There is no me without you (a supercorp fanfiction)

by Dee151100

Lena loves kara. Kara loves lena. Will there love be wnough to get them through it. Song quotes are not mine. Tile and artist listed wach time. Poerty is mine. Sequal is posted on wattpad https:/www.wattpad

Chapter 1 LENA POV

Kara was sitting across from me, at my desk. We are having lunch. I love our little lunch 'dates'. Kara is fidgeting with her glasses. She is so cute. I have had the BIGGEST crush on her for years. She has never noticed. But oh god her smile always makes my heart miss a beat. LENA FOCUS!

"Lena, did you hear me?" Kara asks ever so quietly. Crap. I got to think of an excuse. I can't exactly tell her I was day dreaming about her.

"Sorry, just a lot of stuff on my mind." I say honestly.

"Do you want to talk about it?" Kara asked, concern evident in her voice. She gushed her glasses up her nose, drawing attention to her perfectly blue eyes. I swallow.

"I am worried about Lex. He isn't doing well. I miss the person he use to be. Back before he went crazy trying to kill super man. I miss the boy who always looked after me, defended me and cared about me." I sigh. I could feel the tears threatening to spill from my green eyes. I look down at my hands. I remember the boy who stopped Lillian from hitting me. The next thing I know there is a pair of slender, strong arms pulling me up into a hug. I look into Kara's eyes. Trying so hard not to cry. Her eyes perigee my soul, she can always read me like a book. Except for the fact that I'm madly in love with her.

"Lee." She whispers, reaching up to wipe away my tears gently with her thumb.

"Kara, what are you doing?" I gently say. I'm so scared of losing this amazing woman.

"Lee, your my BEST friend. I am trying to make you feel better. To show you that your amazing. You will never be alone." She mumbles into my ear. My heart stops. I could feel my heart breaking in my chest as she called me her friend. What I would do to be hers. But that will never happen. She is straight.

"Thanks, Kara. You are truely the best person I know." I utter back. Kara broke the hug as her phone started to ring. "Sorry Lee, I have to go back to work. Come to game night this week? I promise I'll make it fun for you. Please?" She begs, her pout is killing me. I finally broke.

"Ok, Kara. I'll be there." And with that she walked out of my office. I sigh, great now I have to go to game night, with her friends, who hate me. This is going to be fun, NOT!

Chapter 2 KARA POV

It broke my heart, watching Lena trying not to cry. I know her brother means a lot to her. I know he has tried to kill Kal-el so many times, but he is her family. I've been struggling to tell her I'm super girl. I want to but Alex and the DEO won't let me. It's my secret, I should be the one who decides on who knows, right? I trust Lena with every single bit of my soul. But Alex is right, it would put her life in more danger. I don't want to hurt her. I just need to keep her safe. I want nothing more in this life than to be able to keep her happy and safe. I sigh, walking into the DEO. "About time you got here!" Alex snapped. She then proceeded to tell me that Lex is attempting to distract them. She thinks he maybe be after Lena, again. He said he is video threat that he is surprised that Lena still hasn't figured out that Kara Danvers is super girl. He still doesn't know my real name is Kara Zor-el. All I could mutter our was "Oh, RAO". I told Alex I should have told Lena years ago. I decide instead of taking the bait I'll fly over to L-Corp. Lena should still be there. I talk to her assistant, Jess. Apparently after Kara Danvers left, Lena got a call about her brother Lex. Lena cancelled everything she had in for the rest of the day. She left straight away. I could feel my heart beating faster. Rising in my throat. I was starting to panic. I thanked Jess and flew straight out of the building. I was flying straight to Lena's house. Lex was staying there under struck guild lines, he had a huge security detail to protect everyone else from him. As I get closer I use my X-ray vision to search the house. All I can see is all the dead agents. Lena isn't here. I call Alex. We have to find her! I break the sound barrier on the way back to the DEO. Apparently I broke my record back to the DEO. I could usually do it in 57 seconds from Lena's. I did it in 35 second. I couldn't lose Lena. She is my best friend. She is smart, a genius, beautiful inside and out. She had high walls, trust issues but under all of her walls and defences was the most sweet kind and amazing person. Who only wants to be loved. While Alex and Brainy are looking for Lena, I am pacing around them. Alex kicks me out of the command centre. I stalk off down to the training room. I turn the Kryptonite transmitters on so u don't destroy the room again. It weakens my powers so I can train with the agents. After a few hours and fighting everyone that wants to have a go. Alex finds me. I'm punching a boxing bag that's off in the corner. I'm trying to keep all my emotions in check. I had hurt a few of the agents badly. "Kara, we found her" Alex says.

Chapter 3 Lena POV

As soon as Kara left my office, my phone rang. My heart sinking as I look at the caller ID. It was Lex's Doctor. He was just calling me to let me know that Lex had another heart attack and wasn't doing so well. I quickly call Jess in.

"Jess, I need you to clear the rest of my day. Tell James he is looking after Cat co. until further notice. Lex. *sigh* he isn't doing well." I say in a rushed shaky voice. Jess is the most loyal and amazing assistant I've ever had.

"If you need anything boss, just let me know." She says resting her hand on my shoulder before leaving. I need to give her another raise. I shake my head. Lex. I have to go! As I leave my office.

"Everything is done miss Luthor." Jess says quickly.

"Jess, take a long weekend. You work to hard." I say to her while I'm waiting for the lift. she laughs.

" I will when you do Lena. Remember, I've known you since we were at birding school." We both laugh. She is an much of a workaholic as I am. The lift is finally here. I say a quick bye to Jess and go down to the ground floor. My driver is waiting for me already. Jess is the best. He takes me home quickly. As soon as we pull up in my drive way I head straight for the front door of my house. Well if I'm to be a hundred percent honest then it's more like a mansion. It has 12 guest rooms with there own bathrooms, a cinema set up and I have my own pool and gym. Not that I see this place much. I'm always at work or hanging out with Kara. I'm walking towards the guest room where Lex has been staying. All of the agents that have been watching him have their own rooms. Usually they rotate 3 or 4 times a day. No one trusts him and I can't blame them. I don't really trust him eaither. I walk past the lounge room, there are a pair of black shoes sticking out from behind the lounge. What the hell? I walk over for a closer inspection. It's one of Lex's agents. I drop down beside him checking his pulse. My heart drops. He is dead. There is a fucking dead man in my lounge room! Before I could get up, I feel a sudden pain in the back of my head and something sticky rolling down the side of my head. Everything does black. The next thing I know is there is something dripping down my face. I finally find the strength to open my eyes. It hurts. There is this weird green liquid dripping on my face. I try to sit up and get a stabbing pain in my arm. There is an IV in my arm and the bag as what seems like the same green liquid. I groan. I have to pull this needle out and figure out what is going on. I slowly sit up. I look around. I'm a concrete room with metal bars around me. Great I'm caged like a fucking rat. I pull the needle out quickly. The pain started to radiate though my whole body. I'm starting to think that wasn't the best idea. There is a big metal door across from where I'm sitting. The room is set up with a toilet, a bed where I'm sitting and the IV. I start liking around more but then I heard the big metal door open. Lex walls in. He is fine! I should have known!!

"What's going on Lex?" I ask. Cringing at how horse my voice is.

"Now now sister. You must know deep down why your here." He said snidely.

"Lex? What are you talking about?"

"My dear sister. I can't believe you know super girl." He says, venom dripping in his voice.

"Lex, you already knew that. What changed?" I ask. My body is on fire but I can't let him see how much pain I'm actually in.

"You know her real identity" he snarled.

Chapter 4 Lena POV continues

"Lex, don't be stupid!" I'm sick of this 'super' bullshit. Pun intended.

"Oh my little sister, they think your the smart one? Your fooled by a pair of glasses and a hair tie.it will make sense soon enough. Super girl is coming to save you. Little does she know helping you my dear sister will kill her." He said laughing sinisterly. Why does he want to hurt super girl? I know he hates all aliens but this is insane. I try to make sense of what he is saying but my whole body feels like it's on fire.

"Lex, what did you do?" Was all I could manage to scream out.

"Now little sister, that would ruin the surprise of it all." He laughs out.

"Lena your precious Kara won't be able to save you now" what the hell is he talking about? Kara isn't super girl. She is my best friend. She wouldn't hide part of her self from me would she? Doesn't she trust me?

"Kara isn't super girl." I state with as much conviction as I could manage though the pain in my body. Kara couldn't be super girl. Kara is kind, sweet, incredibly shy and awkward. "Look under your bed, dear sister. All the evidence is there. Thank you for making my life easier. I will finally kill a super all thanks to you my dear Lena." He smiles sickly. He turns and walks back out the big metal door. My curiosity is going to get the better of me. I can't take anything he says at face value. I look under my bed. There is a cardboard box. I open the box, the first thing I see is a USB stick taped to a letter. Lex, the asshole, left me a note. Basically he is calling me an idiot for not seeing it sooner. That what is going to happen I won't be able to stop. I rip the USB stick off the paper and put it in my pocket. There are a bunch of photos in here. When Lcorp was attacked and I was with Kara and her getting shot! I don't remember her bleeding, or even being hurt. I don't want to know. I put it back in the box. There must be loads of photos in here. I look to the roof. Sighing. That sick bastard is watching me though a camera.

"Lex, what ever u want. I'll do it. Just don't hurt her!" I scream. Falling to my knees the pain is to much to take. My whole body is on fire. My eyes hurt to keep open. My head is pounding. I would rather die than hurt my Kara. It was the last thing I thought before my body hit the ground.

Chapter 5

Kara POV

"Thank you Alex, but it's about time" I mumble. I'm so frustrated. Lena is missing. I want her home safe and sound. Is that to much to ask?

"Alex, where is she?" I snap. Lean being missing is driving me crazy. She is my best friend and I'm meant to protect her!

"She is located in an abandoned building on the north side of the city. I'll send u the address." Alex says sternly. She hates Lena. She still thinks after everything that Lena is going to turn out like Lex. I super speed out of the DEO. As soon as I get out side I launch into the air. Saving Lena is the only thing on my mind. Alex gives me the address though my coms. As I approach the building I use my X-ray vision. I can see her in a cage. I am so angry. But I breathe. I use my super gearing to hear her heart beat. It's beating way to fast. I need to get to her now. I take a close look at her surroundings, she is in an iron cage. I quickly decided the beat way to get her out was to smash though the wall closest to her prison cell. I fly as fast as I can, fists clenched I front of me. I fly straight though the wall. As soon as I did I knew there was something wrong.

"Super girl, your hear at least" I can hear Lex luthor say. Of course he would hurt his little sister just to get to me.

"Super girl, RUN!" Lena screamed. It was too late. I hadn't noticed how weak I was feeling up until this point. Lex had hidden kryptonite in the room. My knees buckle and I hit the floor. I try to stand up but the kryptonite is making it hard even to breathe. "Kara Danvers. I am so glade to see that green kryptonite works on you as well as it does on your cousin Clark Kent. Or does he prefer Kal-el?" Lex sneers at me. His smile is frowning by the second.

"Kara, super girl! Run! Forget me and run!" Lena hollered. Lex turns towards Lena, pulling a gun out of his jacket pocket. I couldn't let her get hurt because of me. I muster up all my strength. I rush towards Lena as Lex fires his gun. I manage to get though the bars in her cage and I front of her before the bullet could hurt her. The bullet then hits me in the stomach. The pain is excruciating. Lex is standing there laughing. Lena is leaning over me putting pressure to the wound. I am starting to think I might not make it. Lex is laughing so much that he hasn't realised that the DEO are here. The next thing I hear is another gun shot going off. The kryptonite is making the bullet wound worse, Lena is trying to save me but it hurts so much more than normal. I look up and see Lex on the ground, dead. Alex standing there partly in shock. She killed Lex luthor. "Super girl hang on" was all is heard before the world went black.

Chapter 6

Lena POV

"Super girl, open your eyes" I sob. I have to keep her conscious.

"Kara, you have to stay awake" I cried. This was so fucked up! My gentle Kara was the strongest being on the planet.

"Lena, wtf? That's not Kara!" Alex said, trying to stay calm.

"Alex, I know it is. Look at the photos, near that bed. Not important! ALEX YOU HAVE TO SAVE HER" I screamed cried. My emotions are all over the place. Super girl, someone who I've been to hell and back with. Who saved the world. Is my best friend?! My brother tried and almost successfully killed me. Alex killed my brother?! Kara is dying? What the hell is going on? I start to panic. My breath is getting caught in my chest. My chest tightened. I need to get out of here. I stand up slowly letting go of kara's hand. I hadn't realised i had grabbed it. I race out of the room. Past my brothers dead, lifeless body. Once I'm outside I walk around until I find a pay phone. I call my driver to pick me up. Once Dave, my driver picks me up I dint say anything. He takes me home. As soon as I'm home I notice all the agents dead body's were gone. There wasn't even a sign that people had died! I walk into my bar. I got a bottle of scotch out from the behind it. I'm really going to need a drink today. I walk into my home office. It was as big as my work office. It was basically set up the same way. I shut the curtains. I need to be in the dark right now. It helps center me sometimes. I walk over to my desk, placing the bottle next to my laptop. I sigh. I feel the USB stick in my pocket. I gently grab it as I turn in my laptop. I sigh again. It's going to be a long night I think as I plug it into my laptop. As it opens there are slot of video files. I look at the dates. There is one from the day we met. I unscrew the lid of my scotch. I click on the video. Soon the image of Kara and Alex sitting in karas house appeared. Kara was beautiful even back then. I felt my heart clench. Taking a long swig straight from the bottle I press play.

"Alex you wouldn't believe how gorgeous she is. I walked in with Clark and there was the most perfect person greeting us. My brain short circuited! She was so nice. Clark was being such a rude man to her. I know he hated Lex but oh my... she thought I was a reporter! Alex, me as a reporter? I never thought about it before." Kara was gushing. A dreamy smile plastered on her face. At that point Alex's phone rang. Alex ignored it. Kara's phone rang. Kara smiled so brightly looking at it.

"Give me a bit Alex." She said walking out of the room.

"Hey. Ummm hi Lena." She stuttered slightly. Lena smiles at that. Remembering the conversation she took another long swig from her bottle. Feeling the burn in her throat was better than feeling the shattering of her heart. Oh how she trusted Kara just to be lied to and betrayed. That first phone call changed everything between them. Lena had call with more information on the article her and Clark were working on. She looks to the screen again. Kara has hung up. Her smile alone could light up the city for a year. Lena sighed drinking kore scotch. Alex's phone rang again. She had answered it with a yes sir be there in 20. She looked over at Kara, as Kara started to unbutton her shirt.

"Meet you at the DEO Kara." Alex said as she locked Karas door behind her. Kara was dressed as super girl and flew out her window. Lena sighed again. Drinking more scotch hoping the burn in her throat would make it hurt less. She had lied to me from the start. Lena spent all night watching the videos. Listening to every lie, every excuse. Drinking more scotch she thought bitterly to her self, oh how have thing changed.

Chapter 7

Kara POV

I hear a weird noise. It sounded like people shuffling. My whole body hurt. I tried to use my super hearing but it was like everything was muted. I slowly open my eyes. Of course, I'm at the DEO. I look around realising I'm in my own med bad. I'm here that often I got my own room, set up with sun lamps and struck rules for the agents. Not everyone at the DEO know my real identity. I slowly look to my left seeing Alex and Maggie arguing over a bit of paper.

"Alex, you may be right. But it's not up to you. This is on little Danvers. You have to trust her." Maggie whispered. She looked tired. Or tired of fighting with Alex.

"Babe, it's all Lena's fault. If she wasn't into my baby sister then Kara would be safe. Now Lena Luthor knows super girls real identity! A fucking Luthor knows a supers biggest secret!" Alex whispered with so much venom it could kill 10 people. Oh Rao, Lena knows about super girl? Oh no. I'm going to lose one of the most important people in my life. She is going to hate me?! How did she find out? These thoughts were racing around my mind.

"Alex." I croak our. My voice very horse. It hurt to talk. Maggie and Alex rush over.

"Hey little Danvers, how are you feeling?" Maggie asked softly. She always has had a big heart. I love the face that Alex has someone so warm, kind caring and crazy as her in her life. I needed to know about Lena though.

"Lena" I softly start to say before coughing. It's weird I don't usually cough unless I solar flared.

"She is fine. But she knows. Lex found out and told her." Alex said slowly. My heart stopped. What if she hates me? I know we have been at odds with me being super girl. She even told me, as Kara that super girl has a god complex. That night I cried once I was home.

"I need to go. I need to see her. Alex I don't want her to hate me..." I say, listening to my heart break as the words left my mouth.

"Kara, you need to rest. You have to heal. You solar flared. There was so much kryptonite in your system." Alex said with another worried tone. That explains why everything hurt and why it hurt to move.

"I need to make sure she is ok." I whined. I hate it when I solar flare. It always makes me feel horrible. I can't protect my family or friends like this.

"She will be at game night, tomorrow night remember?" Maggie added with a lopsided grin.

"She will be." I said feeling the exhaustion starting to take over.

"Thank Rao." I mumbled. The warmth of the sun lamps making me even more tired. I fall asleep thinking about the most wonderful person that has ever taken my breath away. Soon dreams of Lena's amazing laugh over take me.

Chapter 8

Lena POV

I had been debating with my self about this all day. Do I or don't I go to Kara aka super girls house for game night tonight. She lied to me for years. So many lies over the years. It crossed my mind so many times. Maybe she didn't trust me because I'm a Luthor. I try not to let the fear creep up my spine. I trusted her! But she didn't trust me because of what Lex did to her cousin?! I try to take a deep breath. I need to let her explain before I do or say anything rash. Maybe after game night and everyone goes home we could talk. I decided that I will have to bring something. Scotch. I might need the liquid courage. I finally finish work at 7:30pm. It's been a long day. I get to Kara's house. It's a smaller house. But it has such a homely feeling. I start to get nervous. What if she doesn't trust me? What if she was using me to further her career? I felt sick at that thought. I'd hear her out then I'd go from there. I knock loudly on her front door. Straighten my blazer and my skirt. I could hear movement behind the door. Kara opened the door, smiling when she saw me. Oh god! He fucking smile! It made my frozen heart beat. The way her eyes twinkled when she was truely happy. She looked so cute in her puppy covered pj's and purple fuzzy socks.

"Hey. Come in please?" She asked so very softly. Like if she spoke any louder she would break me. "I hoped you would come." She said. I look at her face. A big black bruise over one eye. A long cut across her forehead. Tears welling in her eyes. I just want to protect her. Forever.

"I hopped we could talk after..." I started but trailed off looking around. There was no one else here.

"Where is everyone?" I asked starting to feel self conscious. I'm in a house alone with fucking super girl. Who has been lying to me for years!

"I cancelled. I wanted to talk to you. To explain everything." She said looking at her feet. She fidgeted with her glasses. She was nervous. Why would she have glasses? Is it part of her secret identity? I started to feel angry again.

"You have one chance Kara, tell me the truth" I growled. I was so angry that the person I thought was my best friend fucking betrayed me!

"Why didn't you tell me you were, I mean are fucking super girl? Is it because I'm a Luthor? Is that why my best friend doesn't trust me? Or have you been lying to me to use me to get a jump start on your career? " I said. I was so furious! The woman I had fallen for, my best friend, lied to me the whole time I have known her?! I never thought she would lie to me. I could feel tears building up behind my eyes. I was angry and incredibly hurt.

"I am so sorry" Kara said with tears streaming down her face. She was still looking at the floor.

"I wanted to protect you. I didn't want you to be in danger because of me. I wanted to tell you so many times. It was never because of you name I swear to Rao! I just couldn't bare to lose you too" she rambled quickly. Tears running faster down her face. I gently lift her chin up with my index finger. Gently wiping the tears away with my thumbs. Resting my hand on that perfect and delicate cheek.

"If you where honest with me Kara, you wouldn't have lost me" I stated so quietly. She didn't trust me. She hurt me so badly. I turn on my heels and I walk out the door. I spare her a look as I open the door. She was as broken as I was. I shut the door. Hearing nothing but scream sobbing as I walked away. My heart ripped apart.

Chapter 9

Kara POV

My heart broke. I sobbed and screamed. My heart hurts so badly and I don't excatally know why. I should have told her sooner. I curl up on the floor, my knees to my chin. I cry so much that my whole body hurts. I really don't understand why it hurts so much. It's like my heart has been ripped out of my chest with a kryptonite knife. I just lay there, crying. She is gone. She left. The one person in my life that wasn't family that knew me. She left. I don't even know how long I was laying there. The next thing I knew Alex walks in. She rushed over to me.

"Kara, what happened?" Alex asked concerned.

"Lena. Wants. Nothing. To. Do. With. Me." I sob.

"Did Lena touch you with kryptonite?" Alex asked, sounding more concerned by the second. I shake my head.

"No, why?" I ask still sobbing.

"You have a kryptonite burn on your cheek and chin" she stated. She drags me outside to her car. My heart is broken. Lena left. Why does it hurt so bad.

"Where are we going?" I hiccup

"The DEO. I need to check out your burns" Alex says driving faster. I couldn't concentrate. My heart hurt more than anything I have ever felt before. I do t understand why though. Alex is worrying about me. Usually in the car we sing and talk but I have barely opened my mouth. I feel like I've lost the biggest part of me. It's like something is missing. It's not like I was dating Lena, so why does it hurt like this? We walk into the DEO, straight to my med bay. Alex starts running tests. I'm just sitting there on the bed, staring at the floor. I can't even function anymore. After a while I look over to Alex.

