Chapter Nine
Paul's POV
Growing up, I had a happy family. My parents were still together, I had a younger sister in middle school, my father had a steady job and my mom was a stay at home mom. I had it better than a lot of kid's did in La Push. But, I never bragged and I worked for everything I've ever owened. My father always told me every young man should have a strong work ethic, it's something he's been engraving into my mind ever since I learned how to talk. My father loved me, I know he did, but sometimes I feel like he was resentful to me. The gene of the wolf skipped my father and went straight to me. Sometimes I got the feeling that he wish it would have skipped me too, so I could go to college away from here and have a career out of working for my uncle's construction company. I know my mother wished the same thing for me, but I know she just wants me to be happy and find a good girl to settle down with. I've dated since Diana, don't get me wrong. But, it was never more than just a physical thing with those girls. Diana broke my heart like I had broken hers, and it ruined me. I didn't want to feel that close with anyone again.
I may have imprinted with this girl, but I wanted to fight it. So damn bad did I want to fight it. Sure, she was gorgeous and fiesty and everything I could ever want in a girl. But, she wasn't Diana, and I didn't want to get that close to someone and have my heart broke again. As Hazel's eyes narrowed at me and she walked back in the house without a second glance back at me, shattered my heart. I wanted to cry and scream at the same time. I took off into the trees and phased, I ran until I reached the cliffs that we would cliff dive from. I huffed and laid down still in my wolf body. I closed my eyes and breathed deeply, trying to shake the feeling of rejection Hazel left me. This was stupid, I barely even knew this girl. I said what? Two words to her? This imprint crap was bullshit. I didn't want to be chained to this girl for the rest of my life, but I also didn't exactly want to be in pain until I eventually killed myself just to end it.
The imprintee rejecting the imprint, doesn't kill us, as Sam put it. But mentally it fucks us up and we'd be in endless pain until we eventually grow tired of our suffering and kill ourselves. Morbid as fuck. I heard Sam calling me back to the house and I sighed, knowing I can't refuse an alpha's order.
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"What the hell were you thinking, taking off like that?" Sam's narrowed eyes bore into mine. His alpha bullshit was really starting to piss me off. "You left your imprint here alone with us, knowing full well how God damn uncomfortable she was."
"Fuck the imprint! I didn't want any of this shit, I didn't want to imprint. If I were to imprint with someone, I wish it was Diana. She's the one my heart belongs to and she's the one I should be fucking imprinted to! Not some little girl who thinks she's hot shit!" I was shaking by this point and Sam gave me a sad look. I took several deep breaths to calm down and when I did I noticed that Bella's truck was gone from Jake's driveway. I felt my heart sink and my chest begin to ache. "None of this is fair, Sam. I didn't ask for any of it, and it's not fair to her either. She should have the choice, and so should I."
After that I stalked off into the woods again and phased and just ran. I ran until I couldn't anymore, and I ended up somewhere over the Canadian border. I planned on staying there for as long as I possibly could. A few hours had passed before a grey wolf found its way in front of me, it was Jared.
"How you holdin' up, man?" I scoffed at his question. He knew damn well how I was feeling. I hated this life, I hated being condemned to something I didn't want and I hated being tied to a girl I barely knew. "Y'know, it can't be all bad. She's Bella's sister and Charlie's daughter, it's not like she's a witch or some shit like that. She seemed really nice at the house. And her daughter is cute as fuck." My head jerked up.
"What do you mean 'her daughter'? That little girl is her kid?" And it suddenly made sense. The wild curly hair, the hazel eyes, the way she reached for Hazel when we came onto the porch. Wow, I was dense as fuck.
"Yeah, man. I can't believe you couldn't tell right away. Penny is the spitting image of Hazel, well, except for her hair color. But seriously, you couldn't tell?"
"No, I couldn't fucking tell. She has a three year old kid? How old is Hazel?"
"I think 20? Yeah, she's 20. Pretty young to be a mom, but hey she's damn good at it that's for sure. But listen, Paul. I know you're confused right now and you wanna be left alone for a while. Just, come home soon okay?" And with that Jared left me alone to sulk.
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I don't know how long it's been. It could have been days, weeks, maybe even a month since I've been home. My fur was long and tangled and I had been surviving off of little animals. I know it was time for me to go home, but I don't know if I could do it. I know my mom was probably worried sick about me, and my sister, Carla, was probably pissed. My father was probably disapointed and angry with me for making mom worry about me. I know the pack needed me for patrols and I'm sure Sam is fucking furious with me. I felt weak, and like my chest was going to explode. I was in so much damn pain and I just wanted to collapse and wish it would go away, but I had to make the trek home. So I started running.
When I made it back to Sam's house in La Push, he and and Jared were waiting outside for me. I had phased back in the tree line and pulled on a pair of shorts that we always left out here. The first thing they said to me when I got close enough was that I looked like shit. I barely even grinned at them before heading inside. Emily was at the stove cooking, she wished me a hello and welcome back before placing a plate of pancakes, eggs, and bacon in front of me. I bid her my thanks and dug in. Jared and Sam were soon seated at the table with me with their own plates. When the three of us finished we got straight to business. They took me into the bathroom and helped my cut my hair and told me I had been gone a full month. I took a shower after they cut my hair and I shaved. My chest felt a little lighter at being home, but it was still tight and I still felt a lot of pain. When I was done in the bathroom I walked into the living room and saw the whole pack including Bella seated along the couches. They all looked at me with sympathy in their eyes.
"Is there something you guys need to tell me? Ya'll are kind of freaking me out." I slowly sunk in the arm chair in the corner of the room while Sam cleared his throat to prepare to speak.
"While you were gone in Canada, some things have changed. Bella and Jake are together, finally after he imprinted and Bella finally opened her damn eyes." Sam shot a look Bella's way and caused her to blush and hide her face in Jacob's shoulder. "Also, we all know about your imprint with Hazel, and we know you're in a lot of pain. And that's because you're away from her. The pain will stop and begin to ease once you're close to her again."
"Then where is she? If she'll make this pain go away you bet your ass I'm gonna be around her." My heart began to flutter at the thought of Hazel and seeing her again. Just because she was my stupid imprint didn't mean I had to marry her or even date her. All I was focused on right now was getting this damn pain to go away.
"That's the thing, Paul. Hazel left the day after Sam told us about you guys. She's in Georgia and I haven't heard from her. Even Charlie hasn't recieved a phone call and she hasn't answered any of ours. It's just gone to voicemail everytime. I called her grandparents and they told me she and Penny were living with Anthony, and had been after being home for a week. I'm worried Anthony might have told her not to talk to me, and I'm scared she's in trouble." Bella started to tear up explaining to me where she was. I felt my chest get even tighter and I felt light headed. The room started to spin at the thought of her being so far away. I closed my eyes and took deep breaths to calm down. She was living in Georgia with some fucking guy named Anthony. I opened my eyes and all I saw was red. I stormed out of the house and went to the one place I didn't think I'd ever go back to.
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Uh oh! Hazel and Penny are with Anthony? Whaaaaaat. Also, where is Paul going? Hmmm? You'll find out next time! Also, should I up my rating with all the swearing? I'm not sure if I'll have any lemons or even sexual stuff in this story or not, but that is up to you guys! So lemme know with a review.
Ps. I know this chapter kind of sucked dick, I was honestly half asleep when I wrote this. I just wanted to get something up for you guys, but I promise the next chapter will be better!