(Hey everybody, so sorry for the LONG wait. I had about a year and a half writer's block and I hope it has gone away for good, but anyhow enjoy! If anyone has any suggestions, please feel free to let me know.)

Everything seemed to be a fucking nightmare for Santana. Santana lost the best person that made her life seem more positive and it destroyed her. Brittany was everything and Santana did what she thought was best to protect her Britt Britt. But now Brittany was gone and Santana was delirious with inner turmoil. Santana awoken the next morning from her unconscious slumber and saw Tina was sitting next to the doorway, fast asleep. Santana could feel her heart beating fast, her breathing labored and her head throbbing. Santana got up from her mattress and slipped on her robe and heading into the bathroom, closing the door behind her gently so she didn't wake anyone.

Santana stood in front of the mirror and saw a fucked up and broken down version of herself and the shit had only gone down the last twenty-four hours. Tears formed in her eyes and began rolling down her cheeks as she started to cry and she slammed her fist into the mirror, shattering the glass and blooding her hand. Santana cried out,

"Fuck!"

Quinn burst into the bathroom asking,

"What is going on, Santana?!"

Santana held her bloodied hand, sobbing,

"I fuckin' hurt myself!"

Quinn went over to Santana and checked Santana's hand, sighing,

"Jesus Christ, Lopez!"

The gang and Rachel came into the doorway and gasped at what they saw. Rachel asked,

"My god what happened?"

Quinn replied,

"Santana cut herself by putting her fist thru the mirror, that's what happened!"

Rachel backed away and headed into another room without Quinn noticing and Tina asked,

"Does she need stiches?"

Quinn looked at the wound and replied as she helped Santana clean up the wound,

"I don't think so, just need to dress it."

Santana sobbed,

"Brittany has to come back, Quinn! She fuckin' has to!"

Quinn answered softly as she was cleaning the blood from Santana's hand and wrapping it with gauze and tape,

"Brittany will come back, San. I promise you that."

After dressing up the wound Quinn took the weeping Santana in her arms and pushing past the gang and tucked Santana into bed. Quinn thought to herself as she watched Santana cry and holding onto her hand,

"Please Brittany come back!"

About a half hour later after Santana fell asleep from exhaustion, Quinn went back to her room and spooned Rachel from behind in bed, kissing her shoulder. Quinn whispered,

"I'm sorry that I snapped at you, San scared me."

Rachel replied softly,

"I know she did that is why I came back in here."

Quinn asked,

"Do you still love me, Rach?"

Rach turned towards Quinn to face her and replied,

"You never need to doubt my love for you."

Quinn sighed,

"Throughout this fuckin' mess we had made I still have you."

Hours later in the late afternoon Brittany pulled into the driveway to the gang's house with Mercedes following her. As soon as Brittany turned off her car, and slammed the door behind her as she got out, Quinn sprinted towards with Rachel behind her. Quinn hugged Brittany and said,

"Thank fuckin' god you are back, Britt!"

Rachel added as she gave Brittany a hug after Quinn,

"Santana isn't doing well at all!"

Brittany darted from Quinn, Mercedes and Rachel and into the house, rushing into the house where she found Santana in bed, curled up in a fetal position and shaking. Brittany's blue orbs filled with tears and she got down on her knees and got down to Santana's level and whispered to Santana,

"Sanny baby? I've come back and I am so sorry for leaving."

Santana slowly opened her eyes, her eyes meeting Brittany's tear filled eyes and she croaked,

"Britt Britt?"

Brittany replied softly as she pressed her lips against Santana's forehead,

"It's me and I'm back for good."

Santana slowly sat up in bed, wrapping the blankets around her and started to cry,

"Britt Britt I am so fuckin' sorry…"

Before Santana could say anymore Brittany interrupted her by placing her lips gently on Santana's and kissed her softly. Santana sighed heavily as she slipped her tongue inside of Brittany's mouth. Santana opened the blanket and wrapped it around Brittany, pulling Brittany closer to her and resting her forehead against Brittany's. Santana continued,

"I should've not have gotten you into this shit, Britt. I just needed to protect you and I did what I thought was best."

Santana was trembling and Brittany said as pressed her body against Santana's,

"Let's not worry about that right now, let me take care of you. You are trembling like a leaf."

Santana cried,

"I needed you so much."

Brittany replied,

"I know you did and I needed you too. Come on, let's take a bath together."

Brittany helped Santana get up and took the blanket off them, throwing it on the mattress and both headed into the bathroom. Brittany noticed the smashed mirror and Brittany asked,

"What happened Sanny?"

Santana showed Brittany her bandaged hand and answered softly,

"I hit the mirror with my fist."

