(To everyone who has been following and reading Thug Love I am so sorry that I haven't updated in years, life has caught up with me and I am gutted by Naya Rivera's passing. I wasn't expecting it and it devastated me but it has encouraged me to get back to writing and to Naya I thank you for inspiring me, I love you and will miss you but will see you one day in the stars.)
Dedicated to Naya Marie Rivera—January 12, 1987-July 8, 2020
Brittany grew limp in Santana's arms as the evening drew on and fell asleep in a deep slumber as her body shook from the current withdrawals and Santana wept softly as she rested her forehead against Brittany's. Santana did all she could to keep Brittany away from hardcore drugs and Tina fucked it up. Santana kissed Brittany and whispered,
"Don't worry my baby, we will get through the storm, as long as we have each other."
It was midnight when Quinn knocked on the door and came in,
"Ok San, Tina is gone. We dropped her in a ditch in Akron and is unconscious, so she won't be bothering us."
Santana nodded and gulped,
"Thanks."
Quinn looked at the sleeping and sweaty Brittany and asked,
"How is she?"
Santana answered as tears streamed down her face,
"Britt will be ok it is just the fuckin' withdrawals that is going to be a pain in the ass."
Quinn went over to her friend and hugged her,
"I am so sorry for what happened, San. I don't know what we saw in Tina as a gang member, really I don't."
Santana leaned into Quinn's arms and sniffed,
"She really doesn't matter anymore; she is dead to us so forget her."
Santana pulled back from Quinn and added,
"All I care about is us and getting my baby better."
Quinn gave a small smile and asked,
"You two are endgame, aren't you?"
Santana answered back with a smirk,
"Just like you and Rachel."
Rachel was writing in her journal when Quinn came into their room and laid beside her woman. Rachel asked as she was writing,
"How is Santana holding up?"
Quinn leaned against Rachel, wanting Rachel to hold her,
"She's tough as hell but is devastated."
Rachel put her notebook down and wrapped her arms around Quinn,
"How long will this withdrawal last?"
Quinn replied,
"The first week is the worst and after that it could take weeks or even months. It depends on the person and their resistance levels."
Rachel asked,
"Do you think I am square for not participating in this?"
Quinn looked at Rachel incredulously and answered,
"You are so not square Rachel; I am in love with you because you are you. Do not try to be someone that you aren't because drugs aren't fuckin' cool. It is a way of life with our gang, but it doesn't mean you should join in. I regret the very moment that I touched drugs, Rach."
Rachel traced her fingers along Quinn's lips and Quinn kissed her fingers tenderly,
"I love you."
Quinn placed her hand on Rachel's cheek and replied,
"I love you too, so much."
During the week was the roughest for Brittany and Santana was there for her all the way plus the gang helped as well with grocery shopping, cleaning and keeping an eye out on the property. Santana bathed and washed Brittany as she was violently ill and convulsing plus, she forced Brittany to eat crackers and drink water when she needed to, to prevent dehydration. One day Santana was in the front porch smoking a cigarette wearing a white terrycloth robe over her tank top and boxers when Brittany came out her in pajamas and said softly,
"Hey Sanny."
Santana spun around to Brittany and went over to her and hugged her. Brittany could feel her lover's body trembling and said softly as she stroked Santana's hair,
"Sanny I am feeling better, everything is ok. Especially since you were by my side, please don't worry."
Santana cried as she kissed Brittany over and over,
"I can't help it baby, I thought you weren't going to make it and you were going to leave me. It is so fuckin' unbearable."
Brittany returned Santana's kisses,
"I am still here and not planning to leave anytime soon."
Santana fell on her knees, wrapping her arms and wrapping her arms around Brittany's waist,
"You are my life, Britt Britt. I can't go on without you or will go on without you. We are endgame, my baby. That's it."
Brittany replied as she got down to Santana's level,
"We are and I will never leave you again."
Santana placed her lips on Brittany's and began kissing her with passion as the tears came falling down her face and Brittany wiping the tears away as they were kissing. After several minutes of French kissing, Brittany pulled away and asked softly,
"Where's Tina?"
Santana replied as she helped Brittany and herself up,
"She will not be fuckin' bothering us again that's for sure, she's gone. Nobody messes with my baby and gets away with it!"
Brittany nodded and said,
"Ok, that sounds good. Time to start a fresh chapter."
Santana held Brittany's hand, kissing it softly and replied,
"That is my baby!"
Brittany asked,
"Can you make love to me?"
Santana grinned as she led Brittany into the house,
"Sure, but I have something to show you."
