"Death and life are the same thing-
like the two sides of my hand, the palm and the back.
And still the palm and back are not the same . . .
They can neither be separated, nor mixed."
—Ursula K. Le Guin

»»—- —-««

Lir takes Simon Marson's statement with a grain of salt. It's not that she doesn't trust him—she doesn't trust lawyers as a whole, but nothing so far has given her a reason to believe he'd outright lie—just that she's learned firsthand how memories get clouded and fuzzy, particularly about routines. Sure, their victim worked for him. And, yes, she probably did the exact same thing every day, going to her paid internship at her father's office Monday through Saturday, taking Sunday off, and spending Friday night bar-hopping with her friends. Yet there's simply too much Marson was unaware of. The questions of who her friends are, what she did when she wasn't working, her hobbies, any potential lovers, hell even where she lived, are all ones he provided no answer to or understanding of. To him, Sophie truly existed only in the hours between 8:00 am and 6:30 pm. Which isn't exactly unusual, but it makes her job of following those leads harder, and she ends their interview feeling more irritated than she had when she started.

Dante, too, must be frustrated, because he says nothing at all to her when he leaves the observation room to join her at their desks, merely clacking angrily on his keyboard as he types his report. Lir does the same, transcribing the interview with Marson and her notes to send to Morrison later. A stiff drink is what she needs, maybe a call to Joan for a bit of relaxation, but she settles for chewing aspirin and drinking the bitter coffee unique to precincts. By the time she's done recounting the events of the last thirty-six hours, her fingers are stiff and the throbbing in her temples has turned into a fierce clawing that makes her eyes water, and she's keenly aware of the fact that they're fast closing in on the forty-eight hour mark and how much more difficult this investigation is going to be beyond it.

"You eaten?" Dante asks. Lir shakes her head, and he picks up his phone, dialing quickly. "Me neither. 'Bout to keel over, if I'm honest. You good with pizza?"

"Sure. Whatever toppings are fine."

He flashes her a grin before speaking into the receiver, and Lir uses the time to read back over Trish's findings. They aren't pretty. While there were no ligature marks, showing that Sophie was neither restrained nor strangled, there were heavy levels of Rohypnol in her blood, meaning she would have been unable to do anything at all. In fact, Trish notes that the dose probably would have been fatal, given the fact that Sophie was well over the legal limit for intoxication, clocking a BA of 0.16%, putting her at the threshold for alcohol poisoning. Did she normally drink so much? Lir runs her fingers over the paper, frowning slightly as she thinks. Joan hadn't said much more about Sophie's habits other than her cocktail of choice, and they hadn't asked for a receipt, a stupid oversight that needs to be corrected. Because if that much liquor was't common for Sophie, it means either she was drinking a lot more, which could lead them to recent stresses.

Or that the killer was feeding her margaritas all night to make sure she was too weak to fight him.

"There was no phone recovered from the alley, right?" she asks. Dante gives a grunt as he hangs up the phone, and she leans back, stretching to relieve the tension in her shoulders. "We've got to find her friends, talk to them."

"What about the mother?"

"Gone. Parents divorced when Sophie was . . ." Lir checks her notes. "Six. The original custody agreement was for the mom to have supervised visitation, but she went no contact when Sophie was twelve. The last Marson heard from her, she was living with her new husband in Portland."

Dante whistles. "No contact? Think Marson was abusing her?"

"Maybe. But why would Sophie hang around, if that was the case? You watch your dad beat on your mom for six years and wind up working for him?"

He grunts and leans back, crossing his arms over his chest and staring thoughtfully at a spot just over her right shoulder. "Abuse doesn't always make it to the kids," he says after a moment. "Sure, maybe pops was an asshole, but he was probably smart enough to keep it behind closed doors. Or maybe there wasn't anything goin' on other than two people who didn't want to be together anymore." He pauses to take a sip of coffee. "Could have been mom, too."

"Right." Lir massages her temples, and the pressure there subsides enough that she no longer feels like her eyes are going to burst. A migraine is the last thing she needs right now, but that's exactly where she's headed if she doesn't get some sort of rest soon. "So, we have a victim whose father knows nothing about her personal life, a killer who was smart enough to make sure we couldn't trace her beyond the bar, and, after nearly forty hours, no real answers."

"Sounds about right." Dante's grin is bitter.

"Fuck." She drums her fingers on her desk. "Crime scene still roped off?"

"As far as I know. You plannin' a visit?"

"Yeah. I need to get some air, and I want to take it in now that it's quiet." Lir grabs her coat from the back of her chair as she stands, sliding it on before leaning to open her desk and grab her gun and badge. Fastening them to her belt, she mutters, "Maybe something got missed."

