First of all, I wanted to say that I'm posting this one shot now because I can't stand the fact of my babies being apart for so long in my current story "Who knows better?" and because I miss writing them together in the same scene. That being said, let me explain what this is about.

I had planned on starting a collection of one shots about Alex and Vict where I could post scenes from different moments in their lives instead of just posting them separately. For one, its easier to manage the story that way and they will also have something in common: they'll be M rated. Any non M rated scenes will be posted separately as an individual story.

I guess you could say this is my way of letting out some steam, also it'll be a place where I can deal with my own issues surounding intimacy.

The one shots won't necessarily be in chronological order and they will all stand alone, maybe occasionally referring to other previous shots but I don't think you'll need to have read them all to understand whatever new one shot I decide to post. There will be however references to the main stories (no spoilers for "Who knows better?" I promise! The shots pertaining to that particular time in their lives will come later).

We'll start with something light and fluffy. Like I said, I just needed to write my babies together again and I couldn't wait any longer. I've been working on the next chapter of "Who knows better?" but it's been a slow process. Hopefully this will also help to get my muse going.

This one shot takes place really early on in their relationship. Maybe even between the last chapter of "Does he know better?" and the epilogue were Vict meets K-unit.

I hope you like it!

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One: We get naked and we do it

Alex wasn't sure how they ended up talking about it.

He couldn't even remember the exact words of the comment that had started it all. He just knew that for a change, he'd been feeling pretty cheerful that day and as a result he'd made a joke full of innuendos and double meanings that made their conversation take an unexpected turn.

And they were in public! They'd just finished having lunch at a very crowded pizza place, after much insistance from Vict who'd claimed to have had an unshakable crave for the thing.

Alex made a mental note never to try and be flirtatious again. It just wasn't his thing.

"Are you mad?" he asked, half expecting the answer to be Yes! How could you forget something like that? So he purposfully kept his head down, staring at the napking he'd been playing with for the last five minutes.

"What? No! It's just… it's a shame you can't remember those things" Vict answered instead and his tone wasn't mean or reprochefull. It was sincere, if only slightly dissappointed.

Alex was making an effort, he really was, to remember some -any of the things Vict mentioned they did whenever they spent the night together. He'd known from the beginning that he had trouble focusing every time they were intimate but he didn't think his memory would he so affected by it.

After their first time, Alex's issues hadn't all disappeared. Granted, he'd never passed out again but he also wasn't completely there, not like he would've liked to and certainly not enough to remember every minute of it.

"But, you know what? That's okay" Vict announced with a sudden excitement that made Alex's attention snap back to him "Because now I get to tell you all about it"

His stomach rolled around a few laps and he glanced around them to make sure no one was being privy of their conversation. Then he lowered his voice.

"It's not like there's much to tell. We get naked and we do it" and he honestly believed that. He wasn't going to lie to himself saying he didn't enjoy it, but he always preferred the moments before and after the act, the in between being still all new and frightening to him. Vict's loud snort let him know the other boy didn't share his opinion.

"Not much to tell? Alex, a million things happen every time we're together" instead of getting angry or feeling offended by Alex's view of the intimate aspect of their relationship, Vict regarded him with a kind smile while reaching for his hand, making Alex drop the dirty napkin to place his hand on top of Vict's opened one "Like this, for example. Your fingers twitch every time you pull at my clothes, as if you're not sure you have permission to do so"

Alex watched as Vict tapped every one of his fingers before closing the blond's fist within his own.

"Your hands clutch the sheets when I kiss your neck"

Alex could feel his cheeks getting warm, definitely turning red and he glanced around nerviously again but no one seemed to be paying them attention. Then he focused his eyes back on Vict, who was watching him with something aching to amusement in his eyes.

The blond shivered when Vict ran the tip of his fingers up his arm until he reached the elbow and tugged to make him lean over the table towards him.

"You lean on your elbows to stare down at me while I go down on you and then drop back on the bed when I reach between your legs"

Now Alex was barely thinking about the other costumers on the place, keeping his focus solely on Vict who was replaying with a scary amount of detail the things Alex was usually too dizzy to remember.

The other boy kept talking.

"You close your eyes the moment I touch you and you hold your breath during the whole time I don't breathe"

As if on cue, Alex's breath hitched and he continued to gaze into the older boy's eyes completely mesmerized by his words. Their hands were still touching and Alex felt his palms beginning to sweat.

He could picture everything Vict was describing. Him spread on the bed, the other boy between his legs. It was like Vict's words were bringing forth the images his brain usually kept as a blur. Now he could see them clearly in high definition.

Vict's next words made him shiver again.

