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The first thing I see when I open my eyes is Haruhi.
"Kaoru! You're awake, thank God." She says from the chair she is sitting in next to my bed.
My bed?
No, it's not my bed. It's a bed, but too small to be mine.
"Where am I?" I ask her as I put a hand on the back of my head.
My head hurts so much. It has that pounding it does every time after I…faint. Is that what happened?
"You're in a hospital, Kaoru." She says to me matter-of-factly.
"Why?" I ask. Though I already know the answer. It's because I fainted.
It has to be.
It all comes rushing back now. Sitting on the couch; Hikaru and I yelling at our fans the words we long to say to each other; Hikaru yelling that he no longer sees me as his brother; as his twin.
I remember Tamaki kneeling down beside me, though I don't recall what he said to me. Had he said anything at all?
The last thing I can recall is looking into those blue orbs of his and then…darkness.
"You fainted at the host club. It's been an hour since we brought you here." She tells me.
We?
I look around the room. No one is in it but Haruhi and me.
"Where are the others?" I ask, "Hikaru; Tamaki, where are they?" I ask more forcefully, trying to push myself up.
As I do, there is a pang in my right arm.
"Ow!" I let out and look down at my arm.
What the hell?
Most of my arm, up to my forearm, is covered in a plain white cast. How had I not noticed that when I woke up? And why do I even have it on?
I look over to Haruhi and am about to ask her when she sticks a hand up to silence me.
"When you fainted, you went to the side and fell off the couch. You were in an awkward position so when you slipped, you landed on your right arm." She answers me, as if she was reading my mind. It really is freaky sometimes. "Tamaki tried to catch you but…well he just didn't get you in time."
My arm is…broken?
I can't believe this! Of all my fainting spells, I break my arm when I fall off of a couch? And right after Hikaru yelled at me and practically disowned me?
God really must hate me.
But wait. Haruhi never answered my question: Where is everyone?!
"Haruhi, you never answered me." I say to her.
Her face shows a little surprise; most likely because of my apparent lack of concern for my broken arm.
The expression quickly disappears and she sighs.
"I wanted to talk to you one-on-one, Kaoru. I asked the others to leave for ten minutes while I waited to see if you woke up. This is the only way I can talk to you alone." She tells me.
I lock eyes with her. What could she possibly want to talk about?
She meets my stare and continues, "Over half of those minutes are gone, so I need to hurry. Kaoru…I wanted to tell you something…something really important." Her words come out fast and sloppy.
"Well what is it?" I ask her, getting a little annoyed at her for stalling so much. And for making it so that she was the first thing I saw when I woke up.
That's exactly what I want to see after an hour of seeing nothing but darkness.
She opens her mouth to tell me something when the door to my room swings open.
"Kao-chan!" Honey screams and he races up to me.
He throws Usa-chan to the side and jumps up on my bed, hitting my crippled arm as he does so.
"OUCH!" I wail.
"Careful, Honey-sempai, Kaoru's very fragile right now and we have to be careful with him; no matter how happy we are that he's awake." A voice says calmly.
I look up and see the owner of the voice.
Tamaki.
I want to smile, but my lips seem to be stuck in a permanent frown.
He seems to understand and nods, a sad smile playing across his lips.
At the sound of Honey's crying, I turn back to the small boy, "I'm sorry, Kao-chan! I was just so happy that you finally woke up!" he blubbers. Snot is beginning to form in his nose and his tears are free falling.
"Its okay, Honey." I tell him, trying to make him feel better.
Mori comes up from behind and grabs Honey from under the arms. He picks him up and puts the blonde on his shoulders.
Honey wraps his arms around his cousin and smiles, seeming quite happy again.
I look back up at Tamaki.
Kyouya is standing right beside him, but where is my brother?
Everyone is in here but him.
Would he really not come to see how I am? Would he carry his grudge this far?
Suddenly, Tamaki is pushed to the side.
Hikaru walks in with Dr. Hiromi close behind.
Hikaru looks at me and his eyes become wide.
I want to say something to him and I know he wants to say something to me, but both of us are beat by Dr. Hiromi.
"Hello, Kaoru, nice to see you again." She says to me brightly.
"I could argue with that." I mutter to myself.
She doesn't hear me and goes on, "Looks like you had a little accident, huh? I thought we already discussed that you need to get your proteins so you don't have these little fainting spells of yours."
Dr. Hiromi walks up to the side of my bed and looks at something on the clipboard she is holding.
"Hmmm." She thinks, "Looks like you hurt your arm pretty bad; it'll probably be about-" she counts out on her fingers, "-six weeks before your arm is fully healed."