Dante gets up, stretching with a loud yawn. "Alright. I'll go with you."

"I don't need—"

"I'm not babysittin' you, Lir." His eyes are somehow both grave and mocking, and she's not sure which irritates her more. "There's a killer. None of us should be goin' out alone, especially with the statistics about who else might show up there to get their jollies."

That gives her pause. "Right. Okay. You driving?"

He dangles his keys. Lips twitching, she turns and heads down the stairs and out to the lot, listening to the quiet thumping of Dante's shoes as he follows her. For someone so big, he doesn't make a lot of noise when he moves, and she wonders idly if it's a force of habit or just how he is as she slides into the passenger seat of his car and fastens her seatbelt. Like always, he flicks on the radio and finds a classic rock station before starting the drive, and he ignores her popping two aspirin into her mouth and chewing them dry.

The ride back to the alley passes in the silence between them. Lir looks out of her window, the rain sliding along the glass turning the world outside to a muted painting of blurred shapes and bright flashes of color on an otherwise dreary background, and thinks. Sophie Marsons had gone to the bar, as was her usual weekend habit, and ordered her preferred drink. Had she gone with friends? Had they danced, and laughed, until a stranger stole into their group, with eyes only for Sophie, eyes full of murder that she might have mistaken for desire? Despite what she had said to Dante about their victim being chosen randomly, Lir has little doubt that she knew her killer. Statistics point to it, the inevitable need for the comfort brought by familiarity that a new killer needs to do his work. Statistics, the voice of her old academy instructor rasps in her mind, are statistically incorrect.

If Sophie wasn't the first, then there's another victim out there.

Cold, bitter rain lashes her as soon as she steps out of the car. Huffing, watching her breath condense and twist in the air, Lir pulls her hood up around her face and tucks her hands into her pockets, wishing she had a slicker even if the garish yellow color of it would make her stick out like a sore thumb. Dante joins her, grimacing as he sets a black trilby on his head, water dripping from the brim steadily. "Good thing we already got forensics," he mutters.

"Mm." Making a non-committal noise in her throat, she ducks under the crime scene tape and walks into the alley, where she stands and takes it in. Without pedestrian and vehicular traffic on the street, it's unnervingly quiet; is this how it was at four in the morning? Nothing but silence as the dull oppressiveness of the city while Sophie was carved open like livestock?

Lir is moving towards the dumpster when something rustles behind it. Pausing, she stares at it, her brow pinched and her hand moving slowly to her gun, waiting. Cat, she thinks, or rat. Something digging for scraps now that humanity has gone away. But the silhouette she can just make out on the other side is too large, and, as she watches, a tanned hand grips the edge before a rain-soaked head pokes cautiously around, the eyes that she sees wide enough that the whites are like spotlights. Behind her, she hears Dante hiss, the faint splash of water as he slowly comes up beside her. Looks like he was right. Someone else had shown up, and now all that's left to do is figure out whether or not they're the murderer.

"Police," Dante barks. "Don't move!"

The man jumps to his feet and takes off, and Lir lets out a string of curses as she darts after him. They always fucking run, guilty or innocent, because seeing a cop always makes them feel like they've done something wrong. Bearers of bad news, thugs with guns, she's heard it all, and she wonders how this guy thinks of the police even as she chases him down the winding alleys of a city she's already growing to hate. "Thorne!" Dante shouts, his voice dwindling as the distance between them grows. "Goddamnit, Thorne!"

Up ahead, the black coat swirls as the man rushes through the maze. Sometimes all she has is a glimpse of fabric as he turns a corner, others, on the straight, narrow stretches, she can make out more of him, and her mind catalogues these snapshots. Slender build. Dark jeans. Heavy boots. The glint of a ring. A pair of wild eyes peering over his shoulder. Despite knowing she should draw it, Lir leaves her gun holstered. Don't you ever, her instructor had said gravely, take that thing out unless you intend to shoot, and she's got no desire to fire a bullet that would at best embed itself harmlessly into a wall and at worst ricochet and cause more damage.

Her hood falls back, rain plastering her hair to face and neck. In her chest, her heart is a drum, and her blood roars in her ears, equaled only by the low whistle of her breathing as she tries to control it to fight off fatigue. Keep moving, she tells her legs, don't fucking stop until you know who he is.

At her hip, her radio crackles, only to be ignored. Right now, it is only her and her prey, locked in the chase until one of them is forced to stop. Guilty people run, sure. So do frightened ones. Which is he? Killer or morbid onlooker, dangerous or afraid?

