guess who's back…

A blue plus sign and her blue eyes starting to tear up. She closed her eyes to blink back the tears that had threatened to escape her eyes. She thought she wasn't going to break down about this, she thought she could keep herself strong and just toss the test afterwards, but right now she was shaking and her heartfelt warmer than ever. It was some sort of warmth that she had never experienced. And instead of tossing away that pregnancy test she held on it tightly, shaking a little.

How on earth was she supposed to tell her perfect husband?

After her shift ended and noticed her husband was still inside the OR, she left without him, trying to figure out a way to tell him, a way to calm down.

"Hey! Weiss told me you had called. I'm sorry I couldn't pick up." Savvy said as Addison picked up the call. The redhead's features were assaulted by happiness at the sound of her best friend's voice. "All okay back there, Addie? Is Derek behaving or do we have to take a plane to kick his ass?"

Addison chuckled, "He's been a good boy."

"Good to know, if anything changes, I'm one phone call away."

"Actually something changed." Addison said, taking a deep breath. The pouring rain outside obligated her to have to stand inside of this almost claustrophobic tomato soup can. "We're… we're moving!" She decided to communicated, instead of the true reason why she had called last night.

Savvy did a squeaky sound and then spoke, "That's great Addie! You will finally be able to send all your clothes to Seattle, right?! This is why you were calling? In case I could send some of your stuff?" Savvy asked.

Addison shook her head, "Um, no. But thanks for the tip, I'll keep it in mind." The redhead chuckled slightly, "I have something else to tell you, which terrifies me and I can't bring myself to tell Derek…"

"Addie, what is it?" Savvy's concerned voice spoke.

Addison let out a breath, "I told him everything. The pills, the miscarriage, everything… and now… now I'm scared of having to give him more hurtful news, because what if things end up like they did last time?! I denied for a full checkup after the miscarriage, maybe my womb can't deal with another human being besides myself!"

"Addison, slow the hell down. Don't get upset, just breathe. Come on, air in, air out." Savannah instructed her.

Addison did as told three times and then fell silent, "So you and Derek are going to have a baby, huh?" Savvy's happy voice cheered at the other end of the line.

Addison smiled, and even if she was worried and didn't know how to tell her husband that the word 'hypothetical' didn't belong to their inside joke anymore, she was afraid and concerned for her health and marriage. What if he wasn't that sure after they had discussed it back when they were at The Hamptons? What if it was just a silly thought that had crossed his mind.

"We are." Addison replied, sensing the emotion and happiness in her own voice.

She was sort of content even if her worries haunted her, she had always wanted a baby with Derek and their chance could be now.

"Congratulations!" The blonde woman said, "You and Derek will be great parents. When are you due?!"

"June 21st. Father's day."

"No way! That is so cute."

"Is Weiss with you?" Addison changed the theme.

"He is but he's out in the balcony talking about business on the phone. Should I tell him the news or wait for an update from you?"

"We both know you will tell him anyway, but if you can keep your mouth shut until another update, would be great. I want Derek to hear it from me."

"Alright. I'm happy for you Addie, and don't worry too much, just chill a little. Be more optimistic."

"It's funny how I married an optimist and I'm such a pessimist." Addison scoffed,

"It is! Well, I've got to go, but I'll be waiting for that update." Savvy said.

After the call was over, Addison proceed to drink some water, thinking it would help her nervous state of mind, even if she knew she could handle the situation, she did not feel capable of doing it right now. She was probably around six weeks or so judging by her symptoms, so that meant their baby was conceived by 'Sebastian and Pamela'.

She groaned as Derek's jeep lights got closer to their metal dream house.

Addison had to keep her hands busy so she decided to go find a towel, knowing her husband was going to be damp because of the rain. And then he was inside of the trailer and she was handing him the towel. "Oh Thanks! Hey, I talked to the realtor."

"You did?"

"I found an apartment near the hospital, I think you're gonna like it." He smiled warmly at her.

She showed no emotion, just nodded. "Everything alright?" He asked her, drying his hair with the towel.

"I'm okay." She almost whispered, feeling her stomach in knots as she watched him still drying his hair, her expression serious. "How… how was your day?" She asked after couple of muted seconds.

He took off his jacket and turned around to leave the towel where it belonged, "It was good! My current patients are improving so that must mean I did something right." He joked and then turned around to stare at her for a minute. Normally she would have laughed, but she didn't. She didn't even move a muscle, she was there, standing and looking at him like a scared puppy. "Addie, what happened?"

"You know how we have always made fun of people who have been born during a holiday and the attention would sadly be directed at the holiday instead of the birthday…"

"Yeah. What does that have to do with you?"

"Ah, um… You'll have to share father's day." She looked at him, expecting a reaction from him.

"What- I don't- What?!" He was confused at first, he took a step forward towards her. His face showed amusement.

