Author's note: This story is M-rated for a reason, if you dont feel like reading the smut part (at the end of the chapter) you dont have too, you can skip it, hope you still like this story, feel free to let me know what you think about it!
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When Sasha woke up, she blinked few times before realising she was still at the infirmary. She still felt sore, stiffed and just wanted to have a warm shower before heading to bed, and get ready for another day. And hopefully everything would be fine. She just wanted another normal day at sea. Sasha then stood up and grabbed her jacket from the chair, ready to go to her cabin.
"Please Sasha, take care of yourself" Rios said. "This baby isn't ready to come out yet." Indeed, she knew that. And she just hoped they'd come back in time to St Louis before she would get into labor. She couldn't imagine giving birth here, on the Nathan James. She wasn't ready for this at all, she didn't want to admit it but she was scared. She'd been shot several times in her life, even tortured, had to survive on her own during the red flu pandemic, but giving birth to a tiny human was scaring her more like anything. And she didn't have this talk with Tom yet, she didn't even know how he was feeling about all of this.
'I'll, thanks doc." she smiled, leaving the room and striding the hallways to get to her cabin. Once she reached her goal, she quickly closed the door and headed to the tiny bathroom. She had no ideas of the time, and even if she wanted to see Tom more than anything, she decided he needed to sleep as well, especially after his long day out there. Once washed, she immediately slipped under the covers of her bed and closed her eyes, her body asking for the much needed sleep she forgot to give it.
It was 6am when Mike entered the wardroom, and the only person who was already sat there with a coffee was the only person he'd expected to be. Tom was lost in his thoughts, he did sleep well but a part of him was very worried about Sasha, because he didn't know if it was a good idea to keep her on board. She would be safer and would be in better hands on land, with all the medical assistance she could need at some point. But that would mean letting her go, not knowing when he would see her again. And he wouldn't be there when she would give birth to his child, he'd already missed his two elders kids births, and this time he wanted to be there, by Sasha's side when the baby would see the world for the first time. In this whole new world he and this ship hardly fought for.
"Penny for your thoughts?" Mike asked, as he filled his coffee cup, sitting in front of him, appreciating the quietude of the room. Tom finally looked up at him, only noticing his friend's presence. "Morning" he mumbled, having a sip of the dark beverage. "I've been thinking about what you said yesterday, about sending Sasha back to St Louis, like we did for Kara when she was expecting Frankie…" And that resulted in a wonderful and healthy little boy. Maybe that's what he needed to do, to preserve both of their healths.
Mike nodded, understanding his friend's dilemma. He knew why it was that hard for Tom to decide what was the best. And without talking about her relation with Tom, Sasha was the best intelligence officer he'd ever met, she was brilliant, intelligent, fluent in at least 7 languages, able to handle difficult situations without showing her fears. And he couldn't count all the tine she'd saved their asses. They definitely needed her on board. During her whole pregnancy she'd been helping them, less on the field but more as a ship operator, guiding the deployed teams on the field. She was a bonus, and ever since they've found her in Asia. So yeah, he understood why taking such a decision was hard for Tom. He knew both of his friends and that was clearly an impossible choice to make for one man only.
"Have you talked to her about it ?" Tom suddenly asked, his regard still lost in his thoughts. Mike shook his head. "I thought it would be better if that was coming from you. It's your girl, and you're the father of the baby she's carrying, your opinion weights more than anyone else here. And if you need some back up, you know where you can find me." he smiled, trying to cheer up his mate.
"She will hate me if I send her back to the land. Because we've made this child together and that wouldn't be fair if she was the only one being sent to St Louis, even if I wouldn't say no to little land break." Tom said, desperately confuse. He didn't even know if she was okay this morning, as she didn't join him during the night. And it was the first time in ten days. "What if i lose her again ?"
They got interrupted when the door opened on Meylan, Jeter, Burk and Green. Tom immediately noticed that Sasha wasn't with them and had to fight the urge of running out the room to go and search for her. He was struggling with his own thoughts when the door opened again few minutes later to reveal Sasha, looking much better than the day before. He silently asked her how she was feeling, and she only nodded her head to make him know she was ok. He wasn't that convinced, since yesterday he hardly believed she was 100% ok, not after what happened, and he swore to himself that he would protect her against everything, even when she wasn't noticing the danger herself. The usual reunion ended on time, after all the instructions of the day had been given.
"Come with me" he only said, passing in front of her to get out the wardroom, whispering so she would be the only one to hear what he was saying. Intrigued but knowing he was still a bit mad about yesterday, she followed him in the p-way, with no ideas of what was going on. "Tom what's going on?" she asked as she almost couldn't reach him, he was walking fast, like if he wanted to get them lost on the ship so whatever he would tell her, it would stay a secret.
He finally stopped when they'd arrived in front of his cabin's door. "Get in now, quick Sash." She obeyed and he closed the door behind them. When he turned around, she knew he was about to tell her something she didn't want to hear, and she actually had a pretty good idea of what it was. She went back off until the back of her legs would hit the sofa behind her. Seeing her being afraid of him broke his heart, he instantly knew she knew what he wanted to tell her.
"Please Sasha..." deeply looking at her. "Don't make it harder than it is already..." he whispered more for himself than her.
"You can't ask me to leave, I've told you I was sorry!" She snapped at him, unable to understand why he wanted her to go back to St Louis. "I'm not leaving this ship just because I'm pregnant, that's too late, you should've sent me the first trimester instead of keeping me here with you. Now..." he voice broke as she looked down at her bump, suddenly feeling dizzy.