Brittany had Santana sit on the toilet seat and reassured her she was going to get a plastic bag from her car and will be back. Santana nodded and said softly,

"Don't be long baby."

Brittany nodded and darted out to get the plastic bag and within a minute, she was back with a plastic bag and she helped Santana out of her robe. Brittany quickly stripped out of her clothes and placed the paper bag over Santana's hand and tied it. Brittany turned on the bathtub faucet and adjusted the temperature. Brittany helped the trembling Santana into the tub and Brittany got in. Brittany took the soap and began to rub it against Santana's bronze skin, Santana sighed,

"That feels so good, Britt."

Brittany replied as she continued to lather Santana's body up with soap,

"My goal is to make you feel good tonight."

Santana started to cry again,

"I really don't deserve you my baby!"

Brittany said as she placed her lips once again on Santana's,

"Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…we'll talk later."

Brittany helped Santana with washing herself off and washed her hair for her. Brittany also took Santana's arm that had needles marks all over and began kissing them tenderly causing Santana to sigh heavily,

"Feels so good, Britt."

Brittany whispered as she was kissing Santana's arm,

"We are one, San."

About a half hour later, Brittany and Santana were holding one another in bed all bundled up and Santana was still trembling.

Brittany asked as she was kissing Santana,

"Are you going to be ok, sweetie?"

Santana replied through her chattering teeth,

"Yeah now you're here. Don't worry about it, I am just going through withdrawal."

Brittany kicked off the blankets off her and said,

"I'm going to get you some water, I don't want you dehydrated babe."

Santana whimpered,

"Don't go."

Brittany said as she pulled away from Santana,

"I won't be gone that long, I just want you to have water."

Santana reluctantly rolled off Brittany and curled herself up as Brittany got up and slipped on an oversized t-shirt. She walked into the kitchen and got a glass out of the cupboard and was filling it up with water when Lauren approached her,

"Glad to see you back Brittany."

Brittany smiled at Lauren and said,

"Thank you, Lau. It is going to be a rough road ahead for all of us but it is worth it."

Lauren said,

"Ya know San has never been known to be…uhm…what is that word?"

Brittany replied,

"Vulnerable?"

Lauren nodded and answered,

"Yeah vulnerable, that's it! She's never been that way with anyone before."

Brittany answered back as she turned off the faucet,

"She's never been in love most likely."

Lauren cocked her head to side and asked,

"You do know that San would take a bullet for ya, do ya?"

Brittany looked down on the floor and replied softly,

"I do and I would so the same."

Lauren smiled at Brittany and said,

"Welcome to the gang, Britt."

Brittany said as she headed back to Santana's bedroom,

"Thanks Lau!"

Brittany walked back into Santana's bedroom and found Santana crawling all over the mattress, her body still shaking from the withdrawal of drugs. Brittany looked at her lady love with sadness and said softly,

"I have your water, my love."

Santana groaned,

"Take this fuckin' agony away baby!"

Brittany got down on her knees and scooted close to Santana and said softly to Santana,

"Drink this, Sanny."

Brittany helped Santana hold the glass of water to her lips and Santana gulped down the water. Santana collapsed in Brittany's arms, crying out in pain and Brittany rocking Santana in her arms.

Brittany cooed in Santana's ear as she stroked Santana's damp hair,

"I've got you."

Brittany fell asleep after hours after comforting Santana who was going through agonizing pains of withdrawal. Santana fell asleep as well in Brittany's arms, feeling secure that Brittany was back. The next morning while Brittany was still asleep, Santana slowly got up from the mattress and brushed her hair away from her face while yawning. She looked at Brittany who was sleeping and thought to herself,

"She's an angel to me and she didn't deserve any of this shit, I was just trying to protect her."

Santana's eyes began to fill with tears and she went to the bathroom, washing her face in the sink and to freshen up. Santana got dressed in beat up jeans, white tank top and leather jacket. Santana sat on the edge of the mattress slipping on her boots when Brittany opened her eyes and saw Santana tying her boots and yawned,

"Sanny where are you going?"

Santana looked up at Brittany and slid back up onto Brittany and said while gazing into Brittany's blue eyes,

"Hey baby I am going to go and get us some breakfast."

Brittany studied Santana's face and asked softly as she stroked Santana's face,

"Have you been crying?"

Santana kissed Brittany's hands and replied,

"I started to but I caught myself."

Brittany scratched Santana's back and said softly,

"You can always cry in front of me."

Santana kissed Brittany deeply on the lips and said,

"I think I did enough of that lately."

Brittany returned Santana's kiss and said,

"Well let me get up so I can go with you to get breakfast."

