p class="MsoNormal"The first morning back in the office is worse. I'm sweating and I already changed my shirt three times, my shoulder is killing me, it's hard to think straight. Someone tried to kill me, but I made it. Mellie was right to ask last night what I want. I never really thought about what I wanted since I entered this office, but one thing has been clear since I woke up and that is Olivia. I know that I can't do this without her. I'm scared that I won't be able to do my job anymore. I love being president but at what cost. My own damn VP is circling like a damn shark and I am standing right in front of her. The shit she pulled while on my so-called death bed is way out of line. I don't want her anywhere near this damn administration anymore. And Mellie damn I know that woman loves this but forging my signature before I even opened my eyes, forcing me to get up and walk before I even could wrap my mind around anything. She could have been shot or lost the baby. Does even think that our children could have lost both parents and a sibling in one night on TV on my birthday. I just wish I could be free right now; I don't want to think about the world I want to think about my life because my death day would have been my born day. I should really think about what Mellie asked in detail, I told her I wanted a divorce but that is a future want but what I want right now is Olivia and I want her now./p