"Suffer"

I don't own Twilight, I just like to twist the characters to my liking. I do, however, own any and all mistakes that I make and over look.

ENJOY!

~Bella~

"Mommy, who is she? She looks really weird…" My five year old son, Max, whispers to me quietly while pointing at a very strange looking woman as she approaches us, just after we've sat down outside a little cafe for refreshments. Hydrating ourselves before we continue on our tour of Voltura, Italy.

You see, my long time best friend, John Wilson, surprised my son and I with a vacation before the summer was over, and we all had to get back to our busy lives. We have been touring Italy for three days now, and today John decided that we would take a day trip to a beautiful little city called Voltura. Although it's a complete overcast, the city is still beautiful today.

I was currently trying to lower my son's pointing finger when John suddenly stopped stuffing his face and begin to stare…and drool at the strange, yet oddly beautiful woman.

Her eyes flash triumphantly then she quickly approaches us when she noticed John staring at her in a trance like state. Following behind the woman were about twenty to thirty people that looked just as lost as John does.

John has always been a man whore if you ask me, but he's my best friend and I love the turd...faults and all.

"Hello, my name is Heidi." The woman smiles at John then down at my son, but when her eye lock on mine, she narrows them at me with a determined expression, then she suddenly smiles brightly like she didn't just freak me the hell out with her crazy shit brown eyes.

What the hell is this bitches problem?

"Would you all like a free tour of the Voltura Castle?" The weird woman purrs as she smiles down at my still drooling friend.

Before I can politely tell the woman to fuck off, John smiles at her and nods his head rapidly like a bobble headed idiot. "We would love that, thank you. My name is John, by the way." The drooling idiot purrs right back to the strange woman.

What the hell is wrong with him?

"John, I really don't want to go on a castle tour. Max is tired, hun. So can we please just head back to the hotel?" I lift Max into my arms protectively then turn to the woman, and wait for John to tell the woman that we'll pass on the free tour, but John turns to me instead and shakes his head before turning back to the bitch with a smile.

"We're going on the tour, Bella. Come on now, live a little." What the hell is wrong with him?

Before I can snap at the jackass and tell him that he can go by his damn self, he grabs my hand and drags me and my son into the crowd of tourists. "John." I hiss quietly, and tug at my arm to get his attention.

"Bella, its just a tour and it's free. When it's over we can head back to the hotel. Okay? Please, do this for me?" He gives me his puppy dog eyes that he knows I can't resist.

He and Max both know how to get whatever they want from me and all they have to do is use those damn eyes of theirs and give me a cute little pouty face, and I simply fold like a lawn chair.

"Fine…" I narrow my eyes at the asshole. "…but you seriously owe me, John." I growl at him as we enter a lobby then follow the strange woman down a series of stone hallways.

"Thanks Bells. Love ya." He leans down and kisses my cheek then grins at Max. "Told you we would see castles on this trip. Now didn't I, little man?" Max just rolls his eyes at John and lays his head on my shoulder.

I look up as we turn down a long hallway and it's then that I realize the woman that is leading the tour isn't speaking to us about the castle, like any other tour guide would. Which is fine with me because the sound of the bitches voice grates on my nerves, but it is very strange none the less.

I mean seriously, this is suppose to be a tour. So why are we just walking down empty hallways? I begin to get this nervous felling in my gut and just as the woman opens a set of huge doors, the feeling gets so much worse that it's almost painful to move closer to those huge doors. But despite this feeling, I continue to follow John for reasons I don't understand.

When the entire group is in the room and the doors are slammed closed behind us, I begin to get that strange feeling in my entire body that tells me to run away, and it feels as if I'm encased in some sort of bubble. I have gotten this feeling before but it's only when I'm around something dangerous, and this is the first time that I have gotten this feeling while holding Max. As I clutch my son to me, I can feel his entire being connected with mine. It's like he's wrapped in the same bubble and connected to me for protection.

The feel of dread begins to get really bad, so I move to reach out for Johns arm, but as soon as I do I see a tall man stand from an actual throne, and that horrible feeling of dread washes over me in spades when the strange man speaks.

