Full S.N.A.F.U.
*flashback
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Cap2.
In the middle of the street, a man was fighting another man. One with a knife, the other with a piece of concrete on his hands, the few people that were watching were taking videos, others would just walk ignoring the two person.
In this unusual day without rain, Luan was watching by morbo, his eyes did not shut, his heart was pumping, and his hand was shivering with the cellphone; 911, 3 calls not answered and one call in motion.
She couldn't separate his face from the glass, they were making shouts advancing and making feints to each other dangerously close.
Her heart stopped every time the knife and the concrete moved near the head or some limb, luan came to his senses, she was shaking more now and then she heard the sound of an unanswered call {"no no please.."} now 4 calls wasted, then, eventually she looked more until the guy with the piece of concrete received the knife on his wrist; they separated and luan saw the scarlet milk taint the asphalt like a little water tap.
His eyes widened and kept looking at the man bleeding, the people started to gather slowly, a small group started screaming unintelligible words as the man with the knife looked at luan for a second.
{"Luan for the las time what's goin-"} Rita and Luan watched how the man slammed the concrete piece in the head of his rival knocking him out that made luan and Rita let out a small shriek; his mother took her in the center of his room hugging her putting his head on his breast.
Immediately many stomps sounded from all parts of the house, Lynn came with a bat, Lucy came unarmed and came in just pants with a glock {"What happened!? Are you two all right?"} 1 second and 0.5 seconds, Lynn wanted to be even faster but the laws of evolution didn't allow it without breaking the floor {"Hush hush is okay baby is ok hush"} Lynn father looked at the street, a guy with skull cracked open like a watermelon, the killer was running dripping blood {"[Sigh] My god, don't go to the window it was a murder"} He closed curtains and lynn daughter clicked the light on {"Was it another fucking "loan shark" paying a visit?!"}-{"Lynn!"} Lynn looked at his sister and his mother {"I'm going for breakfast-"} A firm arm stopped lynn, it was Lori, both woman's spoke to each other with the eyes {"Come on, Leni finished the eggs.."} Lucy came to luan and grabbed his hand gently {"You guys have work, eat first, me and lynn will go last with luan"} didn't like the air, time to raise the morale. In a millisecond thought in a plan.
{"Luan sweetheart dont worry, everything will be fine [His pants fell in the ground showing his hairy butt]"}
{"Aaaaa dad!"} – {"Ugh my soul"} Lucy exclaimed. Lori and Luan closed their eyes and his face started to tremble, lynn straight up started laughing while his sides tortured her, and as lynn father pulled up his pants as fast as he could he turned red and exclaimed {"my god sorrysorrysorrysorry!"} Rita looked and huffed a laugh {"what a way to wake up hahhaha"} the rest laughed with luan for the grim ridiculous situation. But… luan was laughing, and that was all that mattered.
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Lynn father was eating eggs with bread in company of Rita, Lisa, Leni and lori {"sooo, like, are you going to eat that last egg lori?"}—{"{[huffed laugh] I think she lost his appetite"} said rita {"There was a murder outside in the street and dad almost gave us Ptsd"} Lynn took the opportunity {"Lori Loud your father was without a belt and I ran to get there it was an acc- wait why I'm apologizing"}-{"Gosh dad don't give me flashbacks"} Leni was clueless and keep eating"} Lisa observed how slowly dad raised again the family´s spirit, she looked at his dad and when both shared sights he gave her a giant smile {"How are you feeling today sunshine?"} Lisa smiled, maybe she lost important opportunities to create and get money for the family on computers or new tech, but when she knew about dad and his constant fight she decided to hear his heart and be with his fam, she and mom always where trying to help and just give "Pagliacci" a good laugh and good news.
Lori drank his water and grabbed Leni {"okay, is getting late Dad umm-"}-{"Don't worry, I asked lynn to start the engine"} Said as he got up from the table and walked fast to the garage, he stopped for a second an landed a kiss on rita´s lips {"Come back in one piece and be careful honey.."} – {"don't worry love, i´ll be back"} Rita smiled back but in his mind still she was thinking in all the assaults and old rivalries that the new habitants of Michigan brought up with them, the place had become the new Chicago in terms of violence.
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Luan was resting his head on lucy´s lap, she wasn't laughing this time.
{"Luce.. what will happen to us sis?"} Lucy answered by grabbing luan's nose {"you are handling this better than I thought Lu don't worry"} Luan was a little upset, and there was nothing she could do against her sister. {"bhut whhath if something dad nhever- ouch"} – {"Dad already has the handle of it, don't worry"} luan smiled and lucy too. Lynn was looking from the door at the two girls and just like that she remembered again that the joker of the family shared the room with someone, and a wave of his most hated memories from 4 years were activated*{"Among all of the scumbags involved YOU and only you are the one I hate the most, go fuck yourself for once and leave my house"} * His smile became a frown, those words were like poisonous vitriol that still made her blood boil-{"You're not me lynn, come here"}- {"is something is troubling you sis?"} said Lu with some insecurity.
