Chapter 17

Over the next few weeks, I've been living with my mother and her boyfriend Herbert. Marcus had talked her into moving me back in. Now, I am following strict rules now. I'm expected not to leave the house at night. I'm expected to be home at five which is the time she gets home from work.

She's the parent. This is what I lived with. While my pack mates had strong relationships with their parents or parent, mine had been tarnished. As I listen to my mother's words and her judgement of me, I see Sam's decision to keep me close to his cousin as trash.

I only have my mother. This is what I earned on the belief I was keeping her safe. I thought I was. My friendship with Sam is no more. The same for Paul. I keep a steady distance from them. My mom, sister, and nephew drove out of town for Thanksgiving. I stayed home.

Emily had invited me but I did not want to be near those two men. I have to try my best to rebuild the actions of the past. You only have one mom. That thought fuels nothing but my hate. I don't ever want in that pack no more. I don't ever want that man as my Alpha again.

Knock! Knock! I knock for the tenth time on Jacob's front door. I haven't seen him in a long time so I want to see how he is doing. He opens the door wearing an orange and yellow button-up. "You look handsome." I say putting my hands in my pants pocket.

"Thanks. How can I help you, Mia?" He ask not interested. "Just came to see how you was doing. December is almost here. Christmas is going to very different." I say smiling. "Yeah. A lot different. What?" "Can I come in?" I ask.

"No." I take my hands out of my pants pockets and rub on his chest. My heart speed up. If I could hear then his probably would speed also. He grabs my arms breaking me out of my thoughts.

"That is over. Me and Bella have been hanging out a lot." "What that gotta do with us?" I ask confused. "I'm not interested in a relationship with you. What we had is over and have been for weeks. I'm in love with Bella. You know that. So excuse me." He say grabbing the door and closing it in my face. Oh, wow. I frown turning around and walking off his front porch.

I am not going to beg him. I'm too better for that. I sigh walking across his front yard when I hear a horn beeping behind me. I turn around to see Bella's red truck pulling into the driveway. I wave my hand. She waves back. The front door opens up and Jacob walks out. "Wow. You are an ass!" "Mia, get off my property." He say walking down the steps of the porch.

I roll my eyes turning back around and heading back down the road. My mind is full of thoughts as I walk. I guess this is what you call a teenage love affair. I shrug. I wouldn't know nor would I care. I walk for twenty minutes finally reaching Paul's house. Darn it, feet! You betrayed me. I walk across his grass. He opens the front door wearing gray shorts.

"Hey, Big Daddy." I say coming up to his porch. He simply look in my face. I guess he's not here for my words after I kicked his attempts for us to the curb. "I'm sorry. In the end, I realized that I hurt your feelings. I would never want someone to tell me off like I told you off almost three weeks ago but that is not the point." I heavily breathe out walking up the steps of his porch.

I stand in front of him and give him a big hug. He wraps his arms around me. His warmth feels good. He leans down and sniff my neck. I turn my head kissing the end of his mouth. He uses one arm to scoop me up and bring me into his house. He totes me all of the way into his bedroom. He shuts the door and lays me right on the bed.

I come out of my clothes while he keeps on his shorts. "You have a condom?" I ask watching him walk over to the nightstand and opening the top drawer. "Out." "Oh. So what you gonna do?" I ask. I'm not having unprotected sex. I don't want no baby. He closes the top drawer and look in my face.

"Maybe, if you pull out?" I ask laughing. Will he honestly do that? No. He walks over to me till he's standing in front of me. "Did you ask Jacob?" He ask catching me off guard. Wow. "Actually, it wa-" He unbutton and unzips his shorts. I cover my eyes, embarrassed. I don't want to see his penis. I'm too ashamed. He lays me back on the bed and open my legs up.

My heart speeds up hearing him come out of his shorts. I heavily breathe out. Okay. This is the moment that I have been waiting on. I am going to have a heart attack. I know I am. He grabs my arms and toss me upward. I laugh. I can't believe he did that. He climbs on the bed and spread my legs out again.

He gets between them. I keep my eyes closed as I wrap my arms around his stomach. Paul is too tall. I heavily breathe out feeling his penis inch towards me till it finds its way into my flower. I moan. Oh that is very different than Jacob's. Soon as he moves in and out slowly, I don't waste time wrapping my legs around his waist. I can't stay long. I'll need to be home by 5.

Over the next few days, I frequently visited Paul. All it took was for me to knock on his front door and he'll quickly open it. The bond between us had started to grow till Sam opened the door one day and told me off. Paul was sitting on the couch. He basically told me that Rachel had a pregnancy scare. It triggered how much Paul wants her back. I haven't been to Sam's house in a week but last night something happened that changed my perspective.