"Dinner is served, my children!" What the fuck?

I reach out again to grab John, but before I can touch him the woman that led us here grabs him and bites into his neck. I can see John's blood oozing down his shoulder and I can also see that the bitch is drinking his blood. Faster than I can blink, she reaches up and snaps his neck as she continues to drink my best friend dry, while staring at me. Max and I both let out loud screams just as my grip on him tightens. I hold his head to my neck so that he can't see all the death and mayhem going on around us, then I turn to run. Before I can reach the doors though, the man that announced that dinner was served is standing right in front of me, and he's smiling like a lunatic.

"Get away from us you psycho!" I scream at the asshole.

The man's smile brightens just before he lunges at us. I thrust my hand out to stop him, and at the same time, I felt my hand move through something unseen. My focus isn't on what surrounds my son and myself for long because the creepy guy grabs my hand and bites down on my wrist. I suddenly feel something jolt out of me and then I hear a loud crash.

I don't bother to look at what happened because the pain of his bite is the worst pain that I have ever felt in all my life. I fall to my knees on the floor and clutch my crying baby to me as a burning pain envelopes my entire body.

"It's okay baby. Mommy's got you. I won't let them hurt you, baby. I promise." This is all I can say to Max as I look up and notice that everyone that was in the tour group is now dead, and the murderous bastards that killed John and everyone else, are now standing around me and Max, staring at us like we're the monsters.

I catch a sudden movement in the corner of my eye and I snap my attention in that direction as the fucker that bit me opens his bloody mouth. "What a treasure you are my dear. I am Aro and this is my guard. I want to personally welcome you to Voltura." The creepy fucker that bit me smiles down at me. "Tell me child, how are you doing this? How are you keeping us out and away from you like this?" The man places his hand up and pushes it forward like he's trying to touch something, but it's stopped like he just touched the glass of a window. "Ah…you are a shield, and a very strong one at that, if you are able to use it while you are human."

"What is happening to me?!" I cry out in pain as I move Max so that his face is still hidden in my neck and hair.

"You are turning into a vampire, my dear. You will be a newborn vampire in three short days." He smiles as he continues to eye me like some sort of priceless treasure. "I am surprised that you are still coherent. You should be burning alive right now. No matter, you will pass out soon enough from the pain, and your shield will go down. While you change, I will drain your son so that you do not attack him. That would be a terrible thing to live with for all eternity, my darling."

"You will never touch him!" I grit my teeth then scream at the asshole. I can feel my conscience slowly slipping away so I lift my son and look into his eyes. The moment I lock eyes with my little angel I know that I will never hurt him or let anyone of these sick fuckers hurt him. No, he will be safe with me.

I take in a deep breath and close my eyes, willing the pain away and the moment it crosses my mind I smile because the pain completely disappears, but I can still feel myself changing. I feel my body getting colder, harder, and stronger. My heart begin to pound rapidly for a few seconds, then suddenly it stops beating all together.

The moment my heart stops I begin to notice that I can smell thousands of different scents. I can hear cars on the streets, as if they were driving right in front of me, but the loudest and the most important sounds of all is the sound of my sons heartbeat along with his slow breathing.

I smile as I open my eyes and look down at him, and lightly caress his tiny back to soothe him.

"Impossible." I hear several gasps causing my smile to brighten as I stand and look at the asshole that told me that he would kill my son.

"It's okay baby, mommies got you. These monsters will never touch you." I lean down and gently kiss his forehead.

I chuckle to myself when I feel the shield around us getting stronger by the second. "Are you ready to go home, baby?" Max sniffs then quickly nods his head as he looks up at me. "Okay we'll go home, but first I want you to put your hands over your ears and close your eyes, and don't open them until I tell you to, no matter what. Can you do that for mommy?"

"Okay mommy." He nod, and then does what I asked.

