19.

Lion's Den

Ienzo woke suddenly, flailing against the blankets draped over him. His breasts ached terribly and there were wet spots on his shirt; he must've been under for some time. He touched one, wincing.

Xehanort's son. Strands of nothingness around his throat. Darkness.

Where was he?

He was in a small, narrow room. It was minimally furnished-the single wrought iron bed was against one corner, by a narrow window; a small, very old oak writing desk was against the other wall; a squat, two drawer dresser was next to it. The walls were painted a faint violet, adorned with a crown moulding. A cracked door opened to a tiny bathroom with a shower. Ienzo padded across to the other door and tried it; locked, of course. He reached for his magic and found it sluggish, deadened. He darted over to the window, looked outside, and his heart nearly stopped.

Ienzo knew where he was; the castle in what was once Radiant Garden. A strange, faint mist wreathed the city, vaguely sulfuric. Massive poles in the distance held floodlights, likely to defend the remaining populace against Heartless. He opened the window and tried to reach out, but a ward blocked him.

He was a captive.

Amalia.

Panic overtook him then, and he tried the door again in vain, pounding on the thick old wood. "Let me out!" No response; he suspected a muffling charm had been placed on the door.

He hadn't realized how dependent he was on her presence, her aura until it was gone. He had to have been drugged somehow, or enchanted, for his magic to simply be sleeping like this. But he hoped more than anything that Amalia was safe back in Demyx's arms. He found himself mouthing a fervent prayer to whatever was listening for that to be the case. He had no idea what Xehanort or his sons would do to his newborn daughter if they had her. Kill her? Mold her into a shiny tool to use? He had no idea which was worse.

The door opened, and he struggled to conceal the wetness on his shirt with his blanket. He saw a small old woman with a tray of food, water, tea, and of all things, a lily in a thin crystal vase. "Good, you're finally awake," she said. She had a kind smile. "You must be starved, poor thing."

Ienzo was reeling, wondering how to react, what angle to play. Motionless, he watched her cross the room and set the tray down on the writing desk. He could physically overtake her, he knew, and bound out the open door-unless that was warded too. But how far would he reasonably get before he ran into a guard, or worse? He couldn't defend himself from prowling Heartless without magic.

"How are you feeling?" she asked. "I treated those scratches on your throat, the bruises. Just awful, in my opinion."

"Who are…" he trailed off.

Another smile. She brushed off her skirt; she was wearing what had once been servants' livery under Ansem's reign, crisp, comfortable, and functional. "My name is Lydia," she said. "I'm surprised you don't remember me, your highness. I was once the castle librarian. You were always there, weren't you?"

Ienzo blinked slowly; a veil of time and panic made it hard to remember. Lydia had looked much younger then, her hair brown instead of gray. She'd always been happy to give him the books that Even said were too mature for him. "I apologize, I-"

She smiled again. "I know, I haven't aged well." A wry laugh.

He swallowed. "Am I a… prisoner?" he asked cautiously.

"The word being used is "guest."" She bit her lip. "I think that's for you to determine, your highness." She pulled the domed lid from the plate, revealing a breakfast-eggs, toast, hash browns. Ienzo struggled not to react; ever since he'd been breastfeeding, his appetite had been nearly insatiable. "I'll bring you a change of clothes. Go on, eat."

She left, and shut the door behind her; Ienzo heard the click of the tumblers as it locked. He approached the food warily, sniffed it. His magic could tell him if it was poisoned, or drugged-except it was dead.

The practical thing to do would be to wait out this sensation until he could sense if anything was in the food.

But the smell made him weak . He'd need food to be able to think clearly, to plan. He sipped the water timidly; it tasted normal, so did the tea. The flavor of the egg nearly brought tears to his eyes. Xehanort must've kept the castle's chefs; it all was the same as he remembered.

Focus, Ienzo.

He was nearly finished when Lydia returned with a small cloth bundle. "Better?" she asked.

"...Quite."

"Remy heard you were here and made it specially. He so rarely gets to cook the way he wants to anymore. Xeha-er. His Lordship prefers things sour, bitter."

Specially. What did that mean? "Give him my regards," Ienzo said in a neutral voice.

"...Of course." She reached past him to take the tray. "I'm told someone will collect you in half an hour, if you'd like to shower and dress."