"I was right you know. I've told you for years not to trust her." Alex says sternly

"Don't. Alex." I say with a defeated sigh. I was trying not to cry.

"You have kryptonite burns, right where she has touched you." Alex says angrily. She was beyond pissed off with Lena.

"Doesn't matter. I deserve them." I say quietly looking at my feet.

"I have to go and test Lena. You are coming with me. Let's go." She says in a commanding tone. I was that broken I didn't fight it. I wanted to see Lena or at least know she was safe. I don't want her to get hurt because of my secret identity. We get back out to Alex's car. I sit in it quietly.

"For the record, you don't deserve this. You have put yourself in danger so many times to save her. She is the idiot here not you. Kara, your amazing and she is a moron if she couldn't see you were actually looking out for her." Alex states like it was the simplest thing in the world.

"I should have told her sooner. I shouldn't have lied. I deserve this and worse. She is amazing not me. I'm just a freak." I say as tears start rolling down my cheek again. I'm a pathetic loser. I lost the one thing that kept me going. We pull up at Lena's building. I grab Alex's black hoodie out of the car. Slipping it on, pulling the hood over my head. I don't want her to see me. I don't want her to blame herself. It's my fault. We walk up to her assistant, Jess.

"Hey, Jess." I say trying to keep my voice even.

"Hi, Kara, Alex. The doors open. Lena has no meetings today so you can go right in." Jess says with a smile. I give her a slight nod as we walk towards Lena's office door. I go to reach for the door handle. I stop. I can't do this. I turn around and Alex is blocking my way.

"Come on Kara. This won't take long. You don't even have to talk." Alex says softly.

I open the door. As I walk into Lena's office my heart starts to sink even further as I see the look in Lena's eyes. She hates me.

"Get our Kara" Lena growls at me. My heart broke into more prices of that's even possible.

"Lena, please this will take one minute. We just need to test something then you will never have to hear from us again" Alex said in her commanding tone.

"Fine, asking as it keeps liars and fakes away from me." Lena replies in her strong and commanding CEO voice. I seem to shrink more and more into myself. I don't say anything. I just want Lena to be happy. I want her to be safe. Even if it kills me.

"Kara is going to roll up the sleeve of her hoodie, all I want you to do is touch her arm. That's all we need." Alex says simply.

I keep my head down. I roll up the sleeve of my hoodie. I can't bare to see the anger, hurt the betrayal on that gorgeous face. Know it's all my fault she is hurt. This is all my fault. I should have told her years ago. Lena walks over to me. I can see her shadow. She wraps her hand around my left wrist. All of a sudden it burns so badly. I drop to the floor in agony. The next thing I know I'm back at the DEO.

Chapter 10

Lena POV

The second I touched her skin it burnt her. She screamed and fell to the floor.

"What the hell is going on ALEX?!" I scream. I touch super girl and she near breaks!

"Have you injected or taken any form of kryptonite!" She asked quite rudely. I could see how much pain Kara was in. She was closed off she didn't say a word to me. She was trying to hide how broken she was. I need to fix this.

"Alex, you need to help her! Get her back to the DEO, now!" I demand. I don't want her to be hurt. Alex flicks a price of paper onto my desk.

"Sign it Lena. You have to for Kara'a sake. She pulls Kara up to her feel and takes my elevator down. Once they have left my office. I look at the paper. I sigh. Maybe this was Lex's plan all along. I read the paper. It's a NDA. Did they think I would out Kara?! Just because I'm hurt? Or because I'm a Luthor? I have to fix this. I'd I ever want that crazy beautiful kind hearted person to be able to come near me again. I have to get to my lab.

"Jess, go home I am too." I say as I rush out of my office. I have to get to my lab. I have to get to the bottom of this. I know I shouldn't have said what I said last night. It wasn't fair or right. I should have known Kara would protect me. I should have given her more time. Truth is, she could hurt me as many times as she wants. I'll still be there for her. Always. I need to run some more tests on myself.

Kara POV

Lena can physically hurt me? What I'm Rao's name is going on? She can do something that Lex could only dream about. I have to stay away from her. The thought of never seeing her again made my heart break more if it was possible. I'll never be able to be near her, or have a hug from my best friend again. Wait, she wants nothing to do with me anyways. Alex finally lets me out of the DEO A few hours later after running tests and me sitting under a sun lamp. I decide to fly straight home. I need to try and reel in my emotions or my powers will get out of control. My life is falling apart. It almost feels like it did when krypton exploded. The emptiness, the anger, the darkness. I touch down gently on my back steps. Instead of unlocking my door. I look at it feeling everything starting to take over. The anger at myself for losing Lena, failing her. Something in me snaps. I punch the door. It flies into the hallways, in pieces, just like my heart. My emotions are getting the best of me. At the exact second my phone started to ring I pick it up and see Lena's name. I crush the phone in my hand. I've hurt everyone. I'm a freak. I should have died with my family. Throwing my phone at the wall it smashes into pieces and blows a hole though the wall. Great now I have a hole to fix. I gently go to place my forehead gently against the wall but wasn't paying attention to my strength and ended up putting another hole there too.

Chapter 11

Kara POV continued

I tried so hard to reel in my emotions. But the more I think about the look of horror and betrayal on Lena's face the more I hate myself and the more things start getting out of hand. I sit at the kitchen counter. My anger getting the better of me. I hold onto the counter, trying to calm myself down. I hear a crunch. I look at my hands. I've broken the counter. I sigh. It felt good. Maybe I need to break something. To release the anger. I can't talk to Alex because she hates Lena and doesn't want to hear it. I sigh pounding my hand in the counter remnants. It breaks even further. I'm losing control of my strength, of all control I have. My head is in shambles. I couldn't take it anymore. I start punching holes in my walls. Trying to take the frustration, the rage that I have at myself out on the house. Before I can destroy my house I fly outside. I fly hubby above national city. I scream at the top of my lungs. All I can think about is the look Lena gave me once she found out. Hurt and betrayal. I did that. I hurt her. Even after I promised I wouldn't. The pain is building up. The sun has set and I'm still floating there crying and screaming. I finally lose the will to keep trying. The pain is too much. I fly up higher than safe for me. The pain and anger floating through me. I let out a pained scream as my heat vision activated. Not only is my mind breaking but so is my body. Read steaks from my heat vision are streaking across the sky. My body finally starts to give up and I start falling. I could probably stop it if I had the will power. But I deserve this. I deserve to be alone. I deserve to hurt. I screwed everything up. I smash into the ground. I don't care if someone finds me or not. I just pray Rao will take me. That I don't have to keep going. I close my eyes. Every inch of my body hurts. Maybe Rao is going to take me after all.

"Kara, wake up!" A strong voice yells at me. Damn. Rao didn't take me. Maybe I need more of a punishment for hurting Lena. Not trusting myself to speak. I open my eyes. I must be at the DEO. It looks like my med bay. I'm under a sun lamp. Great. Alex is going to kill me. I groan as I sit up. Looking around the room it's different to the DEO. Where am I? I hear a noise and spin my head. Wishing I hadn't. It was Lena. Standing in the door way. I instantly drop my head. Tears building up. I take a deep breath.

"Where am I? Why did you help me? Don't you hate me?" I said whispering the last question. I already knew the answer. I wish Alex had saved me instead. It wouldn't have hurt as much as this does.

"Darling, I am so sorry!" Lena says coming closer. I flinched. I know she is going to hurt me again. I feel her hand gently cup my cheek, slowly bringing my face up so I can see into her perfect emerald green eyes.

"Kara, darling, I am so so sorry." She choked out. She is crying. She drops her hand from my cheek, dropping to her knees. Head down. Crying. I don't know what I was thinking. I reach down and pull her upright. Slowly and ever so carefully I wrap my arms around her.

"Lena, I'm so sorry it's all my fault. I should have told you sooner" I sob. I tried so hard to breathe. I tried to be strong. But I couldn't. Lena must have sensed something was off.

"Kara, it's my fault, not yours." She said nuzzling her face in my neck.

"I should have given you more time to explain. You were the first person to let me in, that gave me a chance. You were my best friend. I should have given you more time." She sobbed. Holding me tighter. Like I was going to disappear. My heart started to beat faster. Finally feeling like I was home again.

Chapter 12

Lena POV

I felt so safe and loved being in kara's arms. It was like I finally found a home. One where I will always be protected, loved and safe. She forgives me for being a total asshole. Her strong arms around me. I want to tell her about my feelings but it's too soon. It's only been about a week since I found out that she is super girl. But I have a surprise for her when she is ready. I almost lost her for good. I won't let it happen again. Even if it means I just stay as her best friend. She always brings out the best in me. She never let me break. She encourages me to be the best person I could be. She was the first person I've met in my life that didn't use the Luthor name against me. I chance a glance up towards her beautiful face. Her blonde hair shaping it perfectly. How much I would give to kiss her perfectly pink lips. Fuck! Lena focus! I scald myself. This is one of the very few times I've let myself be held by this kind and caring woman. I take a deep breath in. Inhaling her natural scent. She always smelt like strawberries and vanilla. It's my favourite smell in the whole world. I let her go. Blushing ducking my head so she can't see the blush creeping up my neck.

"Sorry" I mumbled. That hug went way to long.

"Lena" she sighed then continued. "You have nothing at all to be sorry for. I will always be by your side. Always." She flashed her heart melting smile at me.

"Are we in the DEO?" She asked softly

"No my lab. At my house." I say quickly.

"How did you get sun beds " she asks, cocking her head to one side looking around the room.

"As soon as I signed the NDA, I called J'ohn. I told him with the DEO being so far out of the city we should put sun beds here and at Lcorp just in case anything happened to you. That way we can help you faster. So Alex and J'ohn have access to both places as well as you and we have set it all up in the last few days. Good thing we did here first. Otherwise you would be out for a few more days." I blush realising how that all sounded. I sounded like a stalker. I look towards Kara and her smile got bigger.

"Want a tour of my lab here? I know you haven't seen the whole house yet" I suggest trying to sound normal.

"I would love a tour." She smiled bigger at me. Her ocean blue eyes twinkling at me. I just want to hold her and keep her safe forever. To be hers. But that can't happen. She is straight. I show her around my lab. Her eyes growing in amazement. I answered all her questions. She would laugh ever time I would 'nerd out' as she would say. Eventually we got around to the burning questions she had.

"How were you able to burn me by touch?" She asked gently.

"Lex, he had injected me with liquid kryptonite" I state simply.

"How did you find a cure? You didn't burn me when you touched me earlier." She asks cautiously.

"Liquid sunlight. You won't be hurt nearly as bad as long as I'm near by as long as I give myself a shot a day. You will be safer now. I promise. No one can hurt you" I say not daring to look at her. Little did I know I was about to be very wrong.

Chapter 13

Kara POV

I looked at Lena in awe. She has done something in a matter of days that Alex has been trying to do for years.

"Lena, you don't have to go through all that just for me." I say. I was in shock that she would do that. She would have spent the whole time with no sleep. She must have seen the worry in my face.

"Kara, you have never understood how much you mean to me" she breathes. It was so quiet. Her heart rate increased. Was she nervous? We were walking into her lounge room.

"Let me show you something." She says walking towards her sound system.

Lena POV

I need to tell her everything. She deserves the truth. I hope she doesn't hate me for what I'm about to do. I just need to show her how much she means to me. I'm looking through my phone for the one song thy has always reminded me of her. It's called planets by short stack. I hit play. Hoping she will understand. I hear the opening notes and pray to any gods out there that I don't make a fool of myself. I hope she gets it. I start singing to her.

Kara POV

She started to sing to me. Her voice was so amazing. She was so good.

' I'm reaching out I'm reaching out

I'm reaching out to get to you

Sweet heart

Here's the sweet part

it's five AM

And your lips are still amazing

But they they can't stop

Me from falling

Off the rooftop singing

What planet are you from?

And are all the lights on?

I don't know how to talk to you.

And where did you come from?

What planet are you on?

I can't believe the things you do.

I'm reaching out (I'm reaching out)

I'm reaching out (I'm reaching out)

I'm reaching out to get to you

I'm reaching out (I'm reaching out)

I'm reaching out (I'm reaching out)

I think I'm on the same planet as you

Stop now

Here's the break down

Let's Leave this town

In the place of ill intentions

And the cop calls

Sound the alarms'

She sounds so amazing she should really be a singer. But is she telling me what I think she is telling me? Does she like me like I like her? She can't. I'm dangerous and it's not safe and isn't she straight?!

"Lena, are you saying what I think you are saying?" I asked so nervous for the answer I don't want to lose her. Not over a stupid crush she will never know. She sighed and took another breath.

' Sweetheart, I'm here for you

to see your pretty face

I defy all the stars

to capture your embrace

Sweetheart I'm holding out

Sweetheart were pulling through

Sweetheart I'm reaching out

Only to get to you'

I look at her. She looks so nervous. She takes a step forward. Closing the gap between us. She gently cups my cheek. Leaning in. She is giving me time to back away. My body doesn't move. This amazing person wants me? No she can't. I might hurt her. I could accidentally forget she is human and hurt her. Her eyes flutter shut, inching closer. Why can't I move? I want this so badly but I can't risk hurting her. The next moment a pair of plump red lips make contact with mine.

Chapter 14

Lena POV

That's it. I can die happy now. Feeling her lips against mine. Oh my lord. My eyes flutter open. Praying that I didn't make a mistake. That I didn't miss read this. My heart dropped as I looking into her eyes. I totally fucked this up! Typical fucking Luthor thing to do!

"Kara" I whisper. My breath catching in my throat. I'm terrified.

"I have to go, I'm sorry Lena" she rushes out. She super speed to the door and flew away. I could feel the tears already stinging the back of my eyes. I Fucked everything up! I shouldn't have tried! I should have just put my feelings into boxes. I race to the bar grabbing a bottle of scotch. Feeling bad habits and dark monsters creating back into my head. I slide down the kitchen wall. Knees to my chest. Taking a deep breath to stop things getting out of control. I look at the bottle of scotch. Taking the cap off, I raise the bottle to my lips. Taking a big swig, praying the burn in my throat will take my mind off the look of horror on kara's face. I really screwed up! I try so had not to look at the knives in the block on the counter. I've tried so hard not to go back there. I've tried so hard not to go back to how I was. The amount of times I have tried to kill myself over the years. I haven't tried since the day Kara walked into my life. She literally lights up my world. She knows me so well that she has helped me without even trying. Tears still steaming down my face, scotch in my hand. I keep drinking. I know I shouldn't be. But I'm trying so hard. Maybe just maybe I do deserve this. Half the bottle is now gone. I keep going. I can't live like this. My walls only ever broke down because of her and I fucked it up! I grab my phone opening my texts.

'Alex, tell Kara I'm sorry' I typed out and sent to Alex. I turn the phone off. They are better off without me. I turned into a monster just like Lex. I should do the world a favour. The voice in my head kept saying. I start to think it's right. The scotch isn't enough. I slowly crawl over to the counter. Grabbing a knife out of the block. Draining the last of the scotch I raise the knife to my thigh. Letting the knife dig deeper into my flesh than I ever have before. Moving to my arm I start at my wrist dragging the knife deep to my elbow. It doesn't even hurt, not compared to what I've done to Kara. I watch the blood seeping quickly from my arm hitting the floor. Hopefully the emptiness, the darkness will finally leave. Now I can free Kara from my darkness. I sigh thinking about Kara as my head starts to spin. I black out there on the floor. Hopefully this makes up for all the lives the luthiers have destroyed.

Chapter 15

Kara POV

Lena kisses me. She kissed me! I'm not gay. But Lena was special. I was attracted to her. I've always had strong feelings for her. I felt more for her the first day we met than what I did for Mon-el the whole time we were together. I don't understand. Maybe I should talk to Alex or maybe Maggie. I fly over to the DEO. As I walk in I notice something is wrong. Alex's heart beat is different. I call out to her and Maggie. I walk into the training room just as the spring apart. OH Rao! I run at the back of my neck trying not to look them in the eyes.

"What's up Kara?" Alex was the first to break the silence. She could read me like a book most of the time. I walk over turning on the kryptonite transmitters. I was confused and frustrated. I start hitting the boxing back in the corner designed just for me.

"It's Lena. Oh Rao." I mutter just loud enough for them to hear me.

"Kara, whatever it is, Alex and I are here for you. Always" Maggie says smiling so big at me that her dimples show. Maggie is amazing to Alex and treats me like a sister.

"I have to tell you guys. Don't freak out." I say. I turn around and Maggie gives me another smile and a huge hug. I start telling them everything. We get to the part when Lena put on a song to sing.

"What song was it?" Alex asks

"Umm it was planets by short stack" I say. I never have been into punk or rock music. I love pop music. Mostly 90's pop the stuff today shouldn't be called music. But that song is going to be my new favourite. Alex pulls up the lyrics on her phone.

"Keep going Kara, tell us the rest." Maggie says softly. So I tell them about the kiss and what I did. Maggie smiles while Alex face palmed!

"Sawyer, I owe you 50 bucks" Alex grumbles. They were betting on my love life? That's not cool! What in Rao's name is wrong with them?

Chapter 16

Kara POV continued

I stare at them both dumbfounded. They are betting in my life?! Alex's phone we t off she stared at it wide eye.

"Hey Kara, where is you phone?" She says quickly.

"I smashed it earlier by accident. That reminds me I'm gunna have to fix a few walls and my kitchen again" I sigh. I don't have enough money to do that. Again. Alex passes me her phone.

'Alex, tell Kara I'm sorry' was all it said. From Lena. Oh Rao what is going on?! I pass the phone back without a word super speeding outside. I launch myself into the air. Flying as fast as I can breaking the sound barrier. My heart is in my throat. I hope Lena is ok. If she isn't it's my fault. I can't lose her. She is my everything. Oh Rao, did I fall for Lena Luthor? Coming up to her house I use my super hearing looking for her heart beat. It's there, not as strong as normal. I see the window was still open from where I left a few hours earlier. I fly through. Gently landing on the polished wooden floor.

"Lena!" I call. I use my X-ray vision she is in the kitchen, laying on the floor. I super speed in. My heart shattered. Beside her is an empty bottle of scotch and a kitchen knife. Blood pooling out of her arm and her leg. I grab a few tea towels from the cupboard. Wrapping them around the cuts. Why would she do this? Did I cause her to do this? I did. I should have told her how I felt. Even if I wasn't sure myself. I should have been more open. Gently cradling her bridal style. I walk towards the window, jumping out flying straight towards the DEO.

"Alex!" I scream on my coms.

"Yeah, no need to shout super girl" Alex whined

"I will be at the DEO in 40 seconds, meet me in the med bad, my med bay! Lena is badly hurt" I scream. Shutting down my coms so I can't hear Alex reply. I start to freak out. I can't lose her. Flying faster than I've ever flown before I made it to the DEO in 25 seconds. Touching down gently not to hurt Lena I spied her into my med bay before anyone could see. Alex was waiting for me. I gently place her on the bed.

"I promise you, Lee you will be ok. You have to be" I whisper to her. Hoping she could hear me. Alex gets to work as Maggie drags me outside the room. I stay there. Staring at the door. She has to be ok. I should have told her how I felt instead of freaking out.

"You love her don't you little Danvers?" Maggie asked squeezing my should showing her support. Without thinking I answered

"Yeah I do" I slide down the wall opposite the med bay door. Leaning on I curl my knees into my chest. Tears starting to run down my face. I love Lena. It's just that simple. But I caused her so much pain. She tried to kill herself because I left. I was so scared about these feeling for years not to mention the secret identity. It took me awhile sitting there, crying, Maggie rubbing my back for me to realise. I was madly in love with my best friend.

"Alex will save her. Be strong Kara. Lena needs you as much as you need her" Maggie said softly. I don't know. The thought of her dying did something to me. I was broken and angry at myself. This is all my fault.

Chapter 17

Lena POV

The last thing I remember was blood running down my arm. I can hear people talking but it's just mumbles. I can few someone holding my hand. My head hurts. Everything is really I don't know how to say it but I guess it's fuzzy? Great even in my head I sound like an idiot.

"Lena, this is all my fault" I hear Kara sobbing. Clear as day. My heart shattered. I never meant to hurt her. I just wanted the pain to stop. Being a Luthor is the worst thing in the world. Everyone expects me to be evil, to be crazy like Lex was. I send everyone he has ever hurt or the families that have lost a loved one because of him payments every month. I know it's not much but I want them to know how sorry I truely am. I try to open my eyes. But I can't find the energy too.

"Lena I am so sorry. I never should have walked away. I was so scared. You are the most amazing person I have ever met. I don't know when. I don't know how but I fell for you so hard. I can't bare to lose you. I'm so sorry" Kara cried. I could feel her tears dripping faster into my hand. I want to just reach up, wipe them away. Tell her it's not her fault. Oh god. I need to open my eyes. I need to talk to her.

"Kara" I croak out. My voice is so harsh. She sits up wiping her tears with the back of here sleeve. Grabbing a glass of water she tells me to take a sip. I do ever so slowly. The water is cooling my burning throat.

"It's not your fault. I'm broken. I'm nothing" I mumble closing my eyes. I didn't even hear her reply. I drifted off into the blackness again. I come too sometime later. Kara has her head down but I can see the tears still streaming down her face. I reach up and every so gently wipe them away from her face. The dark voice in my head kept telling me that Kara was only feeling guilty because of god complex. I wish I had never said that. I go to move my hand away she reaches out grabbing my hand.