"It's a crappy announcement, I know. I'm sorry! I didn't know what else to say and when I calculated it marked June 21st and that's father's day so that means we'll have to pay attention to the birthday and not the holiday and I just…"

"Addison, you're rambling." He stopped her from talking, his hands on both sides of her face as a smile started to grow on both of their faces.

"Congratulations?" She murmured, letting out a small chuckle.

He giggled and kissed her lips, after pulling away he embraced her and kissed her temple as their arms were wrapped around each other, "I knew they wouldn't stay hypothetical forever."

"Chill, daddy. For now it's just an it. Not a they." She whispered, happy to have him here, happy and not letting go of her.

After several minutes of squeezing his wife on his arms, he pulled a way kissed her stomach, "I already love it." Derek said.

She smiled and cupped his jaw, "Me too."

"How many weeks?"

"Six or so…"

"Oh god… do you think it was at the-"

"Definitely." She chuckled, remembering their roleplay exactly six weeks ago.

"Ah! Addie, we're gonna be parents!" He exclaimed, still not over the fact that his wife was now carrying a baby half him and half her.

She smiled spontaneously, "We are!"

He got closer to her and captured his lips with hers, as the way to celebrate. She parted her lips so he could enter his tongue inside her mouth, and he did and deepened the kiss. It was slow but meaningful and soft. She moaned as he kept on kissing her.

He pulled away and struggled with catching his breath, "I love you."

"I love you." She repeated, caressing his cheek with her thumb, "Our no-longer-hypothetical child will have the best dad ever."

"And the best mom too." He said, pushing her for another hug, still not believing how euphoric his heart had turned. Suddenly she was being lifted from the floor and he was carrying her like a bride, just like eleven years ago.

"Derek! What are you doing?! Let me down!" She protested, kicking as he kept on walking her towards their very, very, very small bedroom. He laid her on bed and attached her with kisses everywhere, her cheeks, her nose, her eyelids, her chin, her lips, her forehead, her temples, her ears… "Derek!" She exclaimed as she laughed, a bark from Doc encouraging Derek to continue on tickling and kissing his wife.

He grabbed both of her hands, "I'm sorry, I'm just too happy!" He said, kissing her hands now, all her fingers and every inch of skin. She giggled at the sweet and silly gesture.

But then reality hit her once again, and her eyes sparkle started to fade slowly. "Addie?" He questioned, clearly realizing how her lips now trembled and her eyes no longer shined like they did just about a minute ago. He sat up in bed next to her and looked at her, expecting an answer.

"I'm scared I won't be able to…" She gestured with her hands towards her midsection, "Carry it."

"Is this because of the miscarriage?" He asked softly, knowing this topic affected her.

She nodded mutely and sighed. She truly wanted this baby, but her fears were interfering in between her happiness. "What If there's something wrong with me and I can't carry the baby to term?" She asked slowly, looking into Derek's eyes, that turned as less sparkly as hers.

"Addie, you'll carry our baby to term. You will. We'll find you a good doctor and she or he will tell you everything's just fine. Alright?"

"But what if it isn't?!"

"Then we'll deal with it one way or another." He assured her, caressing her cheek, showing some support. "Think positive." Derek said, smiling a little at her, hoping she would feel calmer now.

She sighed again and got closer to him, sitting up a little and climbing around his figure, entangling her thighs with his and she let her head rest in the curve between his neck and shoulder. He responded by holding her close and kissing the top of her head, "You'll be just fine… It will be just fine." He said as he ran circles on her back with his hands, holding her as close as possible.

The image of a mini Derek or Addison could not get out of his mind, imaginating their house in this land, and their kid chasing Doc around the grass. The thought was comforting and made his heart feel warmth, because he had the feeling that if anything was wrong, they would find a way to fix it and overcome it. They had always done that, even when it seemed like their marriage was a lost cause, they kept themselves afloat.

The next day they met with their realtor and they went to look at the apartment Derek had found for them. At first he had thought the apartment was great, but now he realized they would need an extra room. Either way they went to see it.

"I love it." Addison beamed as they ended the tour. "It's perfect."

"Don't you think it's too small?" Derek questioned.

She nodded her head no, "Of course not, silly! You'll built the house and we'll stay while that… we still have like eight months to built, so…"

"So that's a yes?" He asked with a cocky grin.

The realtor smiled at both of them and watched Addison smile at her husband, "It is." Addison said, pecking Derek's lips.

After sealing the deal with the realtor they stated the last details of the rent and confirmed moving next month, which was in a couple of weeks.

Addison's smile couldn't go away, not even while she ate her salad at the hospital cafeteria later that day. Her face screamed joy and Derek was too, very happy for the next step for them. The day had gone great but it didn't get so good as Richard walked towards the couple with a serious expression, "Shep… We need to talk."

