Candy Couture you asked for some girls bonding. You got it. Since last chapter was a it heavy I decided to lighten things up a bit. Hope you enjoy!

An hour had passed since Adam unleashed all his anger and frustration on Hailey. The cold winds were somehow making their way through the Districts sealed windows.

Hailey just stood in the break room, emptying another mug of hot coffee. She had nothing to occupy herself with. No paper work to be done. No new case to solve. Just Adam's accusations echoing in her head.

Jay, as always, had jumped in like a knight in shining armor to protect her. Any other she might have been pissed about it. She never needed saving. But that was not any other day.

Ruzek's harsh words kept repeating in her mind. You chose not to help Kim.

Had she indeed made the wrong choice? Would those five seconds make a difference? Would she make the same choice if Jay was involved?

For months now, those memories still haunted her dreams. Images of Jay lying on the floor, fighting to catch a breath that didn't seem to come, his blood painting the concrete.

This time there was no vest to protect him.

She remembered her trembling hands pressing on his gunshot wound in a futile attempt to stop his bleeding. His faint heartbeat under her fingertips. His cold skin. His eyes that somehow had lost their color.

But above all, she remembered her fear. Fear of losing him. Fear of never hearing his voice again. His laugh. Fear that he wouldn't be there tomorrow. Just the thought if it made her eyes watery.

She shook her head trying to shrug those thoughts away as Vanessa walked in.

"Where is Jay?" she asked looking around.

"He took Adam home. He was in pretty bad shape and in need of a friend right now," Hailey took a sip from her coffee.

"That was nice of him," Vanessa sadly smiled.

"I stopped by the house this morning and I noticed the pillows on the couch. Anything you want to share with me?" Rojas stared at her roommate with a smirk.

"No," Hailey fidgeted with her ear. "Jay brought me home and we had a couple of drinks. It was getting late so he spent the night at home."

"Nothing happened," the blonde detective raised her voice in defence.

"Sure, if you say so," Vanessa ironically nodded.

"Listen, I was thinking about visiting Kim. Adam is at home and she shouldn't be alone in a time like this."

"You are chasing the subject but that is fine, I'll play along. Sure, I am all in. Let me just grab my coat."

Xxxxxxx

The ride to the hospital was weirdly quiet. Hailey was thankful that Reyes hadn't kept poking her about Jay.

They slowly entered Kims's room and as expected, she was all alone, staring at the window.

"Hey," Hailey was the first one to speak. "We figured you could use some company."

A subtle smile was fighting its way through Kim's lips, but the fight was lost.

"Sure, come in," was all she had the strength to say.

Both detectives approached the hospital bed and sat on the chairs beside it.

Silence filled the room. No one knew what to say. Should they start a small talk? Should they ask her how she was feeling? No, that was inappropriate. They all knew too well how she must be feeling.

Should they talk about the weather? Work? Politics? What do people discuss in situations like these?

Finally, it was Kim who took them out of their misery.

"One of you better say something now. Just anything, get my mind away from this," she looked at her belly with pain on her eyes.

"Jay and Hailey spent the night together," Reyes all too eagerly exclaimed.

"Vanessa!" Hailey shouted, her cheeks flushing with embarrassment.

For the first time, a soft genuine smiled escaped Kim's lips.

"It's not what you think," Hailey raised her hand at her to lower her expectations. "We were both tired, we had a couple of drinks and decided it was best for him to just crash at my place. That's all!"

Vanessa and Kim raised their eyebrows in disbelief as they looked at each other.

"Oh come one. Suddenly I feel like I am teenager talking about boys," Hailey sat back on her chair with her hands crossed in front of her chest.

"Talking about boys," Kim adjusted her bed so that she was no longer laying but sitting. "What about that Tyler guy from the Academy? What's the story behind that?"

"Like I said," Hailey shrugged her shoulders. "He asked me out once and I refused."

"Did you really refuse or did you just say that because Jay was listening and you didn't want him to be jealous?" Vanessa asked never taking her eyes off of her.

"Why would I lie about it? And why would Jay feel jealous about a random guy I met years ago? He had no problem when I was dating Adam!" he voice was getting pitchier than usual.

At that moment, Kim saw right through her.

"That's why you are upset," she silently said. "You wanted him to say something. You wanted him to be jealous."

Suddenly, her heart was beating faster as a swirl of emotions swept away her inner control.

"Yes, I wanted him to feel something," she admitted as she ran her fingers through her hair.

"Even after he found out about us, I expected him to be jealous, sad, disappointed, betrayed. I wanted him to yell at me. I wanted anything other than apathy. I know this sounds selfish, but I needed to know that I mattered to him."

Kim was listening to Hailey in disbelief. She had know Jay for years and one thing he surely was not, was apathetic.

"He has been by your side since day one. He trusts you with his life. And remember, this is Jay we are talking about. The lone wolf. The only person who knew him better than any of us was Mouse, and that was because they had shared the same experiences. Look, I was there when he was dating Erin. Yes, they had chemistry but both partnership and relationship was rocky because there was no trust. They didn't trust each other with their past and she didn't trust him with their present. Every time he offered her help or advice she kept pushing him away. On the contrary, you listen to him and he listens to you. So, don't tell me he was apathetic. His lack of emotions is evident of the deep emotions he has for you."

Hailey stayed quiet for a minute and let Kim's words sink in.

"Since when did you become so wise," she finally joked trying to diffuse the tension.

"I have always been wise, you just never noticed," Kim rested her head back on the pillow.

"What about you Detective Reyes. Is there a man in your life?" Hailey cornered her.

"Nuh, I have no time for romance. Besides, if I had a man you would be the first to know. I wouldn't be shy to bring him to our home and trust me when I say, I am a screamer."

"Yuck," Hailey shouted horrified.

"Good for you Vanessa. And since we are sharing I have to admit I am a moaner," Kim chuckled trying to hold back her laughter.

"That's TMI my friends. I really didn't need to know that," Hailey stood up trying to get the visual images out of her head. "Reyes, you ever bring a guy at home, just warn me not to be there."

Kim was now laughing uncontrollably at Hailey's appalled reaction.

"Something tells me you'll be bringing a guy at home sooner than her, no offence Vanessa," Kim apologetically raised her hand at her.

"None taken," Reyes laughed. "I am with you. I bet you 100 bucks that Hailey and the other dumbass will end up together by Summer."

"Hey, hey" Upton raised both hands in defence. "I never said I want to end up with…you know who."

"Girl, who are kidding?" Vanessa squinted her eyes at her." You can't even say is name because every time you do, your cheeks flush. When someone else mentions his name your eyes light up. When you look at him I can literally hear your heartbeat accelerate. Not to mention that you avoid any form of physical contact with him, probably out of fear of spontaneously combusting. "

Hailey was nervously playing with her hair, desperately trying to find the right words to contradict Vanessa. It was vain though. Had she been that transparent? If she was, did that mean that Jay could see right through her too?

Anyway, none of that mattered now. All that mattered was that Kim was once again smiling. Even if it wouldn't last for long, she was happy and relaxed for a few minutes. The loss of her unborn child was still fresh but Hailey knew that Kim was too strong to let anything bring her down. She had heard stories of how she had saved her partner Roman once, weeks after getting shot herself. She was a freaking bad ass and a role model for a lot of women in the task force.

Jim was starting to get tired so both Hailey and Reyes decided to let her rest. Upton took one last peek through the door before exiting. Kim was a survivor!

As she exited the hospital she couldn't help but wonder if her friends would win that bet. She'd be lying if she said she hadn't thought of sex with Jay.

Her mind and heart was set. All she had to do, was wait for Jay to decide what he wanted in his life.