As soon as Max's hands are over his ears and his eyes are closed, I snap my head up at the vampires that I will one day get my revenge on. "You all are living on borrowed time, now." I look around and commit each and every face to my now vast memory. "I will come back one day very soon and I will slaughter you all for what you have done to not only my son, myself, and my friend, but for everyone else that you all mercilessly killed here tonight." I lock eyes with the woman that killed my best friend. I feel a part of what's protecting me and my son extend from my body, and suddenly I feel the bitch's presence, like I'm holding her very soul in the palm of my hand. I begin to growl, and not even seconds later, she starts to gasp loudly causing everyone to look at her in shock. "You trapped my best friend in some kind of thrall and lead us to this fucking slaughter house, like you did all those other people! You killed him viciously, so now I get to return the favor, you bitch!"

I feel whatever it is that's coming out of me squeeze the woman harder and harder, until her entire body begins to crack and crumble. I can feel the anger begin to pour out of me in waves and the moment I let out a loud roar the woman that I'm holding with my shield, completely turns to actual dust.

The moment the woman is gone, I feel the anger leave me and I just smile as turn back to the others. I want to giggle at the looks on their faces, but I don't. I guess what happen to me and what I'm capable of is not normal for vampires.

As it is, I just give them a sinister smile. "Aro, you have made an enemy here today, and I really look forward to meeting you all again." My grin grows as I move past the asshole that bit me, my shield pushing him out of my way as I move past the bastard. "You will be the last to die, but the first to suffer, Aro. Remember…you all are living on borrowed time. Starting now." I sing out, then laugh at the petrified look on the ugly fuckers face.

Before I leave I look around at all the dead bodies and see John laying on the floor. I hold back a sob as I turn back to Aro. "You will pay for hurting my family!" I want to kill these asshole, here and now. I don't want to leave John's body here. I want to give my best friend a proper goodbye, but I want more than anything to get my son out of this place and away from these monsters. I begin to run out of the building and I'm amazed at the speed, and it doesn't seem to bother Max one bit. In fact he lets out a little squeal of excitement.

When we finally make it back to our hotel in Florence to get our luggage and passports, Max looks up at me with sad eyes. "Is John dead, mommy?" He sniffs as he looks around then back up at me. "Hey! Your eyes are my favorite color now." He puts his tiny hand on my cheek and gives me small smile.

"My eyes are blue, now?" I giggle down at my silly son as we walk through the lobby of the hotel. I know I'm trying to avoid the talk of what happened to John, because this is gonna be very hard for the both of us.

"No silly. They're red." He sniffs again just as a tear rolls down his cheek. "…and you're avoiding, mommy?"

Why does he have to be so perceptive and smart?

How do I tell him that the only adult male figure in his life was killed by a monster? John was Max's best friend too and I can't just lie to him, not about that. God, I have never been a good liar and Max is a master at seeing through my bullshit.

"Yes baby." I sob as I hug my son to me, feeling the heavy tears prickle at my eyes, but they don't feel or fall like normal tears. The substance is thick and has a sort of silvery and shimmering gleam to it. "John is in heaven with Nanna and Papa Rick. They will take good care of him from now on." I hold my son tighter to me as I wipe the rest of the weird tears from the corner of my eyes.

I can feel how much stronger I am now, but I can also feel my restraint when I hold Max. It's my first instinct, to be careful and not hurt him.

"So my eyes are red, huh?" I decide that a change of subject is in order as I open the door to our room. "I guess it's a good thing that I have those brown contacts that I hate to wear." I set him on the bed as I begin to pack all our stuff up, and then put in the retched contacts so that I don't scare everyone on the plane ride back to the United States.

I also gather all of Johns belongings. It just doesn't feel right to leave his things behind.

I feel like mine and my son's lives ended when John's did, and I was turned into what I am now. A vampire? Really? I have no clue what to do from here or how I'll raise Max in my new state of being. A few things that I'm sure of though, is that I'll never be without Max and I'll never ever hurt him. I will never become like those monstrous bastards that hurt my little family.

Maybe I can live off of the blood of animals. They have blood pumping through their veins just as humans do, right? So, who's to say I cannot survive without ever tasting human blood?

I am in control, so animal's will have to sustain me, because I'll never give into this blood lust that I've been feeling ever since I smelt the first human that I came across, besides my son.

No, I simply cannot become a monster…

I won't become a monster…

Stay tuned…