{"you know I just remember that one of our sister just leave us because we didn't approve his brilliant idea of defending a lying manipulative scumb-"} Thinking out loud again .The curious face turned into sorrow, the calm of the goth turned into stress.. And silence turned into Tension {"… I hope he doesn't get out"} Lynn put his eyes on luan, for the first time she was letting that out of his chest.. or so she thought, because luan already had his moments of sad rants about the "man with the plan" with mom and dad, but usually if the jock didn't feel it and see it she didn´t believe it.
{"I don't think he is going to, those politicians are not that stupid to let those fuckers out"}- {"but what IF"} Lucy sat on the bed leaving his sister in the floor resting {"[Luan scowled a little] I don't really want to talk about him right now"} –{"Luan if you keep avoiding shit you will be here forever man"} Luan opened his eyes, and then looked at the floor ("here we go again")-{"Lynn cut it right there, this is the 4th time in a month"} the goth was irritated and Luan continued ignoring lynn. Every time was the same; the jock will corner her every time she hatched the slightest sign of weakness according to lynn´s values, it as repetitive, just like the self-destructive behavior of luan and the favoritism that his gloomy sister had for her, who became the self-appointed protector of his increasingly agoraphobic sister, but lynn, she maybe wasn't depressive or self-loathing, but she became a irritable handful of anger seeking to discharge frustrations on anyone unlucky enough to give her excuses to respond like a infuriated Karen, and that was the face she was showing to the broken comedian again, Lynn gave just one step on lu's direction {"[lucy stood up and faced his freckled sister]Lynn!"} It was something nurtured by lincoln itself on those despicable days.
Lisa looked the spectacle and waited. She knew about dad´s efforts to maintain happy the family, but jokes can't change reality, just like every other day his sis-, no, everyone came back to reality like that horrible month when all the disasters happened:
Luan was ridiculed in front of the entire school, some of Lucy´s friends tried to convince her to join them in suicide, Lynn´s dreams of going professional were shattered by the circumstances and his temper.
Lisa didn't know about the other problems of his family, and that made her sad: because in reality she didn't care, in the bottom of his heart she knew she didn't in those days, when lincoln became a volatile bruiser, when lori was crying over the death of his boyfriend´s relatives at the hands of mobsters, the near death of lily when the medications where out 2 years ago, all the events that even a nutjob would mourn or a killer would lament a little, didn't bother her.
{"-what I'm trying to say is simple as nature, if you keep hiding here like a faggot you will never stop feeling fear for the dam future Luan, is clear as crystal"}
Luan kept herself in silence
Lucy kept verbally fighting with her, protecting luan
Lynn´s scowl increased and started to getting red
The tiresome routine of every week or month, in other occasion lisa would simply walk away, drink some tea and start working in his new project. Now she was upset, not because the fight was stupid or full with personal issues, it was because once she had the power to really help his family and destroy those petty conflicts, like an artist casting away the imperfections of his world like it was nothing.
But now she was just deadweight, "no" she thought, simply useless, ("yes"):
Since the accidents, no one was the same anymore; Lisa in one of his experiments got herself a screwdriver and a piece of metal in his skull. She hated himself more since that day, now that she needed help she gave a shit about his family mental and physical health, the irony didn't stop there no, swallow this pill: now she felt real compassion and empathy, self hate, and sorrow. Not some pablovian response to hugs and chemicals in his brain and another primal sensation that will go away like the wind, now the king of the world was living in some whore´s shoes.
And she hated it.
{"lynn, your critics aren't very helpful to be honest"} Lynn turned around and lucy watched in silence {"you are getting angry, that's not good sister"} after she finished that sentence Luan jumped in the conversation {"Lynn, you are acting like those-"}-{"Luan, tomorrow you and us are going outside for the food caravan on the Monday, got it?"}Luan entered in confusion, lucy went in defensive mode again and Lynn gave a little grin. {"what lynn tried to say in those rude words is that traumas can be overcome* facing them. Now if you three have some time to spent with me in the table to talk I would be really happy to eat with you.."} lisa made all the moves, she lowered his threat, she changed his body language to appear more calm/positive, now, let the final bait be set {"I have some chocolates and milk if you all are interested~"}
Lynn: From angery to calm and interested
Lucy: From defensive to impressed
Luan: From sad and hurt to calm again
Lisa smiled and laughed a little, the bait was a success.