Ienzo hesitated for a moment. He didn't want to appear like he was playing into Xehanort's hands-but maybe he should? To find out what he could? Play innocent, naive, claim Even had been coddling him all this time.

Either way, he could not go wherever he was going covered in breastmilk. If they didn't know about his daughter, he couldn't risk letting them find out. Perhaps the rush of magic from her birth had been confused for a spell of his own creation. And if that were the case... why wait four weeks? To lull them into a false sense of security, he realized equally.

He showered-the water smelled vaguely like iron-and winced, his nipples twinging again as he touched them. Without magic, he couldn't exactly strain it off into the sink or toilet, despite the relief it would give him. The soap smelled harsh, but at least it washed off the scent of the milk. He washed his stained shirt thoroughly and left it to dry on the towel rack.

The clothing he'd been left was simple, but rather formal-slacks, a neatly pressed button-up, a white sweater vest, a purple ascot. He combed his messy hair with his fingers.

And then Ienzo waited.

It didn't take long before someone came for him. There was a gentle knock at the door, then the lock clicked open. Ienzo tried to keep his expression open, neutral, but it was difficult when he saw their face.

Xemnas. The man had the gall to smile. "Old friend," he said, in a voice that had only deepened with age. "Did you enjoy your meal?"

Definitely medicated, Ienzo decided. "Quite. You'll have to give your father my thanks."

"You may do so yourself. Would you like to go for a walk?"

Ienzo smiled pleasantly. He followed Xemnas out of the open door. The man was dressed similarly smartly, in a well-tailored black suit with a red tie. He realized he was being kept in the old servants' quarters, from before Ansem had given them the apartments; his suspicions were correct and a pair of armored guards were at both ends of the hall.

"Please do not take offense to this," Xemnas began. "But when my brother brought you in… we were rather surprised. We were expecting…"

"A princess?" He made himself smile again. "I'm afraid that phase of my life was left behind long ago."

"I'm sure it protected you quite well."

"Quite."

Xemnas paused. "No harm will come to you here," he said. "Be sure of that."

"That so?"

"My father seeks to earn your trust. I hope it will work in the other direction too."

"All this talk… I have never actually had the pleasure of meeting your father." He found himself infinitely glad of the etiquette lessons Even had given him when he was younger. Best be diplomatic for now, until he had more information.

"I'm afraid outside opinion may have tarnished your view of him."

Ienzo had to bite his tongue. "...Perhaps."

They continued walking in silence for a while. Xemnas's pace was sedate, even relaxed. The faint smell of sulfur was everywhere; Heartless dazedly wandered the halls, but did not come near them. "Our guards," he explained calmly. "After all, they do not need breaks, nor they need to eat."

"Practical," Ienzo said, trying to swallow the horror.

The castle, to his surprise, was much the same, down to the decorations; the only thing that had been changed was all the crests, away from the violet he'd known under his father, replaced with a deep red with a large X. "The symbol "chi,"" Xemnas told him, "Though some pronounce it "key.""

"...I see."

He saw a few human servants here and there; they paused to bow to Xemnas as he passed. All the while, Ienzo swallowed the bittersweet nostalgia that threatened to overtake him. Memories stabbed him behind the eyes-here, Braig teaching him to ride the stair bannister; hiding here from Even as he chased him for his lessons; riding Aeleus's shoulders along this hallway on their way to the gardens. "...Is it good to be home?" Xemnas asked, cutting his gold eyes to Ienzo.

"It certainly is nostalgic."

"It could be your home once more. Had I… my way, you'd have never been forced to leave."

He struggled to come up with a response, anger scalding his veins. Had Xemnas kept him here, doubtless they would've used and abused his power. "It seems there was poor communication all around," he said vaguely.

"Indeed."

They reached the throne room at last. Ansem had hardly ever used it in his reign other than for public events; he was much more comfortable meeting dignitaries or the public in his labs, his studies. It makes us more approachable, less mythic, he'd told Ienzo. The last thing you want to do is foster a divide between yourself and your people. We are royal, but we are not superior.

Ienzo's heart beat heavily in his chest. He tried to keep breathing steadily, aware Xemnas was watching every little twitch of his face.

A pair of guards opened the large, heavy double doors.