"You're sensitive. Like really sensitive. And you try to stay silent through all of this but you can never get past the nipples" Alex was glad to notice Vict had also dropped his voice so that only he could hear him. The blond appreciated the consideration but, at this point, he was pretty sure Vict could have been screaming at the top of his lungs and he wouldn't have cared as long as he kept talking. He squeezed the other boy's hand that hadn't stopped playing with his fingers "You make this small almost choking sound when I'm on them and then tap my shoulders when you think you can't take it anymore or when you actually want more"

Vict's eyes weren't locked on Alex's. They were roaming every inch of his body, not in a lustful way, Alex noticed, but as if Vict was recalling a different memory every time he focused on a particular part of it.

Alex continued to be speechless.

"Then it's like some restraint is broken and you get louder when I go down on you again. By this point you seem to be almost relaxed, until I reach too far down and you tense up all over again. That's how I know you're not ready for me to do that to you yet and that's usually your cue for wanting to change roles for a while"

Alex knew he wasn't the easiest person to handle when it came to intimacy. There were many things he didn't let the other boy try because he was afraid it might send him back on all the progress he'd made so far. He did remember that every time Vict tried to run his tongue over there, he felt like he couldn't breathe, and not in a good way. Having a panic attack in the middle of the night when they were doing it wasn't something he considered sexy. Unfortunately, that happening was a very real possibility.

He jumped when his chair was suddenly tripped from behind. A family looking for a table had walked so close to theirs that one of the kids had bumped against it. Nothing like the picture of a little perfect family to remind him that they were talking about sex in the middle of a sea of people!

Vict wasn't deterred though, merely leaning forward closer to him as the only sign of him acknowleding Alex's slight distress.

"You shower me with kisses, taking things slow for a while and driving me crazy, but I like it. Builds up anticipation"

"You hold on to my hands like this…" he continued, taking a hold of now both Alex's hands and intertwining their fingers "…when it's my turn to lay down and I squeeze them every few minutes to ask if you're okay. You always squeeze back. I loose sight of you for a moment when you're working on me and let me tell you, you're very good at it, blowing more than just my mind" Vict sent him a devilish smile and a wink and Alex turned several shades of red. The other boy took that moment as an opportunity to let go of his hands and lean back on his seat with a smug look on his face "So, you see? There are plenty of things that happen when we do it"

The blond felt the loss of Vict's hold as if someone had just removed him of his lifeline. Was Vict even aware of what he did every time he talked to Alex that way? Was the smug look on his face proof that he was?

Alex wasn't used to talking so openly about things like nipples and blowjobs and moans. He'd always been kind of conservative that way and after Kiev happened, he felt as though talking about it was somehow filthy and inmoral. But the way Vict was talking now, he didn't make it sound dirty or wrong, not entirely anyway. He talked about being together that way in such a loving, gentle and yet teasing way that Alex's mind couldn't help but be hooked and he didn't want the conversation to stop. He also wanted to reach for Vict's hands again, needing the contact to feel tethered.

Dimly aware of the backround noise of people talking, laughing and eating, Alex scooted his chair closer to the table and dropped his hands beside Vict's plate, giving him the hint to take them in his own again.

"W-what else is there?" this time, the smile Vict gave him wasn't smug or self-satisfied. It was kind. The older boy considered his question for a moment, looking at his body as if deciding what part of it he'd talked about next.

"This" he said, signaling to his middle "You tighten your stomach when I use my fingers" holy hell, was Alex's only thought along with a few butterflies spurting to life in his gut "It takes a while to stretch you but I don't mind the wait. You frown your eyebrows until you get used to it and then relax some again. Now don't get me started on what happens once I'm inside you because I could go on for hours"

Alex didn't say anything back. He watched Vict expectantly, waiting for him to continue on his own. He was reaching the most blurred parts of his memory, the part where the things he could actually remember strongly were the unbearable arousal, the slight pain and the wild beating of his heart. Never the details. He's never aware of time or space. He doesn't know how long it takes them to do it, minutes or hours. The only thing he remembers clearly is holding on to the other boy for dear life until the rush is over and his mind clears again. A part of him is always proud for managing to not pass out and the other one is just too tired to think of anything else. He does know they fall asleep pretty quickly after that.

He continued to stare at Vict silently until the other boy finally caved and let out a blissful sigh, thankfully taking the hint and intertwining their fingers once again.

"You hug me closer to you and hide your face on my shoulder. We take it slow at the beginning until you adjust to me and then we change positions because I think you're more comfortable when you ride me"

And once again, Alex felt himself blushing at the boldness of the words. Then he noticed Vict's tone had dropped at least an octave and he continued to speak with a flustered edge in his voice.

