AN/: Okay... really left that one on a bummer. Sorry about that. I will upload the rest of the story in three chapters.
Dear Diary,
Today I was walking in a field and I saw a sunflower. It was peeking from the bushes and pointing straight to me.
I planted it right outside my kitchen so it can watch me cook and smile.
Smile just for it
And just for him…
Dear Ivan,
I know this letter will never get to you. There's no way it can get to you so I'll write exactly what I feel.
I love you, I wish you had never left me. I wish I had of protected you from this cruel world.
That's how it should've been Ivan: I should've protected you instead of falling victim to gossip and fear.
I didn't though and for that I'm sorry, please forgive me.
I know you would forgive me- you're always so kind in that way.
Even when I forced you out of my country you tried to forgive me. You smiled at me everyday and I never smiled back. I can't help but think if one of my smiles would've saved you.
Though you were different when you smiled at me: you were Ivan again.
I miss you so much Ivan, I just want you to come back to me.
I want us to be together again.
I would give my life to be with you. This world is a tragic mess and you were the only person who gave me hope that people could change. Now you're gone I realize that.
I love you Ivan and I know that you're always watching me. I hope you'll wait for me like I will for you.
Even if I have to suffer a thousand more years on this damned Earth I'll wait for you in my next life. I promise and I don't break my promises either.
I love you.
Yao.