They went to the table and toasted some bread and made 3 eggs, the ambulance came with his piercing noise taking the girl´s attention for a second but no more than 3 seconds more of interest. Lynn cracked the eggs, luan cleaned the other plates and lucy turned on the TV: The usual, gang fights of other estates but not the ones in Michigan… Lucy was about to change the channel but the food was already in the table. As they ate lisa made the first move {"Lynn, I know that is difficult for you to control your anger, and it is hard for you two to including Lucy to connect better…"} the girls where calm, avoiding eyes but calm {"It is for this reason that I want to do this, last time that we didn't strengthen ties it one another [Lisa pointed with his hands at the entire room as a reminder of the bad days]"} Lucy and Lynn made eye contact, Luan was still avoiding her ({"dam it, I didn't knew they were so stubborn"}) Lynn swallowed a little of his tea {"I appreciate what you ´r doing here Lis but I had my time trying to make this for a long time and it doesn't work, especially since lucy keeps treating luan as a handicapped person"}- {"[Lucy frowned and answered]Lynn if you want to talk shit on us at least be accurate"} Luan gave an intense glare to his sister, lisa was about to stop them, but the situation was too unusual, his brain was a mess ({"no I can't say that"}) ({"if I say this they maybe react in a negative response"}) frustration was alongside his cortex, this situations were like a walk in the park back then *an image of a smiling albino kid crossed the mind* The brain entered In panic as his cortex placed the words "You are not Lincoln" in his head.{"Accurate how? You bring her food to his door, you defend her for every fuck up she makes-"}-{"Like mom and dad with you huh?!"} The discussion was getting out of control, "you are not lincoln" she needed to do something to avoid another family disruption "you are not lincoln" ({"For fuck sake"}) Lisa was now upset too, his brain wasn't helping… ({"…My brain is not helping"}) she felt terrible - {"… I was about do something important remember?"} Lucy glared at Lynn now, lisa tried to articulate something but they didn't pay attention, but lynn and lucy had enough attention to hear something {"it was your fault.."} Lynn eyes widened {"Can you say that out loud, I think that I have an idea of what you are talking about.."} The table now was like a simple overture of a cat fight with all the contestants getting ready to jump at each other necks {"c´mon, say it again Lu, I was always curious about your real thoughts sis"} the threat of violence in his tone was enough to make Luan retreated a little but his face wasn't showing any weakness now {"is that how you are going to solve everything again lynn?!"} Said lucy. A vein in the forehead of lynn started to show. The knuckles of the youngest Loud Sisters were white by the pressure, Lynn was about to say something, maybe something more harsh, but then luan broke the silence with a face full of genuine fear {"L-lisa?"} Lisa was holding his nose, his eyes were shut and immediately the violent aura was dissipated, soon they remembered Lisa´s accident, the blood everywhere, the fear of losing other member of the family {"Hold there I go for the medic pack"} Lynn ran as fast as she could to his parents room, lucy gave lisa some paper from the kitchen and luan was trying to contact the public services again instructing lucy "do not move his head". The lie worked and it felt worse than the inferiority, she felt like his father, using tricks, a puppeteer.
Of course there was no stroke or other problem, they probably would see a decent doctor and then fall in the same auto destructive routine again, But at least she bought some time to address the family problem with more time…
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*The light of the sun was covered by a thick cloud in Michigan, the light made the landscape gloomy, but somehow the little lights from the clouds still gave some warmth in the skin. She a still waiting for his brother, she didn't liked to wait in the front of that school, bands and too many troublemakers were on the loose there.
She saw 5 men looking from the distance, she had paranoia since one of his classmates got raped outside of the same school without no one noticing, of course she would feel like that, what class of brainwashed masochist do you have to be to like the idea of getting sexually assaulted and mauled just because some pieces of shit woke up in the morning and felt that was a good idea to torture someone for shits and giggles.
{"shit"} the signal didn't respond, this was the third time that the signal was off and it will not be the last.
She looked again and there were now four of them, she started sweating as she followed Kisha's advice, she thought in that girl, a tall beautiful black woman with scars all over his wrists.
"Put some sunglasses; don't show your eyes or any sudden movements, act like you don't see him and look from the corner of the eye."
Luna was griping the knife in his sleeve with strength.
"Then put yourself in a place perfect to buy some time"
The figures were closing his distance and she still can't find the 5th dude
"Kick bite and stab, don't hold back and don't stop screaming, if they have drugs they will use it, don't let them reach your face"
The heart was ready, fear pumping through the adrenaline infested blood ready for the incoming fight, she didn't know it yet, but she was shaking. The very idea of being killed was out there too, that infuriated her, the feeling of your face and brain getting dry from blood like a sleepless night, his teeth making a tik after tik inside his mouth.