"The way you move, and the way you feel inside… You breathe loudly and your arms shake when you try to stay sitting upright but I like it when you just lay on top of me. That way I can talk to you while we move"

"That's what I can least remember" Alex said, clearing his throat, his voice adopting an apologetic tone "I think I hear you talking but I don't know what about" Vict's thumb began to distractedly rub circles in the palm of his hand.

"Mostly I just mumble nonsense I guess. Once in a while I tell you how great you are or how good it feels" oh, how Alex wished they could be alone right now.

Alex envied the way Vict could talk about it so freely. He wondered if it was because he felt comfortable talking to him or if it was just normal to do so, normal for everyone except Alex, he thought.

"...I make sure you're okay when I know you're about to get there and then after, when usually you're too tired to answer back" the other finished, sparking Alex's curiosity towards another matter.

"How... how do you know? When I'm about to... you know" he blushed furiously and stammered on his question but he figured if he couldn't talk about it with Vict, the one he did it with, then what was the point of a relationship?

The other boy shrugged.

"Your skin. Your neck and chest turn incredibly red from the strain, I suppose. Usually you come pretty quickly after that" the blond swallowed.

"How can you pay attention to all of that?"

"I like watching you" Vict answered matter of factly. Alex could hear the sincerity behind the comment and he smiled softly before dropping his gaze back to the table.

"Does it bother you? That I can't do that?"

"Not really. I understand you worry about other things when we do it" mainly not passing out, the blond thought bitterly.

"It's not fair to you"

"Says who? I think it's just how it is" Alex wasn't sure how to answer that, so he remained silent "You'll get better at it and even if you don't, I'm okay with that"

Alex looked up and smiled gratefully at him. Vict had never, ever presured him and even though Alex's insecurities sometimes got the better of him, thinking Vict would someday leave him for not being as experienced or comfortable with sex as he should, the other boy always managed to remind him that he had nothing to worry about.

Alex lifted himself off his chair and leaned over the table to plant a kiss on Vict's lips. The other boy responded in kind before pulling away and glancing somewhere behind Alex.

"We should go. Someone's waiting for the table"

Sure enough, a couple was standing awkwardy behind him with their trays at hand waiting for them to leave. They'd finished eating a while ago but had gotten caught up in their conversation.

"Right"

They gathered their plates and quickly cleared the table.

On their way out, Alex slipped his hand into Vict's.

"Are we going back to your place?" the blond asked. Vict didn't even had to answer for him to know that's exactly where they were headed. They turned a corner and began walking in the direction of Vict's new apartment.

"You think you'll be able to remember everything this time?" his voice had adopted that particular tone of teasing that made Alex feel both enfuriated and all goofy inside.

"Let's find out" Vict grinned at him and Alex was happy to notice at least his second try at flirting hadn't been as awkward as the first. At least it seemed to have the desired effect.

"That's my boy" Vict joked and pulled him along.

The hairs at the back of his head stood on end and Alex felt a tug on his gut at Vict's choice of words.

They walked alongside silently for a few minutes while Alex processed his feelings.

Somehow the words made him feel warm inside. Not in an aroused kind of way, at least not entirely, but in a way that made him feel part of something, of someone. He felt like he had indeed a place in their relationship and that maybe, just maybe, the thought of ownership wasn't something to be afraid of anymore.

He tugged on Vict's arm to call his attention and bring him closer. The blond then surprised him with a passionate kiss, heedless of the fact they were standing in the middle of a busy sidewalk and that people had to stop and walk around them for as long as the kiss lasted.

When they broke apart, Vict had a dazed look on his face and a silly smile that he sported all the way to his place.

Alex had the sudden impulse to tell him exactly how he felt about him. Using the words that would let him know how much he cared for him, but he stopped himself just in time. Not because he doubted his feelings, but because of how dangerous those feelings were. The fact that he'd been slightly aroused by Vict's last comment instead of freaked out being proof enough of that.

They continued to be on their way. Alex supposed they were both excited about what the afternoon entailed and he was glad it had been some time since the last time they did it. That meant he'd be able to go through it without any major hitch.

And, who knew? Maybe this time he would be able to remember it all. He would certainly pay attention to the details Vict had just spent the past half hour explaining. After all, he didn't want Vict's efforts to be wasted.

Optimistic as he felt, Alex let himself be guided to Vict's apartment with the sole purpose of proving to the other boy how much he felt about him in the best way that he could: by letting himself drop his guard enough for them to be together.

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I know, I know. This was short and rushed, but I wrote in the spurt of a moment. I hope you still enjoyed it though.

I would love to read your thoughts about it or if you have any suggestions or requests. If there's a particular scene you would like to read between Alex and Vict, make sure to let me know and I'll do my best to comply. Also, ideas are always welcome.

I'll go and try to work on the next chapter of "Who knows better?" now!

Until next time!