Santana asked,

"Are you sure baby, I am sure I kept you up most of the damn night!"

Brittany stroked Santana's face and said softly,

"It was worth it."

Santana took a pair of sunglasses out of her jacket pocket and slipped them on as she said,

"Fuck you are going to be the death of me, baby!"

Several minutes later after washing up and quickly getting dressed, Brittany walked out into the living room arm in arm. The gang was watching tv and Santana called out,

"Listen up bitches, Britt and I are going out for some grub and if any narc comes and asks about Sam, tell them nothing! If they persist tell them you know nothing or if ol' beanpole from the library stops by don't answer the door, understand?"

The gang replied yeah in unison and Rachel asked,

"Can we join you for breakfast?"

Santana replied,

"Sorry hobbit but it's just me and Brittany, but you two can catch up later!"

Quinn pulled Rachel back close to her and snapped,

"Goddamn it Lopez!"

Santana chuckled as she and Brittany walked out the door.

Santana and Brittany drove to a diner out in the outskirts of Lima and both were silent on their way to the diner. As soon as Santana and Brittany ordered their breakfast, Santana gazed into Brittany's eyes, squeezing her hands as she held them and said,

"I am not great at apologizing but baby I am sorry for starting this shit. I needed to protect you and I thought taking Sam out was the thing to do."

Brittany sighed,

"I'm sorry for bailing out on you, I was scared."

Santana took a sip of her coffee and said,

"I wouldn't blame ya though if ya didn't come back."

Brittany said,

"I love you, Santana. I had to come back no matter what happens."

Santana kissed Brittany's knuckles softly and replied,

"I love you too, my baby but you got to quit making me cry, I really don't want to put on my shades again."

Brittany giggled,

"I love my sensitive softie Sanny!"

Santana rolled her eyes and said,

"Please keep it to yourself, I don't need Quinn teasing me about that!"

Brittany said,

"How could I live without you is beyond me."

Santana replied,

"I want and need you to move in with me, no fuckin' ifs or buts, I need you by my side, baby!"

Brittany exclaimed,

"Really? But will this be safe for you and for me?"

Santana answered,

"I promise nothing will happen to you or to me. I'll protect you. I just can't stand being apart from you anymore."

Brittany noticed the pleading in Santana's puppy dog eyes and replied as she nodded,

"I'll move in with you, San. Even if the shit hits the fan I want to do down with you."

Santana immediately slipped on her shades to hide her teary eyes and she bent down to kiss Brittany's hand and wept,

"You are the best, Britt. The absolutely fuckin' best."

After breakfast Santana drove Brittany to a secluded area in the outskirts Lima and both began to kiss one another passionately. Santana had her hands on Brittany's face and groaned,

"Britt Britt it always feels good to be back in your arms!"

Brittany was playing with Santana's hair and replied,

"You are so fuckin' sexy, San."

Santana sighed she nuzzled her face in Brittany's hair,

"Considering I look like shit lately?"

Brittany replied as she was hugging Santana,

"Regardless of you looking like shit or not but we do need to talk San. Besides moving in with you and the gang um…I have something to tell you and I know you won't take it well."

Santana said as she pulled away,

"What is it Britt?"

Brittany looked away from Santana and answered,

"It is about Sue Sylvester…"

Santana gently took Brittany's chin and had Brittany look into her eyes,

"What about her?"

Brittany answered,

"Sue came on to me the other day when I was at home, it was the day that I bailed."

Santana's eyes narrowed at Brittany and asked,

"What the fuck did she do exactly?"

Brittany replied,

"She kissed me but I smacked her hard across the face and kicked her out of my apartment. I wasn't going to tell you but somehow I knew you would find out."

Santana took her good fist and slammed it hard on the steering wheel and screamed,

"Fuck yeah I would! That fuckin' bitch, I'll kill her!"

Santana began to yell obscenities in Spanish while hitting the steering wheel over and over while Brittany look on in horror. Brittany darted out of the car, slamming the door behind her and Santana cried out as she went after Brittany,

"Oh fuck, Britt!"

Brittany was standing outside of the car, hugging herself from the cold and said,

"I get that you are more beyond than pissed off right now, San but your temper scares the shit out of me!"

Santana went over to Brittany and said,

"Baby you have to know how I feel about ya and that this is fuckin' tearing me apart!"

Brittany answered back,

"I do but I am scared that another murder will take place because of your feelings for me! I don't want you in prison!"

"I'm not going to prison, I promise you. But you belong to me and I protect what belongs to me, baby."

TBC…(I hope I won't any more writer's block, lol! Hope you enjoyed it!)