"Lena, you are so amazing. You own a multi billion dollar company. You give slot of people hope keeping them employed, funding hospitals. You have saved the world so many times! You are so strong and sweet and kind" Kara rambles. She leans in towards me. My eyes flutter shut. I must be dreaming or Alex has given me so really strong drugs. I was in shock for a second before I respond to her kiss. It was slow and sweet. I tangle my fingers into her blonde hair. She timidly deepens the kiss. I moan. Her mouth hungrily, greedily takes this kiss from dowry and sweet to a passion I've never felt before. She pulls away only by an inch.

"No you don't" I whisper. I needed more. I needed her. Crashing our lips together again she moans. By go oh mighty that was the sexiest thing I've ever heard. She gently bites my lip as I pull away as I need air.

"Please don't be a dream" I whisper. Eyes still shut I don't want this to end. Her forehead pressed gently against mine.

"Lena, be mine?" She asked so softly. My heart was beating so hard. She want to be my girlfriend?!

"Yes, Kara I'm yours. Forever" I breathe.

Chapter 18

Kara POV

I can't believe it. I really can't. I asked Lena out! Lena said yes! It feels like I'm floating. I need to be cared that I don't start doing that. My forehead is still every so gently pressed against hers. I wasn't even sure if I heard her correctly. She is so amazing. Her cheeks are flushed, her green eyes are sparkling, full of kindness and love.

"Kara?" She whispered then paused. I was so lost in her eyes I didn't even hear her.

"Babe? Your sister is giving me a death stare" she whispers. I don't care if Alex hates Lena. She will play nice.

"Oh Rao" I sigh. Alex is going to be so mad.

"I'll talk to her. Can I tell her about us?" I asked. Pleading with my eyes. Or foreheads still resting together.

"Yes babe. It means I can do this" she breaths. She cups my cheek pulling me closer. Crashing our lips together. It feels like my world stops spinning. I can't focus on anything other than the taste of coffee and mint. Lena always tastes like mint and coffee. It's addicting. She bites my bottom lip. I try to suppress the most that's building up in the back of my throat. She feels so good. It's like coming home for the first time. She pulls away. Keeping my eyes closed I sigh. I miss her lips already.

"Babe, go talk to Alex" she whispered. I blushed. Opening my eyes I could see her eyes burning with desire. I slowly nod my head, gently squeezing her hand. I take a deep breath. Straightening up. This is going to be bad. I slowly walk towards the door, mentally preparing myself for the fight that's about to happen with my sister. Alex walks in front of me heading to the sound proof training room. This is going to be bad. Hopefully she can see reason. As soon as I shut the door, Alex starts.

"Are you fucking kidding me Kara?!" She yelled. I take a deep breath.

"We all know Luthor's use supers! She is going to betray you and hurt you excatally like Lex did to Clark! Don't be so fucking stupid! We all know you can't trust a Luthor!" She screamed. I'm so angry. I thought we were past all this!

"Lena isn't like Lex or their mother! Don't forget she has saved all of us more time than you can count! She is a good person and if you can't see that or support us then you are not the person I thought you were!" I say keeping my voice even. I have to stay in control or I might hurt Alex by accident. I clench my fists by my side, trying to contain my rage. Lena is so good. She has NEVER acted like her family. She has spent her life trying to be good.

"You have to leave her or leave the DEO. We can't have a security risk. Which Lena is. Plus I will not let super girl or even Kara be with a fucking Luthor" Alex said with that much venom she would kill a small army. But I can't do this anymore. Lena is the best thing to happen to me.

"Fine!" I say with all the confidence in my body.

"I QUIT" I exclaim as I walk out towards my Lena.

Chapter 19

Lena POV

Kara came back into the room. Her eyes shining. I don't think it went well with Alex.

"Babe, are you ok?" I whispered

"Baby I'm taking you home." She says ignoring my question. I know she will tell me when she is ready. She comes over picking me up bridal style. I wrap my arms around her neck holding her close. She takes off from the DEO. I gently snuggle into her closer. I feel her contended sigh. I pepper her neck with light kisses. I want her to know that she isn't alone. That I'll always be here for her. We get back to my house. She gently carries me to the bedroom. Placing me softly on the bed. I pull her close kissing her softly and sweetly, my arms around her neck still. I can't believe I can call this beautiful girl mine.

"Baby you need to rest. I need to sort some things out at my place. I may or may not have wrecked part of my house." She sighed. She was angry at her self again. She is fidgeting.

"Only on one condition" I say certain I am going to cause a fight but I want to help her. She tilts her head to one side.

"Take my card, pay for all tour house repairs and whatever else you need. " I say pleading with her. I know I could afford it and she can't. I just want to help her. She sighs.

" baby girl I'm not with you for your money." She says sounding defeated. That fight with Alex really must have taken it out of her.

"Babe, please? Just do what you need to do then come home to me." I say. Is it too soon to think about her moving in with me?

"Ok babe, but I need to check something out in the fortress, so I might not be back for a few hours. Ok?" She says still fidgeting.

"Ok babe. You know you didn't tell me what happened with Alex." I say cautiously. I don't want to make her angry.

"I quit the DEO. Alex told me to choose them or you. I simply choose you." She said with so much love at the end it made my heart swell. No one ever picks me. They all want me for my money or my business. Not just for me. Kara chose me.

"Kara you didn't-" I started to say but she cut me off pressing her lips lovingly to mine.

"Lena, your it for me. If Alex has a problem than that's hers. I want to be happy. You make me happy" she says with a small smile touching her lips.

"Kara, what did you mean by your it?" I ask softly.

"I will explain once I check something at the fortress. I'm not sure but I have a hunch about something. I'll bring back dinner when I come home" she says softly kissing my forehead before super speeding tour of the room. I couldn't wipe the smile off my face. She was coming home to me. Kara Danvers is my girlfriend! I let out a very contented sigh cuddling up to my pillow imagining that it was Kara and I fall asleep. All I could dream about was her perfect lips and her ocean blue eyes.

Chapter 20

Kara POV

Back on my planet, once you turned 10 years old your taken to the leader of your house. For me it was my mum and dad. They then take you to a room. It is full of screens. Mum called it the "conclusion room". It tells you every major thing that is going to happen in your life. Nothing was me t to be left to chance. It tells you everything, from your soul mate to your death. I will never forget that. I always tried to forget this, thinking about home always hurt. I looked at the screens, next to soul mate it said Lena Luthor from earth. Next to death it said I would die in the phantom zone. So when I landed on earth I thought it was wrong. I had survived. I pushed all my memories of joke down. I had honestly lost my faith in Rao. Until I found Lena. It took me a year to figure out that maybe I should be listening to my past a little. That it could be the same Lena. But I was in denial. I started to remember more about the conclusion room. The second she said yes to being my girlfriend my overprotectiveness went through the roof. I knew deep down that this is how the bond started. The bond is going to be hard to explain to her. From what my mum had told me it was like your souls mate but so much stronger. It also means that once we are completely bonded if I hurt so will she. If I die that she does to. If the bond is completed then it means as a same sex couple we could have kids. Kids were only ever produced if the bond was complete. My overprotectiveness will be hard to control. We won't even physically be able to lie to each other. I just don't know if she is ready to hear all this yet. If I tell her this and she rejects me right now I will end up with a burn like scar over my heart. That will burn till the end of my days. If she rejects me after the bond is complete though I will die. I'm not sure how this will affect my powers. There is so much running though my head as I fly around the fortress. I land and go inside. I just need to think. I just need to figure out how to explain this to her. I pray to Rao that Lena will understand. That she won't leave me.

Chapter 21

Lena POV

Kara came home. She walked into the bedroom laying down next to me. She wraps her arms around me, pulling me in closer. I've never felt so safe and contented in my life. It's like I'm finally hole. I let out a contented sigh.

" Baby, your so amazingly cuddly. Your my very own teddy bear" she whispers into my ear causing me to shiver. She is so sweet towards me. She mss as led me feel like I'm more than my family. That I can be happy.

"Babe, are you going to tell me why you quit the DEO?" I ask, snuggling in closer.

"There is so much I have to tell you. It all started when I was back on krypton" she whispers and pauses. I roll over being careful of my arm.

"You don't have to tell me but when your ready, I'm here." I say watching tears pool behind her amazingly blue eyes. A small tear escapes, I brush it away gently with my thumb. She gently grabs my wrist placing my hand against her cheek.

"Lena, I want to tell you. I'm just scared you will leave me" she sighs pulling me a little closer. I need her. I have never felt anything like this before. When she isn't near by I stress. I always worry about her safety and I am worried one day she won't come home. I love her. But it's too soon right? I should just tell her.

"Kara, Baby. I love you. I'm not going anywhere." I whisper. Running my fingers through her beautiful blond hair.

"Oh RAO! Lena I love you too" she breathes crashing our lips together. I'll never get I've ether feeling of her soft pink lips. How they fit perfectly with mine. This kiss was different. It was sweet caring and full of love. But it turned into this animalistic, needing burning with passion. Soon I'm panting hard. Gently resting her forehead against mine.

"Lena, your going to change soon" she said. My mind went blank. What on earth is she talking about?! I wanted to ask so many questions but decided to wait until she finished. Until I have all the information. I let her tell me all about krypton. It was amazing hearing about her old home. She then told me about the "conclusion room". I was shocked. I wasn't sure I had heard her properly. I think she said if one dies so does the other? What I really got stuck on is she was telling me I could end up with powers?! What the actual fuck!

Chapter 22

Kara POV

I think Lena is in shock. Once I got to the part about one of us dying the other would as well. She sat back against the head board. Rubbing her temple. I wanted to explain everything with every detail. I won't be able to lie to her now anyways. The bond had started. There is only one way to finish the bond. All of a sudden Lena was asking a million questions. I tell her everything. Alex and the DEO know all about this because of Clark and Louis.

"So super man is your cousin? And his wide has powers too? Because of the bond?" Lena asked with surprise in her voice. He heart started to quicken.

"Yes. I honestly thought mine was wrong. I thought because I got here and didn't die in the phantom zone. When your up to it, I'll take you to the fortress of solitude and prove it all to you. If you want I can teach you kryptonise and show you the pod I came to earth in." I say nervously. I was stuttering. I was so excited to be able to tell her and show her everything.

"How do we complete the bond?" She asked sheepishly. My breath hitching in my throat.

"Umm we have to, umm, oh Rao, you know?" I stammer out. I've never been so nervous. I've never had sex. Mon-el knew about the bond so all we did was kiss. Sex was only meant for your soul mate. Lena was the second person I've ever kissed. Oh Rao, she is going to laugh at me.

"Baby, it's ok to talk about sex, unless..." she trailed off blushing slightly.

"Kara, are you a virgin?" She asked softly pulling me closer. Rao I wish I could lie. "Yes" I mutter. Hiding my face into her shoulder. She holds me close rubbing my back whispering sweet nothings to me.

"Kara, darling. I love you. I have for years. I will never push you. I would never do anything to rush you, or make you uncomfortable. We can take it as slow as you want." She said gently, making my heart soar. Maybe Rao knew this was the one person I was meant to be with. I look into her eyes, seeing noting but love. I lean in and kiss her gently.

"Thank you" I whisper into her lips.

Chapter 23

Lena POV

Ok, so I will end up with super powers, that cool. But Kara is a fucking virgin?! What the fuck? I thought that couldn't be true?! She is a fucking goddess! She was my sweetheart, my dorky princess. I want her to know that she is my world. That she is my sunlight. I'm not with her for protection or sex. I just want to be with her. Wherever she is, is my home.

"Ok baby. Enough with the serious talk. What did you end up getting while you ere shopping?" I ask her. She is so cute.

"Well since I kind of wrecked part of my house I organised the contractors to fix it. I got a new phone because I smashed my last one. I got some clothes that I was thinking about leaving here. If that ok?" She asked shyly. OH MY GOD! Kara wants to leave clothes here?! Wow. I couldn't say anything but I nodded. I mean of course she could!

"Babe I got you something, but I made it." She says softly. She reached over presenting me with a blue necklace. It was beautiful.

"It made with krypton-el. A stone from my home planet. It will keep you safe even if I can't." She said softly gently putting it on for me. No one has ever taken the time to do something like this for me. My heart skipped a beat as her hands gently brush the back of my neck. Sending shivers down my spine. I get up and go look in the mirror. It was spectacular. Just like her! I see her sitting in the middle of the bed resting against the head board still. I walk over placing my legs eaither side of her. I pull her close for a kiss. She stoops me reaching up to brush a stray tear away.

"Don't you like it?" She asked sounding slightly hurt.

"I love it" I whisper inching closer. She pulls me down crashing our lips together finally. Feeling a hunger deep inside I groaned. I've been er felt like this with anyone in my life. I couldn't get enough of her lips. The way the moves. The way they tasted. The whimper she makes when I bite down on her lip. I was getting so turned on. The way we're kissing was like our lives depended on it. My hands tangled in her hair. I gasp as she gently brushes her hand over my boobs. "Baby" I groan huskily.

"You don't have to do this if you're not comfortable" I say trying to catch my breath.

"I know" she sighs then continues

"Your heat beat was making it so hard to think" she says blushing slightly.

"I love you my gorgeous princess" I say softly to her wrapping my arms around her neck.

"Nothing in all the planets is as beautiful as you Lena." She says running her hands down my back. I've never felt so much love in my life as I did right now, in this moment.

Chapter 24

Kara POV

"Lena I love you" I said contentedly. I knew it was true. But I was so nervous about what will happen. I know she won't push me into anything if I didn't want to. But what if I'm not what she wants?

"Kara" she said softly. Pulling me out of my thoughts. I look at her. Her perfect smile her beautiful dimples when she smiles her amazingly green eyes that make me weak at the knees.

"You are so perfect. You are strong emotionally. Your talented, smart, funny and you have the biggest heart on this planet!" She says with so much love and a slight blush. I pull her in for a kiss. My heart swelling as she leans in pulling me as close as she can. I never knew making out with my soul mate would drive me this crazy. I want her in every way. The way she kisses me makes my brain short circuit. I groan as her lips leave mine. I've never felt so much emotion as I did with her.

"Lena, your the only reason I'm still here. The day we met you saved my life. Rao must have known I had given up. The day I met you, you made me smile. You challenged my opinion. You always make me be a better person. I want you in my life forever. Only if you will have me." I say without thinking about anything but my Lena. Her perfect green eyes, the way she arches her eyebrow. The way her hair always sits so perfectly. The way she is always helping people even if they judge her by her last name.

"Kara, are you asking me to marry you?" She whispers gently. Her green eyes on the verge of tears.

"I just want to be with you in anyway you will have me" I say gently. I heard her heart rate pick up.

"But didn't you say if I reject you, you would die?" She asks in a panic. Her heart rate increased dramatically. I wrap my arms around her.

"Lena I would do anything to keep you safe and happy. Until the bond is complete, I could still die protecting you." I say softly.

"Once if the bond is computed you reject me then I would die. If you reject me now it's just a burning scar." I whisper to her praying to Rao she doesn't reject me. I don't want to force her into something she doesn't want.

"Kara, I need you here, with me." She breathes as she pulls me in close. I run my hands softly down her back and I can feel her shiver under my touch. I can hear her breath catch in her throat and her heart miss a beat. She sighs. That wonderful contented sigh that makes me feel like I could conquer the world.

"Kara, I've got an idea! I have to go down to my lab" she says suddenly running out of the room. I chuckle. I super speed down to her lab and wait for her so I could open the door for her.

"I sort of can't wait until I can't beat you down here." She says with a chuckle.

"It would make a nice change" I say laughing at her scowl. I open the door following her into the lab. I couldn't help but smile as I watch her work.

Chapter 25

Lena POV

Kara sat down watching me in my lab. I had an idea to make the liquid sunlight into a one time shot unless Kara is hurt. If I can fix the formula I could then maybe create it into a tablet. Then she wouldn't need to be under red sun laps for the injection. That way I could Jeep her safe from the likes of my mother.

"Babe, what's your brilliant idea?" Kara asks. Breaking my concentration.

"I'm fixing the liquid sunlight so you will only need it when your hurt once. Then hopefully I can make it into tablets so you won't need kryptonite needles or red sun lamps." I say trying to work out some complicated maths.

"Oh, Rao, you are so perfect" she breathes. I blush trying not to lose my train of thought.

"Babe, go make up with Alex. Go see J'ohn. Explain everything. You have to be super girl. Don't give up on protecting people. If this works and we complete the bond it would help me to help you protect everyone." I tell her sternly. She needs to sort this out. I won't let her lose her family because of me.

"But babe I want to stay here with you!" She pouts. Her big puppy dog eyes in full display.

"Baby girl, you are the biggest distraction I've ever seen. Now go" I say. As Kara would say I'm in full 'nerd mode'.

"Ok" she says. She grabs my arm softly turning me around. Crashing our lips together. It's perfect. I can feel her heart beating as fast as mine. I feel like this is what heaven would feel like. As we part I'm dazed. My brain isn't functioning.

"Think of that while I'm gone" she smirks and speeds out of the room. Sigh. She makes it hard to think but I really want to do this for her. This wonderful sex woman is my girlfriend. I sigh again. She is going to be the death of me. I'm working on a way that this liquid sunlight could also enhance all of her powers. That way she won't get hurt as often. I stress about her so much. I can't lose her. I sigh getting back to work. I wonder if she and Alex will be ok. I hope so. She deserves the world and I'll do my very best to give it to her.

Chapter 26

Kara POV

I flew to the Deo, thinking about Lena the whole way. I can't believe she is trying to make me safer. As I land gently at the Deo, J'ohn came out and stood beside me. We both stand there silently looking over the city. I hope he understands. He sighs.

"Kara, what happened? Do you really want to quit?" He asks softly. He rest his hand on my shoulder. Trying to reassure me.

"J'ohn, I don't want to quit. I know you know about the conclusion room. Alex doesn't understand. She can't see all the good Lena has done for this world." I say angrily.

"Lena? She is good for you. She is as strong as you are. You both have an amazingly big hearts." He says softly.

"I can't help it that she is my soul mate. She is just so amazing. I wish Alex would understand." I say just wanting him to get that I want to stay but I won't pick them over Lena.

"Lena has always proved she isn't her family, just like you and Winn. Time and time again she has saved the world and you. She isn't her family." He says firmly. He totally understands.

"Is Alex here?" I ask so softly that I was worried he wouldn't hear me.

"She is in the training room." He states.

He motions me to follow him. I do. As we reach the training room. He stops short. Giving me a brief hug.

"Alex! Kara is here to see you. Remember what I said about your temper!" He yells at her. I walk past him entering the room closing the door. It was a sound proof room. I didn't want all the agents to know yet. Alex looks at me angrily.

"What do you want Kara?" She snaps

"Alex what is going on with you?"

"Kara, stop being stupid! Your messing around with a fucking Luthor!" She snarls spitting the last word with so much venom. I was so angry! She can't believe that Lena is my soul mate.

"Alex, I have so much to tell you please listen. If you don't then you will lose me" I say to her.

"It had better been good, Kara!" Alex said.

I told her about the conclusion room. About soul mates, what happens to Lena and me.

"Are you kidding me?! Did it have to be a fucking Luthor?!" She yelled

I finally snapped.

"Alex be nice or you will lose me! Your choice. I love her Alex!" I yell.

"Fine, I'll ty to be nice. Your my sister" Alex says still angry walking around all the weapons we had in the training room. She had one hand in her pocket but I didn't care. I walked over and gave her a big hug. I had missed my big sister.

"I'm sorry." Alex says while we are hugging. I sighed. Feeling my body getting weak. It was like there was kryptonite near by. I lift my head off her shoulder. As I do she thrusts a kryptonite knife into my stomach. Oh Rao. This hurts is all I can think about before I fall to the floor. Alex kicks me hard in the ribs leaving the knife in my stomach.

"If you want to be with a fucking Luthor you may as well be dead" Alex spits as I pass out from blood loss.

Chapter 27

Lena POV

I finally fixed the formula for the liquid sunlight shot. This way unless she get really hurt she won't need to use it. I just want to help protect my gorgeous girlfriend. I can't believe she is finally mine! Butterflies rise in my stomach every time I think about it. She is the most amazing person on the planet. She literally has the weight of the world on her shoulders and she does it all with a smile. The only times I've ever seen her break was when she couldn't save someone or when someone hurt her family. I was broken out of my thoughts with my ringtone for Kara.

"Hey babe" I say happily.

"Lena it's J'ohn. You need to get to the Deo ASAP! Kara has been hurt." He says seriously. I drop my phone. I can't lose her now! I shake my head to clear the dark thoughts. I pick my phone up telling J'ohn I'll be there ASAP. I grab the new batch of liquid sunlight in a small box shoving it in my pocket. I pray this works! I bolt out the door heading for my bike parked in the shed. Not even realising it took me less than a second to the front door. I grab the keys for my bike. It will be faster in this traffic. Within in seconds I'm on the road. Pushing my bike to go faster as I think about Kara being hurt. Oh Rao she has to be ok. In the midst of me praying to Rao I was struck with a weird question. Wasn't Rao Kara's god? I wonder if she will tell me more about her beliefs. Shit never mind that I just need to get there. I give kore to the bike knowing I have one of the fastest bikes on the planet. I have to remember to focus on the traffic, slipping between cars that may as well be standing still at the speed I'm going. I can see the Deo coming up. I give it a bit more as I'm about a minute out. As I get closer I hit the breaks a little. I start to slide up towards the doors hoping just to stay upright. My bike comes to a stop a metre from the main entrance. I switch it off pulling my key out. Kicking the stand down quickly. I race into the med bay. I hope it's not to late. Papers blowing around the place as I run past. I didn't even notice.

