Chapter Three: All I Want
Lena sat back on the couch in her office and let out a deep sigh. Sam plopped down next to her and handed her a salad.
"Okay babe, tell me everything", Sam said, unwrapping her sandwich.
"I was so freaked out I could barely breathe. I was sure my heart was going to explode," Lena said.
"Sounds about right."
"A nurse came over and got me. She was so kind. She led me to this weird room that was the polar opposite of a dentist's exam room. There was a soft recliner instead of the weird dentist chair, and there was soft music and candles. It was weird, but it calmed me down immediately," Lena said.
"It sounds like she specializes in dealing with weirdos like you," Sam said, giving Lena a little poke in the ribs.
"Okay, so I close my eyes and I felt someone come into the room. My new dentist is that woman from the coffeehouse. You know the one you wanted me to go after?"
"You mean Kara?"
"Yeah. Kara Danvers."
"Holy shit. Are you serious? Okay, that's beyond adorable. Talk about a meet-cute. How did you react?"
"I just tried not to freak out. She asked me how my meeting went and I almost died right there in the chair."
"Did you get her number?"
"No. One of her patients came on to her and she fired him as a patient. It all went down in the waiting room. This woman is my last hope and I can't screw it up," Kara said crestfallen.
"But you really liked her", Sam said, a little disappointed.
"She's stunning, but I need to keep my cool. No matter how beautiful or kind I think she is, I need her as a dentist so much more."
Lena's cell rang. Lena grabbed her phone and looked down at the caller ID.
"I need to grab this. This is the dentist's office."
Lena hit the answer button and put it on speaker.
"Hello?", Lena said into the phone.
"Good afternoon, Ms. Luthor. This is Nia, Dr. Danvers' nurse."
"Oh, hello. Is everything okay?"
"Yes... except um... we may have overextended our client list. Dr. Danvers was wondering if you would consider seeing her colleague Dr. Guzman. She just has too many clients and...", Nia said before Lena interrupted her."
"Did I do something wrong?"
"No, of course not."
"I thought I was pretty well behaved," Lena said, shaken.
"You were the last patient added to the roster, so we wanted...", Nia tried to interject.
"She can fire me, but I am not leaving willingly. I need her. You do not understand how much. For the first time in my life, a dentist has made me feel completely safe. I'm sorry, but I can't accept this. I will see no one else voluntarily," Lena said, getting upset. "Please, I'm begging you. Please don't fire me. If I've done anything to upset the doctor, I am so sorry, but I just can't go to someone else. Please tell her how much I need her."
Sam put a hand on Lena's back and gave her a sad smile.
"Stay calm babe", Sam whispered in Lena's ear.
"Ms. Luthor, please don't get upset," Nia said, surprised by Lena's vehement plea. "We will find someone else to move to Doctor Guzman's office. Everything will be okay. Please stay calm."
"I have an appointment for the first extraction tomorrow. Is that still on?"
"Yes. We will see you tomorrow evening at five."
"Thank you", Lena said finally able to breathe.
Lena ended the call and looked over at Sam.
"Jesus. That was close," Lena said.
"Why was she trying to fire you? Please tell me you didn't punch her."
Kara paced around her office nervously. Her door stood slightly ajar. Nia popped her head inside and gave Kara a wink and a smile.
"Is it done?", Kara asked, wringing her hands.
"Well... I suppose it depends on how you define 'done'," Nia said with guilt in her eyes.
"What do you mean?", Kara asked.
"She said no. Actually, she said no, begged, pleaded and absolutely refused to move. She was so upset. She said you were the first dentist to make her feel safe, and then she said she was sorry if she did anything to upset you. She was so distraught. I couldn't fire her. She did nothing wrong."
Kara's head dropped.
"Jesus. Well, now I feel like a total monster. You're right. She did nothing wrong. God, this is just embarrassing. I'm sure she hates me now."
"Trust me, she doesn't hate you at all. That's the problem. You make her feel so safe she couldn't say goodbye," Nia said, placing a supportive hand on Kara's shoulder.
"So, what now?", Kara asked.
"Now, you do your best to be her dentist. Be professional. Be courteous and don't freak out."
"I don't understand why I'm so shaken by this woman. This is the first time I've ever been attracted to a patient," Kara said under her breath.
"She needs you, sweetie. Put all of your feelings aside and just be the best doctor you can be to her. Your obligation, first and foremost, is to heal. Remember that."
"Thanks Nia. You're right. I'll just maintain a professional distance and everything will be okay. How many appointments does she have?"
"Four. We split her extractions to minimize the pain and keep the appointments shorter. Do you want me to split them into two?"
"No, your plan is the best for someone sensitive. Jesus. I need a drink."
"Well, I'm sure its happy hour somewhere."
Kara buried her face in her hands and let out a deep sigh.
When Lena walked into the office, anxiety and embarrassment plagued her. She hoped she hadn't done or said anything to offend Kara. Her goal was to play it cool, but admittedly, when she saw her face, all of her common sense flew right out the window.
Nia was standing next to the front desk waiting for Lena when she arrived. Nia checked Lena in with Maggie and took her back to the calming exam room. Nia had Lena take a seat as she prepared all the tools for the first extraction.
Lena watched in quiet terror as Nia pulled out the sterile packets of tools and placed them on the tray. Nia looked over at Lena and smiled.
