I open my eyes to the white ceiling. I should be dead. Why am I still living?

I stand up, realizing that I must be dreaming. There are no sounds coming from the hospital around me, but I know I'm dreaming. Normally when you realize you're dreaming you wake up, but I don't. There is no beeping of machines around me. I feel no pain from my wounds, and my mind is clear. I freeze. James is dead. Tears form in mmy eyes. James is dead. I weep, sobbing into a pair of arms that hand't been there before. When I've run dry, I wipe my eyes and look up.

I gasp, drawing back to rub my eyes. He's still there. "Gabe," I breathe.

He smiles. "Hey Avery,"

"How-" I'm stunned.

My brother frowns. "I'm gone Avery, I'll take care of James,"

I will not cry again. "B-b-but you're here..." I know this is a dream. It's a dream, but also a vision.

"I'm here to tell you something important," Gabe looks at me with his green eyes, filled to the brim with sadness and love. I nod, urging him on. He grabs my shoulders. "Avery, you can't kill yourself,"

"There's nothing to live for!" I wail. "Everybody I care about is dead!"

Gabe draws me into another hug. "I know," He rubs soothing circles on my back. "But you can learn to care about someone else,"

"I don't want anyone else," A half choked sob made it past my lips. "I want you all back,"

"Shhh, Ave, listen to me," He catched my chin, forcing me to gaze into his eyes. "Everything happens for a reason, I promise you that it will be alright. There is someone out there like you. He's meant for you and you're meant for him."

"But I want James," I whimper.

"He will be there for you and you will be there for you." He mutters. "But you'll forget this. You won't remember talking to me. But I'll tell you this," He smiles at me. "you can't lose hope, we will watch over you the entire time. You won't be allowed to kill yourself. I know that has never stopped you, but this time, it will,"

I lean into my brother's arms, breathing in the scent of cinnamon gum and him. Oh god I've missed his smell. His arms wrap around me. His lips meet my forehead. I nuzzle into his shoulder, happy to be in his presence. My tears return. They leak from my eyes and dampen the shirt of Gabe.

Then I'm alone, sobbing into nothing.

He watched the small human femme, sobbing into her brother's arms. He smiled, despite himself. He had made a deal with the human's god. Their god would take the life of all that young Avery held dear, in exchange for giving Avery to Primus. He would take her in, like he had done vorns ago to many other organics. Avery was allowed to see one she held dear before Fate would take her turn. Avery would no longer be a Child of God, but a Child of Primus. It was a fair trade, in both deity's eyes.

God glanced at Primus. I will need to take him now. He stated.

Primus nodded. I will take the girl.

The spirit of the boy, Gabe faded away, leaving the now Child of Primus clutching at the air. God nodded at Primus, whisking Gabe into his arms. They both vanished, leaving Primus watching his new child.

I have great plans for you, youngling. Primus murmured, bending down to look at the startled femme.

I have great plans for you youngling. The voice was deep, filled with something that made you want to bow down right there right now.

I wipe my tears, looking around the bare hospital room. There's no one here.

You can not see me, my Child. The voice says.

I jump out of my skin, feeling foolish for doing so.

The voice finds it humorous. I cannot hurt you. Its reassurment isn't very reassuring. I will not hurt you.

Hmm, better, but not by much.

"I don't wanna leave him," I mutter.

Hush my sparkling, all will make sense in due time. The voice says. But for now I will return you to your world and people. You will not remember me, or your time here. But we will meet again. Farewell, Melodyfuse.

I want to sit up, but the tubes and moniters are stopping me. There was something important I feel like I should remember, but I can't. Oh right, James is dead. I don't need to cry. I feel numb from the whole thing. It was the same thing when Gabe, Jasmine, Isaiah, and Kathrine had died. They were my friends, but we were more like siblings. We had run away from our cruel orphanage together. We had then called in and taken it down. We had run again, not wanting to be carted off to another orphanage. We were people who enjoyed freedom, and took it when we could.

Of course this was before they all went and died on me. We had promised that we would be together until death, and even beyond that. We were in the middle of a three car pileup. I was the only survivor. I hated it. I went into a state of deep depression, I went without eating, sleeping, and drinking, hoping to starve myself of everything. I needed love so badly that I had made at least three attempts to kill myself. I had tried cutting, but passed out from the pain and wound up in the hospital. I had tried doing an overdose, but my body purged the substance. And I tried just walking into the middle of a street. As you can tell, none of my attempts suceeded.

I lean back, waiting for the doctors. I'm hungry, but there's no need to eat if I want to join my brothers and sisters and husband. I know I'm missing something important, but at the moment all I can do is think about it. The doctor comes ino with a plate of food and I can only pick at it. I feel nauseous. Bile is threatning to rise in my throat and I have to swallow it down again. The hospital sucks. The door opens and I see Marie. I can't bring myself to smile though.

I look up dejectedly. "Hey babe," I rasp, my voice refusing to work.

She plants a small kiss to my forehead. "I heard you were here so I came to visit,"

I'm glad she doesn't try to say sorry. I give her a questioning look. She gives a nod so subtle that I could've blinked and missed it. I gesture to my wrist, where my watch normally was, raising an eyebrow in another question.

"It's nine PM sweet," Marie answers my question.