Derek looked at Richard with a curious and confused face. He hadn't done anything stupid in the past months besides screwing an intern, so he didn't know what this was about. "Go." Addison said, gesturing towards Richard.

Derek stood up and followed Richard to a bench where they could sit at and nobody would interrupt them. "Sloan is here." That's all he said.

"Excuse me?" Derek's eyes widened.

Richard sighed, "He's in my office, I lied and told him I had to check on a patient. He's here for a job, Derek."

"I'm going to kill him."

But before Derek could do a move, Richard had grabbed him by the sleeve of his scrubs and pulled him right back at the bench, "You will not do such thing. You will go to your wife, finish lunch and get away from here."

"What the hell does he want?!" Derek asked to no one in particular, growing angry.

Richard looked at the neurosurgeon in the eye and said, "You'll go home and take the rest of the day off. I'll figure out what Mark wants, I'll call you."

"How am I supposed to tell Addison?! God, it had been such a great day." Derek ran a hand through his hair, frustrated.

Richard nodded in understanding, "I'll have to come back inside now, it's not professional to leave someone waiting. I'll call you to let you know. Alright?"

"Alright." Derek conceded, coming back to the cafeteria after Richard had left.

She smiled even wider as he approached, "What was all that about?" She asked and proceed to take a sip from her water bottle.

He ran a hand through his hair, still a little affected by the news, but he wasn't going to kill her mood, so he put on a smile, "Callie told him we're moving and he wanted to make sure I wasn't going to screw up again."

"Aw, that's so sweet of him." Addison said, grabbing her husband's hand from across the table and giving it a gentle squeeze, "I thought we could do some shopping today… My phone has one of those GVS things so we won't get lost."

"You mean GPS?" He chuckled, adored by her silly mistake.

She rolled her eyes playfully, "You know I meant that. Besides we can get to know Seattle a little bit more, the only attraction we've seen until now is the ferrys and the hospital, on repeat." She said, taking a bite of her salad.

He nodded, "You're right. Do you think we could leave earlier today?"

"Earlier as when?"

"After lunch maybe?"

"Derek… I have work."

"We both know there is no surgeries for you for the rest of the day."

"I don't, but I do have paperwork." The redhead said in between bites.

"Come on, a good cup of coffee will keep you awake after shopping and I'll be there to massage your tense muscles." He squeezed her hand gently, expecting her to agree.

She sighed, "Okay, but let it be decaf, I wanna quit caffeine."

"I'm already proud of you." He smiled at her and kissed the back of her hand.

And the nightmare had started.

For Derek only, because Addison loved this. Picking up furniture and bedding, decoration, items… she loved it. He wasn't so optimistic about it but still had to deal with it and give his opinion. Suddenly she gasped loudly and his panic increased thinking something was wrong, but it was the opposite, he looked at her and she was pointing at a bed a few feet away from them.

"Addison, Jesus Christ. I thought something was wrong." He said.

She nodded, "There is somethig wrong. What's wrong is that we don't own that bed yet." She said as she started walking towards it and sat down. "And it's comfortable!"

"You just say that cuz you like how it looks like." He scoffed but lied down anyway, "Geez, this is truly comfortable."

"I feel like floating." Addison said, closing her eyes and letting the comfy bed feeling sink over here.

"So do I." He said.

"I think we're done shopping today."

Derek's eyes widened, "We are?!"

"Derek, whether you like it or not, I'm buying this bed and I'm going to go back to that trailer just so I can complain of our actual mattress."

That seemed like perfect plan and it was. Derek wanted to go back to the trailer and find a way to let her know Mark was here, he wanted to cuddle his wife and massage her shoulders as she stressed out about paperwork, he wanted this day to be over and meditate all his loud thoughts.

They bought the miraculous bed and went back to Derek's land. Well, their land. Addison slid her heels off as both her feet touched the trailer's floor. Doc as usual jumped around and barked, excited to have company once again. "Oh, I almost forgot… I made an appointment for Sunday, it's a private practice so I don't think we'll walk into anyone we know." She commented as she took off her coat.

Derek took off his coat too, "You did? That's great!" He couldn't help but smile a little, things were getting real by each second that passed.

She took her heels from the floor before Doc could get to attack them and walked inside of their 'bedroom'. "Yeah! I had met Eric when we were in a conference in New Jersey like two years ago, he's so nice. I had no idea he lived here. He sounded happy to hear about me."

"Eric? I… don't remember an Eric." Derek said, his stomach starting to create knots as she spoke about this Eric guy.

She nodded, "Come on! You must remember him. Two years ago, New Jersey, he sat next to you during dinner. Eric Holt." Addison tried to specify.

He scoffed, "I thought his name was Andy."

"Well the guy you thought was called Andy is going to deliver our baby, so you should get to know his actual name." She chuckled, unzipping her skirt.