"J'ohn, WHAT THE HELL HAPPINED?!" I yelled. Kara was covered in blood. A fucking kryptonite knife still stuck into her stomach. I race over pulling the box that contained the liquid sunlight. I put it next to her bed. I grab a needle. Filling it up with the liquid sunlight.

"What's that miss Luthor" he asks curiously.

"Liquid sunlight. It will help her heal faster than the sun lamps. It's also how I got rid of the kryptonite poisoning." I say. I sigh I know this is going to hurt her for a bit. I grab the knife and just pull it out. As soon as it's out I give her the liquid sunlight while Johnson applies pressure to her wound. She instantly starts to heal the bleeding stops. I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding.

"So what happened? Who did this?" I ask feeling relieved that Kara was going to be ok.

"Alex and Kara had a fight. All I know so far was that they were alone and Alex came out of the training room covered in blood. I walked in there and found Kara. I shouldn't have left them alone!" He says clearly angry with Alex but furious at himself for letting Kara get hurt. I let out a long breath. When Kara wakes up, Alex is going to pay! She can't get away with this!

Chapter 28

Kara POV

I feel something different. First there is pain. A lot of pain! Then a needle. Someone is injecting something into me. The next thing I know I'm healing faster than normal. Like a lot faster. I slowly open my eyes. The light hurts. I just want Lena here. She always makes me feel safer. Always makes me feel like I can get through anything. I scan the room. I'm in the med bad. I look to my left and Lena has a tight hold on my hand. To the point where it hurts. If I'm feeling this good this must mean her powers are coming in.

"Lena, what are you doing here?" I croak out.

"Babe, you were hurt. Did you really expect me not to be here?" She asks. She looks disappointed that I even asked.

"Babe, I didn't want you to get hurt too" I say softly. I focus on her heart beat. Her grip on my hand hurts more.

"I'm glade your here. I'll be fine soon thanks to you" I say with a small smile. I was trying to put as much live into the words as I could. I was feeling so betrayed. My own sister hates me. This must have been how Lena felt when she found out I was super girl. I was broken out of that thought.

"Babe, get some rest. I need to find someone" she said angrily. I swallowed hard. I really wouldn't want to be Alex right now. I watch her turn and speed out of the room.

Lena POV

Now that I know my girl is going to be ok, I speed off to the training room where Alex usually hides. I hit the door open with my fist not noticing that the door crashed to the side, the hinges buckling under the force.

"YOU" I roar the second I spot Alex. Alex turns around at the sound.

"HOW FUCKING DARE YOU HURT MY KARA?!" I scream at the older Danvers sister. Walking closer to her. I'm so angry at her!

"You are exactly like Lex and Lillian! Your a fucking Luthor. I don't know what you did to brain wash Kara but she doesn't need you!" She screamed at me. How the fuck does she think almost killing her sister is the right thing to do?! I finally lose my cool. I charge towards her. She didn't get a chance to raise her fists before I punched her in the nose. I hear the satisfying crack of her nose breaking. She throws a punch and I move out of the way. She throws another one and I grab her arm and punch her in the stomach at the same time. She falls to the ground with a heavy thud. I've never thrown a punch in my life. How can I move quickly enough to no get hit?

"Stay the fuck away from Kara until you can get it though you thick head that she is my soul mate! I'll never let anything happen to her Alex. Even your hatred. Maybe take a good hard look in the mitt before you try and judge me!" I spit at her as she lays on the ground clutching her stomach. I turn around. Walking towards the door. I ring Maggie.

"Alex needs medical assistance in the training room. Now you both better stay away from Kara until you chance your attitudes" I growled and hung up before she could answer. I walk back not sparing the hurt agent another look. I need to be with my Kara. I walk back into the med bad I was shaking with anger.

"Hey babe, I think you and I need to talk about something" Kara says quietly. Great I've wrecked the most important relationship in my life.

Chapter 29

Kara POV

I watched Lena internally debate on what to do. I let out a small chuckle her head snaps up so she is looking at me directly.

"Babe, didn't mean to worry you but I think your powers might be coming in" I say gently not knowing how she is going to react.

"Really? I don't feel any different." She says surprised looking down at her hands.

"Do you feel up to telling me what happened in the training room?" I ask gently. I couldn't hear it because I was still healing. I let out a sigh. I hope Alex didn't say something stupid.

"Let's talk about it later." She says stepping closer. The second she is in my personal space she wraps her arms around me. I melt into the hug.

"I want to go home with my sexy girlfriend" she huskily whispers in my ear. Sending shivers down my spine. How on earth was possible that she could make anything so hot in that voice. She runs her fingers gently down my back. Oh Rao she is going to be the death of me. I want her so badly right now but I know it's not the right time or place. I think she finds it funny. I pick her up bridal style. She laughs and yells for me to put her down but I don't. I love hearing her laugh, it makes my heart swell knowing she laughs like that because elf me. She nuzzles into my neck.

"Babe I got my bike here" she whispers kissing my neck softly. My knees almost give out underneath me.

"Would you rather ride you bike or me?" I say without thinking. I instantly face palm my self.

"Not like that" I hollered. I'm going beetroot red.

"I think you need to cool off, darling. I'll take my bike home" she says kissing my cheek. She jumps out of my arms and sauntered out of the Deo. I swallow the lump in my throat. Oh Rao she is really going to be the death of me. I've never thought about sex really, I never thought about it until I met Lena. I hear someone clear their throat behind me and I jump at the sound. I was too wrapped up in my thoughts.

"She really is a keeper" I heard J'ohn say. I turn around and look at my space dad.

"Alex won't be coming near you again." He says firmly.

"If she was my sister, she would have understood! She would accept Lena! I've always been there for her and now she can't do the same for me! It's like when I first landed here. I always wanted to be near her but I was just a freak to her." I sighed out. I've always been by her side. I've always had her back. But Lena is different, special. Lena deserves all the love in the world. J'ohn rest his hand on my shoulder.

"Kara, I know it's not much, but I am here for you." He says softly. He wraps me up in a hug. I'm so happy to have him in my life. He really is like a dad to me. Well considering my real dad died on krypton and Jeremiah is missing still. After the hug I tell J'ohn I have to go home. I miss her already. I can't wait until we test her powers. I think her flying and heat vision will be the last to come though. But I can't wait. I won't have to watch my strength around her.

Chapter 30

Lena POV

I race home. I know Kara will be there already. I can't wait until we test and see if my powers are starting. I park my bike in the shed. Putting my helmet on the shelf. I race to the front door fumbling with my keys. I finally get the door open.

"Honey, I'm home!" I yell. Chuckling to myself. I've always wanted to say that. It's nice having someone to come home too.

"I've missed you." Kara says sheepishly from the lounge room doorway. I sigh. I walk up to her wrapping my arms around her.

"Not as much as I missed you" I say. Fucking hell I sound like a soppy romantic. She smiles, making me forget what I was thinking. Her smiles makes my day no wait my week. I rest my head against her chest. I hear her heart beat pick up. It's like the most addictive song that has ever graced my ears.

"I love you" I whisper. Listening to her heart beat increase more.

"I love you more" she says softly.

"Babe why did your heart beat faster?" I ask gently.

"If you can hear my heart beat that means your powers are coming in. Humans can't hear a kryptonian heart beat. At the Deo they have to use kryptonite to hear my heart beat." She says gently. Tighten her hold around me. I was listening in shock. They put her though more pain to check and see if she is alive?

"Babe, catch me." She whispers. She takes off using her super speed. I chase after her. It only took a second, but I caught her. Wrapping my arms around her again.

"Your powers Lena! That's awesome!" She laughed. I sigh.

"That means I don't have to be as careful around you or with you anymore" she says with a huge smile. I look at her confused. She roughly pulls me into her, crashing our lips together with such force it made my head spin. This kiss was nothing that I was use to. It was intense, bruising. She bites down on my lower lip hard, if I didn't have my powers my lip would have been ripped off. It feels so good. I loan into the kiss. I've never felt passion like this before in my life. I tangle my fingers in her blonde locks. She runs her hands down my back, I groan. She roughly squeezes my ass, I mom into her lips. She pick me oil pushing my back into the wall. I wrap my legs around her waste. Our tongues still fighting for dominance. I've never wanted someone more than I've ever wanted her and in this moment I thought I would die without her. Kara pulls back slightly. Panting. Her heart is beating so fast, so is mine. I growl at the instant loss of her lips.

"I couldn't do that before, not without hurting you" she pants out. Oh fuck! There is nothing on this earth as sexy as Kara Danvers panting, rosy cheeks and swollen lips. I swear to Rao I will never lose her.

Chapter 31

Kara POV

After the most intense make out session of my life, Lena's phone rings. She sighs answering it while walking out of the room. I sigh I need to calm myself down. I decide to check out Lena's study that she said I could use for work as well. I walk down the hallway slowly. Trying not to think of Lena moaning like she was before. I find the door I was looking though. I walk in and she had already set up a new desk for me. It was so sweet. The space was as big as her office at L-Corp. I look around a bit more and notice a note book on the desk. I'm guessing it's some new sketches of new technology that she is working on. I pick it up to have a look. I start flicking through the pages. It was her journal. I don't think I'm meant to see this. But I couldn't help myself. My heart was breaking. She sounded so down, so broken. I got to when she found out I was super girl. I couldn't believe what I was reading. She had contemplated suicide! My foreground brave Lena wanted to die? There was pages and pages of suicidal thought. What amazed me was her poetry she was writing. It was so sad but I could understand. This one was her latest one. It said.

' one of those days, where you want to knock someone out cold

Where you just want to unfold

Hating everything in your life, every day

Heart full of misery, head full of dismay

Strangling you down to your soul

That little voice in your head constantly shouting at you

Telling you that your useless, worthless and nothing

Everyone asks you what's wrong, you lie or say it's nothing

No one cares

You know it's not fair

But someone always does

But you can't seem to trust

All it does is lead to more pain

A pain you have known your whole life, nothing but pain every day

You want to scream

You pray it's just a bad dream

You want to end it all

But your a coward and fail after all'

I was so engrossed reading it. Reading how I was her light how she never wanted to bring me down. How I had stopped her committing suicide by just being there when she was in a dark place. I'm so proud of her. I was too caught up in what I was reading to notice Lena was coming.

"Kara. I can explain!" She says gaining my attention. She sounded so scared. But I'm not going anywhere!

"Lee, I'm so proud of you. You really are the strongest person I know! If u think like this though can you come and talk to me? I want to be there for you no matter what." I say softly placing the book down and making my way towards her. "I will try. Writing it down makes it easier, like I can manage it." She whispers looking at the ground. I come up to her wrapping my arms around her. "I will be here, always Lee." I whisper into her ear. She hugs me tighter than any human could. It felt nice. "Come watch a movie with me?" She sighs into my neck. It sent shivers down my spine.

"Ok babe, you pick this time" I say gently. I know her favourite movies are scary ones and I don't like them but I want to make her feel better. We go out to the lounge room sitting in the couch while she sets up the movie. She decided on a movie called 'the nun'. She presses play and snuggles into my side. Within the first ten minutes I've got my face pressed into her neck.

"Babe, if you wanted to cuddle you could have just said so" I say quietly noticing her holding me tightly.

"I want more than a cuddle..." she whispered. I grab the remote and pause the movie. She is making it very hard for me not to beg her to please me. Or for me to please her. She inches closer. Gently grazing her lips on mine. Just as I was about to pull her back for a report kiss my phone rang.

"OR RAO NOT NOW!" She growled in frustration. She swore to Rao! Oh my word I want to kiss her so badly. I look at the caller ID and frown. This had better be important.

Chapter 32

Lena POV

Kara answers her phone. Oh Rao! I wanted to make out with her. She is driving me crazy. I focus on calming my heart beat down. I accidentally listen in to her saying she will be there shortly. I really need to learn how to control my powers better.

"Babe, we need to go to the Deo. It's important. You are going to be in nerd heaven!" She says with a smile. I lean into her as she picks me up bridal style. I gently kiss her prefect pink lips and feel her heart miss a beat against me. I sight. I can't wait to fly. But Kara sagas that is the last power to come in. Which is a good thing. It gives me time to learn how to control them. Kara is suddenly out the window flying us to the Deo. She lands as softly as a feather. Placing me down that softly but not letting me out of her arms. She is pressed tightly against my back. The feeling is amazing, her strong arms around me protecting me. I look up and see why. Maggie is walking over.

"Maggie, I told you" I growled out in the most aggressive voice I've ever used. It shocked me how quickly I was overtaken with protectiveness. She isn't aloud to go near my Kara. Is the only thought in my head right now.

"I'm just here to apologise. I didn't know that things were that bad. I wish I had known sooner. I might have been able to change things. Alex will be there under strict orders to stay away from you both." Maggie says sincerely. At hearing Alex was going to be here Kara flexed her arms holding me tighter than any human could handle. Thankfully my powers were coming in. I know Kara misses Alex and Maggie. Before Maggie could walk away I reach out gently grabbing her elbow.

"I'm sorry about that Maggie. But she hurt my Kara. I kind of lost it." I state. Maggie smiled at me. As Kara whispered in my ear.

"Your Kara?"

We all walk towards the main control room. Maggie I front of us, Kara still holding my hand. We both needed some form of contact still. I could feel the blush creeping up my neck. Kara pulls me into an empty room. As soon as the door is shut, Kara has me pinned up against it. Her lips on mine. Softly and slowly. My wrists are pinned to the door. I groan. She is being so forward today. She lets how if my hands so I can tangle them in her soft blond locks. She quickly deepened the kiss. I was praying to Rao that this would never end. I was in heaven. I run my hands softly under her shirts, slowly digging my nails into her back as she whimpers. My heart is beating so fast. She pulls away. I let a frustrated sigh. I didn't want that kiss to end. She whispers softly in my ear.

"I will always be yours" I shudder up against her.

"I love you Lena. But we do need to go. You still need to go full nerd." She whispers placing a chastised kiss to my lips. I couldn't take this much longer. But I breathe in and out in an attempt to calm myself. She drags me out of the room. We walk hand in hand to the main control room.

"Who is that?" I ask as I surveyed the room. I had spotted a man in a red suit with a gold lighting bolt on his chest. I assume he is a super hero too.

"Why are you here Barry?" Kara says as she engulfed him in a hug.

"There is trouble coming. Lex luthor is back." He says. My heart drops.

Chapter 33

Kara POV

"Barry you need to explain" it was all I could say. I was so scared for my Lena.

"Ok, so you remember how I explained the multiverse theory?" He asks softly.

"Yeah, we are on earth one and your from earth 56, what your point?" I say in my normal super girl voice. I look over to Lena. She was so surprised.

"Wait, hold up! Kara are you saying the multiverse theory is true?! And you never told me!" Lena hissed. Punching me in the arm. I winced and rubbed the spot she had just punched me. It actually hurt. Her super strength is definitely coming in!

"Lee I did tell you that you would go full nerd!" I say with a smile.

"You also said you were a virgin" she whispered just loud enough for only me to hear. I could feel my face heating up.

"Lena, does Barry need to explain it or are you good?" I ask her gently

"I'm good but when this is over I have about 50 questions about your earth." Lena says with a chuckle.

"Ok no worries Lena. So Lex luthor on our earth managed to kill super man, super girl and Lena. He knows exactly what effects you guys but this is the only earth that Lex luthor dies because of Alex. Which sets it in a different path. So Lex from earth 56 is out to kill you guys to set the time line right. He had found a way to kill most meta humans and aliens. Only a small group of us survived. Now he is here to do the same thing." He says with a heavy sigh. He looks tired.

"Who survived?" I asked softly. I hope my friends are ok.

"Well that's the funny thing, your going to be a little shocked." He said with a smile.

"Barry show us." Lena says with her CEO voice.

"They will be here shortly, they are coming with Nora." He says with a smile.

"Who is Nora?" Lena asks. I kind of forgot that she didn't know these guys like I do.

"She is my daughter, a fellow speedster" Barry said with a proud smile.

"Ok I have to warn you before they get here, they are your kids." He says with a big smile. My brain and heart stop.

"Who's kids?" Lena and I shout at the same time. I look towards her. She looks so worried. I grab her hand giving it a gently squeeze. I want her to know I'm here for her. She squeezed back. Barry smiles at us.

"Alex and Maggie's plus yours and Kara's, Lena" he said with a wide grin. My heart stops. Lena and I have kids? Does that mean we complete the bond? That I'm hers forever? I have so many questions, but one thing is clear. No Mayer what earth I am on I will always live Lena Luthor! I look towards the beautiful woman and I think we are thing about the same things.

"We have kids?" She squeaks. My heart fluttered at the image of Lena with a small kid.

"They are teenagers but they are yours. Lena is so smart she found a way to carry a kryptonian child. You guys are amazing" he states as it's the simplest thing in the world. We have biological children!

Chapter 34

Lena POV

I FUCKING KNEW IT! I knew the multiverse theory had to be true! I just never thought I'd be able to prove it! I need to stop and listen Barry said something about kids.

"Who's kids?" Kara and I had asked at the same time. I look over to my girlfriend, she had her perfectly chiseled jaw clenched. Her eyes were fierce. She is in full super girl mode. Barry said that they are our kids? Well I mean Kara would be a fantastic mother! WTF Lena! You and Kara have only been together a month! Even on another earth, I still fall in love with Kara. Wow. Rao decently knew what he or she was doing. I keep looking at the girl of my dreams. She is so fucking gorgeous. I just want to kiss her. Instead I force myself to have a conversation with Barry. We start taking about what happened to him and how he became the flash. I can hear Kara whispering, 'I love you nerd' and 'oh, Rao she is beautiful'. I had to concentrate so hard not to blush. All of a sudden a breach opens and 5 teenagers and an adult walk through.

"Dad" the adult screams and runs over to Barry. She looks like him.

"So this is my daughter, Nora." Barry says with a proud smile.

"This is Kevin and Sarah. They are Alex and Maggie's kids on earth 56" he continued point out each kid as he talked. I shoot Maggie and Alex a quick glance to see how they were taking it. Maggie had a huge smile and Alex was stone faced. I don't think she believes it. The young 6foot tall boy runs over and hugs Alex then he grabs Maggie and lifts her in a hug. She is laughing so hard and her feet weren't even on the ground. The teenage girl with Alex bone structure and Maggie's eyes and dimples walked over slowly. She was so guarded around Alex. I think something happened between the two of them but I won't pry. I look to Kara, here mouth was open. I follow her gaze. There is another 2 teenage girls and a teenage boy standing there. My heart stopped. The boy and one of the girls looked like me but with Kara's blue eyes. Kara grabs my hand. I look back at my girlfriend.

"Babe, don't stress. I am here. Always." She says softly and gently gives my hand a squeeze. I start to panic. How the fuck do we even have kids? Oh rao what if I'm like Lillian?! My breaths become shallow. My head starts to spin. All of a sudden I become so dizzy. I try to hold on to Kara. Something is wrong. But before I could do anything I fall to the ground. Unconscious.

Chapter 35

Kara POV

I think Lena is going to pass out. I stay close to her. I've known about her panic attacks for a long time. She also has depression. I honestly thought she had it under control. Just as she falls backwards I catch her. Alex rushes over. I let out this animalistic snarl. She is not coming near my Lena!

"Kara, I just want to help." Alex says. She pulls her gun out of her holster. I react. I don't think. I hold Lena closer to me with one arm and punch Alex with my other hand. She is not going to hurt my Lena! Sara, Kevin and Maggie rush over to where Alex is laying. Next thing I know is there are 3 kids in front of me.

"Mum, let's get mummy looked at" the youngest stated. I pick my Lena up and super speed to the med bay. I just pray to rao she will be ok. I sit next to her bed for the next 4 hours. I don't say a word to anyone. Even when Maggie comes in to yell at me. Apparently Alex was going to drop her weapon. Yeah right! She hates Lena! My heart is breaking every second she doesn't wake up. The bond is making me weak. If it was completed already I'd be laying in the Ned bay right next to her. I keep racking my brain to see if there is anything I'm missing. If I forgot something. I start to think about Lena's lab when it hits me. The liquid sunlight! She hasn't had it for weeks! I yell out to J'ohn. I tell him everything that I could remember about lena's kryptonite poisoning. I fly home as quick as I can going straight to the lab. As soon as I get to the lab I find the stash of the liquid sunlight. I grab a vial if it and fly back to the DEO. I race back to the med bay where J'ohn was waiting to give Lena the shot. Within second I can hear her heart beat finally picking up. THANK YOU RAO! After an hour that felt like a year, Lena finally started to open her eyes.

"Baby, you remembered?" She asked in a horse voice.

"Always" I say softly. I just want to kiss her so badly. She must have felt the same. I lean down towards her, gently brushing my lips against hers. All I can hear is the background is a course of "EWWW MUMS!" I lean back. Just remembered that there are kids here. Lena chuckles at the kids. I look towards the door way and all 3 kids are standing there.

Chapter 36

Lena POV

I chuckle, all I could hear was "EWWWW MUMS" from the kids as I have my Kara a kiss.

"Babe, why are the kids here? Have they been fed?" I asked, concern lacing my voice. I still don't know their names. Kara let out a small nervous giggle. She ducked her head. I looked between her and the kids in the door way. I gently lift her head up so she was facing me. All I could see where tears streaming down her perfect face. My heart caught in my throat.

"Babe what's wrong" I whispered. I gently squeezed her hand to reassure her I was here.

"I thought I had lost you..." she sobbed. My heart clenched so tight I though it was going to explode. She was so scared for me. It clicked. She loves me as much as I love her.

"Babe, I'm here. I'm not going anywhere" I say softly.

