I know that I have been very distant lately .I know that since your father cheated on your mother we have been drifting apart and I haven't been there to support you like I should and I know that as much as it pains me to write this I need to give you an explanation.
People since childhood are taught to seek a purpose in life, study, marry, have children and grow old with the love of your life.
Not me, I was prepared to be a weapon of war since I was a child.
When you show me pictures as a child or tell me anecdotes with the party, I always envy that, your childhood, I know it was not the best, but you had parents, sisters, friends, people who cared about you
On the other hand, I did not know my parents, only a psychopath man who pretended to be one of them.
It was me alone, always, of course there was Eight but I do not remember much about moments together, then he escaped and I really knew it was loneliness
Especially those moments when I misbehaved and was locked in that dark room for hours, God that was the worst feeling
But when I left the lab you taught me this whole world, something that was completely new to me, I wanted to explore, I discovered and learned, everything I had missed during those 12 years
You taught me what it was like to have friends, family and people who loved and cared for me.
You gave me this opportunity to have the life I never had
But that came at a cost to you, if it wasn't for me Will would never have disappeared. Barb, Bob, Billy, Heather, Benny, Driscoll and Alexei wouldn't be dead, Hopper wouldn't have been kidnapped by the Russians, you wouldn't have had traumas with the upside down, and you wouldn't have had to put up with a telekinetic girlfriend so whimsical that she's complaining all the time about her past traumas.
Every person I meet has their life ruined because of me.
I remember that thing Lucas told me long time ago "maybe she is the monster". I know things have changed a lot since that but not that
'Cause I'm the monster .All I do cause problems , and it's all my fault .
It's like don't know what to do anymore , i want to scream all the time, there is so much anxiety inside me , My heart beats so fast in despair it's a feeling that kills me inside. I have tried to move forward and don't think I that, but every time I try it gets worse . I can't keep on with this pressure. And I need to end it.
I wish i could have seen you and tell you this in person but I'm not brave enough
I just want you to know that you are the best thing that has ever happened to me, thank you for making me the happiest person in the world for a while, thank you for making me feel important, thanks for listening to me when none one did, thanks for trust me , thank you for making me laugh, for giving me great moments, thank you for giving me a life, and above all thank you for making me feel loved.
I apologize for making you waste your time with me, I'm sorry for not being by far the best girlfriend, but I hope I could also make you happy, at least at some point. I need you to keep forward and don't collapse because of me , fell i love with someone , create a life with that person ,have kids , grow old together , just be happy please.
So i guess this is the end , this is a forever goodbye .
Love you
-El ️
It was a warm afternoon in the town known as Hawkins.
Everything pointed to be a normal afternoon
One thing they didn't know was that a young teenager was about to take her own life
Eleven was standing there , at the tip of the cliff
She was there one step away from finishing, from finishing all those bad memories, from finishing all the bad moments, from finishing everything that she had constituted.
To finish with her life
Decided on what she was about to do
She took a deep breath
She took one step
One step more and everything would be over
One second before taking the next step, something unexpected happened
"Please don't do this" a voice she knew so great said
The voice of that boy who saved her life many times , and probably this one.
The voice of the boy she is been in love for years.
Mike's voice.