I can't see outside because of the curtains over the windows. I hate being cooped up, especially if it's in the hospital after a car crash that I'm the only survivor of. Marie strokes my cheek in a comforting gesture. I whimper weakly, sleep threatning to overcome me.

"Stay with me," I beg.

Marie smiles, her finger trailing over my lips. "I will,"

I wake up at about two AM, with Marie sitting in the chair, holding my hand, her head resting on her chest. She's not James, but it's comforting nontheless. I pull my hand away, not wanting to be comfortable. I want to hurt. I have nothing left now that James is dead. Marie has promised not to grieve me when I'm gone. I clench my hands into fists, feeling my nails creating the crecent moon shapes in my palms.

I dig deeper until I feel warmth running over my fingers and pain flashing through my palms. I fall asleep to the pain.

The first month in the hospital is uneventful and long, and boring, and painful. I hate it. Marie comes by to visit, but not to give me comfort. My neighbors visit too, but they give me pity and gifts that I will never use. I tell Marie to take them and throw them away. Pity never does anybody any good, I would know from listening to Beck all the time. Beck is my friend that takes the form of my car. Yeah the one that James crashed. He found me and talked and talked all the time. I finally told him to go home, follow the other Autobots when they went home and act like he had just met up with them. I can practically sence the Autobots.

I had told him to start heading towards Nevada and not to tell anyone about me. I told him to change his licence plate and I would file a stolen car report because he got paranoid that the Decepticons would come for me. I asked Marie to handle the repairs of Beck and to file the report. She's such a sweetheart. I can't actually say Beck's real name because if I did then I might let it slip sometime. So he actually never told me.

I know Beck's as depressed as me but he takes it out differently.

I wish I could do what he does to cope.

Sam groaned, rubbing his eyes. Bumblebee had been in a meeting for three hours now. Sam was supposed to be home in another hour. He would be late if Bee didn't hurry his ass up. After another ten minutes of waiting the large door opened and Bee walked out, his face turned up in a smile.

"What?" Sam asked.

"There's a new batch of Bots coming in." Bee said excitedly. "They'll be here in a few of your months,"

Sam smiled, forgetting his anger at the scout. "That's great! Do you know how many? Or who?"

Bee transformed, popping the door and allowing the human to crawl in. "Optimus says about four or five, and it's confirmed that there is at least one femme,"

"Femmes are female Cybertronians right?" Sam always had to double check.

"Yes! We thought all of them had been slaughtered by Megatron, but there's at least one left!" Damn Bee was excited.

Sam fell silent and Bee turned on the radio, letting his charge think things over. Sam contomplated about the new Bots, wondering if they were nice, or if they were trigger-happy like Ironhide. Maybe there would be another medic, or an inventor. Sam was excited and nervous. What if they didn't like humans. What if one of them stepped on him?

His phone buzzed. Sam frowned, pulling it out of his pocket. There was a missed call from a long forgotten number - at least to his phone. He pushed the button and called her back. The phone rang for a minute before she picked up. It wasn't who he expected though.

"Sam! Oh thank god!" Came the gentle feminine voice.

Sam was so shocked that he dropped the phone. He retrived it quickly. "Aunt Melissa!"

"Sam you need to get over here now!" Melissa's voice practally ordered. "Avery's in the hospital again,"

A lump formed in the pit of his stomach. It was dread. "You mean like last time?" He was terrirfied of the answer.

"Yes like last time!" Melissa practally screamed. "James was driving her home and died in the crash. She needs you so get your ass over here now!"

She hung up, and Sam dropped the phone.

"What's wrong Sam?" Bee asked.

"Turn around!" Sam shouted suddenly, making the Camaro swerve.

He did and they raced back to the base. Sam had a suspicion, and not a good one. Avery was like his sister. They met when she was running through a park, laughing with a group of other kids. She had crashed into Sam, who was seven at the time. The young Avery had glared at him.

"Watch where you're going jerk!" She had talled at his face.

"You ran into me!" Sam screamed back, rubbing his sore head, which was going to leave a very nice bruise.

"Yeah right," She huffed. "Go cry to your mommy you baby," She had stalked away towards the other kids, who looked proud, which Sam had thought was weird.

He leared that they were buying a house and that the oldest kid was twelve. They had a nice car with them too. Which was strange considering the fact that the oldest boy wa still too young to drive. Sam had run into Avery again at school and she halfway apoligized and shook his hand, threatning him that if he ran into her again that she would have her car run him over. Sam had originally thought that she had simply mispoken and had meant her brother would run him over.

How wrong was he.

He had caught her sitting in the front seat of the car and talking to it. He assumed that she was treating the car like an imaginary friend. He had grown out of his imaginary friend when he was five, and she was four years older than him.

"SAM!" Bee screamed, jolting the teen from his thoughts.

"What the hell Bee!" Sam snapped, losing his cool from his worry for Avery.

"Why are we going back to the base?"

"My friend Avery is in the hospital again and I have a bad feeling," Sam explained his suspicion to Bumblebee.

Bee sped up. "This is serious Sam," He said. "Optimus will want you to take somebot else with us,"

"I know," Sam sighed, rubbing his eyes. "I know,"

A/N Favorite and Review, and I might tell you who Beck is.

Avery* You dare and I'll kill myself

DragonFan773* You have a destiny waiting for you though

Avery* What the hell are you talking about?

DragonFan773* Signing off now before I screw anything up. (looks around nervously while clicking out of Fanfiction)