"Promise?" She asked barely above a whisper

"Always" I say pulling her in for a hug. I head a sob coming from the doorway. I look over to the kids. My heart swelled at the sight, the boy was hugging into his sister's. making sure they were ok.

"Hey, don't cry. Now come over here and tell me all about yourselves and your lives." I say with a small smile. They all shuffle into the room sitting around the bed. Kara is looking at me with so much love and admiration in her eyes. It made me want to kiss that perfect fucking goddess. Oh rao the things I want to do to her. I'm so glade mind reading isn't one of her powers or thing would be weird.

The boy looks at us with a sad smile.

"I'm Casey, that's Sam." He said pointing to the older girl.

"That ruby" he then said pointing to the youngest of the group.

"I'm 16, Sam is 15 and ruby is 13. On our earth you guys are our parents. All of us are kryptonian. We all have the same powers as mum k, sorry I mean Kara. But we all have your brains." He stuttered nervously. He took a big breath and centred himself before continuing. "Uncle Lex, he was understanding until he and Uncle Clark broke up. Then he started to hate all aliens including us. I swore I wouldn't let him hurt my sisters or my mums. So Kara and Alex taught me how to fight. It was amazing to see what mum could do! She had given up being super girl before I was born. She didn't want anyone to hurt us or come after us because of who she is or well was." I slapped Kara's arm.

"What?" She asked

"Seriously?! You are not giving up on being super girl! And if we train the kids it will be you, Alex, Clark and myself!" I stated with a undertone if annoyance.

"Yes mum" she says joking. I slap her again. The kids grinning ear to ear.

Chapter 37

Kara POV

Even though we just met these kids, they feel like family. It was amazing how Lena was straight into mum mode with the kids. It makes me think why Lena and I didn't come back with them. Casey must have guessed what I was thinking.

"Do you want to know what happened?" He asked in a small voice. My heart broke for the boy. He was trying to be strong for everyone. I nod my head. He pulls me out of the room. I looked at him as to ask him why silently.

"I don't want my sisters to relive it." He said as he closed the door to the training room. That boy has the work on his shoulders. I want him to be able to be a teenager. He shouldn't be put into this mess.

" Casey, you don't have to be strong. I will protect you no matter what!" I say trying to comfort my son. Well my son from another earth.

"You can't save everyone. You trained me to help you keep my sisters and mummy L safe. Your training saved our lives. But I couldn't save everyone." He said bursting into tears. I wrap him up in a tight hug. This poor kid! He sobs into my shoulder. I held him close whispering to him that's it's ok, that I'm here and the he is safe.

"Baby what happened?" I asked gently.

"Uncle Lex, he killed mum L, with the bond in place you died too" he choked out.

"Where was I at the time?" I ask softly.

"You has found a way to stop uncle and to stop the hate uprising against the aliens on our earth. You had to go back to DAX-AM. Through the phantom zone." He kept sobbing his arms wrapped around me holding me tightly like I was going to disappear. OH RAO! The conclusion room was right?! Oh rao I need to fix this. I won't leave my kids or my Lena!

"What did I need to fix it?" I ask. My brain is racing through everything I could remember about DAX-AM. "What can stop this from happening here?" I ask. My mouth is not catching up with my brain. I have a million questions.

"A dark blue stone. I can't remember what it's called. But you said it came from krypton. You said because of the way krypton exploded there maybe still trace amounts on DAX-AM." He whispers. I'm thinking hard. What could it be? That's when it hits me. LENA'S NECKLACE!

"Casey, I have some here." I say softly.

"Really? You didn't have any on our earth. Maybe you and mummy will be ok here after all." He says in a small voice. He was like a small child. He was so broken, so scared. All he wants is his parents. I gently kiss him on the top of his head.

"Baby, you did everything you could. Don't blame yourself." I say to him sincerely rubbing soothing circles on his back. He tightens his hold. I will not let this boy or his sisters down. I will protect them all.

Chapter 38

Lena POV

I watched as Kara and Casey walk away. For some reason I'm worried about the both of them. The girls tell me everything, from Kara leaving to me dying. I couldn't believe it. Kara died to save us all? Lex kills me? How does he know about the bond? I want to complete the bond for more than one reason. I want to protect my Kara. But honestly I have never been so frustrated in my life. Kara is the most kind, sweetest sexist fucking goddess on the planet. I have never wanted anyone in the want I want her. I would never push her. I want her to feel safe, comfortable and loved. Because I love her more than anything else. But I really can't wait until my powers fully come in. I want to test my super speed out. I'll have to talk to the kids about it. They think it's funny watching how Kara and I are around each other. Kara and Casey walk back into the room. I can see poor Casey's eyes are red. Kara is standing next to him in such a protective manner. I would hate to be anyone that wanted to cause him harm right now.

"Babe, I want to test out my super speed, seeing as it's the only power that's really started to came in. Want to race?" I ask. I know she will beat me. But I want to see how fast I am.

"You know what? Your on!" Kara says excitedly.

"There is a 10km straight road from here to the first gate. First one up and back wins." Kara says with a huge grin. She starts to pull me outside. The kids get out there phones to use the stop watch feature.

"I'll time you both!" Casey says finally cracking a huge smile.

"Who ever wins can have an IOU for anything they want from the other person." I suggest. I want to make this interesting.

"Ok baby! But you better be ready to lose!" Kara says smirking at me smugly.

OH FUCKING RAO! I forgot how competitive Kara is. But that confident sexy smirk? OH RAO LENA DONT THINK ABOUT IT! I yell at myself.

"Ready, set go!" All three kids yell excitedly. I take off as fast as I can. It's incredible. The way the wind blows my hair. The feeling of my feet badly hitting the ground. I've never moved so fast in my life. We get to the gate and turn around. I won't let her win!

Chapter 39

Kara POV

As we get closer to the kids I slightly slowly down. I want Lena to win. Her happiness is the most important thing. Lena get in front as we past the kids. I don't think she noticed that I slowed down or that I wasn't going full speed. I can't help but think about what she might want to do the IOU. This could be fun or a disaster. Lena is running around the kids cheering. This brought a big smile to my face. My heart swells at the sight. The kids and Lena came over to where I stood for a group hug. I love Lena so much.

"Baby, don't be mad. I promise this will be for something special." Lena whispered into my ear. Oh rao! She is gong to be the death of me!

"Let's go inside, Barry is still waiting" Casey says looking at his feet. I feel so bad for these kids. They are so strong. The get that from Lena. I wish I could make there lives better. I let the 4 walk in front of me, getting lost in my thoughts. All of a sudden Lena is beside me. Holding my hand.

"Kar, what's wrong?" She asked, her voice laced in concern.

"I don't want you or the kids to ever feel alone." I start. She silenced me putting her index finger to my lips.

"Kara, we will never be alone. We have you. Your my strength, my heart, my soul and my courage. Your so fucking amazing." She says in the most loving voice I've ever heard. She gives me a soft kiss. My heart fluttered. As she pulled away she whispered "you are my world".

"Babe do you want to go on a date tonight?" I asked. I knew she was my soul mate. She is perfect. I love everything about her, from the way her hair is perfect all the time, to her secret Nickelback obsession. I look into her perfect eyes.

"I thought you would never ask" she says with a cheeky smile. I need to make this date perfect.

Chapter 40

Lena POV

Kara fucking Danvers is taking me out on a date?! I know she is my girlfriend, but a date? Oh fuck! What on earth am I going to wear? I want to look amazing for her. She deserves the world. I want to give her everything in the world. I want her to feel so loved. She leaves me with the kids and takes off to go back to work at cat co. I take the kids back to our place. The kids decided to chill out in the lounge with food and movies. I walk into my closet, I need to find something to wear. The kids don't realise how many of my powers have started to come in. I could hear them talking in low whispers in the lounge room.

"Sam, why are you so worried? They are so much like our mums." I hear Casey talking to Sam.

"No they are not! Mums died because of uncle lex! Casey, Lena and Kara here don't even have the bond! They can't read each other's thoughts. Casey both of our parents are dead and we have 2 multi billion dollar companies to run! If it wasn't for Jess we would be screwed! You know we could mess up this time line just being here! They don't love us or want us here!" Sam had hissed back to Casey. Wow that kid definitely has my temper. How on fucking earth do they even think that? It was such a shock. But those kids are good kids. They are just hurting.

"So how many of Lena's powers do you think have come in?" Casey asked curiously.

"If she had anything other than speed we would know by now. Like I said Casey, she isn't our mum!" Sam snapped. I'm standing in front of my closet. Jaw dropped. My heart sank. I saw the teddy bear that Kara had given me a year ago when I was sick. I grab it siting on the edge of the bed. Holding it close to my chest. Even these kids didn't want me around. Silent tears start streaming down my chest. Maybe I am not worth having kids or a wonderful girlfriend. My chest starts getting tight. I can't think straight. Panic is making my heart beat so fast and so loud. Fuck. I'm to far into a panic attack to settle it. I try to control my breathing but the walls are slowly closing in around me.

Chapter 41

Kara POV

I can't wait to take Lena on our first real date. I'm sitting at my desk writing an article about cadmas and Lex luthor's death. I know it happened a month ago or so but it hasn't been made public. All of a sudden I can hear Lena's ringtone. It is numbers by the cab.

"Hey babe" I say with a smile as I answer my phone.

"Kara, it's Casey. Lena has a panic attack. She has locked herself in the bedroom. She won't let us help. Can you come home?" He rushes out sounding guilty.

I don't reply to him just hang up and rand outside to the nearest empty ally way. I changed at super speed into my super girl suit. I fly as fast as I can to the house. Lena always leaves the bedroom window open for me. I fly straight though the open window. Lena is curled up on the bed. The teaddy bear in her arms. Her knees are curled up into her chest. She is slowly rocking back and forward. My poor girl.

"Baby" I say cautiously. I know I can't approach to quickly. I know I have to take my time to help her realise where she is. I have to make sure she knows I love her. Her head snaps up, eyes wide. Once she realises it's me she jumps up and runs into my arms for a hug. She rests her head on my shoulder. She is sobbing uncontrollably.

"Baby girl. I'm here. Always" I whisper into her ear. Wrapping my arms around her protectively. I can hear her softly mumble into my shoulder.

"I'm going to be a bad mum, just ask the kids! They hate me!" Her tears getting heavier by the second. Oh rao.

"Baby the kids love you. I love you so much though." I whisper. The next moment there is a huge crashing sound coming from the lounge room.

"I'll be back, stay here" I tell her with love and concern wrapped around my voice. I unlock the door and walk into the lounge room. All I can see is lenas brand new glass coffee table in prices and Casey laying on the floor pulling shards of glass out of his hair. Ruby is hiding in the kitchen behind the counter. Sam is standing there liking extremely pissed off.

"WHAT IN RAO'S NAME IS GOING ON?" I yell at the kids. Seriously can't they just behave for once?! I didn't mean to lose my temper. But rao!

Chapter 42

Lena POV

"WHAT IN RAO'S NAME IS GOING ON?" I hear Kara yell. I wipe my eyes. I have to see what is going on. Kara never loses it like this. I get to the doorway. I take a deep breathe and count to 3. It helps centre me sometimes. I walk into the lounge room. Casey is half laying half sitting on the ground. Pulling shards of glass out of his hair. My new coffee table is smashed. I look at Kara who is scalding the kids. She has the Mum thing down pat. I start laughing. We have basically indestructible kids and she is yelling at them like they are human kids who could have gotten hurt. Why yell at them? They are fine. I have plenty of money to replace the things they break.

"Lena this isn't funny! Casey could have been hurt!" Kara snaps at me. This in turn, makes me laugh harder.

"How would glass hurt them? THEY ARE KRYPTONIAN!" I laughed out. Kara is standing there in the middle of the room with a stunned look on her face. Suddenly she starts laughing too. The teenagers look at us lien we lost it.

"Sorry babe. I forgot!" She laugh. It's music to my ears.

"It is so amazing to watch you be so protective of them" I say to her walking over to Casey to check over him.

Kara looked so flustered and adorable.

"So do one of you kids want to tell me what happened?" I ask sternly. Ruby quickly pipes up and says

"Sam and Casey got into a fight. Sam said we shouldn't be here. She said." Ruby stops for a minute. A tear slowly slides down her cheek.

"She said our mums are dead. That you don't have your powers. Casey said we have to help, it's what our mums would have wanted. Then they started to fight! I just miss my mums!!" Ruby stuttered out. My heart broke for the girl. I race over wrapping my arms around her. I gently rub her back as she starts crying in my arms.

"Baby, I know I'm not your mum, but I will do anything for you." I whisper to her. Kara finally snapped.

"Sam and Casey clean this up. Now!" She yelled at the two teenagers.

"Babe you need to control your temper! The are kids for rao's sake!" I say to her, still holding ruby.

"I got to go babe. I'll be home later." Kara says. She looked so broken. She flies out the window and is gone as quickly as she came. I sigh. I hope she is going to be ok.

Chapter 43

Kara POV

It's breaking my hear these kids. I need to keep my emotions in check so I dont hurt them or Lena. I know I'm not there Mum but I would do anything to keep them all safe and happy. Watching ruby and Lena melted my heart and made it break at the same time. I'm flying over the city trying to clear my head. My phone rings and I don't bother looking at the caller ID.

"Kara, help! Lex is here! At my house!" Maggie whispers and hangs up. My heart drops. I start flying as fast as I can calling Lena on the way.

"Babe no time to explain. Grab that necklace I made you. It will keep you safe. Get yourself and the kids into the safe room. I'll be there as soon as I can." I say sternly hanging up before she could answer. I X-ray Maggie's house and see Lex has a gun to Maggie's head. Alex is tied up. I see him cock the gun and I smash through the window. My only thought was stop the bullet before it could reach her. I had a very small window to get this right. The Gun was barley a foot away from Maggie's head. He pulls the trigger. I push myself that bit harder. I reach out just in time to crunch the bullet in my hand. I didn't have much time to stop. I crash into the wall. My shoulder hitting Maggie as I flew between her and Lex. I quickly jump up dusting myself off. Lex stood there in shock. Score her could register what was happening I punched him in the face. Knocking him out. I quickly grab him and I use my heat vision to free Alex. I fly straight to the deo. Lex over my shoulder. I land and he finally comes to. I make him walk into the deo. As we are walking through I can see Lena. Her and the kids are safe. Lex is muttering under his breath that this is just the start, the war is coming. I try and take a deep breath. I lock eyes with Lena. She looks so worried. I didn't get a chance to think anything more before I see Casey running up to us.

"Casey, my boy! How are you?" Lex sneers. Casey just smiles and punches him in the torso, the a left hook to the face. I heard Lex's nose break. There is blood streaming down his face. I out him in a cell. He won't escape this if even I can't. I look over to Casey.

"I had to Mum. He shot her!" He said softly. A tear slowly falling down his face.

"It's ok" was all I could say before I heard Alex cry.

Chapter 44

Lena POV

I watched as Alex falls apart in the DEO med bay. Maggie was hurt. I have no idea what had happened. Kara was crying. Alex was screaming. I take the kids into the training room.

"Casey, want to see something cool?" I ask him. My plan is to distract them from what ever is going on. I take them out past the training room to the shooting range. I have been meaning to tech these kids how to shoot and now seems like a perfect time. I show them how to stand, how to properly handle a gun and show them how to aim. I walk each of them through it slowly and patiently. Casey and Sam has the biggest smiles I have ever seen from these kids. I hold ruby close as Sam and Casey kept working on their aim. These kids are so amazing. I try my best to keep them distracted from what ever is going on between Alex and Kara. All I know is whatever it is these kids don't need to see it. I know things have been all over the place since Kara told me that we are soul mates. I know I haven't handled things the best. I know I handled everything poorly when Lex told me that Kara was super girl. I know things have been strained since these kids got here from earth 56. All I want is Kara to be happy. But deep down I know it will never be with me. I'm a fucking Luther for fucks sake! Deep down I know she would be a million times happier without me in her life. If I wasn't here then Alex and Kara would still be close. She wouldn't have to choose between me and her family. My mind is going to places I try really hard for it not to go. I know it's my depression. I haven't told Kara how bad it can be because I don't want to damper her light. I'm like a black hole where no light can escape. I don't want to drag her down too. I know I am not perfect, maybe my brother and mother were right. Maybe I should have done the world a favour and killed myself. Maybe with me gone, Kara would be safe. Maybe I could make it up to the world for lex's behaviour, the genocide him and mother committed. Maybe my death would make up for it. I let go of ruby. I take the guns off Sam and Casey. I tell them to go to the training room to soar with some agents while I put the guns away. I watch them leave. I out one gun away and walk out still holding the other one. I walk out past the med bay Kara tried to catch my attention but I was too focused on what was in my hand. The only thing I could think about was that doing this will make the world safe for my Kara. I walk straight out of the deo. I have one chance to make it right. I start to run as fast as I can to put everything in place so Kara will always be looked after. I keep running straight to L-Corp. this should make up for everything. This will keep her safe. This will make the world a better place than I ever could.

Chapter 45

Kara POV

Lena walked past the med bay. She was totally focused on something. Was she holding a gun? Why in RAO'S name does Lena have a gun?! She isn't going to try and do something stupid is she? She must be heading to L-Corp. I have to beat her there. To keep an eye on her. She can't be alone right now not if her depression is getting to her again. I run out of the deo. The second I get to the door I launch into the air. I push hard to get over there. I can't let Lena be alone right now. If she hurts herself again it will break me. She is my entire world. I love her with every part of my soul and my body. I know Clark will never understand. But she is my kryptonite. I'm almost at Lena's office. I can see her putting the gun to her head. The next moment I hear the sound that will haunt me for my entire existence. The gun shot rung loud and lingered in the air. The sound ripped though my soul. I see Lena falling to the ground. I can't breathe. It feels like my heart has been ripped out of my chest with a kryptonite knife. My chest tightens and I can't breathe. Why? LENA! I fly straight to the window not even to check if it's open and crash right through it. Glass shattering all around me. I had failed. I promised her I would always be there to save her and I failed! I failed her! I didn't show her enough love. I must not have supported her enough. Maybe she still didn't trust me after everything. She can't be dead is all I could pray to rao. I scan her office. What is going on? I see Jess laying over Lena. I race over hand help Jess up. I X-ray them both. What in RAO'S name is happening neither of them is hurt. I pull Lena up into my arms. Tears streaming down my face. I thought I had lost her.

"Jess what happened?" I asked trying hard to keep my voice even but it still cracked. Jess doesn't know that I'm super girl.

"Kara" she started quickly. My eyes snapped to her. She knows? How on earth does she know?!

"I'm not" I start to say but she cuts me off.

"I've known since day one Kara. Don't worry I worked it out on my own. I won't say anything. So back to the main point. I saw Lena walking in here with a gun. I know how bad her depression really is. So I silently snuck in and around her office. Just incase I was needed. She was that focused she didn't notice I was here. I couldn't let her do this to herself or to you. You both do amazing things for this world and you both deserve so much better than this. You both deserve to be happy. She holds so much guilt over everything that Lex has done. As soon as I saw her fingers tighten around the gun I knew what she was going to do. Before she could pull the trigger I slammed into her as hard as I could making her miss as she fired." Jess said, trying to hold back her tears.

"Jess I am so sorry I never told you the truth about me. Lena is so lucky to have you in her life" I say quietly. I can hear Lena's heart beating. I was so scared that I didn't even think to use my super hearing. Her heart beat was what makes my world spin. I was terrified that I had lost her.

Chapter 46

Lena POV

Jess risked her own life to save me? Why would she? My brother killed her husband in his fight with super man! I was shocked that she even wanted to work with me after that. She is the closest thing I have to a true friend here besides Kara.

"Why Jess?" I ask her softly. Kara wraps her arms around me.

"Your my friend. You do so much good in this world. I have watched you struggle every single day. I know how guilty you feel for everything Lex did. You don't need to. Just because your family is evil and heartless doesn't mean you will be. Kara lives you so much, so does everyone here. You have a new family now, one that will always be here for you. We will all love you no matter what." Jess said as tears start streaming down both our faces. I gingerly get out of Kara's arms and walk over to Jess, enveloping her in the tightest hug I could.

"Thank you Jess." I whisper in her ear. She sniffles mumbling "I'd do it again". I glance over at Kara. She was deep in thought her cute crinkle showing. Pain evident on her face. Over the years i noticed she cared but I never really knew to what extent. Kara gets up off the floor. I take the time to study her. Her eyes are bloodshot. Her hair a mess. She looked like she was torn between happiness and guilt. She has to know this isn't her fault. Right? Same with Jess?

"So, how long ago did you figure it out Jess?" Kara asked quietly. She was still thinking about something.

"Please Kara. I figured it out after I met you. You and Clark Kent really think glasses are a good disguise?" Jess giggled than continued.

"Or that you two are crazy about each other?" Jess said with a huge smile.

"Kara, I forgot to mention. Jess's IQ is 2 points higher than mine. I almost didn't hire her because she is too smart and would be bored. I'm so glade I did though. She is so loyal and always seems to help me out." I say. Looking over at Kara who has a very confused expression on her face.

"Lena, don't take this the wrong way. But I think you need help." Jess said softly. I snap my head over to Kara. She was staring at the ground.

"Kara can we tell her everything?" I ask her softly. This involves both of us. Jess might be able to help.

"Ok, I need to go back to the kids." She says flying off out the broken window. Jess looked confused now.

"Sit down Jess. It is a long and complicated story." I say walking over to my bar. I grab a bottle of scotch that we both like and poor us a glass each. I sit down with her on my couch and start to tell her everything. Not leaving anything out.

