Blaine was sitting on the dock, pants rolled up and feet on the water, looking far away, but his mind was elsewhere. The sun hadn't risen yet, everything was dark, the only light coming from the moon and the stars, but it was more than enough to see in the lake. It had been a year since the incident, a year since he found Kurt bleeding to death in the forest. He still cried when he thought about that day, and he guessed, he always would. It wasn't something you could easily forget. He had started having panic attacks whenever he heard a loud sound. Whenever someone in Nolein died, he had heard people trying to comfort the families telling them that with time it would be easier, but that was the biggest lie he had ever heard, because it was impossible for it to be easier, you just got used to it, you learn to protect your heart, at least, that's what Blaine thought.
He felt something nudging his arm and when he turned his head he saw a cute little grey wolf. Thárros was the son of Blålys and Skygge and was barely one month old. His eyes were a beautiful green color that morphed into a light blue on the outsides, golden surrounding the pupil.
"Hey, buddy, you woke up early, what are you doing here?" Blaine asked petting the wolf on the head. Thárros was the height of a normal adult wolf, but his mind was still the one of a pup and he only wanted to play, eat and sleep.
He answered yawning and resting his head on top of Blaine's thigh, laying down and going to sleep again.
"I'm tired too, but too restless to sleep" Blaine whispered while he rubbed the wolf's side "One exact year from today, Kurt- he-" Blaine said with a trembling voice, eyes watering "I can't even bring myself to say it out loud, it's just too painful" Blaine murmured wiping a tear that had fallen from his left eye "I could have lost him. I could have lost the love of my life" He said brokenly, Thárros looking up at him with sympathy, because if Kurt had died on that day, Thárros wouldn't have even met him, and the little wolf had devotion for Kurt. Kurt spoiled him like the uncle he said he was, and the pup loved him for it.
The wolf sat down and nuzzled his nose against Blaine's cheek, licking his tears away and making Blaine chuckle.
"Thárros, leave him alone, I don't want to smell your stinky breath on him whenever I kiss my husband" Kurt said from behind them, his arms over his chest and an amused smile on his face "Come on, go with your parents before they find out you've scaped" Kurt said nodding his head in the direction the cave was supposed to be, the little grey wolf whining. Kurt kneeled with one knee and the wolf walked towards him "I need to talk with Uncle Blaine, I promise to play with you later, okay? But right now we need some time alone" Kurt said kissing the top of Thárros' head and waiting for the wolf to go.
Kurt went and sat next to Blaine, mimicking his position, legs and arms touching "Hey, how are you?" Kurt asked softly.
"I don't know" Blaine whispered "Sad and happy. Angry and calm. I just- I feel overwhelmed when I think about what could have happened" He said.
Kurt took Blaine's hand and said "It will take more than a gunshot to pull me away from you"
"Kurt, I'm serious, you know we were lucky" Blaine said with a straight face, squeezing Kurt's hand as if to make sure he was real.
And yes, Kurt knew. He had woken up three days after he got shot, barely able to move a muscle. It had taken him a lot of time to recover, and Pam had told him that if a few more minutes had passed he would have died, if he had lost just a bit more of blood, they wouldn't be talking on the dock right now. Blaine would be mourning the death of his husband.
"I know" Kurt whispered "But I don't want the memories of the past to ruin my present" Kurt said.
"I'm just scared, scared that one day I'm going to wake up and you'll be dead, scared that this is just a dream or something like that" Blaine admitted, and he didn't notice he was crying until Kurt cupped his face and brushed the tears away.
"Blaine, you can't live your life afraid, but you should be afraid of not living your life. I'm right here, with you, and that's all that matters. I'm safe, stronger than ever before thanks to your help. I can't promise you that nothing will happen, because we can't know that, but I can tell you, Blaine, that no matter what, I will always love you, in this life, or in other. You are my soulmate, and my love for you goes beyond life and death. As you told me when we first started being boyfriends, you can have me forever, I promise" Kurt said kissing Blaine softly on the lips.
"I love you, Kurt" Blaine said resting their foreheads together.
"I love you too, Blaine, and I can't wait to spend the rest of forever with you" Kurt said softly.
"Forever sounds perfect" Blaine said, just a few inches away from Kurt's lips "I promise that you can have me forever too"
What mattered now was that they had each other, and as the sun began to rise, the sky filling with color, they kissed, ready to face the rest of their lives together.