It was just as Ienzo remembered, yet it had been perverted, too. The high, Gothic ceilings with the stained glass, sunlight pouring through; the marble, carved and laid in the shapes of flowers, polished to a shine; the long marble columns, the mural painted on the back wall, of the gods' first contact with what was considered Ienzo's first ancestor. The three thrones were the same, too. The middle one, the most prominent and most ornate, was reserved for the ruler, the lesser two for their heir and their consort.

All three of these thrones were occupied, and the mural was partially covered with another large banner, but this one had a different symbol; a black and red heart with an X crossing through, its bottom flared into a strange parody of a fleur de lis.

And there they were. The youngest son who had kidnapped him; the eldest son, boredly reading a book. And Xehanort himself.

He was much older than Ienzo thought he would be, in his eighties most likely, his bald head wrinkled, the veins visible. When he stood and spread his arms in welcome, his back was slightly hunched, and his legs were spindly. He took slow, long steps towards Ienzo, and when he got closer, bowed deeply. "Might I say it is an honor to meet at last, your highness," he began, in a low, scratchy voice that sounded like he'd gargled marbles his whole life.

"Please, call me Ienzo," he said. He offered a polite smile. "The pleasure is all mine."

"Aren't you a polite young man." He stood back up. "Ienzo. Is that, perhaps, after the first archmage?"

"The very same."

"Aren't names so much more meaningful, when we can choose them?"

He nodded once. He noticed the youngest son was watching him with a wicked smirk; he was petting something. Ienzo thought at first that it may have been a black cat, but the thing lifted its head. A Heartless. A disconcertingly small Heartless. He wasn't quite able to mask his fear. It wasn't-not-

"Oh, did you see young Xehanort's pet? Bring it here, would you, son?"

He obeyed. Ienzo tried to keep breathing. It had sharp, long antennae, but it seemed rather content in its master's arms.

"My eldest made these," Xehanort explained, giving the Heartless a stroke. "Pure shadow-and nothing else. We're hoping to see if they develop sentience, the way our other Heartless have. You're a man of science, aren't you, Ienzo?"

"...Quite."

"Darkness is not quite so evil as you've been taught your whole life. Rather… it is one side of a coin. That balance is crucial to all life; one can never hope to crush out all darkness."

"Do you seek to crush the light, then?" he asked, without meaning to.

Xehanort chuckled. "Of course not," he said. "Of course not."

It was the repetition that put Ienzo ill-at-ease. Instead, he just nodded.

"Darkness gives power, stability, clarity . It's never been fair that your kind has been able to utilize magic, whereas the common folk… cannot. Think of how many fewer people would die of sicknesses, injuries, starvation, dehydration, if they just had the means to… borrow power from the earth."

"Can the darkness do that?"

"Quite, my dear prince. I'd be happy to show you. But alas, we are only new friends." He smiled. "I want to make this world better . Your father… well meaning as he was, simply could not stop what has been brewing for years. People should be equal ."

"And magic is an equalizer?"

" Power is an equalizer." He paused, as thought to let that sink in.

"...I see." Scarily, Xehanort had a point. But some bodies simply couldn't handle magic-the entropy and energy alone could kill, or in Isa's case, degrade. Was that worth it? Was there not another way?

"I hope you'll come to understand what we're doing here," Xehanort said.

"Perhaps I will."

For most of the rest of the first week, Ienzo was kept in that small room. He was allowed out once a day for a half-hour walk with Xemnas. Other than Lydia bringing Ienzo his meals three times a day… Ienzo was alone. He realized that even in their most desperate circumstances, with Even he'd never been alone . There was always someone to talk to, scheme with, fight with.

Ienzo kept trying to use his magic. For three days he flushed his meals down the toilet, hoping maybe it was some kind of drug that would wash out of his system, but nothing came of it and he was only making his own head cloudy.

His breasts still ached tremendously. He tried to squeeze the milk out, with his hands, but all he did was give himself bruises, his already too-pale flesh marking easily. The omni-present ache made him think of his daughter, the way she felt in his arms, the way she smelled. The way it felt when the three of them cuddled together, so perfect, like nothing was missing. Ienzo's heart felt like it was on fire.

Demyx. Amalia. Their names echoed constantly in his head, and more than once he woke with tears in his eyes. Please let them be safe. Please. Please.