My face falls, "Six weeks?" I repeat.
That's so long! What will I do until then? Wither away in my room?
Well…I guess I was kind of doing that already…
"Yes." She nods, "But don't worry, you'll be in good hands. I've talked to everyone in this room about taking care of you and what they will have to do. They decided among themselves who will be your main caregiver."
I look over to my group of friends and my lone family member.
My eyes expectantly go to Tamaki, who would be my first guess at who volunteered to take the most care of me.
He looks down and shakes his head.
He then lifts his head and nods it in the direction of my twin.
The whole time, Tamaki has a very disapproving look on his face, like he doesn't trust my brother to look after me.
"Hikaru?" I ask in a hushed voiced, my eyes changing direction so that I am now looking to my twin.
He looks at the floor and clenches his hands together. Before he can say anything, Dr. Hiromi-yet again-speaks.
"Your brother will be helping you with everyday things. Along with that, he will be making sure that you get all your daily proteins. Don't try anything with him, because he will be with you every minute of every day." She smirks, "It would be unwise to not eat."
The woman crosses her arms and continues, "Now Hikaru won't be your soul caretaker. All of your friends have agreed to help you out in any way they can once you return to school. Which should be soon. Though you may not think it, you can go to school with a broken arm." She chuckles.
I sigh.
I don't know what to feel right now.
I should be happy that Hikaru and I will be together twenty-four seven. We are practically being forced to interact with each other!
And with that, how will he have time for Haruhi?
I will finally be getting my wish of having my brother back!
On the other hand, we are starting off on bad terms.
Hikaru is under the impression I hate him while I am quite sure that he doesn't even see me as anything but a memory.
How could this possibly turn out well?
I for one don't have the guts to talk to my brother; to tell him how I really feel. Especially now that I have realized that what I'm feeling for him isn't just brotherly love, but true love.
And I also know that he is much too stubborn to take his words back.
So there is no way this is going to end well.
Right?
"When will he be able to leave the hospital?" Tamaki chips in.
Dr. Hiromi turns her attention to him, "He should be able to leave tomorrow morning. I just want to have him spend the night to make sure he is stable, but that's only me being extremely cautious. He should be fine." She tells him.
Tamaki sighs with relief and smiles. He must have had a lot of tension when he came in because the difference in him now is quite obvious.
"Which reminds me, you all need to get out of here!" Dr. Hiromi says suddenly, clapping her hands together. "Kaoru here needs his rest and he can't do that with all of you lot in here. So shoo, go on, say good-bye and get out!" she says sternly, beginning to shoo everyone to the door with her hands.
Everyone waves to me and says their good-byes until I am finally alone, Dr. Hiromi leaving with them and closing the door behind her.
Now I am left alone to my thoughts.
So Hikaru and I will have to spend every waking minute together for six weeks straight?
It's funny that I use the words "have to". A few weeks ago, it would be like any regular day for the two of us to be together every second of the day.
I can't help but wonder what tomorrow will bring.
XX
Dr. Hiromi pushes me out of the hospital in a wheelchair.
As soon as my eyes adjust to the bright sunlight, I see a black stretch limo and Hikaru.
He gives a lazy wave to Dr. Hiromi and runs up to the two of us.
I avert my eyes from him and look down at the concrete ground. I can't look him in the eyes. If I do, he will see the fear in them; the fear of having to spend six weeks with someone who says he can't even call me his brother.
Or will he?
"Hikaru, nice to see you." Dr. Hiromi greets my brother in a friendly matter.
Hikaru doesn't say anything and, taking me by surprise, extends his hand.
I look up from the ground and stare at his hand. It is just hanging there; waiting for me to grasp it.
I reluctantly stick my good hand out and intertwine my fingers with my brother's.
They fit as perfectly as I remember.
Hikaru tightens his grip and pulls me up.
My feet hit the ground and I feel a bit wobbly. Hikaru notices this and pulls me in closer.
He puts his free arm around me and holds me close, mimicking how Tamaki held me on our way back from the park.
Neither of us says a word to each other as he guides me to the limo.
Dr. Hiromi hurries behind us and quickly opens the back door to the limo. Hikaru helps me inside before turning to my doctor.
"I assume one of the nurses gave you the list of things you will need to do for your brother?" she asks my twin.
"Yeah, I got it." He nods his head solemnly.
