her onto the bed and turned her onto her back. He pulled her toward him by her waist and drilled into her roughly.

Rin screamed as the mix of pleasure and pain hit her body. She could feel the skin of her just torn walls being pushed back and forth as Sesshomaru's unbelievable size and thickness stretched her wet skin. She gripped the sheets and clenched her teeth as he plowed into her.

Sesshomaru could smell the salty tears that had just fallen from her eyes.

"Am I hurting you?" He asked as he slowed down.

"Uh…uh huh."

"Why didn't you say something?" He asked as he turned her over and entered her again, much slower and gentler than before.

"Mmm…I…I don't know." She responded through her moans. "I thought it was supposed to hurt."

"Not that much." He told her, his voice turning to a whisper as he leaned down and kissed her tears away. He leaned into her lips as his powerful feelings for her brought his climax nearer.

Rin melted into the kiss. The man who used to be so cold, from his skin to his soul, felt so warm. She still had to wonder—how did this happen? Did she change Sesshomaru that much?

He finally reached his climax and released into her. It was such a freeing feeling, to lay with a woman after so many years. Not only did he feel sexual satisfaction, he felt emotionally freed—Rin was the reason he could relax and rest and live once more.

He lied on the bed next to Rin and watched as she lied still, legs still trembling, still bleeding and breathing heavily.

"Rin."

"Yes?"

"You're going to bleed on the bed."

"Oh!" She sprang up quickly, to both of their surprise. "Let me go wash up." She attempted to stand, before wobbling to the side.

Sesshomaru extended an arm and caught her before she fell to the floor. He picked her up in his arms and brought her to the bathroom.

"Thank you. I can manage on my own."

"Are you certain?"

"Yes." She said as she stood on her own. She went into the bathroom and shut the door.

Sesshomaru went back to his room and began to fix the bed. He knew Rin would be back. He also knew things were going to change. She would probably want to sleep together permanently and even the way they interacted with one another was going to change.

Were they truly ready for something like this?

'It does not matter now. It's already happening.'

Hours later

Rin woke up mid evening with Sesshomaru's arms wrapped around her. She turned in his grasp, waking him as well.

"Do you want dinner?"

He nodded and Rin giggled, and then kissed his nose. He slowly let her out of his grip, running his fingers across her body as he let go.

Rin had finally started wearing the lingerie she bought when she went shopping with Kagome. For once in her life she felt confident and sexy. She felt like a woman and not just a doctor that people dumped their problems on.

She waltzed through her living room into the kitchen, the soft lacy fabric on her negligee tickling her upper thighs.

Rin began taking out ingredients to cook dinner when a sound in the living room caught her attention. She peeked her head out the kitchen and saw her front doorknob being turned. It turned out, that strange sound was the door unlocking.

Rin rushed into the kitchen and hid by the fridge. She could feel a cold chill running down her spine as a nauseating fear entered her body. 'It's him! And at a time like this?'