Chills. Fear. Guilt.
"I cannot move."
"Spiller, help me!"
"Please!"
"Spi..."
"Arrietty!"
Arrietty then woke up. She was just dreaming, a very sad and fearful dream.
It was the morning after her "failed night trip" to Sho. She didn't want to wake up and hoped she won't wake up anymore.
"Are you alright?" Her mom asked.
"Yeah... just a dream."
"C'mon! Breakfast is ready. I've prepared hot herb tea and cookies for us. Your father is also waiting."
"I'll be at there in a minute mom."
"Hurry up!" said Arrietty's mom before going down to the kitchen.
I can't face Spiller now. I don't know how to face him either. I just want this misunderstanding to end.
After a few moments of thinking, Arrietty decided to stand up from the bed and change her dress before going to the kitchen. Her steps felt like they were really heavy, but she had to act normally because her parents don't have any idea what happened last night.
"C'mon Arrietty, food's still hot. Sit." Her dad told her when he saw her.
She did sit on a chair and started eating. The three of them had a normal conversation, and she had to talk and act like nothing really bad had happened.
After breakfast, she told her parents she'll take a walk outside, without them knowing she will go and talk to Spiller about what happened last night.
Arrietty went to Spiller's house, although she knew there's a big chance the guy was still asleep. He leads the hunting group, so most of the day, Spiller is sleeping as hunting happens at night.
Arrietty knocked on Spiller's door many times, calling his name, but he did not answer. After several attempts, Arrietty decided to leave. But, when she turned around to take her steps from the house, the door opened.
She turned around again and saw Spiller. His face was proof of a deep sleep that just woke up. Arrietty couldn't stop appreciating Spiller's morning look.
The man was half naked. His hair was a little bit messy that perfectly fits how his fierce and musculine face looks. His upper body was a perfect shape, six packs, lean muscles, and wide shoulders. His pair of legs was a proof of him being a hunter, with lean and tone muscles. His arms are also blessed with tone muscles that every girl can wish to be wrapped around them.
Arrietty swallowed quite a huge volume of saliva. She didn't know this man was physically mouth-watering. She can't blame herself because he is covered with a thick animal fur most of the time. That's how he dresses, like a cave man.
Spiller noticed Arrietty's admiration, and he didn't know how to react to it. He felt ashamed.
"Come in." He finally said to Arrietty.
"Thank you."
"I was asleep. I didn't immediately notice you're here."
"It's okay. It wasn't long when I knocked on your door and you opened it."
She lied. She was like knocking on his door for like 30 minutes.
"Take a seat." Spiller then cleaned a chair that's full of dirt and small things.
"Thank you, Spiller, but I won't take much of your time because I'm already disturbing you."
"It's fine."
SILENCE.
Arrietty finally decided to speak.
"Spiller, I want to say thank you for last night and I'm sorry. I owe you my life."
Spiller did not respond. He was only staring at her. Arrietty, on the other hand, felt really guilty now. She only looked down because she couldn't exactly express how she feels.
Spiller took several steps and stopped a few inches from her. Arrietty could only see his dirty feet while she was looking down.
"I saved you because I know deep in my heart that I should. And, I couldn't forgive myself if something terrible happens to you. That's how I felt last night."
Arrietty then gazed at Spiller, looking straight at his eyes. Spiller did the same, too. She can see his admiration for her through his eyes.
They were staring at each other for quite a long time, and she admitted to herself at that time that she wanted to forget about her feelings for Sho and allow Spiller's musculine energy to fill her.
They created a connection at that moment that she doesn't want to be interrupted.
Spiller took advantage of that moment and took a few more steps to get closer to her. Arrietty suddenly felt nervous, and she was excited to know what will happen next.
Spiller touched her face slowly, feeling her skin and her natural heat.
"Arrietty..."
She opened her mouth to say something, but she couldn't say the words.
Spiller stared at her lips, and she knew what he wanted at that moment - a kiss.
She didn't know why she was doing it, but she instantly closed her eyes, ready to be kissed. Spiller was quick at reading the situation, and he slowly allowed his face to get near Arrietty's to kiss her.
And then, they finally kissed.
Spiller was gentle at first, but his kiss was getting more passionate as they kissed deeper. He wrapped his left arm around Arrietty, not wanting to let her go. His right hand was holding her head for support as she was already bending backward because Spiller was kissing her passionately.
The kiss was long, and Arrietty felt it was wet, nicely wet.
When the kiss finally ended, they both gasped for breath. Spiller was still holding her, and their foreheads were touching with eyes closed.
"Spiller, this is..."
"Shhh... Please don't spoil this moment."
She decided to just shut up.
"If only..." Spiller couldn't continue.
They then separated their foreheads and opened their eyes. Spiller's hands were now holding her face and staring intimately at her.
"I'm sorry." Spiller said and broke the moment.
He let go of her and turned his back at her. He continued to talk.
"Forget about what happened last night. We are both Borrowers, and it's only natural to help a fellow Borrower."
Arrietty could only look down because she didn't know what to respond.
"You may go now if that's you're only concern."
It may sound rude, but it's the normal Spiller. That's how he is.
"I'll go now. Sorry for disturbing you. Thank you."
Arrietty then walked out of the house and closed the door. Spiller was left alone with mixed emotions.
"If only, you'd allow me into your heart." Spiller clenched his fists, getting angry at the situation they are in.
Did Arrietty cheat on her feelings for Sho?