Dr. Hiromi straightens up, "Well, just to make sure, you're going to need to help him into his clothes, feed him-make sure he eats!-bathe him, help him get settled in bed." She thinks. "Which reminds me, you are going to have to sleep in the same bed as him. I didn't tell you this yesterday but-" the woman lowers her voice, trying to make it so that I don't hear. I do anyways, though. "-your brother has shown many signs of depression. We are afraid that if he is left alone at any time, he may do something…irrational. It would be best that you stay with him all hours of the day. If you need some time to yourself, it is understandable. We have talked to your friends and they have agreed to take shifts with your brother on some days of the week, if that's alright with you."
Hikaru nods his head and the doctor continues.
"Good. We have also given them the same list that you received. All you have to do whenever you need your alone time is to drop him off at one of your friends' houses. Simple as that. Though I strongly suggest that you don't take too many of these little breaks. Your brother is obviously going through something and it's up to you to find out what that thing is. Something has occurred to make your brother act out in this way. If we don't do something about it, I'm afraid things will just get worse."
I see Dr. Hiromi try to subtly hand Hikaru something.
She says, in an even quieter tone than before, "These are antidepressants. Just give one to your brother every morning during breakfast. Tell him they are for pain if you must; just make sure he takes them."
Hikaru looks at the object in his hand for quite a long time. He rolls the bottle in his hand.
"Do you understand everything I have just told you?" Dr. Hiromi whispers.
After a few moments, Hikaru nods his head and says in a strained voice, "Yes, I understand."
"Good!" Dr. Hiromi's voice returns to normal level and is quite cheery.
She looks past my brother and to me, "You feel better, Kaoru! I hope I won't be seeing you here soon!" she waves goodbye and Hikaru turns around, and then slams the door.
He walks to the other side of the limo and slides in next to me.
As the limo drives away, Dr. Hiromi waves until she is well out of sight.
I feel eyes on my back and turn from the window to find Hikaru intensely staring at me.
I start to tap my foot nervously and begin picking invisible lint off of my cast.
"Kaoru…" he says suddenly.
I don't reply and turn away.
I look out the window and watch the passing scenery.
I almost wish it were Tamaki I was in the car with. With him, I could snuggle up close and talk about everything I want to say to Hikaru.
It's quite ironic, really.
I have been wishing for my brother to turn his attention towards me for weeks. Now, the opportunity for him to do just that has practically fallen in my lap, and I am wishing for someone else.
I guess I am like my brother in the sense that we are both very complicated.
After a few minutes, the limo pulls into the Hitachiin Mansion.
Hikaru gets out first, then comes around to my side and helps me out.
He helps me up the stairs to my room and I allow him to, only because I know I would not be able to climb them alone.
We reach my room and he brings me to my bed, where I plop down.
He stands silently in front of me, studying me almost.
I try to lock eyes with him, but I find it impossible.
Instead, I look around my room, finding interest in every small thing.
Finally, my brother breaks the awkward silence.
"Kaoru," he starts. I believe he is about to apologize. If he does, I will forgive him and this whole situation will take a violent turn for the better. "You stink." He whispers.
Well that was certainly odd, but I suppose I put too much hope in him.
He will defiantly not be the one to take the first step in re-building our broken relationship.
I look at him in pure shock, "Uhhhh." Is my only response.
What words could I possibly say to him? Will I ever be able to speak to him again without my heart breaking?
"I'll start a bath for you. Please just stay right here." He tells me sadly.
Is he afraid I'll go and do something stupid?
My brother walks to the bathroom that is in my room. I soon here the sound of water running and he returns.
"Do you have any plastic bags in here?" he asks, but he is already walking to the spot next to my trashcan where I keep a bundle of plastic bags.
He grabs one and walks up to me.
He kneels down and grabs the exposed part of my broken arm.
I shudder at his touch. He is so warm and I feel so cold.
He tenderly lifts the part of my arm that is covered with the cast and slips the bag on.
He ties it, and then looks up at me.
For a moment, our eyes lock and we remain in silence.
His hand is holding my arm so lovingly and so softly. I almost want to say something. I almost want to tell him I'm sorry.
But then the image of him shouting at me clouds my mind and I turn away.
He sighs sadly and stands up, "You can't get you're cast wet so every time you take a bath, we'll have to cover it with a plastic bag." He informs me.
I look to the side and nod my head.
Once again, he sighs.
Hikaru walks towards the bundle of plastic bags once again and grabs another one.
He disappears into the bathroom. He's in there for a few moments before I hear the running of water stop.
Only a few seconds later, he is by me again.
He helps me stand up and I let him. We walk to the bathroom together.
I see that there is a chair by the side of the tub and wonder if Hikaru was in here last night; making certain arrangements that went along with the list he was given.
"Sit down, Kaoru." Hikaru orders me, letting go of me.
I take a seat in the chair.