Ienzo could not fall apart. He couldn't afford to. He had to keep his head on straight, to perform, to try to earn Xehanort and his sons' trust so he could-

Could… what?

Ienzo sat up slowly. He hadn't been sleeping well, hurting too much inside and out to get much rest. What did he plan on doing, exactly?

It came to him in a flash-the computer. If he could gain enough favor to get down to that lab, he could contact Tron, who could contact Cid, who could let the others know that he was alive and safe (relatively speaking), and that, more than anything, he had an in-even if it made him seem like a traitor.

Maybe it was time for the prince to come out of hiding.

He'd just fallen into an uncertain sleep, and dreamed about his daughter. Hefting her up in the air. Kissing the little pads of her feet. The joy, the love on Demyx's face as he cared for her. When he woke his breasts were hurting more than ever, and again, milk had seeped through the thin pajamas he'd been given.

He heard the click of the lock at the door, and before he could adequately cover himself, Lydia came in with his next meal. "Oh," she said softly, and for the first time she shut the door behind her. "You… poor dear. You're nursing, aren't you?"

Ienzo knew better than to lie. He could smell the milk, slightly sweet. He just pulled the blanket to his chest. One lie he could tell was that the baby had died, but as he tried to force the words past his lips, the tears ran over. "Don't tell him." Humiliation broke over Ienzo in a wave, along with more panic. "Please, don't tell him."

Lydia picked up the napkin from the breakfast tray and handed it to him. She locked eyes with him. "I wouldn't dream of it," she said, her dark eyes sharp and serious, and while there was complete honesty in her tone-and faint memories of her helping him in the library-Ienzo could not trust her.

He could barely eat that morning, in too much of an anxious haze. Xehanort could not know he'd had a child. He was not going to let Amalia and Demyx be doomed.

Didn't you doom them simply by carrying her to term? An insidious voice asked in the back of his head. If you'd aborted her, she wouldn't have ever been in any danger.

But what about the Forecast?

It took a lot of strength-almost all he had left-to clean himself up and wait to see if someone would retrieve him. Lydia came back several hours later with another tray, some cloth, and a book. The cloth wasn't out of the ordinary-she brought him his laundered clothing-but the book was new. "Something to help with the leaking," she said, and took the tray without another word.

Ienzo unfolded the bundle. It reminded him of a binder from years past, but thin cloth pads had been slipped into small pockets. She'd even left him some extra pads as well. He exhaled slowly and put it on. At least he no longer had to worry about this.

If he didn't get back to her soon, the milk would dry up. Losing that connection before he was ready only made his eyes tear up further. He blinked it away. He had to be strong for her, to get through. Falling apart would only be self-indulgent. This taken care of, he picked up the book.

It was a simple volume of fairy stories, one he remembered well, one that had been taken from Ansem's study. He sniffed the pages; old paper, leather, glue. The ribbon marked one of the pages towards the back of the book, and he flipped towards it.

Ienzo did not remember this story well. Perhaps Ansem had never let him read it, or he'd already moved on from fairy tales by then. The story was about Kingdom Hearts; that it was the gods' paradise, and that one young god, unruly and rebellious, had gone against her parents' wishes to visit man. She fell in love with a mortal, and when they married, their child could talk with the earth, could use that magic of the gods-Ienzo's ancestor.

But there was more to the story than this, namely that Kingdom Hearts had thereafter been sealed to prevent more gods from giving mankind what they didn't deserve. But the god that did the sealing was clumsy… and he dropped the key.

In a neat, firm pencil in the margins was "Keyblade."

Suddenly the eradication of the seekers made a whole lot more sense.

Xehanort wasn't looking to craft a Keyblade. He was looking to find one. To find one… he had to engineer a seeker or magic user, perhaps with the nothing, with the darkness…

Even's replicas…

Ienzo's breath caught. Of course. That was why he'd wanted them. If these "fake" bodies died from incompatible magic use, it wouldn't be noticed-it wouldn't matter. If they could not learn to wield Keyblades as Even had originally hypothesized… perhaps they could learn to seek those who could.

He had to get this message to them somehow.

A knock at the door. Hurriedly, Ienzo shoved it under the mattress before the lock clicked open. "Ienzo," Xemnas said pleasantly. "My father was wondering if you might like to join us for tea."

He swallowed. "Sounds wonderful."