Santana led Brittany in the house and music began to play, Brittany saw the gang and Rachel sitting on the couch and Santana led Brittany to the love seat and began to speak before singing,
"Baby, I know you're hurting
Right now, you feel like you could never
Love again
Now all I ask is for a chance
To prove that I love you
From the first day
That I saw your smiling face
Honey, I knew that we would
Be together forever
Quinn began to sing to Rachel,
"Ooh when I asked you out
You said no but I found out
Darling that you'd been hurt
You felt like you'd never love again
I deserve a try honey just once
Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong
Santana sang,
"You walked in, you were so quick to judge
But honey he's nothing like me"
Then the gang and Quinn and Santana sang together as Santana got closer to Brittany and took her hand making Brittany smile,
"I'll never break your heart
I'll never make you cry
I'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me
Honey, that's no lie
I'll never break your heart
I'll never make you cry
I'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me
Honey, that's no lie
Then Santana sang as she stroked Brittany's face,
As time goes by
You will get to know me
A little more better
Girl that's the way love goes baby, baby
Quinn sang to Rachel as Santana sang in between with the gang,
"And I (I) know you're afraid (know you're afraid)
To let your feelings show (feelings show)
And I understand
Girl, it's time to let go (girl, it's time to let go
Give me a chance (chance) and I'll prove this all wrong (wrong you walked) because)
I deserve a try (try) honey
Just once (once)
Santana took over as she got down on her knees in front of the smiling Brittany,
"You walked in; you were so quick to judge (quick to judge)
But honey he's nothing like me
Darling why can't you see
Again, the gang joined Santana and Quinn,
"I'll never break your heart
I'll never make you cry
I'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me
Honey, that's no lie
I'll never break your heart
I'll never make you cry
I'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me
Honey, that's no lie
No way, no how (I'll never break your heart girl, I'll never make you cry)
I swear (Oh I, oh I, I swear)
No way, no how (I'll never break your heart girl, I'll never make you cry)
I'll never break your heart
I'll never make you cry
I'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me
Honey, that's no lie
I'll never break your heart
I'll never make you cry
I'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me
Honey, that's no lie
I'll never break your heart
I'll never make you cry
I'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me
Honey, that's no lie
(Originally by The Backstreet Boys)
As Santana sang her heart out to the last few choruses, she got worked up and ripped off her robe and hopped around while Brittany looked on with amazement and the same with Rachel as Quinn sung to her. As soon as the song finished Brittany threw herself on Santana and cried,
"That was awesome!"
Santana kissed Brittany and replied,
"I mean every word that I sung to you; I would die without you."
Rachel kissed Quinn and said,
"How sweet of you."
Quinn kissed Rachel back and replied,
"I feel the same as Santana does, babe."
Santana picked up Brittany and carried Brittany to the bedroom and shouted,
"Gonna be busy for a few hours so unless there is an emergency, fuck off!"
Santana slammed the door behind her and gently placed Brittany in bed, then removing her tank top and boxers, climbing onto Brittany and helping her strip out of her clothes. Santana grunted as she began to rub herself against Brittany as Brittany mussed Santana's hair and French kissed her with wild abandon. Santana growled as she nipped on Brittany's neck,
"I fuckin' missed you baby, so goddamn much!"
Brittany sighed,
"So have I, love you."
Santana replied as she lowered her clit against Brittany's,
"I love you too!"
Santana grinded her core against Brittany's, the rhythm against their bodies starting off slowly and then faster as both of their clit became swollen with dripping arousal. Santana smashed her full lips against Brittany as she was making love to her and her hands buried in Brittany's golden locks. Brittany thrusted herself against Santana crying out,
"Oh my god, Sannnnnnnnnnnnnnyyyyyyyyyyy!"
Santana grunted,
"FFFFFFFFFFFFucKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!"
Both exploded together and came all over one another, Santana collapsed on Brittany, her body shaking and her breathing labored. Brittany stroked Santana's hair as she held her lady love in her arms. After several minutes, both Brittany and Santana passed out still intertwined in each other.
After several hours of sleep, Brittany got up from the bed while Santana was still dozing and slipped on her pajamas and heading into the bathroom to freshen up. Brittany closed the door and looked in the mirror to see a hardened version of herself. Pale skin, dark circles underneath her eyes and chapped lips. Tears formed in her blue orbs and she started crying softly. Brittany didn't like what she saw, and she now needed a fix, she checked the medicine cabinet and found what she was looking for, a heroin needle and a tube. Brittany started to prepare the needle when the door flew open and there stood Santana in her robe, tank top and boxers with Quinn, Rachel, Mercedes and Lauren standing behind her. Santana said quietly,
"Baby put that shit down, you really don't want it."
Brittany cried,
"I am not the woman you are in love with."
Tears formed in Santana's eyes and she said,
"Yes, you are, you are my Britt Britt. You are the love of my life and I need you. I know you are craving but this isn't the way to go."
Quinn pleaded,
"Brittany you have us and Santana, you will be protected and loved. We promise you."
Rachel said,
"Please Brittany, things will get better for you, for us."
Brittany asked,
"How?"
Santana got down on one knee and said,
"By marrying me, baby. I will take you away from all this, I love you Brittany S. Pearce and need you so much. Please marry me."
TBC… (Again I am so sorry for not posting for a long time but I am back and I want to thank Naya Rivera for encouragement in spirit. You are going to be missed and loved!)