A/N - We get to find out what's in those envelopes in this chapter. I know some of you were speculating. I hope you aren't disappointed! ;)

Monica pulled all the contents out of the envelope. There was a loose document and then a smaller white envelope inside that looked like a letter. She looked at the document and saw it was a birth certificate. She scanned the document quickly and saw under "Father's name," it stated, Alan Quartermaine. Looking further she saw "Mother's name," Monica Quartermaine, what in the world, she thought to herself. Who is this for? As she continued to inspect the document she saw it, right there in black and white, "Child's name," Andrew Quartermaine. Monica's eyes filled with tears and she reached her hand up to her mouth as she gasped. "Oh my god!" she cried out through her tears, "He changed his name." Monica gently set the birth certificate down and quickly began to open the small white envelope. It was a letter. A letter from Drew. Monica took a deep breath in as she began to read:

Mom –

I hope you aren't too mad at me for going off and doing something 'a little crazy,' without talking to you first. I just had to. I have to get my memories back, my past. I need to be a whole person again, for Scout, for my family, but mostly for me. I hope that's not being too selfish, but after Kim's lie I just can't risk that happening again. I need to know what else might be out their lurking so I can deal with it how I want and not react to someone else's actions.

You and I didn't really start out as a traditional mother and son, I mean, you thought I was a total different person, literally. Still, you gave me the best gift in the world, you became my mother. You stayed my mother even when you didn't have to. That gift is one of the most precious things in my life. You will never know how truly blessed I felt when you wanted to go ahead and adopt me. You had no reason to do that, other than, I'm your son. I love you so much and you are my mother and I feel so connected to you and that's why I wanted to change my name. I hope you don't mind, because again, something 'a little crazy,' that I didn't talk to anyone about.

I'm doing this procedure because I feel I have no choice at this point. I'm pretty confident I'm going to come out on the other side, just fine, Dr. Maddox feels there are minimal risks, now that we have the flash drive, but just in case something happens, I just wanted you to know how much I love you and how much you have changed my life with your acceptance. You are the only person who has stood by me from the beginning, during all the crazy twists and turns and you will never know how grateful I am for that.

Please try not to worry, I will see you soon.

Love,

Your son Drew

Monica dropped the letter onto the coffee table as tears were streaming from her eyes. She was so proud to call Drew her son and grateful to have that connection to a child again. He had no idea how much he had helped her and brought so much joy into her life. He had blessed her with a granddaughter. A beautiful, happy granddaughter. At that moment Monica remembered, Scout was still upstairs. She instantly became grateful for Sam's rush to leave and her need to let Scout stay the night. Monica popped up from the sofa and as she did she grabbed the letter and the birth certificate. She held them tightly to her chest as she turned to leave the room. She needed to see Scout right now. She needed to feel that connection to her son. "Please God," she began to pray, "Please let MY SON, be okay," she squeaked out through her tears. Monica began to climb the stairs and make her way to the nursery. She would need to be strong for her granddaughter, she would need to make sure Scout was okay, that's what her son would want her to do, and she wasn't about to let him down.

Sam threw open the penthouse door as she burst through. She had rushed so fast to get back here from the Quatermaines, not breaking any speeding laws, but she was damn close. The whole way over she couldn't stop thinking about Drew, did he really go off to have the procedure? Would he do that without saying anything to her? What about Scout, why didn't he at least say goodbye to her? Scout! Maybe that's why she had been so fussy the last few days, she knew. The two of them always had been bonded pretty closely. It makes sense, seeing as how Drew literally breathed life into her. Sam quickly scanned the desk looking for that envelope. She grabbed it and began tearing into as she made her way over to the couch. As she settled in on the cushion she took a deep breath and slid the contents out next to her. Out of the envelope came a smaller white envelope and two rectangle shaped papers. The loose papers had fallen out upside down so Sam couldn't readily see what they were. When she flipped them over she recognized them immediately. "Two tickets to Thailand," she whispered gently a soft smile forming on her face. She recalled that day in Drew's office when she had given these to him. Back before everything went to hell. She held the tickets in her hand and examined them a bit. She had remembered she made them open ended so that her and Drew could take the trip whenever they wanted. Sam set the tickets down on the coffee table gently and picked up the white envelope. Across the front in Drew's handwriting it read, "Sam." She took a deep breath in, closed her eyes and raised her head up to the ceiling briefly. She wasn't sure what she would read inside, but she was ready to find out. She opened the envelope and took out the folded papers. "Come on Sam, you're no chicken, "she said to herself as she unfolded the pages and began reading.

