I started writing this after watching the episode where Jody decides not to go with Tyler to St. Lucia. Jody's my favorite character so I decided to write something for it.

It starts with May- Li's POV

I was on my way back to Ashdene Ridge when my phone suddenly started calling.

I couldn't take my eyes off the road even though all I thought of for the moment was how Jody and Tyler had left the dumping ground and their lives in care once and for all.

That was the reason I pulled over and then took the phone. "JODY" reading over the screen…

Maybe she had dropped her phone. And someone found it and was calling some contact.

"Hello?"

"It's me."

I recognized the voice right away as Jody's. So she couldn't have lost her phone which surprised me.

"Yes?"

"I couldn't go." Jody's voice was shaky. "I just couldn't… this dream was Tyler's and…" She had to make a pause. "…Can you come back and get me?"

"Already on my way."

I started the car againa and made a U-turn to the other side of the road, before coming to the airport I hit the gas heavaier than ever before. If the police saw me now I would be in great trouble.

Thankfully I wasn't stopped and it was a relief when I pulled over in front of the airport, just as I did I saw Jody coming out the doors and towards the asphalted parking lot still carrying her bags.

I opened the back of the car, but just as I'd stepped away from it Jody did what I'd known she would, when she came to me. She dropped her bags she was sobbing loudly and tears were streaming down her cheeks as she hugged me and I hugged her back.

There's some special feeling about a teenager crying on your shoulder. Something breaking that they're been hurt but still something of pride that they're able to let go and trust and show their feelings in front of you.

For a long while, while people were moving around us coming from or going into the airport we just stood like that. Jody had stopped crying after a couple of minutes but I wasn't letting go unless she was.

"I'm sorry." She mumbled into my shoulder at last. Then took a step back from me and wiped her cheeks and her nose with her hands.

"There's no need for you to be sorry." I comforted. "Let's go back home."

"I should probably call my mum and tell her I didn't go."

Jody's POV

Having to talk to my mum only felt like the only thing that could make today harder. Luke was easier to talk to, , maybe I'd just call him, or send a text…

Thoughts were spinning in my mind so much I had to close my eyes or I'd get sick.

I just wasn't so sure what to feel. I and Tyler were still together, he had my necklace and I'd get it back someday. He was living his dreams and I'd be living mine..

"Should I call back to Ashdene Ridge so they won't be surprised when we come back. That way you and I could just drive around for a while if that's what you like."

"No…" Somehow I was absolutely sure what I wanted- for this at least. "…I guess they'll know. And I just want to go home to my room… to my bed. I hope no one has started moving into it already."

"I'm sure they haven't. You've barely even left."

They had!

"Jody?"

Just as I and May- Li came inside the doors Scott came out from the office. He looked in confusion towards me.

And I just looked back towards him.

"Then we have a problem…" Even though I knew the way through the house very well I let Scott lead me up the stairs. "The ones who shared room decided on which rooms to have. It ended up that Jay is moving into Tyler's room and…" We stopped in the hallway outside mine. "Katy's moving into yours."

"Jody?"

"What are you doing back here?"

"Jody?"

"Weren't you going?"

"Jody?"

"What happened to Tyler?"

"Jody?"

I had been too far gone into my own thoughts I barely heard the others' questions or know they were even there. All I knew was that I needed to get to my room, and once I was there I found Katy moving in and unpacking some things of her.

"Get out of my room."

I didn't realize until long afterwards how angry I sounded and that I must have even scared the younger girl.

I shouldn't have, none of what had happened was her fault. If anything I should have let her pack her own things in calm and then leave herself. But this was my room and I needed it to myself now!

"I SAID GET OUT."

"But…" Katy tried. "You were supposed to…"

"Get out." Katy had raised and I pushed her towards the door so hard she fell. And I didn't even ask her if she was okay. "This is my room. Get out."

She got up again from the floor and her bottom lip was trembling. Something that made me even angrier. I didn't even know what made me so angry, I knew Taz and Katy would both have loved having their own rooms, but I had barely even left.