He took a step forward and tried to reach her, hoping she wouldn't back off. She didn't, but when he looked at her pretty face, he saw tears rolling down her cheeks. "Sasha, love, it's for your well being and for this little one's." He put both of his hands on her baby bump, sighting. He knew that wouldn't go well, he knew Sasha wouldn't behave juste because he'd said so. She was too rebellious to do that. Age didn't change her at all, and even though sometimes it annoyed him so much, that was one of the reason why he was still profoundly in love with her.
"No! It's not fair, I'm not something you can throw when it's being useless, I don't want to abandon this ship or the mission.." in fact, she didn't want to be separated from him. All those years and the latest sixteen months were more than enough, that was too hard to go through. And even if he didn't know the whole story, it really broke her….She'd been more devastated than she would admit, the shadow of herself and only started to move on few months before they'd see each other again in this greek fighting club.
Tom was dangerously close to her and she noticed a special look on his face. He wanted her, as much as she wanted him, she felt like he was suffocating and she was the air he needed to breathe again. He couldn't resist any longer and lifted her up like she weighted nothing, kissing her so deeply and lovingly, forgetting about the serious discussion he was about to have with her, about her safety and health. He forgot everything the seconds his lips crashed against hers, because she had this power of making him forget everything but her.
Nothing else mattered except the desire to be one again, to be with and show each other how important they were. He slowly palmed her breast, then her nipples, they were a bit bigger than usual due to pregnancy and he had to admit that he liked it so much. They were so soft, and so sensitive, he knew he was giving chills through all Sasha's body just by tickling them.
As he expected, she gasped and moaned, trying to stay as discrete as she could, because they were still on a ship with 200 sailors around, and none of them wanted to get caught in this position. Even if all the crew already had a pretty good idea of what was going on between them two.
They finally decided to abandon their clothes, their lips and tongues still meshed together. After what seemed to be an eternity, Ton finally got rid of his pants to freed his erection, letting a groan go when she took him into her hand. She teased the top of his length like he was the most precious thing in the world, her eyes never leaving his. "Are you ready to show me how much you love me?" She finally asked, in a delicious and sexy whisper.
"Always babe." He'd closed his eyes to enjoy the sweet caress she was giving to him, and when he heard what she was saying, Tom had to control himself a bit before he'd totally lose control and take her right there, still dressed, in a hard and wild way. And at this right moment, the desire of being buried deep inside of her had become really hard, that it was almost painful.
"Sash….. I want you, you're so hot babe…" he whispered while moving down to her belly. Away from his child all day, and sometimes all night, during those moments he had the feeling of being closest to him/her, bond he sadly had not shared with his other kids.
She smiled to him, and it made his heart melts. The first smiled she gave him in Peng's mansion hall was the beginning of their fresh start even if they didn't know it yet, back then. But since this day, he'd never been able to think about something else, Sasha's smile was bringing so much joy in his life, and he was addicted. He was still wondering how he did survive without it when he'd left the navy….he came to the conclusion that she was his entire world, the first and unique love of his life, despite his love for Darien.
He slowly put her down onto the bed behind them, and dragged the black pant, then white panties she was wearing down her legs, taking a minute to admire the beautiful woman in his arms. She was driving him crazy all the ways possible. Sasha was burning to feel him, she couldn't think about something else, it'd always been like this with them. Sex was the best way to avoid arguments, at least they didn't need to fight. "Tom" she called him, spreading her legs apart, showing him how wet she was for him, and how much she needed him. And that wasn't the pregnancy hormones. "Please… have your way with me." she pleaded.
He didn't need to be asked twice, and as soon as she ended up talking, he slowly entered her with one swift move. They both moaned with satisfaction, happy to be one again. He started to move into her, his forehead against her, their breathes becoming louder. He had to silence her with a loving kiss, knowing he wouldn't last long. When he felt her silken walls fluttering around his cock, he trusted deeper into her, until Sasha would cry out his name, shattering into a blissful oblivion. " Sasha…..baby" he groaned, making this raspy sound he always did before coming. The softness of her walls after her orgasm finished him, and he spilled himself inside of her, seeing fireworks and stars.
Tom rested his head into the crock of her neck, humming the sweet smell of her hair. They were both breathless and the same sweet smile was visible on their lips, as they decided to stay put for a little while, just to calm down and then get their minds back to business.
« Tom... it was amazing… but against the rules... » she managed to say. But she didn't regret it, never would. He smiled, while rubbing her bare belly with his thumb, still smiling. After love, he had such a special look dancing in his eyes, and she loved it so much, she could get lost in his regard for hours without getting bored. "And it shows." he said, kissing her more time.
She couldn't help but laughed, and kissed the top of his nose. For a long time and basically all of his life, he wasn't the rule breaker, one making a point at applying them perfectly. She was the rebellious one who was trying to push the limits as much as she was able to, and she knew it was driving him crazy, back to their time at the Naval academy. And that's a reason why - as a teacher first - he'd showed some interest into her rather than other fade girls in her promotion.
"Come on sailor, get dressed!" She stood up to stay in front of him. "I think you have some work to do, dont you ?" winking at him. He sat up at the edge of the bed and wrapped his arms around her waist, his skin against hers in the most lovingly hug. "I do. It's taking care of you and our child…no matters what." he whispered in an almost inaudible voice, his eyes looking up to meet hers.