"Are you okay, Ms. Luthor? You seem tense."
"Well, I'm nervous about the procedure, of course, but I also can't help feeling a little embarrassed."
"Why would you feel embarrassed?", Nia asked.
"I just feel terrible. I hope I did nothing to offend Dr. Danvers."
"Oh sweetie, you have done nothing to offend her. This had nothing to do with you or anything that happened during your last appointment."
Nia's smile and warmth calmed Lena down.
Lena heard a knock on the wall behind her. She turned around and saw Kara. Her blue eyes sparkled through her glasses and her shiny blonde locks were pulled back at her temples. Lena's chest tightened and her stomach filled with those obnoxious butterflies. Lena couldn't help but smile.
"Good evening, Ms. Luthor," Kara said cooly.
"Good evening, doctor. Thank you for doing this," Lena said with genuine appreciation.
"Of course. It's my job. That's why I'm here. How are you feeling?"
"Terrified", Lena said.
Lena looked at Kara. She was more distant today than she was during her initial exam. Lena couldn't help but feel like she really did something wrong.
Kara's face softened slightly.
"You have no reason to be terrified. I promise you I will take good care of you. I promise I will be gentle. You have nothing to be afraid of."
Lena felt a warmth course through her body.
I love every single word you say. Why do you make me feel so safe? I know I can't do anything or tell you how I'm feeling, but I adore you.
"Thank you, Dr. Danvers. I really appreciate you."
Kara gave Lena a little upturned grin and got to work.
Lena laid back in the chair as Kara performed the extraction, trying not to stare at every feature on her face. It was impossible for Lena to shut down her feelings. She absolutely adored Kara, but she knew she shouldn't feel anything for her. It was wrong. She was her doctor.
She was her doctor and Nia had made it clear to the patient they fired that Kara never dated patients. Kara was forbidden fruit. She was the woman Lena would drop everything for. She was the only woman who ever made Lena feel this way, and Lena felt helpless because she knew in her heart they could never be together.
Kara leaned over Lena as she worked. She still smelled like clean laundry and fresh strawberries. Lena loved the way she smelled. Lena's body tingled and ached for Kara when she leaned in close and their skin touched.
Nia stood on the other side of Lena assisting Kara. Lena was thankful that Nia was there. Her presence kept her grounded. Lena was sure if they were alone, she would have a harder time resisting the temptation to grab Kara in her arms.
Your hands are so soft and so gentle. Not like that brute I went to last time. Everything about you is warm and kind. Why can't I take my eyes off your fingers? Why can't I stop imagining your hands dancing over my naked body? Jesus, stop it.
Kara completed the extraction and Nia helped Lena rinse her mouth out.
Lena wasn't sure why, but her body shook. She was sure it was the sense of relief she was feeling, but she also wondered if it was the longing in her heart.
Kara looked down into Lena's eyes. She looked concerned. She moved a hand to Lena's cheek.
Oh, my God. Please never move your hand away. Why does that feel so nice? You're staring into my eyes and holding my cheek and shit! I'm not listening to what you're saying. I should pay attention now.
"What? I'm sorry", Lena said, feeling numb.
"I was just asking if you're okay. You're shaking. Everything went beautifully. You did great," Kara said with a sweet smile.
"I'm okay. Thank you. I think I was just so tense my body betrayed me. Thank you for being so kind and so gentle," Lena said sincerely thankful.
Kara looked deep into Lena's eyes and beamed. She moved her hand from Lena's cheek to her temple and caressed it so softly, Lena thought she would die from the warmth and caring she felt.
"Everything is okay now. I want you to stay here for a bit and relax before you try to go anywhere, okay? At least until you've stopped shaking."
Lena felt like her body was reacting without her permission when she raised a hand and placed it over Kara's as it rested over her temple. Lena squeezed Kara's hand and smiled.
"I stopped shaking thanks to you", Lena said, feeling completely helpless staring into Kara's deep blue eyes.
Kara pulled her hand back and Lena felt very embarrassed.
Shit! I overstepped. Why did I grab her hand? Lena, stop flirting with her or she is going to fire you and you will never find another dentist who makes you feel as safe and warm as she does. You'll never find someone with her soft hands or her warm heart. God, she is so beautiful I can barely stand it. I wish I could kiss you so badly, Kara.
"Well, Ms. Luthor, you're all set. You have a nice evening and Nia will help you finish up."
"Good night. Thank you again for everything."
Kara got up from her chair and turned to walk out of the room. She turned around and gave Lena a smile.
"It was my pleasure. Have a good evening. I'll see you next week for the next extraction."
Kara walked out of the room. Lena watched her leave, feeling a growing ache in her heart with each step she took. She turned around and found Nia staring down at her with a warm smile.
"Didn't I tell you she would take good care of you?", Nia asked.
"You did. Thank you for keeping me as a patient. No one has ever made me feel warmer or safer than she does. She is so lovely," Lena said honestly.
"She's definitely one in a million," Nia said with a nod.
She's only been gone for a few seconds and I miss her already. What's wrong with me? Why am I so drawn to her? I would give everything I have in the world to wrap my arms around her and kiss her with all the passion I have in my heart. I wish I could just storm into her office, grab her in my arms and never let go. God, I hate this. I just wish we could be together.