Star Wars: A dyad in the Force Chapter 47: Who is the pervert now?, a star wars fanfic

Warning: Major Spoilers of TRoS.

Note: This is a Reylo FanFiction (slow-burn)

「Act 47: Who is the pervert now?」

Falcon, 36 ABY

The approach of darkness limited the light, although there was no sun and no moon. A cause of uneasiness troubled his mind, disturbing the peace. It was as the blackness of the Galaxy dropped like a heavy cloak over the Falcon, the open space around it was now black and starless, and the whispering of the restless wins was rising a bitter howl. Ben shivered for a moment, and then he realized that there were no winds in open spaces, especially none that could howl.

He sat in the deepest shadows, looking across through the window the open blackness as images flashed through his mind, replaying his previous actions. He was drawn into the moment when he ended up kissing Rey. His boldness one of a kind, an action so foolish and, at the same time, so unfair towards Rey. He was losing his mind, acting like a child, one that had his emotional hurricane in full force today.

His storms rose inside him today, never because of Rey, but from the damage, the triggers of his past. It was for him to know that the fear came from another place and time that there was no connection to her. But today, his past was forgotten for a moment, his heartbeat again, and then he acted like a moron. Well done, Ben! He sunk in thought and memory; he was oblivious to the slap that Rey delivered to his face. He deserved it, after all.

His stomach turned unhelpfully, and he felt his skin turn clammy; each time he remembers the kiss, his lips touching hers, her brown eyes meeting his dark ones. He whispered an apology and one more, collecting his wits. Raising his eyes again, he stared at the unknown; he remained there to assesses the scene before moving. Because even if he wanted to move, his legs were not obeying. They were numbed from his actions, the kiss, and that new sickness.

He turned and stared at the opening, wanting to climb down, but he felt his heart sink further; in the days before his past, a sound of life seeping out into the silence. Todays acts a scream so loud that they left him thoughtful and weary as if he had fought for so long without to rest. To him, there seemed only one possible answer to his questions; the new illness had caused all the damage. And even if he knew that wasn't the right excuse to justify his actions, it was the only excuse he could find.

How great would be his humiliation, how complete his punishment if the rest of the group would find out what he did. He had crossed his limits, limits he knew he was not allowed to touch. How complete were his loss and his desolation if he was not only thought of as a monster but now as a pervert as well? He shook his head in disbelief and finally climbed down the metallic bar and found himself into the small storage unit.

A cold shower and maybe a punch across the face would bring him back to his reality, make those fireworks stop, and return the familiar burn of his pain and suffering. Become a friend that Rey deserves and not a pervert that forms an attack kiss to the only person that believed in him, that forgave him, and saved him. Foolish Ben Solo.

Ben pushed himself and strode out of the room and towards the showers' area; he was feeling filthy from his actions and the new sickness. And he needed time to himself to think. He stripped off the one he was wearing and placed it in the robotic cleaning auto system to be washed and dryer to wear when he was done showering. He locked the door and stepped into the shower; the water turned on as the moving sensors became aware of him. He turned the water from warm to cold and stepped under it.

Ben didn't fight the coldness even though his flesh was already goose-bumped; the water temperature was cruelty he withstood. He remained there, letting the cold freezing water calming his thoughts and easing his heart. He grabbed the first random bottle and poured the liquid on his hair and body. Next, he started washing his hair and suddenly realized that the washing gel he used smelled like spring and sweetness. He seized the bottle and read it; it was a cherry blossom shower gel for girls.

He threw the bottle with all his might on the shower wall; the bottle didn't break, but the bottle's cap had been ejected on impact, and the walls and floors tiles became very pink. He picked it up, then rinsed himself quickly, and grabbed a clean towel, dried himself in a hurry, a new thought forming in his mind. He should apologize to her, not by using force but honestly apologizing. He wrapped the towel around his waist and unlocked the door. He stepped outside, aiming to reach the cleaner and get his clothes to wear.

The awkwardness within her deepened as she wondered if this was a sign of how it was to be if Ben stayed along. The man by all the galaxy laws he had by his acts alone committed too many crimes; had he been some other who had behaved in such a way, would his judgment on them have been different? She took a deep breath and stood up from her bed, finding BB-8 there beeping, worried at her. If Rey barred his way, she would know that all was lost and that his suffering could not end. He was the monster, and now he tried to add to that, the pervert.

Rey took a deep breath and gazed at BB-8. She leaned close to him and tapped his head. "Don't worry, nothing serious happened!" she ensured the little droid. "We had a small argument with Ben..." Rey explained and suddenly stopped as she felt her heart skipping a few more beats and her breath getting heavier. She felt like her forehead was burning; that new sickness was only making her worse.

She told BB-8 she had to take a shower to calm down and maybe then take some medicine. The droid beeped, worried, telling her to take care of herself. She nodded and finally took a few steps towards the door. Her vision was still blurred, but she found her way and walked down the corridor. BB-8 was making beeping sounds alerting her and following her. Rey nodded, stumbled across the passageway until she found her way into the showers. She opened the door and stormed inside, she took one step and twice.

Crush!

She slammed against something soft; her lips touched the smoothness and almost tasted it. Hmm, Strawberries? She thought, and the thought screamed inside Ben's mind. Dazzled by her illness and the previous actions, she was puzzled by the taste; her mouth touched the softness again and almost licked it. "No, it tastes like Cherry..." she finally figured out and lifted her eyes and met Ben's confounded ones. She blinked and froze right there in the spot, gazing up at Ben.