I walk out of the forest and into Sam's backyard to find him and the pack mingling. Tables are occupied by Bella and the imprints. "Look who is wearing cutoffs." Embry say looking at Jacob. "I guess she's ready to join the pack again." "Not really. My mom is doing laundry. She told me to take those pants off." I say crossing my arms.

"You're going to have to phase again." Sam say getting up off the steps of his porch. "I feel that much but I think you kind of went deep in when you was cracking my spine." I nervously say. It feels so wrong to tell that he was wrong on something.

"Let us see. Phase." He say. "Well, I can't. Well, I can. Let me show you." I say turning around. I take off my shirt. "Is it gonna be nasty?" Rachel ask. "Shut up." Sam say. Oh, wow. I wiggle. "You sure?" Jared ask. "I am not sure." I heavily breathe. This is going to hurt me more than I'll hurt them.

I watch as my skin vibrate. My body temperature rises. My vision becomes a blur. "Nothing. Did you see it?" I ask turning back around with the shirt covering my breasts.

"No. What is it?" Jared ask. "Right here." I turn around and point to my lower back. "So what was you doing?" "I was sitting in front of the mirror." I sit down. "I was thinking about phasing. It was this big cave-in." I explain looking up at the sky. "Phase." I groan feeling my spine move oddly before phasing. I whine laying on the ground.

"Welcome back." Quil say. "No. I'm handing him my pink slip." I say sitting up on my hindlegs. "Ain't no leaving this pack." Seth say. "What if I sneak out?" I ask. "I seen it, Sam. You ain't do it right." Jacob say walking up to me. He don't respond as him and others walk towards me. A hand brushes up against my fur. "Lay back down."

I do. He rubs from the top of my back to the bottom. "Right here. Something is sticking out." "Her bone." Sam say. "You think Sam gon-" A painful weight is pushed down to where Jacob is standing. I let out whine phasing back. I gasp feeling an extreme pain erupt in my back. I can't breathe. "Turn her over." Jacob turns me over. "Sam." Jared say. "Let's take her in the forest." I'm picked up by Jacob and toted into the forest.

I'm laying in my old bed in Sam's house trying to go to sleep. The door opens up to Marcus. "Hey, Big girl." Lincoln chuckle in the hallway. I open my eyes to see him standing in the doorway. I can't even take a nap in peace.

"Sam told us. Almost two months. Your spine completely healed in all of the right places." "Now, we know." I whisper. "Yeah. Tell Sam you got a spine injury to get out of phasing." I laugh. He walks over and grab my hand. "Temperature is hot normal. You ready?"

"No. I have to face my mom." That is one big worry that I have to live with. "Tell her that you'll be living with me. We'll find you a place." "I think I wanna live in the forest. Tent and all." I tiredly say. "Your decision. Your choice. When you tell her, let me go." He casually say heading for the doorway.

"Is that Melissa I smell on you?" I ask lifting my head up. I'm really starting to smell his scent. He turns to face me. "Yeah. Her and Tristan was over for Arnold's cookout. You smell her?" He ask laughing. "Naw. Just messing with you." "I was messing with you. Arnold ain't have a cookout." He seriously say.

Sam walks into the room. "It was her." "It was her." "He kissing on my girl, Sam." I say trying to roll on my back. "I can help you." He say walking to me. "I'm good, Marcus." I say closing my eyes.

"No, you're not. Shawn took that black eye cause of you." He say. I fall asleep. My shirt is grabbed and I'm lifted in the air. "Cause of this rivalry battle that you started with Shawn, he's still on the ice." Lincoln laugh.

"It is funny. Nobody told Shawn to sleep with Melissa, Marcus." Sam say. "At all. He made that decision on his own." He say. "You're right. Can't help but think Mia is part of his decision making." Marcus say sitting me down on the floor. "I am. Shawn wanna be me." I say turning to face the window. "He wanna be you?"

"He wanna be me so bad that he stole my imprint from me. He stole Sasha." "Her name is Sandy. I mean Sandra. Sandra, Lincoln." "I hear you, Marcus." He sigh rubbing his face. "So you're back, Mia?" Sam ask. "I am back, Sam. The back pain is gone." I say twisting left and right. "So you can patrol?" I fake faint on the floor.

Marcus chuckle. "She can go with me." Paul say walking into the room. "I am sle-" My arm is grabbed and I'm dragged out. "I should kick you in your back." He say. Laughter is heard downstairs.