She can see their faces now, a dude with a bandana and a shitty mustache and goatee, another latino with a white beanie and a scar on his right eyebrow, one afro with short hair and a round yet friendly face and one white dude with dreadlocks and blonde hair. RIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIING!
The school opened and a swarm of youngsters and repeaters walked and ran from the place, they moved calmly. Luna didn't miss that opportunity and headed to the no open doors of the school.
She prepared his phone and gave a quick screenshot at the entrance and found the missing person that she saw with the group, He covered his mouth with a bandana and walked fast out of there with the others, the photo was perfect and every detail of the face. {"gotcha mortherfucker.."} Luna walked now with a righteous moral and the adrenaline burning the fear away, fuck them.
"If you are lucky, throw the photo to some mobsters of the big gangs, but if you want a quick result, show it to one of the main gangs, those are eager for some social points"
She sat down for a couple minutes
… while she sat in a stair away from the mob Luna started to feed the idea of "what if the bell didn't work" in his head, she pictured herself with the wrist-cuts now and just felt sadness for his dead college friend. Kisha had all the red flags, silent, orphan, abused and with nobody in Michigan {"Excuse me, are you Luna loud?"} She raised his head and saw the owner of that voice, It was a young short haired Latina girl a grunge style {"yes im... you are?"} The girl waved his hand taking away the importance {"your brother got caught in anoter fight, I just wanted to say dat"} Luna closed his eyes sighing {"yeah shocking news.."} the girl leaved the rocker alone and waited in the parking lot.
Luna proceeded to walk into the building, she stared at the lockers and the absolute "detroit" state of the school itself, the place looked so insipid and unclean, the bars were missing on this place because it really looked like a low budget jail.. jail….. *
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She heavily tried to open her eyes… there is a smell of medical alcohol in the air, she was dressing a white button shirt without tie, a sleeveless dark-blue twill jacket with his name, cargo pants with the same color like his jacket: courtesy of Hemer Deliveries "Protecting the box and the mail with tooth 'an nail".
She quitted. Not because she couldn't handle the fire, that wasn't so hard… She watched the giant star on the sky, sunset uh? How much did Morpheus kept her out from the real world?...half blind she moved in the dark room clumsily pushing and bumping some items
{"Ouch"}
One bed, kitchen, a small tv, one radio, a really smol fridge and clothes everywhere, one bathroom and a shelf full with papers each one with a
[Lights on]
Luna went directly to the bathroom and brushed his teeth {"okay, okay …"} she spat and washed up his face, she fixed his hair a little and took a bootleg beer and sipped the foam {"agh now tastes like cold piss"} luna gave another big sip and looked on his phone, 19:02 {"hmm [she taped on contacts and scrolled through the multiple numbers of his old teenage friendships]"} the memories were many and quite desolated, sad but comprehensible as water is wet and the rock as solid.
There was a party on the block {"[she stopped scrolling]… there´s always a party in the block anyways"} the deliberation of "go or not to go" to the party was short ("{I have something more important in mind}") of course it was important for her, the internet mail was still on and she needed answers.
To give a quick rundown; after the civil war certain companies were purged by mobs of armed people, now the new companies are a little more drastic with their norms because of the new establishment, in synthesis internet was still viable, but now the feds makes sure you know. All the time. That they are watching, and is really awkward… at the moment she "trusted" Hemer Deliveries for now, they were some kind of greedy PMC… that , and the platform they used was more secure than the others.
She tapped the screen and sat on his couch again, then, when his mind calmed a little it happened again; she peeked at his secret spot under the other couch, she felt the pain and need again, all of his nerves collapsing and screaming on one voice, she felt miserable, all kind of bad thoughts and sad memories, but she was more strong now, she put his attention on his phone to forget his addiction to the liquid ketamine and the sensation of piercing the his veins with the needle to his other "duty", one more dangerous, because she didn't saw it as an obsession, that "duty" was Lincoln Loud.
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[you have 2 messages on your mail]
[click*
[Hemer Deliveries:
After a deliberation on behalf of the requested departure, the and by petition of chief on the Face to Face Delivery group Richard Marston, we accept your request and your payment will dispatch in three days. If any problem happen (if unfortunate), our doors are open for you, please consider a second chance if problems arise.
Atten. CEO Stuart Ramsey.
She thougth about it again, 200 by 1 week and a half… she didn't reply.
She kept scrolling until she meet hat she wanted, a message from his lawyer… As she was reading, her eyes slowly started to spill tears of joy.
[ -the kid was innocent, they will release him tomorrow at 12- ]
At the same moment, 6 persons were reading different messages that told them the same information.