Katy even looked scared when I went into my own room, grabbed one thing after the other and threw them out the door one after the other.

How did she get so many things in here so fast anyway? Stuffed animals were scattered all over my bed.

"Can you not do that with my things please?" Katy tried. "Please Jody?"

I didn't look at her as an answer, only threw the last stuffed animal after her and then slammed the door after her before I threw myself on my bed.

I would have cried more, I felt like it- but it was like the tears had already ran out and silently I just laid there and wished that no one would come and knock on my door.

Or maybe I did.

I just didn't know.

For so many years- almost half our lives, when I was here I knew Tyler was right nearby. And even when we weren't in the same house we could always know we'd be together again before the day was over.

"But you're brothers. You've always shared rooms."

"Which is why we're supposed to get our own rooms now."

I could hear Jay and Taz fighting about who should get the room that was empty by now. So I took my pillow, that still had Katy's sheets on it. And laid it over my head to shut out the noises.

If I could have just held on for an hour or two longer at the airport it would almost have been bedtime for the youngest when I came back. Now I had to lie with my pillow over my head for as long as I'd thought it would take before the house would be quiet and still.

"Jody? Are you awake?"

Long afterwards I knew the others had gone off for the day I heard a knock on my door and May- Li's voice as she came in.

"Yeah."

I had laid on my side turned against the wall since I came back and had thrown out all of Katy's things and I wasn't about to change that soon, not even when she came over to me.

"Do you know what feels best eating when you have a broken heart?" I shook my head and didn't look at her, she shoved a spoon into my hand and I saw her moving in the corner of my eye until she held a big tub of chocolate ice cream.

"I thought that was a myth." I finlly took the tub from her hands, sat up a bit more comfortable so I could put it on my lap and shoved the spoon first into the tub and then into my mouth. "No. Not a myth."

"Katy asked me to give you this…" I barely knew what she was doing when she laid a stuffed moose next to me on the bed. "She said his name is Moose and he's good at comforting, and he was the one who the most looked like something you would like… Jody." May- Li patted my knee. "You and Tyler are young- very young. And now you'll live on different continents. But that doesn't matter because it's what in you, that will bring you back together…. Or it might not- maybe you're meant to be together and you will be and maybe you won't." I glared at her. "But you're used to living in the same house and… all of this went so fast I don't think your heart quite could catch up without breaking. Am I right?"

"I guess."

I took Moose with one hand, the same hand that I took the ice cream tub from May-Li, then had another big spoonfull of ice cream, wasting as little time as possible on talking.

"Jody?" May- Li patted my knee again. "Sweetheart. Look at me…" I didn't actually want to but had to look away from the ice cream. "You eat that. Then go have a long, warm shower. And then you sleep and then you think. Because I know that you're actually quite confused right now. We can talk more in the morning and call Tyler. I'm sure he's gotten to St. Lucia safe and sound and he'll only ever be a phonecall away."

For a few seconds I realized May- Li was way too correct in every thing she said. And I was sure about the fact that I hadn't been able to move since we got here, and about the fact that I didn't know what to feel was because I literally couldn't tell one thought from the other.

Maybe I should be happy for Tyler, that he was living his dream and maybe one of these days I could live mine. Maybe I should be happy I hadn't go with him. Maybe I should be happy for all the time we had gotten together and maybe I should be happy and excited for the days we'd be back together.

Then, maybe May- Li was correct in her poetic statements- it had worked out too fast for my heart to go with it.

"Can you just leave me alone and let me eat my ice cream please?"

Perfect ending line!

The stuffed Moose might come back in some other story. I'll post a picture of him on my Instagram Linneagbfanfiction. His actual name is "Hälge" (älg means moose) after a moose in a comic, and I got him when I was four or so from my uncle.

Random fact

It was a bit hard to figure what Jody would be thinking and feeling. I made something out of it though and I think it turned out fine. I guess everything is explainned in the story. And after all she's in chock less than 24 hours ago she and Tyler were certain they'd move half across the earth and get their happily after. Now it's like this instead.