Ben noticed her a step before colliding with him, he lifted his arms, trying to grasp her, but Rey was faster and had already crushed against him. The moment felt awkward again, but at least they weren't naked. He tried to pull her off him, only to feel her lips against his chest. And then her thoughts echoed inside his mind, almost making him dropdown in astonishment. And while it took him a moment to react, Rey wasn't done; she licked him?

Silence.

Ben was out of words. His eyes were wide open; he had no idea how to react to that. He took a step backward, frozen in time as sparks fired in his brain, desperately trying to connect the dots and instead just causing a short circuit. He reached out and pinched himself to make sure he wasn't dreaming. Almost robotically, his hand rose upward and rubbed his face; he shook his head, not sure how this happened.

More Silence.

Never before had Rey noticed how time was so much like water; that it could pass slowly, a drop at a time, even freeze, or rush by in a blink. Now the time had frozen, she had just realized that she not only crushed against Ben's naked torso, but she kissed and licked it. A few hours ago, she had slapped him because he kissed her and called him a pervert. Rey turned, but too slowly to be normal. When she tried to speak, her voice trailed slowly like her words were unwilling to take flight. There was a daze in her eyes, and her inner voice had one only thing to remind her: Who is the pervert now?

All those years he lived as Kylo Ren, he had crossed paths with so many dark, painful and disgusting situations. Once he believed he had seen everything, and the world could not surprise him. He was wrong. After he landed in Ajan Kloss, he encountered the most unbelievable incidences, scenes, and accidents, that even books or dream wouldn't include. And today, it wasn't any different. He tilted his head and looked at Rey, confused.

Rey thought fast; she had to save herself from this embarrassment; how would she ever explain that to Ben or the others. Darn, she was becoming weirder those days, she accused Ben of being a pervert, but she was worse. True be told, between friends moments like those could be awkward, but they could laugh it off and forget about it. Rey suddenly calmed down. Why was she worried so much? Ben was not the enemy here. Wasn't Ben her friend?

"Ben," came her voice calmly and sweetly, "Let's call it even!" She leaned closer against his ear, whispering: "Between one pervert to another, are we even?"

In his moments of emotional dumbfoundedness, when he realized it would take time for his brain to find the words to express what he felt at the moment adequately, he nodded in disbelief. It felt like he was a child again, trying to hide mischievous actions with his friends. He shook his head at the awkward day and cracked a smile—one of those rare smiles that always led Rey's world and took her worries away.

"Even?" Rey asked again and offered her hand; Ben accepted it, and they shook hands, agreeing to call it even.

Rey exhaled as Ben finally agree to keep today's incidents a secret. She waited for him to grab his clothes from the cleaner, and then she would take her shower. Rey stared at Ben as he turned around, his tall figure steadily now stepping away from her. Her eyes dropped against his back, the scars from all the lashes he got from Line Breakers, and the ones that Poe added were still fresh.

He saw those gravity-drawn shoulders painting a picture of his heart as if neither it nor his soul would welcome a beat. Sometimes Rey was unforgiven; she kept forgetting what Ben went through, as Kylo Ren and Ben Solo. Her eyes shifted to the side again and became glazed with a glossy layer of tears. As she blinked, they dripped from her eyelids and slid down her cheeks. She bit her lip tightly in an attempt to hide any sound that wanted to escape from her mouth; her heart sank.

Rey took a step towards Ben and stood behind him, her fingers suddenly touching his scars softly; the sudden way her soft touch brushed his back made Ben almost jump. He turned his head and gazed her upon his shoulders, as Rey kept feeling the scars. "You never told the full story; what happened in Jakku?" she asked him, worried. "Who did this?" she asked him against only this time she pulled on their connection, wanting to know. "Ben, let me in!"

Rey felt through the Force that his brain built some new walls with him so lonely on the other side. He was so desperate to keep her out from the one year of hell he lived in Jakku. "If you'll give me a chance, we can take them down brick by brick and start to feel together what it means to be a real friend." Rey offered as she slowly let her arms hugged around him and leaned against his back.

Silence.

They stayed there for a few long moments; her warm and troubled heart reached Ben. He slowly opened up, let her in, the memories sprang alive inside her mind. Rey gasped as she finally found out how his life was in Jakku. Ben allowed her only to see one small part of it, but it was enough to break her heart. Darn, Ben Solo, when will he stop surprising her. Rey hugged him closer, her head rested against his back, and Ben closed his eyes to the unique feeling. It was healing his soul and easing his pain. Rey was amazing like that.

After a while, one more memory was thrown inside Rey's mind without Ben noticing it. Rey's heart weighed heavily as she jumped back, confused. "Poe did this?" she suddenly asked. "When did Poe..." she paused the question as she recalled that Poe had spent some time with Ben in Jakku before he dragged him back to the Resistance Base. "No, he didn't!" Rey cried out. She tried to swallow that anger when it was a fire-seed and rushed out of the room to confront Poe.

"No, Rey, Don't!" Ben uttered loudly and ran after her. "It's not his fault!" came his voice as he ran after her, only wearing the towel around his waist. But Rey stormed faster across the corridor and in the main area, as she found Poe sitting there spacing out. "You!" she yelled at him and strode towards him with Ben following on her heels.

Poe was suddenly called back to reality, finding an outraged Rey in front of him and a half-naked Ben, causing him to rub the back of his neck, confusing and gazing at the pair.

「Upcoming Chapter: Act Forty - Eight」

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