Chapter 47

Kara POV

It's been 3 months since Lena told Jess everything. The kids had to go back to their earth. Lena has been seeing a professional within the DEO to help with her depression. Things are amazing. I very rarely go to my house these days. I tend to spend more time at Lena's. she still worries I will get hurt again. Lena and Hess have been working on a project together. Alex and I haven't spoken. She is ment to be my sister, my best friend. I kiss her and our sister nights. Lena said she needs time. J'ohn is my my main contact within the DEO now. He understands how bad things are between all of us. Maggie recovered. Alex blamed me for it. There was a huge fight at the DEO between us all.

flashback*

"Kara how could you hurt Maggie like that?!" Alex screamed at me. We were all in the Deo. Lena was standing next to me. She grabs my hand and squeezes it reassuringly.

"I already apologised for it Alex! What do you want me to do next time? Let the bullet kill her?!" I say exhausted at this constant argument.

"Alex, she did the right thing. I'm here I'm safe and I'm alive." Maggie said softly.

"You are a fucking danger to every single person who has to fucking know you!" Alex snarled at me.

"Enough Alex! Don't you dare talk to Kara like that!" Lena snapped back.

"You almost killed her! Don't send your fucking attack dog to defend you!" Alex growls out. I go to say something. I could feel the sting of the words as tears started to well up in my eyes. Before I could say anything Lena snapped.

"Fuck off alex! IF IT WASNT FOR KARA MAGGIE WOUKD BE DEAD!" Lena yelled. All the agents in the Deo were trying so hard not to listen in but it was hard because everyone was yelling. Alex snapped and through a right hock aiming for my face. Before she could even make contact Lena had caught her fist. Alex don't have time to react as Lena punched her in the face. It was on then. Alex and Lena were content on beating the shit out of each other. Maggie and I had to break it up.

"Stay the fuck away from us!" Alex snarled as she spit blood in my face. I grabbed Lena and we walked away.

end of flash back*

I hate how things are now. I've tried to call Alex and Maggie. I've gone to there place as Kara and as super girl. Alex has installed lead lined blind around there while house. She even put kryptonite everywhere. She knows it doesn't effect me now. But now that she has done that I know she truely hates me. Lena is so angry at them. I'm currently out on a patrol of the city. I still fly by Alex and Maggie's house to make sure they are safe. I won't stop. I fly home. My heart getting fuller as I get closer. Today is our 4 month anniversary. As I get closer I listen closer and hear the two most familiar heart beats I've been searching for. Jess and Lena's. I land gently on the back steps. I super speed and change out of my burnt suit. It got burnt while I was putting out a massive fire at the port. I make my way down to Lena's lab. I see my beautiful girlfriend leaning over the bench looking at plans with Jess. He hair is in a messy ponytail. She is wearing my hoodie and a pair of jeans. I smile. She is always so relaxed at home with us. She hasn't noticed I'm here. Her and Jess have ultra concentration looks on there faces. I open the door slowly. They don't notice. They didn't even lift there heads up from the paper work.

"Hey" they say at the same time not looking up. My heart beats a little quicker. Lena is just so amazing. I walk up behind my girlfriend wrapping my arms around her gently and place a soft kiss to here cheek. She sighs contentedly. "Hey baby" she mutters.

"What's going on?" Jess says.

"I burnt my suit again. Fire at the port" I reply. Jess shakes her head.

"Lena I'm going home for the night. Same time tomorrow?" Jess asks Lena like I'm not here.

"Yeah thanks Jess! Thank you so much for everything." Lena replies earnestly.

Jess waves her off and is out the door in a second.

"Baby are you ever going to tell me about your secret project?" I whisper softly in her ear. She shivers.

"We are working on a new suit. One for both of us." Lena mumbles. Her cheeks turning red.

"Please don't be mad." She whispers

"Why would I be?" I say turning her around so her back is against the bench and I can see her pretty face.

"I want to help you." She says suddenly.

Chapter 48

Lena POV

I held my breath and waited to see how Kara was going to react. My heart drops as the seconds pass like hours.

"Babe that's amazing." Kara says excitedly. I turn around in her arms to see her megawatt smile. My heart beats a little faster. She starts asking so many questions, I answer each one knowing she was going to want to know everything about the new suits. She looked at me with a proud smile. It made me stand a little taller as I show her the designs we had worked out already. I look up at her ocean blue eyes, she grabs me by the collar of my shirt and crashes our lips together. My heart starts to soar as we gently start to float off the ground. I break the kiss.

"Babe, how do we always do that?" I ask her as she gently puts us both back on the ground.

"Kryptonian's when extremely happy under a yellow sun will float. When we fly if I think happy thoughts it's easier to take off and land." She says with a guilty smile.

"So what do you think when your about to fly away?" I whisper gently not wanting to push her.

"You. I think about you." She whispers softly placing a gently kiss to my lips. I shudder at the sheer intensity of this. I haven't thought about flying yet. I have my speed and strength under control. My X-ray vision is hard to control with our Kara around. I thankfully don't have my freeze breath, heat vision or my ability to fly yet. They are the harder ones Kara says. She thinks I won't get them until the bond is completed. Thinking about the bond kind of dampens my mood. I am going stupid crazy wanting to make her mine forever. But she doesn't want to talk about it. She kind of avoids talking about it. I want to be with her forever. Kara senses my mood changing and pulls me closer wrapping her arms around my waist. I burry my head into the crook of her neck. I take a deep breath inhaling the sweet smell of Kara.

"I love you, Kara Zor-el. You are the only one I want to be with forever. You will forever have my heart and soul. I trust you with everything." I whisper into her neck. I feel her arms tighten around me. She shivers as I gently run my fingers up and down her back through her shirt.

"What's has gotten into you babe?" She says running her fingers I've run hip bone.

"Babe do you think you will ever want to sleep with me?" I ask softly. Feeling my cheeks heat up, I burry my face deeper into her neck. She gently pulls away and tilts my head up so I can look her in the eyes.

"Do you really think that I don't want to?" She asks softly. Not trusting my voice I just nod my head. She kisses me hard running her hands all over my body, asking for permission with her tongue. I eagerly grant it. She picks me up and I instantly wrap my legs around her waits. She places me on the desk. Nipping my lip with her teeth. I groan. Her hands are gently sliding up my sides under my shirt going to my rib cage then slowly and painfully down to my hips. She pulls away and I sigh. It's so frustrating that she gets so flustered.

"I want to so badly baby girl. But this is huge for us both. I want you to be sure. I want us to be married first. I want to have your last name. I want to be yours in every single way Lena. I love you." She says breathlessly, our foreheads resting against each other. I gently kiss her lips. She sighs. She has the weight of this planet on her shoulders, I want to be able to take away her stress and worry. I want to be her safe place. Be fore we could talk more she steps back and huffs angrily. She speeds off and in a few seconds she is back in her super suit.

"Babe I got to go, rogue alien. Be safe. Stay here!" She says rushed as she is about to leave she kisses me.

"I love you Lena Luthor." She says before she speeds off. Before I could respond she was out of the lab and gone. I chuckle.

"I love you Kara." I whisper knowing she could still hear me.

Chapter 49

Kara POV

I sigh as I fly away from our place. I heard Lena's whisper and it took all my self control to not turn around and go back to that beautiful woman whom I'm lucky enough to call mine. I turn my coms on and report to J'ohn. He told me quickly that he is on his way to help. I fly faster. Who ever this is, they are apparently causing a lot of problems for the NCPD. I get closer and see someone. They are dressed in dark red with a red almost black cape. I quickly land.

"Finally Kara, took you long enough" the gruff man spat.

"What do you want?" I say. I don't have time for this.

"You know your presidium little luthor bitch?! Well I am going to kill you to make her suffer. Then I'm going to kill her too." He spat racing towards me. I quickly centre myself. He throws punch after punch. I keep blocking. All of a sudden there is a red hand around my throat. I gasp. I look at the mans hand. He has a red ring vibrating. Oh rao! Is he some sort of lantern? I break his grip and head butt him. He falls to the ground. I pick him up and fly to the deo. We need to find out what in the world is going on!

"Who are you?" I ask him when he wakes in containment.

"You should know seeing as I adopted you!" He snarled. It can't be. He has been missing for over 10 years!

"What do you want?" I snarl. I just want to go home to my Lena. Wow this bond is stronger than I thought it would be.

"I want pay back! Lex and Lena turned me into this! They took my life!" He screamed. My heart stopped. Lena wouldn't do this! Wouldn't she? She isn't her brother!

"You are full of yourself! She doesn't love you! She helped Lex to turn me into this! If it wasn't for her he wouldn't have figured out how to fuse the ring with my body permanently! Those fucking luthiers destroyed my life! If you defend her then you are just as bad!" Jeremiah yelled through the glass. I sigh. Lena. She would never help Lex! She is good and pure and nothing like Lex! He is trying to get into my head.

"Why didn't you come back before now and we could have helped you. Before you started destroying the city. You left us!" I say with so much anger. I've never felt so angry.

"I couldn't. I had to learn the hard way to control this and keep Lex happy. To stop him killing my Alex. I never should have adopted you. You were the biggest mistake I have ever made. If it wasn't for you I wouldn't have been captured in the first place. If I didn't have to work for the deo to keep you safe! Lex kidnapped me!" He said punching the wall. I walk out. I couldn't take this. This isn't him. I walk out and talk to J'ohn. I tell him everything that was said. He can see on my face that I don't want to believe him. But there is something making my stomachs sink. After about half an hour I start walking to the training room. I need to punch something. I just need to think. I turn on the red sun emitters int eh training room. Feeling my power level drop. Not by much. Just enough that I could feel a small amount of pain. I punch the wall. I'm so focused on hitting the wall in the same place that I don't hear Alex come up behind me. She pushes me into the wall. I turn around to face her and see she is holding her kryptonite sword. I sigh. This is getting really old.

"Alex, go away." I say coldly.

"You fucking locked up dad?!" She spat, venom dripping in her voice.

"He isn't my family and neither are you!" I say that coldly I could have given Lena a run for her money. Alex doesn't reply so I turn around to walk out when Alex tries to stab me with her kryptonite sword. I laugh and catch it. I don't flinch. It doesn't hurt. Lena truely is a genius. Alex looks over at me shocked.

"My GIRLFRIEND created a way to protect me from kryptonite." I say stating the word girlfriend as loudly as I could.

"You are truely a selfish idiot! You picked her over me and dad? I have always had you back! Dad brought your pathetic ass into our house and gave you a place to stay! We didn't have to do that for you! Your a fucking alien freak!" Alex screamed. I let go of her sword. My heart broke. She is ment to be my sister. She was my best friend! But now I truely know how she feels about me. I super speed out of the deo. I need to ask Lena about this red lantern? I guess that what I'll call him. I hope Lena hasn't had anything to do with this. I don't think my heart could break any further than it just did. I fly home. Hopefully Lena can shed some light on this.

Chapter 50

Lena POV

Kara was out dealing with super girl duties. I decide I should do some more work from home. The amount of paper work I have to do is insane. I grab my beats off the counter. I quickly sync my headphone to my phone. I find doing paper work at home is faster with music. It makes it more tolerable. Plus Kara doesn't like a lot of the music I like. We both like 90s music but I'm more of a rock or punk sort of chick. I out on some Bon Jovi on Spotify and start working. I get all my work done fairly quickly. My favourite song comes on and I can't help but start belting out the lyrics. I start dancing around my office. I don't this when Kara is home because I really can't dance.

I'll sit and spin for a little while

If it's the end of days I'm goin' out in style

Too much, too young, too fast

I'm gonna drink it up while it lasts

Too much, too young, too fast

I'm gonna tear it up so fill my glass

Thieves in the night rob you blind

With surgical precision

You can't evade the eye in the sky

He got facial recognition

Paranoia on every street

It's hard to stay alive

We never know when you'll feel the heat

Before it takes your life

I was belting out the lyrics jumping around to the song, too much too young too fast by airbourne. I get to the end of the verse and spin around to see Kara standing in the door way with a huge smile. I quickly turn my music off. Pulling my headphones off my head I can hear Kara chuckling. I walk over to her. Gently kissing her. She is still in her suit so she must have just got home.

"Babe go get changed." I say softly. She nods her head and I see a flash of anger and hurt cross her beautiful blue eyes. Did I do something wrong? I was just messing around. I sigh. Did I do something wrong? Oh no. Maybe she is having second thoughts. What if she is giving up on me? My head is spinning with all these negative thoughts. I shake my head as I walk out to the kitchen. I lean against the counter. My heart pounding. What did I do wrong. I hear Kara conning and I turn around so she can't see my face. I don't want her to remember how broken I am.

"What do you know about red lantern?" Kara asked. I could hear the rage in her voice. Like she was fighting to stay in control of her powers.

"What are you talking about?" I ask genuinely confused.

"Did you help Lex with project red lantern?" She forced out trying not to be angry. She obviously believes I've done something wrong. I can hear it in her heart beat. My heart broke.

"Kara, I use to help Lex when I was younger. Most of the time it was just weird math problems that he couldn't solve. I didn't know he would turn into this. That he would hurt people." My voice broke in the last sentence.

"So you possibly helped him with his evil plans? That's just great." She sighed. She walks away and sits on the couch. I knew my life was too good to be true! She believes I'm like Lex! After everything! I grab a bottle of scotch out of the cupboard. I walk into my lab locking the door. Taking a sip. I put it down. I've been doing so well. I can't let myself slip again. I lean against the door and I feel my heart break. She doesn't believe me. I can feel the tears fall, I try to contain my sob. I don't want her to know that she has broken my heart. I thought she loved me and believed in me.

Chapter 51

Kara POV

I heard the door to the lab close. I focused so hard on my hearing. I didn't want Lena to hurt herself. I could hear quiet sobbing conking from the lab. I drop my head into my hands. I royally messed this up. I can feel the burn over my heart. The one where our souls mate is rejecting you. I deserve every bit of Pain it brings. I just accused Lena of being like her brother. I did the one thing I never thought I would! Now I'm like everyone else in her life. I'm just sitting here starting at the floor. I've messed this up so badly. This is one of those times I wish I was still in krypton when it exploded. I've never shared these feeling with anyone. I can't believe I said that. I'm meant to stand for hope. I'm meant to be brave and strong. I'm meant to be loyal and faithful. But I'm just a person. A messed up person that doesn't believe in there own girlfriend. Maybe Lena would be better off without me in her life. Tears start falling quickly and quietly from my eyes. I just couldn't move. My heart hurt. Lena do deserve so much better than that! She needs someone better than me. I feel a pair of soft hands on my shoulder. I couldn't bare to look up and see the pain I chased her in her eyes. This was it. She was done. I press my hands against my head to make the pressure higher. To cause pain. I can see her bare feet under my eyes. I close them. I try to build a wall for my emotions. To make it hurt less for Lena.

"Babe why are you crying?" Leans whispered panicked.

I don't look up. I don't move. I can't. The fear of losing her is too great. My heart beats a little faster. I don't look up. I don't say anything. I can't. I've already messed up everything beyond repair. I've lost Alex, my mum and both of my adopted parents too. Losing Lena is going to break me worse than all of them put together. Losing her is like losing krypton all over again. I open my eyes. Praying to rao that she left. She is kneeling in front of me. She places on hand on my thigh and reaches up gently to wipe away my tears. My heart beats faster. The walls closing in. I don't know what is happening to me. Lena quickly grabs my hands.

"Focus on my heart beat. Breathe with me" she says softly. Her voice was horse but I could hear the love in there still. I focus on her heart beat. Thump. Thump. Thump. Like the steady beat of a drum. So safe. I take a deep breath as the same time as Lena does. My chest isn't as tight. She gently squeezes my hands. She keeps whispering sweet thing to me. I slowly start to calm down. She moves both of our hands away from my face. She gasps.

"Babe, why were you pressing your hands so tightly into your head? You have big read hand marks there." She says softly, her voice laden with guilt.

"You deserve better." I said Barkly above a whisper.

"Kara, babe. You are perfectly imperfect. Nothing you could ever do would make me leave. I love you so much that it hurts so badly." She says sweetly whipping away the tears from my eyes. I look at her. She was there even after what I did. She truely was amazing.

"Babe you carry the weight of two worlds on your shoulders. I will always be here to help you. I will have you back forever. Through the good and the bad." She whispered. It felt like something in my heart had finally repaired itself. It felt like I was home again. I gently pull her up so she was straddling my lap. I gently kiss her. Trying to show her what she means to me. "I love you Kara Zor-el" she breathes against my lips. My eyes flutter shut. Her lips gently capture mine. I could hear both of our heart beats increase. Her lips telling me, showing me that she loves me. She rests one hand gently on my cheek, her other hand between my legs softly running her fingertips up the inside of my thigh. I sigh completely content in this perfect moment. Lena kissing me deeper as she grazes her nails down my back, I whimper gently. Our kiss heats up when I pull Lena closer into me, as she straddles me, running her fingers through my hair to my back digging her nails in while she begins to gently thrust against me. I let out a moan with the tremble of pleasure moving through my body, never have I been so turned on. I place my hands gently, cautiously under her shirt. Feeling her soft, perfect skin. She shudders against me when I reach the bottom of her shirt. I lean back to look into her eyes. To ask if this was ok. She hurriedly nodded starting to kiss my neck. I rip her shirt off leaving it in pieces on the floor. Lena uncontrollably gasps in my ear.

Chapter 52

Lena POV

I can feel the cool night air against my exposed back. Kara's lips gently leave mine as she gently starts to kiss my neck. I tilt my head to the side giving her better access. She gently nips my neck, in one of the most amazing feelings of my life. I let out a soft moan, holding her close as I could to my body.

"Baby" I whine as her sweet lips leave my neck.

"Are you sure?" She asks ever so softly. In this perfect moment I knew in my heart, in my soul, that I wanted to be with amazing woman. I stare into her blue eyes, they show nothing but love and concern. Not trusting my voice, I nod. She kisses me so softly, so gently that I thought my heart was going to explode. She wraps her arms under my legs, digging her nails into my ass. I groan and lean into her. I kiss her with this insane want. She gently picks me up, never breaking the kiss. Desire is building up to the point where I'm glade Kara is holding onto me. My legs are like jelly. Before I knew it my bare back was on our bed. She broke the kiss as she gently placed me on the bed. She crawls on top of me. Her hands running up and down my torso. I started to whimper uncontrollably.

"Baby are you sure? Are you-" I had started to whisper. I wanted her so badly but this was a big step for us both. She cut me off with her lips. Her swollen pink lips crashing down on mine. As our lips part, my hands were under her tshirt. Running across those perfect muscles. I could hear a low rumble from her chest. Telling me she feels the same way I do. We have barely done anything and I'm already close to the edge. As my hand reaches the bottom of her shirt I look up into her eyes. Her normally crystal clear blue eyes are now clouded with lust and love. She truely was a gift to this world. My eyes drinking in the sight of this godess. I gently pull the shirt over her head, throwing it away. She was so beautiful. I take into the sight of her, my eyes stating at the perfect 6 pack, travelling up to her chest. As my eyes reached her chest she grinds her self into my core. Her back arching. My hands running up her back. Digging my nails in as I move them slowly, towards her black lacy bra. As I reach the clips my hands start to shake. I fumbled with the clip. Out of sheer frustration of wanting this godess trembling for me I rip her bra off using my super strength. As soon as I've ripped the clip Kara leans down. Capturing my lips in a slow kiss. I gently bring the now ruined bra over her perfect shoulders. Throwing it across the room. She is still grinding against me. I slowly and gently take her harden nipple between my fingers. Kara moans my name in my ear. Spurring me on I start to roll her nipple between my fingers. My other hand is locked in her blond locks. Her lips pressing against me. She trembled. I take this chance to flip us over. Kara gasped at the sudden action. I lean down, taking her hard nipple in my mouth. Flicking my tongue over it gently.

"Lean please!" She cries. Her back arching into me more. She reaches around. Ripping my bra off. I gently kiss her lips.

"Patience darling" I whisper. I want this to be about her. I kiss her lips, then down her neck slowly. I gently kiss her nipples. I kiss every inch of her down to the waist of her pants. I look up at her. Her eyes shut. Her chest heaving.

"Do you want me to stop?" I ask her.

"Lena don't stop please" she whimpers. I reach the waist band of her pants, using my super strength I rip them off. I whimper at the sight of the gorgeous Kara Zoe-el naked.

Chapter 53

Kara POV

My nerves are through the roof. Lena flips us over so my back is on the bed. She kisses me with so much passion that it makes my head spin.

"Baby, we can stop if you like!" She whispers against my lips. Her voice is full of concern and love. I look up at her beautiful green eyes now laced with lust and more importantly love. I couldn't trust my voice. I pull her closer, feeling her amazing body against mine. I kiss her softly. I've been so scared and so stressed about this. But it's Lena. She will never hurt me. I trust her. I finally start to let go of the stress and worry. All I want to do is make Lena feel good in every way I can. She ever so gently runs her fingers up my sides. I shudder. The feeling is amazing. I gently roll us over. I want to kiss every inch of that perfect skin. I gently start placing kisses in her neck, slowly making my way down to her chest. Lena lets out the most sexiest moans I have ever heard. She gasps and arches her back as I slowly and timidly take one of her perfect pink noodles into my mouth. I run my tongue over it and gently crazy it with my teeth.

"Baby that feels sooooo good" lean groans. Her hips bucking up towards mine. I gently start to place kisses down her stomach.

