ITS OKAY TO NOT BE OKAY
"It's okay Dean, you can go"
"Goodbye Sammy."
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But it's not okay.
It's not okay when I burn his body.
It's not okay when I try to make the phone calls I know I need to but just can't.
It's not okay when I walk like a ghost through the cold and empty bunker.
It's not okay when I sit in his room and pet his dog.
It's not okay when I read the job application, a tentative hope for a normal future.
It's not okay when I hunt werewolves, alone and without backup...and survive.
It's not okay when I drive aimlessly around the country.
It's not okay when I walked up to a house and raise my fist to knock.
It's not okay when she opens the door.
"Sam?"
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And when I am finally able to raise my eyes to meet her concerned face...
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"I am not okay."
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A/N so the finale has been and gone and we're all maybe feeling a little like Sam. I, personally didn't hate it. It was pretty much how I expected the series to end. That being said, there are a lot of 'fix it's' out there, mostly Destiel but this one popped into my head and wouldn't leave, so, well yeah, in all honesty, I am not okay.
Much love...
S