"Come on Chloe, it's time," Jane said. Chloe looked up from her wet lap to jane. Seeing her in a black dress. Chloe looked at her confused.
"Where are we going?" Chloe asked touching her face and feeling the tears. Jane didn't answer and led her out of the room. Chloe looked at all the people in black and a coffin in the distant.
"Angela," Chloe said seeing Angela crying in Frankie's shoulder.
"Chloe, she loved you so much," Angela sniffled squeezing her hand. Chloe wiped at her face.
"Where is Beca?" Chloe asked tears running down her face. Jane placed her hand and lead her into the coffin. Chloe gasped, and more tears streamed down her cheeks.
"No, no, no," Chloe cried grabbing Becas cold limp hand. "she can't be dead," Chloe cried.
Chloe gasped as hands grabbed and shook her, swatting them away and looking around.
"Calm down Chloe, it's just me," Maura said softly. Chloe was sweating and panting looking around. The familiar beeping and plain white walls surrounding her.
"It was just a dream," Maura assured her. Chloe looked over and saw Beca hooked up to monitors. Her right eye black, blue, and swollen. Along with a few cuts on her face. Chloe started crying in sadness and relief.
"Shh its ok, I've got you," Maura whispered pulling her into her arms and rocking her.
"She…she was...was dead," Chloe cried.
"She's alive, she is very much alive Chlo," Maura assured her. "She is one hell of a fighter," Maura said. Chloe continued to cry, Maura rocked her sister and held her tightly.
"She's going to be ok, right?" Chloe asked after she stopped crying.
"Yes, yes she is. She'll be herself in no time," Maura said.
"It's so bright," Beca mumbled trying to open her eyes.
"Beca," Chloe said shooting out of her seat.
"My head hurts," Beca winced closing her eyes. Maura closed the blinds and curtains then turned off all the lights she could. Going to find Jane, Angela, and a doctor to examine Beca.
"Hey beautiful," Beca whispered finally being able to look at Chloe.
"I thought I lost you," Chloe whispered stroking Becas cheek that was the least damaged.
"I thought I was a goner too," Beca admitted.
"Don't you ever try and die on me again," Chloe said.
"Yes ma'am," Beca whispered with a soft smile.
"I love you so much Beca. You aren't allowed to leave me," Chloe said tearing up again. Beca reached up weakly and wiped her tears away. Chloe turned her face and kissed her palm.
"I promise," Beca whispered putting her hand down. Her other family members came in and Beca was very thankful Maura told them to whisper and not be so loud.
"What happened to him?" Beca asked.
"He was…he was in jail. He was killed in prison. I was so close to pulling the trigger myself when we arrested him," Jane whispered.
"I'm glad you didn't jane. That isn't you," Beca asked. "How'd he die?" Beca asked.
"Tortured by an inmate before being killed," Maura answered instead of Jane.
"Our father had something to do with it," Chloe said knowingly.
"Can't say it wasn't coming to him," Beca winced, her head hurting slightly.
Beca only stayed awake for an hour before she was in pain and needed tons of medication before falling back to sleep.
"How do you feel about being back in the states?" Dr. Elizabeth asked.
"Good, better than over there. It's familiar here so I feel…not as paranoid," Beca said looking at her hands.
"Are you having any nightmares?" Dr. Elizabeth asked.
"No, but I have a hard time letting people touch me. I am hurting Chloe because of it. I try not to jump or tense when people touch me. Jane and Maura understand, they've been through stuff like this. But Ma and Chloe don't get it, they want to hold me and I just…I can't," Beca admitted.
"Have you voiced that it makes you uncomfortable?" Dr. Elizabeth asked.
"No, I just kind of tense and they let go," Beca said.
"For you to be able to heal you need to start voicing what you feel Beca," Dr. Elizabeth said.
"I know," Beca sighed playing with the fresh scars on her hands.
"How are your hands?" dr. Elizabeth asked.
"Ok, they hurt when the weather changes," Beca said softly.
"You know Beca, you have yet to cry here. Not even when you recalled when Jesse nailed your hands to the headboard or when he almost cut off your…"
"Don't," Beca whispered tensely interrupting.
"Why don't you cry Beca?" dr. Elizabeth asked directing a different way, so she wouldn't run away like the other times Beca did. Though this was their longest session.
"Because…it shows I am vulnerable," Beca whispered standing up. "I just…I can't. Not with you. I think im gonna end this early, I have to go," Beca said getting up and leaving the room. Heading over to the Bellas practice area.
"Beca," everyone said and went over to Beca hugging her. Beca tensed up at all the contact.
"Guys, give her some room," Chloe said worriedly. They pulled back and apologized.
"Sorry guys, I just can't take too much," Beca said softly.
"Hey, its ok man, we are here for you," fat Amy said.
"Beca I know that I've been hard on you. I know that I have been hard on everyone here, but I am my father's daughter, and he always said if at first you don't succeed, pack your bags," Aubrey said tearing up. "I am so sorry I was so hard on you Beca. You could have…have…" Aubrey said.