"Babe, you don't have to" Lena whines. She doesn't want me to stop. But she doesn't want to push me. I smile as I place a gently kiss on the inside of her thigh. I let my self relish in this moment. Letting my instincts guide me. I slowly and painfully kiss up the inside of her thigh. I can her whimper. He eyes squeezed shut as tight as she can. I gently and tentatively run my tongue though her folds. He hands that where gently squeezing my nipples shoot down and she tangles her fingers messily in my hair. She gently guides me to where she needs me the most. I gently graze her with my teeth. Soothing it with my tongue. I'm rewarded with

"OH FUCK" form Lena. Building with a new found confidence I start licking her faster. I watch as her chest rises and falls quicker. I gently push 2 fingers inside of her. Watching her moan as her back life's off the bed. I continue to lick her like she is water and I haven't had any in years. I slowly and gently thrusts my fingers in and out of her, curling them slightly. I graze her again with my teeth and lean starts to scream.

"OH FUCK! Kara don't stop. I'm going to" as the words left her mouth I felt her walls clenching around my finger. He thighs wrapped around my head where shaking and clenching so tightly against my ears that all I could hear was my blood pounding in my ears. It was like seeing heaven. I lick up every bit of her amazing sweet juices. Lena's legs quaking around my face as I did so. She pulls me up and kisses me sloppily. The next thing I know is I'm on my back.

"It's your turn now baby" she whispers huskily. Oh rao.

Chapter 54

Lena POV

I slowly open my eyes. I felt Kara tighten her hold around my waist. I couldn't help but sigh contently. This moment was perfect. I take a minute to take in the look of my beautiful girlfriend. Her hair was a mess, the sheet only covered her from her stomach down. I watched the gently rise and fall of her chest. A soft snore is all that I could hear other than her steady heart beat. I smiled to my self. She truely was amazing. I honestly would be lost without her. She completes me in ways I never knew were possible. I sigh leaving my head resting on her shoulder. I gently run my fingers across her skin. I was so focused on her that I could feel her waking up in my arms. I honestly don't know how I made it though my life without her.

"Morning babe" she whispers. Sleep still lingering in her voice.

"Morning gorgeous" I whispered kissing her cheek softly. She snuggles in closer. I sigh contently. Feeling the weight of the world being lifted off my shoulders.

"Last night was amazing." She said softly curling one hand into my hair. Running her fingers softly through my hair.

"Only because it was with you my love." I responded then internally cringe. That was horribly cheesy. She brings out this softer side of me. I hear her chuckle. The rumble of her chest vibrated through me.

"I am so sorry." She whispered. I kiss her lips softly.

"Babe what ever it is, what ever happens. We will get through this. Together," I whisper against her lips. Her blue eyes seem so full of love today. I don't want to push her into telling me what happened. I know she will talk when she is ready. I just hope I'm strong enough to catch her if she falls. I barely stopped myself last night. I almost went back to that place. The one where I can't see the good in the world. I couldn't leave my Kara though. She needed me and I realised that it was the pressure and the stress of everything that made her snap the way she did. I wouldn't give up on her ever.

"I love you Lena. You are my sun. My red sun. You give me power but keep me grounded. You are so smart and beautiful. Every moment I'm with you I feel like I'm finally home." Kara says softly. I believe every word. She true is amazing to me.

"Come on I want to show you my suit I've been working on for you." I say gently untangling myself from her. She looks me up and down, I can see the lust In her eyes. I walk to the bathroom door. I see Kara still laying in bed and have a bright idea.

"Babe don't make me shower alone" I say softly looking disappointed. And it worked. She super speed over to me. Crashing our lips together.

Thankfully we both don't feel the cold now because that shower was so long. I couldn't help but smile. Jess called me to tell me there was a problem at L-Corp. Kara sighs and tells me she has to sort out something at the deo. I kiss her good bye as I leave for the day. The smile won't come off my face. As soon as my car pulls up at my building, Jess is there with a coffee for me. My smile got bigger.

"You seem brighter today. What happened?" Jess asked curiously. I just smile and try to hid my blush. This woman is one of my only friends in the city. She is going to guess it in seconds.

"Did you finally get that ray of sunshine to sleep with you?" She whisper yells in the lobby. I gently nod my head. I look over at my assistant and see her smile is bigger than Kara's. I laugh softly.

"I want details when we get to your office. But first problem first. Morgan edge is in your office treating to blow your and Kara's relationship open to the press and out her as supergirl." Jess says seriously.

Oh shit.

Chapter 55

Kara POV

After leaving Lena I flew around the city. I was so excited and completely hyper. I was doing all sorts of aerial stunts. The kids at the school loved it. It made my heart even more fuller. I finally had everything I was looking for. I had a home. With Lena. I fly to the deo. I land so softly. J'ohn looked over and smiled.

"Kara what has you so happy? I've never seen you smile so much since you worked with super man." He asks with a grin.

"No reason. I have a perfect girlfriend and my life is great." I say pulling the older man into a hug. He really was my space dad.

"Alex isn't here if you want to go talk to him." He says softly. I know exactly who he is talking about. I take a deep breath and focus on on Lena's heart beat across the city. Thump. Thump. Thump. As strong and dependable as the woman who owns it. I sigh softly and walk down towards the cells. I reach my adopted father. He was still looking so angry.

"What do you want?" He snarls.

"I want to help you. I want to be able to turn you back to who you truely are." I say simply. He didn't deserve kindness. But Lena is right as always. He isn't in control. I have to save him. Even if it hurts.

"You can't. If you try and tamper with me Alex dies. You don't want your sister to die do you?" He says with a touch of resentment in his voice. This isn't my fault.

"What do you want? To be saved or stay in here for ever?" I ask sternly.

"I won't be here forever." He says with a smile. As soon as the words left his mouth the deo went black. Someone had cut the power. It was all over in thirty seconds. The power is back in and he is gone. I storm back into J'ohn.

"He escaped." I snapped. This could only be bad news. Once everyone has rebooted the computers I ask them to sweep the city for any activity. I listen closely for Lena's heart beat, it's beating sort of fast. Then I can hear the sound that almost shatters me on the spot. I can hear a bullet being loaded into the barrel of a gun, near my Lena. I don't think twice I shoot out of the deo, poring on the speed. I need to hurry. I have to save her I can't lose her! I fly faster than I ever have before. I'm a few blocks away when I hear it. Bang. My heart stutters. I have to remember how to breathe. I quickly listen for her. Her heart is still beating strong and steady. Oh thank you rao! I pray slightly. I look around for a shooter across from Lena's office. I see a very familiar figure packing up quickly. I fly over and silently land behind her. She stand a up and turns around. I'm not happy.

"What did you think you were doing Alex?" I snarl. I look across the road at the scene in Lena's office. The is a body laying on the floor. I grab Alex by the wrists. I quickly fly her to the deo. I tell J'ohn what had happened. Alex was going to get locked up in the deo until further notice. I fly back to Lena's office. I land quickly. Lena heard me and come running into my arms. She looks so scared.

"Babe what happened?" I ask softly. Jess was standing in the corner a look of shock on her face. I look over the body. Isn't that Morgan edge?

"He came in to threaten me with your identity and our relationship. I honestly thought about throwing him off the roof for a second. But then all I hear is the glass shatter behind me and then he is dead on the ground." Lena says starting to sob. I gently run her back. That is when I notice the bullet hole in her top. Jess looks over. She must have seen what I saw.

"I don't think who it was for once was after Morgan." Jess whispers. Lena tightens her hold on me.

"Jess send everyone home, every one will get paid for the full day. Go home. I will take Lena home. I think she needs to process this all." I say on my typical super girl voice. Jess kids and leaves the room. Lena snuggles into my neck. I can feel her tears are slowly subsiding. I fly her home. Slowly. I didn't realise the effects of the bond would happen so quickly, but I am so glade they did. I was so close to losing my Lena. I didn't want to think what would have happened if she was still human.

Chapter 56

Alex POV

I quickly pack up the sniper rifle I have. I got to move fast before Kara and Lena realise it's me. I can't believe that Lena is still alive! I messed this up so bad and now they are going to kill dad. Mum is going to be disappointed in me. She knows everything going on between me and Kara. They don't understand that it is killing me being such an asshole to Kara and Lena. I want them to be happy I really do. But I don't want dad to die. He sacrificed so much to keep Kara and I safe. It isn't fair. Kara and Lena already hate me but this will destroy any chance I have of making things right. Maggie's doesn't even know what is going on. I can't trace the calls I have been getting. I don't know who is behind this, but I will find out and I will make this right. I will make this up to Kara. I hope she understands. I really can't lose my dad. Whoever is controlling him has the cure. I just miss my dad. I think Maggie is going to leave me. She doesn't get why I am doing this. I have to. My phone starts ringing.

"Hello?"

"You failed. I guess you don't love your dad that much after all. Now not only will Kara lose everything so will you" the dark voice says before hanging up. My heart beats so much faster. I am so screwed.

Lena POV

How the hell didn't I die? I got shot with a bullet and nothing happened to me. I mean I feel bad because a man is dead but at least Kara's identity is safe. So I guess that's a silver lining? Kara is currently pacing around the room. I lay back in the bed. I try not to smile of the thought of last night. The way Kara moans. I thought her being naked was like being in heaven, but that moan. Oh wow. It was like watching heavens gates open after being denied for years. My heart beat quickens at the thought. I shut my eyes trying to clear my mind. All of a sudden there is a bunch of noise inside my head.

'Who on earth would want to kill my Lena'

'Lena is so good, so sweet. I love her so much! I can't believe I let someone die.'

My eyes snap open. What the fuck was that?! I look over at Kara. She had stopped pacing and is looking at me weirdly.

"What is the matter babe?" I ask her softly.

"Are you ok Lena? You heart is beating so fast." She asks stepping quickly towards me. She lowers herself onto the bed next to me.

"My head hurts. Who would try to kill me? I know it's my fault edge is dead" I say softly. I close my eyes and feel Kara's strong arms wrap around me. Pulling me close. I hear a contented sigh.

"It's not you fault babe" Kara says sweet. Kissing my cheek. I don't think she understands, if I wasn't at work today then he would still be alive. But how did I not notice my powers come in. My eyes snap open again.

"Babe I think my powers are coming in" I say softly.

"I know. It will be ok! At least soon I won't have to control myself around you." She says softly. I thought she wasn't holding back anymore.

Chapter 57

Kara POV

It's been a few days since Morgan edge was killed in Lena's office. Maggie tried to arrest her. That was until we showed her the security footage of Lena's office. Maggie was happy she didn't have to make things worse between all of us. I still remember the conversation we had before she let Lena's office.

"I'm sorry for everything. You two deserve to be happy." Maggie said. She sounded lost and broken.

"What's wrong Maggie?" I ask softly. I still care about her.

"Alex and I broke up. I couldn't stand by her while she is like this. She is going off the deep end. She was drinking so badly. She was so angry all the time." Maggie said, her voice breaking. I could see a tear rolling down her cheek. She continued.

"Towards the end, Alex was really abusive. She would yell at me all the time. She actually punch me for saying that you guys should be happy. I couldn't take it anymore and I left. I never thought she would be like this." Maggie looked so broken. Lena being Lena just walked up and gave her a hug.

"If you need anything at all, call me. Do you have a place to stay? Did you get all of your stuff? Are you ok?" Lena asked her softly. I couldn't help but smile. Lena was such a softy. She really does care about people. Once Maggie and Lena finished there conversation I gave Maggie a copy of the footage. She thanked us and left. I felt so angry at Alex but I was hurt and worried too. I close my eyes.

'Why would Alex do this? She has always been a good person. Why does she hate me? Was I really that bad to her that she couldn't come talk to me?' These thoughts rolling around my head. I snap my eyes open. I thought I heard something. I look towards Lena who has her eyes closed her head resting on her desk. I close my eyes again.

'Kara deserves better than that. Alex has done nothing but hurt her! I wish she would just leave our lives!' I snap my eyes open again. That almost sounded like Lena's voice. I think I need to call Clark. This is weird.

After that day I've been hearing Lena's voice in my head. I don't know how or why. Lena has been acting weird. She always has to be touching me if she is near me. She always asks if I'm ok. I don't know what's wrong but I think she is stressing out about something.

Chapter 58

Kara POV

I decide to go to the fortress. I need to find out why I keep hearing Lena's voice in my head. It's kind of amazing and distracting. I got to the viewing room which has all the history crystals. It also has a hologram of my mum. I decide to ask my mum about it.

"Kara, what can I do for you today?" The hologram says. My heart hurts a little because I miss my family. I wish they were here. I wish my mum could hold me and explain all of this. I clear my throat.

"Every since the bond is completed I can hear my mates voice in my head. Is that normal?" I ask straight forward.

"A telepathic connection is only made between a bonded couple of the are the strongest connection, emotionally, physically and truely. If it has happened within months of the bond being complete it means there is a great chance that rao him self will come and see you both. Rao only graces the most powerful and true kryptonians. Seeing as your mate was born on earth, I don't think rao will show up for you. " my anger boiled. I know this is a hologram but it's based of my mums real personality. She had made it while I was still on krypton. I thank her and walk away. I grab the crystal and a spare reader I had there. The crystal was what I had used to teach Clark kryptonian. I'm going to take it joke and talk to Lena.

Lena POV

Kara had been gone for awhile. I hope she was ok. I put my rock music playlist on. I need a distraction. I keep hearing Kara's voice in my head at the most random times. Yesterday I was in a board meeting for L-Corp. half way through telling one of the old men on the board he can go fuck himself I could hear Kara clear as a bell, 'he isn't worth it. Calm down'. It scared the shit out of me. I wounded if Kara is having the same problem. It only started after we completed the bond. I was focusing on the current project I was working on when I felt Kara's hand on my shoulder. I smile. She is always so soft and gently with me. I turn my music off.

"Hey babe." I say with a huge smile.

"Hi beautiful." She says with a grin and kisses my cheek. She places what looks like a crystal and something else in front of me. She kneels down. Placing her head in my lap. She does this when she thinks I will be mad.

"What is wrong my love?" I ask softly. Running my fingers through her hair.

"I didn't know I'm sorry." She says softly. I can feel the fear and dread rolling off her.

"What is it baby girl?" I say pulling her up so she is now sitting across my lap with her head resting on my shoulder. She wraps her arms around me, cuddling in closer.

"We have a telepathic connection. Only the really strongly connected bonded couples get it. It's rare. I never saw it before so I went and spoke to my hologram Mum. If we have the telepathic connection then rao himself will come to us. But then she said because your not a true kryptonian it probably won't happen." Kara sniffled. She was so upset. I could feel her crying into my neck. I just hold her tighter. Rubbing gentle circles on her back with my hands.

"Why are you crying babe?" I ask her softly.

"On krypton same sex couples were out casted, sometimes killed. Bonding with someone other than a kryptonian was punishable with death. I wish my mum was head to help me. But then she couldn't anyways. She would have to exile me." She sniffles and hiccups through. My heart shattered. She is struggling with her sexuality? Why didn't she say something sooner? All I could think was it's my fault she feels this way.

"Babe it's not you fault. I miss krypton sometimes and this is one of the things I don't miss. You make me happy so I brought you back something." She says softly. We really do must have a telepathic link. My head is spinning at all the things we could do together. I watch her pick up the crystal.

"What's that babe?" I ask her kissing her cheek. I see a light blush creeping up her neck. I couldn't help but giggle. She is truely the most amazing thing I've ever seen.

"This is how I taught Clark how to speak kryptonian. I know you will be able to speak it better than him. He still butchers it. That's why we always speak English. But it would be nice to speak with you in my language. Do you want to lean?" She asks fidgeting with her fingers. I pick her up spinning her around so she laughs. I place her one the ground and kiss her so hard that I thought I would break her or me. She holds me close. We pull apart.

"I would love too!" I say excitedly.

Chapter 59

Kara POV

Lena picks up so quickly how to speak kryptonian. It's amazing. She loves learning the history of my planet. We spend hours talking about everything. She never ceases to amaze me. She has made us matching suits and come out to be a hero along side me. Except she has a face mask, I mean she is a billionaire running two companies so it was a necessity. She is getting a good hold of her powers. Catco actually gave her the name tempest. They managed to name both of us. Lena loves it. We both have built in sunlight boosters so keep our powers up in bigger battles. We still have one big problem in our lives. Alex. She tried to kill Lena, but killed Morgan edge instead. It breaks my heart that she won't let us be happy. She is so judgemental. She still blames Lena for her dad going dark side. It's completely unfair. I've backed Lena up all the way. Lena is not Lex! She is a good person. She helps protect the world. Alex knows she is tempest. Only because she is still part of the DEO. I wasn't happy. She murdered someone, she should be in jail. But j'ohn is convinced that she is being manipulated into do it. I don't believe him. She hurt Maggie! Maggie has moved in with us for the time being. It's been great. Lena now has someone else to talk to besides Jess. Plus our house is more secure than the White House. So she will be safe. I am worries about her though. She has been so depressed. I think she blames herself. Lena even offered her a new job as her head of security. Maggie is still thinking about it. I know Lena would do anything to help her. She is amazing like that. I fly into the Deo, I head we might have a lead on the red lantern.

"We found him. I'll tell you the address as you fly. Go get him. Bring him back." J'ohn says sternly. I launch intro he sky. He tells me the address as I fly. He is heading towards lcorp! Lena is working there today. I fly faster. I know Lena will be ok but I want her to protect her still. I land in front of the red lantern in a thud.

"What do you want super girl?" He says with a growl.

"Come with me and you will find out." I say back almost angrily. He destroyed our family. He chose to leave. He laughs throwing a punch. I duck. He keeps throwing punch after punch, I just keep blocking. I don't really want to hurt him. All of a sudden I feel weak. It's like there is kryptonite around. But I know Lena fixed that problem. I lose focus for a split second. He uses this opportunity to punch me in the face. I try not to let the pain show. I could taste blood in my mouth. All my powers are getting drained quickly. I start to panic. What in the world is happening? He lands punch after punch. The sunlight boosters isn't able to work fast enough. I feel my ribs break after a particular nasty kick. I cough. All I can taste is blood. Black spots are in my vision right now. This can't be good. All I can see his a red boot making contact with my face. Then everything is black.

Chapter 60

Lena POV

Kara is missing. I can feel it in my bones. I quickly fly to the deo. I hate flying by myself it's always better when Kara is around. Kara being around has made my life better. J'ohn has been really helpful. He is looking as hard as I am. Maybe Alex knows something. I haven't seen or heard from her for awhile. With the way she was treating Kara I'm guessing she is behind it somehow. I mean her fucking dad was involved! I'm going crazy. I fly to Alex's house. I need answers. I gently land and knock on her door. I don't want things to be worse than they are. The door slowly opens, but there is no one there. I walk inside.

"Alex are you there?" I yell. I don't want her to be hurt or anything. I just want her to stop her shit with Kara. I walk towards the lounge room when I hear something. I stop and listen. I can hear someone crying. I turn the corner and find Alex laying on her couch crying. My heart breaks at the sight. She is normally the strong one.

"What's happened Alex?" I say softly.

"It's all my fault." Alex says barely auditable. I walk over and sit on the ground next to her. She looks up.

"I'm sorry Lena it's all my fault." Alex started. I hear glass breaking behind me I look around and super man takes Alex! Like seriously what is his problem!!! I'm trying to get answers to find my soul mate and he takes my only lead! I ring J'ohn and let him know what happened. I ring Jess to see if she can track where he is going and get her to report to J'ohn. I'm fuming. What did Alex mean? What was her fault? More importantly where on fucking earth is my Kara?!

Chapter 61

Kara POV

My head is pounding. I slowly open my eyes. I'm in the fortress. Why am I here? I sit up slowly.

"About time your awake." I heard someone say angrily. I look around and spot Kal-el.

"What's going on kal?" I ask. My throat is dry and my voice is horse. My whole body is hurting. What happened to me?

"Your a fucking a luthor? Seriously Kara you know what this means for you right?! I am the head of the house of el!" He snarls. I flinch. He is older here. So he is the head of house. So he can banish me or worse kill me. If he challenges me I will win if he orders my death I am not aloud to fight back under the laws of krypton.

"Kal, she is my soul mate." I say softly.

"You are a fucking idiot! You can't seriously believe that bullshit." He snarls. I slowly stand up. I won't let him talk about my Lena like that. Just as I get to my feet he has his hands around my neck. He is squeezing so tightly. My lungs are burning. What ever he has used has made me weak. I push and hit his arms to try and get him to let go. I can see spots in my vision. He drops me suddenly. I breath the biggest breath I have ever in my life. My lungs burn, my whole body hurts. I look up in time to see blonde hair before I get a red boot kicking my head and I pass out again.

I can hear someone screaming. Someone is hurt. I have to help. I open my eyes. Alex is tied to a chair. Kal, he is hitting her. I see him walk back towards his things. He pulls out a syringe. I love. I have to save her. I step in front of him. I can't let him hurt Alex or Lena.

"Kara I'm so sorry. I had to. They hurt dad. I tried to find a cure but I couldn't. If I didn't do what they said they would kill him." Alex says crying so hard it breaks my heart at the sound.

"Who Alex?" I ask. Before she could answer Kal tried to push me out of the road. I plant my feet. I won't move. He can't hurt her!

"Kal, stop! This isn't you!!" I say.

"This is what happens when you fuck a luthor! You have a fucking luthor super powers! How stupid could you be? She will destroy the world if I don't stop her like I stopped Lex!" He screamed.

"You didn't stop Lex! Alex did!" I exclaim. I'm ready to fight. If I have to fight to the death to save Alex and Lena I will. No one will ever beat me. I won't let anything happen to them!

"She did what she was told to do, she is just a stupid bitch who follows orders! That all she can do, seems like she can't do that anymore! Now we have no use for her. Or her father." He says calmly. My heart drops. He wouldn't kill anyone right? He was always a good guy. Next thing I know the red lantern walks in. I muster up all my courage and keep a brave face on.