Lir never gets the chance to find out. They burst into a side-street, the cars around them blaring horns of fear and anger at this sudden intrusion, and a hand clamps onto her shoulder and yanks her back as a truck passes through the space she'd been about to step into. By the time it and its trailer clear out, the man is gone, and a scream bubbles in her throat that she fights to swallow. She knows who grabbed her—the scent of Dante's cologne, muted by the rain, wafts into her nose, accompanied by the spiced, salty blend of sweat and deodorant—and she allows him to lead her back to the sidewalk, where she doubles over with her hands on her thighs and struggles to slow her breathing from the harsh, jagged pants to something close to normal. At this angle, she can make out the way water has turned the leather of his shoes a dull brown. Never gonna look nice again, she thinks, and closes her eyes against the swell of nausea that comes from exertion on an empty stomach.

"What the fuck were you thinking?" Dante growls, his voice rasping and hoarse from chasing her. "You ever stop to think for a damned second that we'd need backup? Or that chasing that idiot could have gotten you killed?"

The scolding makes her angry all over again. "I'm sorry," she snaps, straightening to glare at him. "Should I have let our only lead so far go?"

"If it meant surviving? Yeah, you should've. Or were you hoping to wind up like Marsons?" His eyes are cold with fury, his cheeks flushed with it. "I told you, I fucking told you—"

Lir's phone rings, cutting off whatever tirade he'd been heading towards. Scowling, she answers it. "Thorne."

"You with Redgrave?" Morrison asks, crackling with static.

"Yeah." Dante makes an impatient motion with his hand, and she holds up a finger in the standard request for a minute of silence.

"Get your asses over to Tellula Park. He'll know where it is."

There's something so foreboding about Morrison's tone that Lir knows the answer to her question before she even asks it. "What's there?"

Morrison sighs. "Another body. Looks like our killer didn't want to wait for us to catch him."

"We'll be there." She hangs up, then looks at Dante, frustration and defeat welling within her to make her voice curiously flat. "There's another victim in Tellula Park."

Dante curses. "Our guy?"

"Morrison said it was," she replies.

He glances around, studying the street sign at the intersection. "C'mon. Car's about two blocks away. We'll have to book it if we don't want Morrison to rip us new assholes for taking our sweet time."

Lir nods. Dante turns and starts down the sidewalk, and she follows, craving a drink and a good night's rest and maybe a bit of company, angry to have wasted time on some idiot onlooker when the killer was busy leaving them another corpse, another family to notify, another twisted web. I didn't know, she thinks, and that just makes her feel worse. Tunnel vision, that's what she had fallen into, too focused on what was in front of her nose to take a second to really contemplate if a killer who took such care not to be noticed would have been so stupid as to come back to the scene of his crime in the middle of the day with cops still around.

They're sweating and miserably damp by the time they reach the car. Dante pulls towels from the backseat for them to sit on—something her father had done, to keep water from damaging the seats—and turns on the heater to fight some of the chill. It's only once they're on their way to the new scene that he says anything at all. "It wasn't your fault."

Lir's head snaps towards him at both the words and the sympathy within them. Not that it's unusual for cops to know how their partner feels, but usually that takes years of working together, not days, so either he's particularly good and reading the people around him or he's projecting. "What?"

"The new victim," he explains. "Wasn't anything you could have done. We had and have nothing to go on, and you chasin' that guy didn't get this one killed. Or," his mouth twitches, "do you think you're better than every other cop on the force?"

"Of course not," she protests hotly. "I just . . ."

Dante cracks the window and lights a cigarette that he pulls from the pack in his door. "Look," he says, exhaling smoke, "I get it. You're new, gotta prove yourself, and this guy is a pain in the ass. But you ain't got any control over him, or what he does. Only thing you can do is learn, be better, so you can catch him."

It's spoken in the same tone he might have used to console a weeping toddler, and she bristles. "You don't know me."

"No, but I read your file." He glances at her as he tosses the cigarette, still half-lit, out of the window. "You know what was top and center on the behavior section? Empathetic. You feel things, Thorne, feel 'em deep, maybe, and that's great for gettin' inside the head of whoever's doin' this, but it means he can get inside your head, too, if you let him."

She sinks into her seat, thinking of her dream, and gooseflesh breaks out across her arms despite the warm air blowing from the vents. "So what's your drive, then? Fame? Promotions?"

Dante snorts. "Nah. Just don't like bastards who hurt women, that's all." He pauses, then exhales slowly. "Look. I'm not gonna rat you out to Morrison. You made a decision that anyone else would've made. Doesn't mean it wasn't a fucking stupid decision, but . . . It stays between us. Right?"

There's a rush of gratitude that she hates feeling. "Yeah. Okay."

"Okay," he agrees amicably.