"Dude I forgave you a long time ago," Beca said squeezing her arm. "You helped save me. And I get it, my ma gets on me too," Beca said. "Not like that but umm, I guess we all don't really know a lot about each other, about most of you really," Beca said everyone started sitting down.
"Well I'll tell you something about me, I have lots of sex," Stacie said. Beca smiled everyone could feel the tension release in the room thanks to her.
"Yeah, we know," Fat Amy said.
"I know, I just wanted to brag about banging Aubrey all the time," Stacie winked. Beca chuckled, loving Stacie for making the thick tension disappear completely.
"No this is a good idea, that was a pretty bad example, but this is a good idea," Beca said grabbing a chair and sitting down.
"Why don't we all go around the room and we can all say something about ourselves that nobody knows," Beca said. Chloe nodded and sat beside Beca.
"Ok I got something. this is hard for me to admit to you guys well for the last two years I've had a serious gambling problem," CR said.
"What?' Fat Amy asked.
"What?" Beca asked for a different reason than Fat Amy.
"It started when I broke up with my girlfriend. I took it pretty hard, but Im better now thanks to you guys. You guys feel like family," CR said.
"We are your family dude," Beca said. CR smiled and sat back down.
"Anyone else," Beca asked, "fat Amy?" Beca asked.
"Well I'm an open book. I mean for god's sake you all call me fat Amy. But, I haven't been exactly honest, my real name is fat Patricia," fat Amy said like she was going to cry from the honesty.
"I ate my twin in the womb. And I hacked NASA," lily said in her small voice.
"Ok," Beca said, no one really heard what lily said but nodded. Beca looked at Chloe and took a deep breath.
"Ok so I've never been one of those girls who had a lot of friends who were girls. And I do now, and that's pretty cool. But to be honest I've never been a normal girl, and this is really hard for me to tell you guys. Like more than you guys seeing me cry," Beca said nervously. "so, please don't make fun of me," Beca said softly to them. Chloe squeezed her hand.
"It's ok. We would never," Fat Amy said reassuringly.
"Yeah no judgement," CR agreed. "we are family remember," CR said. Beca smiled softly at them in appreciation.
"I was born with a penis, like a real penis that can get someone pregnant without protection." Beca said.
"Dude that is awesome," CR said.
"So, how long is it?" Stacie asked. Beca blushed.
"Really Stacie?" Aubrey asked looking at her girlfriend in disbelief and not seeing Chloe hold up her hands to show Stacie.
"Chloe," Beca said obviously seeing what her girlfriend was doing.
"What, you shouldn't be shy," Chloe said with a wink.
"You are such a werido," Beca said her blush spreading to her neck.
"Wow short stack, I didn't even know you could turn that color," fat Amy teased, everyone started laughing.
"Ok, someone else go, please," Beca chuckled nervously.
"I'll go," Chloe said squeezing her hand. "And some of you already know but it is time everyone knows. I am actually pregnant and Beca is obviously the other parent," Chloe said with a smile kissing Becas cheek.
"That explains a lot actually. All your weird cravings you've been having" CR said. Chloe nodded.
"How'd you get pregnant?" Ashley asked.
"I forgot to take the morning after pill new year's," Chloe said.
"And they did the bow chicka wow wow," fat Amy said making Beca blush even more and the other girls to chuckle.
"Beca, you are the only one that can lead us to victory," Aubrey said throwing her the Bella harmonica and it rolled into the vomit.
"Yeah ok, how about somewhere else," Beca said. They all agreed and set off to the empty pool, letting Beca and Chloe have a moment. Chloe and Beca were leaned outside against the door.
"That was really brave of you tonight Beca," Chloe said tangling their hands together. Beca tensed slightly than relaxed.
"I trust them, and…and today as I was walking here from my session I realized something. I haven't actually felt what happened to me. I haven't cried and let it all out and I keep it bottle up. It's exhausting," Beca said.
"I'm here whenever you are ready," Chloe promised. Beca nodded kissing her cheek and squeezing her hand. "how are you though Chloe? You went through some trauma too," Beca said.
"Compared to you mine was a piece of cake," Chloe said softly.
"It was still hard on you Chlo," Beca said.
"I know Becs, but I promise I am fine. Maura helped me and having you back helped too," Chloe assured her. Beca nodded.
"We are ok, right?" Beca asked softly.
"Of course Becs. We will work on your time. I'm your fiancée remember," Chloe said with a small smiled looking down at her ring she was wearing. Beca looked down and smiled at the ring.
"We will be a family Chlo, as soon as I get back to normal," Beca said. Chloe looked up and smiled softly.
"Beca you have never been normal and you are perfect for it. I love you with all my heart," Chloe said. Beca smiled and leaned forward kissing her softly. Knowing they were going to make it through this.
I apologize for the long wait I souly focused on school which helped and got all A's and one B. I am glad you awesome nerds love this story and I promise I haven't abandoned it. One of my classes was creative writing and I will be posting the short stories I wrote for the class on my stories for you guys to enjoy and hopefully it is a good I am sorry I was gone for so long. Leave a review and let me know what you would like to see because I only see about 2 more chapters happening maybe one.