"You wanted to see me?" He asks. He was nervous. I could hear his heart beating from here. He is holding something blue in his hand. I can feel my strength leaving my body quickly.

"Like that huh? Only works on female kryptonians. It's blue kryptonite." He chuckles. Oh rao help me. Before anyone can move Kal burns a hole right through the red lanterns head. He drops to the ground and Alex screams. A heart breaking and broken scream. It echoes throughout the fortress. My heart shatters.

"Kal. You just. You. Killed him!" I stutter out. He just killed the man who talk me how to speak here. The man who protected me. The man was my father here. Maybe he wasn't in the end but it wasn't always like that. My heart broke. I can hear Alex sobbing. I breathe in slowly. I let my mind drift to my Lena.

'Babe I love you. If you can get this, I'm in the fortress. Kal just killed the red lantern. Babe I won't make it. Break the bond. I can survive if you do!' I think as hard as I can. I need Lena to get the message. I need her to break my heart. That way she will live is this goes side ways. I'm praying so hard she got the message. I'm so focused on getting in touch with Lena I don't see Kal move until it a too late. He sticks the needle into Alex's neck. He pushes the plunger. I scream. My heart hurts so badly. I listen to Alex's heart. It stops. My heart shatters. He killed Alex. My Alex! My big sister!

Lena POV

I can hear a scream. Then I hear Kara so softly saying something I couldn't make out. All I got was fortress. I fly too speed there. I won't let anyone hurt her! I land just as Kara screams. It's was such a broken scream. She falls to the ground and without thinking I catch her before she hits the ground. I feel weird but I shake it off. I am more worried about kara. I quickly look around, Clark is here. Alex is dead?! There father is dead?! What on earth happened here?

"Clark, stop this! You are doing excatally what Lex did! Don't be the villain! Be the hero you were meant to be!" I say quickly. I have to get through to him.

"I'm not Lex!" He snaps. I see his fist clenched. I will fight. I will protect my Kara.

"You should have followed in his footsteps Lena." I hear a female voice say. I look around and see Eve. My brother's girlfriend?

"Check mate Lena." She smiles and shoots me in the shoulder. Whatever it is it's blue and it fucking hurts. Clark walks over to me punches me in the face knocking me out.

Chapter 62

Lena POV.

I finally come too. I mean seriously how is it that she can find ways to hurt me? I thought she was gone. My head still hurts but seeing the smug smile. It makes me so angry. I slowly start taking in my surroundings. I'm tied to a chair with this blue kryptonite rope. I look down see my feet are bound too. I also see my Kara tied up. My blood starts to boil. That fucking evil blonde asshole. I ducking hate Eve.

Flash back

I was making out with Sarah. She was so pretty. I was so focused on the beautiful girl I was dating I did t hear my brother or his girlfriend come home.

"Lena!" Lex yelled from the stairs.

Shit! Sarah and I straighten ourselves out making sure we didn't look like we were just caught making out. Just in time too because Eve opened my door. I sigh. I wait for her usual homophobic bullshit to start.

"Lena, get that slut out of this house! You know the rules! I'm so fucking tired of a fucking dyke like you trying to do what they want in my house. Eaither get her the fuck out or you will pay." She snarled. Well that wasn't as bad as I though. I hated living here it was almost as bad as living with my mother. When I was 13 I came out to my parents and they kicked me out. Lex told me to come live with him. So I did. It's been a year. He was supportive at first. Well until Eve found out. Ever since our relationship has struggled. Sarah grabs her bag and runs out of the door. I could see the tears in her eyes. I tried to run after her. Eve grabs me by the arm. I try to chase Sarah, to let her know I'm sorry. Eve held my arm that tight I could feel blood trickling down from her long nails digging into my arm. Tears started to well in my eyes but I refused to let them fall. I could hear the front door slam. I look up at Eve, she had a cold and evil smile plastered on her face. I swallowed hard. I knew this couldn't be good. She threw me back into the wall of my bedroom. I felt the wind leave my lungs instantly. She started to beat the crap out of me. I tried to fight back but I was too small and weak. I tried calling out to Lex. He never came. By the end of that night I had a broken arm, 4 fractured rib, a dislocated shoulder and a fractured eyes socket. Lex took me to the hospital told them I was in a car accident on our property. When we were alone he told me to never disobey his future wife. That she was right. That being gay I deserve this.

"I thought you supported me Lex" I whispered to him on the way home.

"Eve opened my eyes to the truth, faggots and aliens are polluting the earth. For the sake of the human race, they need to be eliminated. If you don't change your ways sister that's what will happen you you." He said with so much conviction I thought he would kill me then and there. That was the moment I knew I had lost Lex forever. That Eve had twisted everything to make sure she would be his forever.

End of flash back.

Eve had to be dealt with. I couldn't let her hurt my Kara. The anger in me started to take over everything except the need to protect my soul mate. Eve walks in looking smug. The blue kryptonite must be wearing off because I could feel my strength coming back. I swiftly and quietly break the ropes tying my hands together. As Eve gets close to my beautiful Kara I launch off the seat. I grab her by the throat and pin her up against the ice in the room.

"You will never hurt her again! Or anyone else for that matter." I snarl tightening the grip I had. I could feel the air leave her lungs. She looked as scared as I did at 14.

"Lena, don't." Kara whispers. I look back at her, she is trying so hard to get free. I listen the grip I had on the vile woman. As I do I feel something burning through my whole body. I look down. Eve had brought a blue kryptonite dagger and has stabbed me. I fall to my knees. I have to get to Kara to protect her. I drag my self over there applying as much pressure as I could to the wound. I break the ropes that bound my beautiful baby. I have to break the bond. It hadn't been in place long enough for us both to die. If I'm going to die, Kara has to live and be strong. I gently kiss her.

"I'm sorry babe but I can't let you die too." I whisper softly.

"I reject the bond with Kara Zor-el." I say with as much conviction I could. I fall back into the cold ice. Feeling the power of a true kryptonian leave my body. I was turning human again and I was a going to die.

"Rao, protect her please." I say. It was the last thing I could ever say. Kara is crying and pleading for rao to save me. It was too late I could feel it. I'm so sorry Kara. I love you, forever.

Chapter 63

Kara POV.

Lena rejected me, if the bond had been in place for a year then I would have died too. She is still trying to save my life. My beautiful Lena. She is so good. It's such a small word. But she has never heard it as much as she has from me. She tries so hard to be the person she wants to be. I can feel her heart beat slowly dropping. I use all the strength I have to pick her up. Bridal style.

"Kara, save yourself. Leave me the world need you." Lena says softly. Her voice resigned to the fact that she is going to die. I hold her close and speed out to Alex. I grab her body as well. I won't let her be stuck here. I speed out of the fortress. I called for J'ohn. He flies towards us. He takes Lena and Alex back to the deo. But I know deep down in my heart I've just lost my soul mate and I've lost my sister. Kal, he is going to pay. So is eve. My body is shaking with anger. I speed back to the fortress. By the time I get there Eve is gone. Kal is standing in the middle of the fortress. I speed up to him. I just saw red. I punch him in the jaw feeling the satisfaction of his jaw breaking under my fist.

"For breaking kryptonian law, I am sending you back to Argo. They can deal with you there." I snarl. He isn't the man I thought he was.

"If I go will you." He says. I don't react quick enough. He snicks a needle of blue kryptonite into my neck. I'm sorry Lena. Forgive me for not being strong enough. I love you baby forever. Is all I could think as the pain spread through my body. Kal picks me up putting us both into the one pod. He must have knew I would have come back. He planned this. He took my Lena away from me. We take off. I want to scream. I want to punch him. I want to make sure my Lena was going to be ok. But I couldn't move at all.

Alex POV

My heart broke when I heard Lena saying she rejected Kara. I know she did it to save her life. They are so good for each other. I had always thought so. Eve had my dad captured and turned him into the red lantern. She had the only cure. I tried so hard to make one on my own and I couldn't. She blackmailed me into hurting them as much as I could and if I killed Lena dad would have been freed and turned back to normal. I was so stupid. I should have gone to Kara and Lena and just told them everything. Now my little sister is missing. It's all my fault. I should have hurt Lena, Kara or Maggie. We are back at the deo. Lena is out of surgery now. It looks like she will make it. But at what cost? We are all searching for Kara, Kal and eve. But they have disappeared. I was tracking all movements when I saw Kara's pod leave earth. Shit! They are going to Argo! This could be really bad or really good. If my memory of kryptonian law was right, well what Kara told me. If another kryptonian tries to kill the head of house soul mate they are sentenced to death, that won't be good for Kal. It's all depends on if he tells everyone that Lena is a woman. Then it might be voided. Being gay is the biggest crime to kryptonians. I must have started pacing. I was worried. Kara might not survive being exiled by her mother. But I'm saying that she is the head of house here on earth. Maybe just maybe she will be ok. I can feel the tears falling down my face. I deserve all the pain I get after what I have done to the people I love. Oh god. I need to call Jess and tell her what happened to lena. That way Lena doesn't lose her company.

"Jess it's Alex, don't hang up. But Lena needs you right now. Please. Come here and help her? Please?" I sobbed into the phone. Everyone hates me, I've lost my dad. Kara is gone. Lena is hurt. And I totally Fucked things up with Maggie!

"Alex what do you need?" Jess asks softly.

"Just be here for Lena, please?" I beg and hung up the phone. Jess and Lena are the two most smartest women I know. I think they might be able to help me build a device to get in contact with Argo. Well. Maybe. If Lena is ok that is. It wasn't long till I heard Jess storming in.

"Alex what the fuck?!" She yelled. I flinched. It's all my fault. I ducked my head then heard the voice that has been shredding my heart to pieces.

"Alex did you do this to Lena?" Maggie asked. I shock my head. I couldn't look at them. I deserve this hate. It was my fault. I should have just lost dad than do this to our family. I lead Jess and Maggie into where Lena is recovering. I open the door. I take a deep breath. I look over at the women. Jess looks like she wants to cry or punch me. Both would be acceptable right now. Maggie looks like she has just seen a ghost. I walk out and come back with 2 chairs for them. They take them sitting next to Lena. Like protectors. Which they were. I sigh. I want to tell them everything but I don't want them to feel bad for me. It was my stupid choice I have to live with it.

"Alex, what happened?" Jess said. She wasn't looking at me.

"I'll tell you everything. But I'm sorry. I fucked up so badly." I say softly. Both of them nod. I start telling them everything. Not leaving out a single thing.

"Alex are you crazy?! Lena blames her self for Morgan edge being shot!" Jess snarls. Jess stands up and slaps me hard across the face. I don't move. She could put a gun to my head right now and I wouldn't move. This is all my fault.

Lena POV

I could hear everything Alex had said. I was mad as hell. I was also very concerned that she didn't trust Kara or Maggie enough to tell them. I guess she was doin what she thought was best. I could hear Maggie crying and Jess slapping Alex. I wanted to wake up. To find my Kara. Oh wait she not mine anymore. My heart breaks slightly more. I lost the love of my life. She was the only one who could make me smile when I was lost in the darkness of my depression. She was my everything. I was looking forward to asking her to by my wife in kryptonian, our first baby. Or first house. Our first dog. Super man and eve took that away from me! I will make them fucking pay! I force my eyes open. I see the three women in the room look at me. I'm in so much physical pain by losing my Kara hurts more.

"Alex. I need a laptop now. I'm going to find her" I snarled. Alex jumped up quickly to get me what I had asked for. I don't know how, but I will find you Kara. I'm so sorry I did this to us. This is all my fault.

Kara POV

It's been a week since I've been taken away from my home. I kiss my Lena so much that it physically hurts. We are almost at Argo. I haven't seen my mother since krypton was destroyed. Kal has been trying to talk to me. Trying to tell me to repent now and he won't tell my mother that my souls mate is female. I told him to just go away. Not that there was much room for us to move. The blue kryptonite has finally worn off just as we land. He grabs me and throws me out of the pod. I hit the ground hard.

"Kal, who is that?" I heard a woman say.

"You should know her Aunty, it's Kara" he says back rudely. I'm so angry. I stand up and spit the blood that has built up in my mouth out. It was glowing blue.

"Did you kidnap her Kal?!" My mother exclaimed. I take in her appearance. She hasn't changed since I was a child. I just wanted to run into her arms and feel safe and loved. But I know it won't happen after Kal is finished.

"Yeah, her soul mate is a woman so I brought her here for judgement. As head of house it's my responsibility to our people to keep the fags out!" He snarled. He flexed his biceps's. trying to be a big tough guy. He has already broken two laws of krypton. And we haven't even moved after landing.

"Guards, take them both lock them in separate cells until I can get to the bottom of this." My mother calls out. Next thing I know is I've been surrounded by 10 guards. I go quietly. Kal on the other hand starts to fight. I look back to see him getting knocked out. I put my head down and follow the guards. I have to do this right or I could die. Then I'd never get back to my Lena.

Lena POV

Kara has been gone for a month. Alex and I have started to mend our relationship. I couldn't blame her for loving her father. She just wanted her father back and my family stole that from her. Jess and myself have been trying to track her pod. I've got alerts set up everywhere. I don't have my powers any more which means the bond was truely broken. But I refuse for this to be the end of us. She makes my whole world light up. I kiss her so much. After a long day at lcorp I go home. Still no sight of Kara's pod. I grab the bottle of scotch and go to what was our room. I haven't been in here since she was taken. I slowly open the door. I look aground and all I can see is Kara. Kara lip gloss on her bed side table. He suit hanging in the cupboard. Her hoodie on her side of the bed. It all hits me. I've truely lost her. I fall to my knees. Dropping the unopened bottle on the carpet. My heart shatters. She is gone. My light. My beautiful amazing girlfriend. The only person I could ever want. Tears streaming from my eyes. It hurts so badly not having her here.

"Lena, are you home? Your front door is open." Alex yelled out from the front of the house. I couldn't move. I miss her so much. Alex sees me curled up in the door way and runs towards me. She wraps her arms around me.

"Let it out Lena. It's ok." Alex whispers. Holding me close. I've lost the most amazing person I've ever met. Alex stays with me. She doesn't judge me. I know she has been beating her self up. She still thinks we all hate her. We don't see are just disappointed that she couldn't trust any of us enough to tell us what was happening.

I must have fell asleep in Alex's arms. She has set me down I the spare room knowing that being in Kara and I room would destroy me even more so than it did. I look around. Alex is asleep in the arm chair next to my bed. She looks so tired. I decide to leave her there so she could sleep. I allow my get and see my Kara's favourite hoodie on the bed. I quickly pull it on. It smells like her still. It makes me feel safe for a second until I realise that fucking super man took her away from me! I can't let the anger take over. I won't be Lex. But I understand his need to take down super man! He really thinks he is a god. When my poor sweet Kara was a goddess, in more ways than one. And he sniffed out my sun. My strength. My hope. My love. It's gone. All that remains is the anger. The hurt. Nothing will ever make up for this.

Walking out to the kitchen I put a pot of coffee on. I check my phone. Feeling calmer than I did before. I make Alex and I coffee. Jess calls.

"Her pod is on its way back Lena!" Jess shouts happily. I scream in excitement and Alex comes running with her gun, like always.

"Alex her pod is coming back!" I say smiling. Maybe I should have worn her hoodie earlier.

Kara POV

I sit in the cell quietly. Silently thanking rao I could still speak kryptonian.

"He shouldn't have kidnapped her, he is a fool. He is not head of the house. Not on earth or here" one of the guards said in my native language. I breathe in slowly. I know I will only have one chance to make it out alive. I have to tell my mum the truth. I know what she locked us both up. To not show favouritism. I breathe slowly. The guard stake Kal to my mum first. I knew I would be last. To defend the claims made against me. I know my mum will also use a truth seeker on us both, so this will be interesting.

Alex POV.

My baby sister might be coming back. It's not close enough yet to use the heat signatures to figure out if it's Clark or Kara. But she is coming home. I hug Lena so tightly. She has been so broken after losing Kara. She and I train together at the deo every day and go for runs in the morning through Kara's favourite park. She truely is the only good luthor. She ain't even that. She is just the best Lena. Baby sister was right again. I'm so scared she won't accept my apology but I truely am sorry. I should have told Kara. Lena grabs me and drags me down to the deo. I'm glade I was wearing pants for this. Lena on the other hand is in boxers and Kara's hoodie. She had a shirt on under the hoodie but you can't tell. She really truely loves Kara. Anyone can see it. I never should have push them apart or try too. I want to be able to have that one day.

Jess POV

Lena screaming that Kara is finally coming home is slowly driving me crazy. Watching her jump around the lab at the deo in Kara's hoodie is quite adorable. I wish I had that again. But I lost my husband when Lex tried to kill super man. I knew deep down Lena would be different to her family. Working alongside her the last few years has shown me how much she carries the burden of her family. The weight it carries. She is a good boss but an even better friend. I'm so lucky she is in my life.

"Jess, my Kara is coming home! Do you think we will be ok?" She went from excited to dejected very quickly.

"Lena, Kara looks at you like you hung the stars. She loves you more than you capfuls fathom." I say honestly.

Lena POV

Shit I'm still in my boxers and Kara's hoodie.

"Jess I need to go home and make myself look like me for my girl." I say softly. I'm so excited but so nervous to see her again.

"Lena, is super girls room is everything you need, and it has a shower remember. Go." Jess said laughing at me.

Kara POV

Obviously things didn't go well for Kal. I can hear him yelling from here saying that the counsel is wrong. Oh no. This could be bad. I hope they don't make us battle to the death for the planet.

"Kara, come. The counsel is ready for you." Max the guard says. He is 6ft 3inches tall, dark brown hair and soft hazel eyes. He is quite good looking for a guard.I miss my Lena. Walk into the chambers. There is blood on the floor. This isn't good.

"Hello counsel" I address in a very formal way

"Kara, what happened to you?" My mother asks.

"I honestly and formally request the truth seeker." I say softly.

Max brings it over and attached it to my arm.

"My name is Kara Zoe-el. Head of the house of el on planet earth." I state quietly.

"Truth seeker is working" max says quickly.

"Kara Zoe-el who is your souls mate?" My mother asks. I take a deep breath.

"Lena Luthor, of planet earth." I say softly again. I have to speak softly as not to make things worse. All I want to do is scream that Lena is mine and I love her.

"Where is she?" My mother asks again.

"Lena was dying last time I saw her. She rejected the bond to save my life. Kal and eve had planned it all. Lena only has ever saved the world. She may be human when we met, but she saved me before she knew I was supergirl, a kryptonian. She saved my life and gave up hers. I only saw her life fading. I hope rao didn't take her but if he did I will meet her there. She is so amazing and smart. She is the smartest woman in the world." I say trying not to gush. But the counsel has to know I didn't start this.

"Tell us all young lady!" My father says angrily.

"Yes sir." I say. I tell the counsel the whole story. About Kal kidnapping Alex and almost killing her to when we got here. I was definitely going up against it. But I have to be honest with the family.

"Kara, you are head of house on earth. You will not be punished for being gay. The last few years we have been here we have been studying earth and seeing what it does to hate. We want everyone here to be happy. We would love for you to bring Lena next time. But now. What would you like done with Kal? He did try to kill you and you soulmate and your sister. It's all up to you Kara." My father says. Tears are building up in my eyes. This is amazing.

"Kal can stay here. He has hurt too many people. Can you help him see the right way please father?" I ask with a smile.

"You got it. Now I know we have missed you but I think you need to go home. You need to help Lena. She is going to be lost breaking the bond like that you took a great risk. Only a true kryptonian can break the bond and not die. One rao chooses. You were lucky this time. It might not work next time Kara." He says wrapping his arms around me. I haven't felt this complete since I was sent to earth. Other than meeting my Lena. My mother takes me into a small room. It was my old bedroom. She lays some fresh clothes out for me and tells me she loves me. I quickly bathe and get into my royal blue robes. My mothers gives me a transporter device she helped me create when I was 10. I can use to come see my family when ever I want. I decide to fly the pod home. That way we have it if we need it for anything. Mum and dad give me a huge hug before I go. I get told to come visit and that they are proud of me. I can see Kal working on a farm near by. I smile. It will do him some good to stay here. But now I need to go home to my beautiful Lena.

Lena POV

Kara's pod is finally here not long now. I go to the projected destination. I wait there. I'm so nervous. What if she doesn't love me anymore? What if it's Kal in that pod? I didn't have time to think about it. The pod crashes about 40 yards away from my car. I'm glade I worked that one out before hand. Out walks Kara. She is wearing royal blue robes. My heart speeds up. I couldn't believe it. She was back. She looks at me and smiles so big. I run. I run to the most amazing woman on the planet. I jump straight into her open arms. She spins me around and kisses me so hard I could feel it in my toes.

"Is this real? Or a cruel dream?" I whisper softly. I didn't want to open my eyes from the kiss to find out.

"Babe. I'm here and I'm not going anywhere." Kara says softly. She captures my lips again. This time so much more softer. Gently biting and exploring my lips and mouth. I pull her incredibly closer. I don't want her to be away from me again. I can't believe she is back.

"Kara I didn't mean to hurt us both when I broke the bond" I say. Tears falling softly.

"I know baby. It's ok. It had to be done to save us both. But we can't do that again." She whispers back to me. I finally have her back.

"Babe is that the last time we will see Kal?" I ask fearing the answer

"I hope so."

Too bad is won't be. To bad eve is still out there. Too bad Kara and Alex haven't made up. Who knows what will happens next. As long as I have my Kara. I will get through it.