Sam –

By now I am sure you have figured out that I have gone out and done something, 'a little crazy.' I'm sure Curtis has 'accidentally,' let something slip about his covert mission I sent him on and the favor I asked of Jordan. Please don't be too mad at him. I asked him not to say anything to you, so that's on me. I didn't tell anyone. I needed to do this for me and I just couldn't hear any reasons why I shouldn't do it. I know that is pretty selfish of me, but just this once I needed to be. I don't know if you have heard about Oscar or not, but, Kim lied and he is not my son. That hurt, that hurt a lot and I just couldn't take having my life turned upside down again by something from my past that I didn't know. I hope you can understand that.

I'm sure you see I have enclosed the Thailand tickets. Wish we could have made that trip but I guess it wasn't in the cards. I want you to keep them and take Scout one day. I'm sure you can change my ticket in on one for her. Please, take her and show her an amazing adventure she will never forget. You always were up for a good adventure and so I hope you and our daughter can share a great one together. I know you'll make sure she grows up to be confident, self-reliant, loyal, kind, compassionate and an all around kick-ass. You are such a great mom and our daughter couldn't have asked for a better one.

Sam, I still love you so much. I don't' know if you realize that or not, but I do. I know I have been distant and even cold at times, but I was so hurt, I couldn't see past that and I was being stubborn. I don't want you to feel guilty for us falling apart, I have responsibility in that too. I never told you something, something very important, I never told you, I'm sorry.

I'm sorry Sam, not, not for leaving that night because we both needed space, but for giving up. I gave up on us Sam. You told me that you still loved Jason and it was like a knife in my heart. Funny thing is, I knew. I may not have wanted to say it out loud, but I knew. I chose to ignore it because I was too selfish. I didn't want to give you or our life up so I ignored and hid from the obvious. I of all people should have known what a strong connection you have with Jason, I know his whole life after all. After you told me you still loved him, I realized I had been hiding from it and you had been hiding from it, so I did the only thing I knew was right. I gave you space. I knew you would feel guilty for the whole situation and would worry about me and want to be sure I was okay. So I pretended. I pretended to be okay, I pretended to be mad at you, I pretended whatever I needed to so that you would be able to figure things out for yourself and not worry about me. I'm sorry Sam. I never should have given up. I should have fought for you, for us. God knows I wanted to, but I didn't want to pressure you and make it that much harder on you. Then, when I kept seeing you with Jason, I just figured you had made your decision and I was too late. I need you to know though, I never stopped loving you, wanting you, needing you, reaching for you at night. All of it, I miss it all every day, still. I miss our family and all the dreams we had for our future, but I only have myself to blame for not trying. Please don't feel guilty for how things turned out, I have just as much responsibility in it, as I said, I was hiding.

I'm not going to hide anymore though. I am getting my memories back and I am going to know everything about myself and my past. Dr. Maddox is pretty confident he can merge my recent memories with the baseline from my past, I hope so, I don't ever want to forget you, Sam. Even with all the bad stuff that happened, you are the love of my life. I'm pretty sure even if I never remember our past together I will always be drawn to you though, because, we're meant to be. We're forever.

Take care of yourself and the kids.

All my love,

Drew

Sam's eyes were streaming with tears and she was quietly sobbing. "Oh my god," she said weeping. "He was letting me figure it out." Sam's realization washed over her. That's why he had bowed out so quickly. He was trying to protect her from herself. He was giving her time and space to figure it out and she didn't see it. She let her guilt and disappointment blind her to his true intentions. Sam grasped the letter tighter to her chest as she laid down on the sofa sobbing. What if she never saw him again? What if this letter were the last words Drew ever wrote to her. The pain of not seeing him ever again cut deep and she began wailing even harder. How would she explain to Scout one day about how she threw away the best thing that ever happened to her. It was in that moment that Sam realized, "the best thing that ever happened to her." It had been staring her in the face this whole time. She had let nostalgia and guilt about Jason cloud her true feelings for Drew. He was the best thing that ever happened to her, they had an incredible bond. Drew was right, they were meant to be! Sam sat up quickly and began to wipe the tears off her face. She was not going to let this happen without a fight. It wasn't too late, it couldn't be. She loved Drew and she had to fight to make sure he was going to be okay. No matter how hard it would be or impossible it may seem she was going to find out where Drew was and be there for him. She had to, there was no other choice, her and Drew were meant to be, forever.