Hikaru bends down and begins untying my shoes. He removes them both and throws them to the side, along with my socks.
I take a look around the bathroom and notice that there are no razers anywhere to be seen.
I remember the plastic bag he brought in only a few moments again.
Had he thrown away all the razers? Why would he do something like that? That doesn't make any s-
Wait, does he think I'm going to hurt myself with them?
How could he possibly think that?!
He's taking this depression thing way too seriously.
I would never hurt myself!
I've only ever thought about it…
"Lift your arms." Hikaru tells me, bringing me out of my thoughts.
I look up at him with wide eyes.
Wait…he has to undress me?
Hikaru rolls his eyes and gives me a weak smile, "Don't be shy, Kaoru; it's not like I haven't seen you shirtless before." He announces before lifting up my arms for me.
I don't fight, I only whine my protests.
He begins to lift my shirt. It becomes a little difficult on my right arm due to the cast and bag, but my shirt is eventually thrown to the side along with my shoes and socks.
"Oh, Kaoru." Hikaru whispers as he sees my weak body.
I close my eyes. Has he really not seen my body since he started dating Haruhi?
"I'm going to take your pants off now." He lets me know before bending down and pulling off the sweatpants I am wearing.
I feel incredibly vulnerable sitting there with nothing on but my boxers.
And I know that feeling will increase tenfold in a few moments when I am stripped of those as well.
Hikaru puts his fingers under the waistband of my boxers, looks me in the eyes, and pulls them down to the ground.
Naked.
It's not really that that bothers me.
It's the look on his face as he gets an eyeful of my pathetic body.
Now that he's finally noticed my horrible condition, I feel ashamed.
"Okay, in you go." Hikaru says, forcing his eyes away from my body.
He helps me up.
I step into the water and am pleased to find it a perfect warm temperature.
I sit down and slip lower into the huge tub until my whole body is completely submerged in the water.
Hikaru sits down in the chair and grabs a cup that sits on the floor.
He fills it with some of the tub water and pours it on my head after warning me to close my eyes.
The water drips down my face.
It feels surprisingly nice and I begin to feel more comfortable.
My tense shoulders begin to relax and I sigh.
From above, Hikaru chuckles, "Oh, Kaoru." He says simply before pouring another cupful of water onto my head.
Next, he takes a bottle of shampoo and squirts some of it into his hands.
He rubs his hands together, and then begins scrubbing the shampoo into my hair.
Despite my feelings at the moment, his touch sends tingles throughout my whole body.
He notices how I shudder and chuckles once more, "So sensitive, Kaoru." He says, more to himself than anything.
After getting the shampoo out of my hair, he puts in conditioner.
And finally after that, he brings out the body wash.
"Turn around, baby brother." He tells me.
I oblige with no hesitation.
I am becoming addicted to him washing me, no matter how much I don't want to.
He scrubs my back gently with a washcloth.
After my back come my arms, then my feet, and then finally my legs.
As he washes my thighs, I have to bite my lip to hold back the moan that is building in the back of my throat.
Why can't I just ignore the feelings him washing me is giving me?
Why must those tingles travel straight to my groin?
I begin to fumble awkwardly, trying desperately to push away from Hikaru.
He notices this and smiles, "Don't worry, Kaoru. I won't think any less of you just because I'm washing your more sensitive areas and it has an effect on you." He tells me knowingly.
Despite myself, my face turns a bright red.
I look down at the water and allow him to finish up.
When it's all done, he stands up and helps me out of the tub, handing me a towel as soon as I'm up.
I quickly wrap it around myself and dry off as best I can, though my arms feel weak.
Once I am all dry, Hiakru helps me into new clothing, making sure I am layered enough to keep me warm considering how cold I feel.
He helps me into my bed and tucks me in, and then jumps in on the other side.
I keep my back turned towards him, not wanting him to see me.
Suddenly, a chill goes through my body and I shudder.
As soon as I do, I feel a body press up against me and an arm is thrown around me, pulling me in close.
My heartbeat quickens.
I almost say something, but Hikaru speaks first, "I'm here, Kaoru, don't worry."
I close my eyes tight and bury my head into my pillow.
Why is he doing this?
Why is he being so nice?
How can he so easily forget those words he said to me?
Will he ever bring them up?
Will he ever apologize?
And why is it that my feelings are so messed up right now, that I don't know whether I should be happy about this, or even more depressed.
To be continued.
Sooo...do you feel a little better about Hikaru now? Must he still redeem himself? And him and Kaoru are forced to spend time together? Oh my...
Well, tell me what you thought :D And I may seem a little loopy considering how late it is... thanks for reading!