"Why him though?"

"Because he's great at what he does. Well, I'm better for sure, but he's like… second best." Addison said, starting to unbutton her blouse.

He just stared at her, "Are you sure about him being your doctor?"

"Of course I am Derek. Otherwise I wouldn't have scheduled an appointment and I would certainly not shedule one if I thought he wasn't capable or good enough." Addison said, ordering her clothes used from the day, walking around the small trailer in only underwear.

"Just making sure!" He said, starting to undress himself, trying not to distract himself by her figure.

"Derek, are you jealous?" She chuckled, turning around to watch his cheeks grow a little redder than usual and his eyes to do that thing when he looks down or around just not to show he's lying.

"Of course not." He scoffed, taking off his flannel and tossing it on the bed.

She giggled again and nodded, "Sure."

Derek stood up and walked towards his gorgeous wife, "I am not jealous." He tried to assure her.

"You're not?" She asked, biting her upper lip.

He sighed, "Actually it depends if you find it sexy or not that I'm jealous."

"It is kind of a turn on." She shrugged, cupping his jaw with her perfect manicured fingers, her lips curling up into a seductive smile he knew quite well.

"Then I'm jealous." He said, taking a step forward.

"I knew it." She giggled but closed the space between them by kissing his lips slowly but passionately. She pulled back breathless a couple of seconds later, "Derek, you don't have to be jealous, you're the only man I want and my past mistakes won't screw this up for neither of us, or it." She said, running a hand through his curls, enjoying the touch.

He smiled at her, "You're so pretty."

"I know that, you'll have to work on your tactics to get me into bed with you." Addison chuckled.

"Um… Addison." He said after a couple of silent seconds of looking at each other like the world depended on it.

"Yeah?"

"Richard talked to me during lunch about something else… He… He told me Mark is in town."

There. He said it. it's out.

Her smile faded quickly, "Are you serious?" Her hand fell from the back of his head to her own side and she took a step back, starting to get affected by this.

"I didn't like it either." Derek said, running a hand through his hair as a frustrated habit.

She did the same and looked at him, "That's why we left early, right? He was there."

"Yeah. Richard promised me to call and let me know if he gives Mark a job or what." Derek blurted out.

She put both hands on her hips, "He thinks I aborted, Derek. He doesn't know I had a miscarriage and he… what if he finds out?! He's… Ah God." She started to freak out, pacing around the room.

Derek catched her upper arm and softly talked to her, "Calm down Addie, it doesn't matter if he finds out, it doesn't matter if he does and doesn't like it, because he's no longer a part of our lives."

"But he used to! He was your best friend and he was there when you weren't and I just… i don't know. I guess I don't want to hurt him anymore."

Derek knew what she meant. Addison was a compassionate human being and she didn't want to hurt anyone in particular, not Mark, but just generally in life she hated to be the bad guy or cause any pain (except while working, which was a different thing).

"I'm just… overwhelmed."

"I know honey, just, come here." Derek said, taking a step forward and wrapping his arms around her.

"I'm truly sorry." She mumbled against his skin.

He nodded slowly, "I know you are. I'm too."

After a few seconds she unfolded herself from his embrace and kissed his cheek, "i have paperwork to do."

"I'll bring you that decaf." He smiled in a friendly way at her.

She smiled back and walked back into the bedroom.

After a couple of hours, two cups of decaf and lots of paperwork they were both in bed ready to just fall asleep.

"What if we see him tomorrow? You aren't going to do anything stupid, are you?" Her concerned voice cut him through his thoughts about the same she was talking about: the possibilities of seeing Mark Sloan.

"Not if he does anything stupid first." Derek said.

Addison looked at him, "Don't be stupid, alright?" She asked politely.

"Relax, things will be just fine." He said, grabbing her hand under the sheets, rubbing his thumb over the back of it.

"I'm tired." Addison said as she closed her eyes.

"So I am."

She groaned, "But I think I'm horny too." She complained out loud. "Are you… in the mood? I mean we don't have to have sex, we can make out or just something to calm the feeling down…"

But before she could speak another syllable, his lips crashed against hers, she chuckled, "You think or you are?" He joked.

"I am." Addison stated as she snaked her hands through his sides to now be on both sides of his face, bringing him closer to him so she could kiss him.

But a phone started buzzing and the moment was dead once again. Now it was Derek's time to groan. "It's yours." Addison said, picking it up from his nightstand and handing it to him.

"Hello? Richard? Yeah…"

"What is he saying?!" Addison mumbled.

"Sh!" He said.

She hit him playfully in the arm for making her shut up, "Ow!" He muttered.

"Ah-huh. Okay. Well thank you Chief. You too. Goodbye." Derek said and then hung up.

"So?!"

"Mark starts working at Seattle Grace starting monday." Derek said.

Yes, i did that.

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