DISCLAIMER: I don't own KHR or any of the associated characters aside from my OCs.

After my phone call with Dino, I struggled to ignore the rest of his calls. For weeks it was just his usual badgering and bombardment of voicemails. I was just at the bar as usual, a few times the hotel owner would come get me for late night lobby work or such. It was going great.

But my blood ran cold one day when I saw a familiar face entering the bar area of the hotel. I froze, staring at Reborn as he sat down directly in front of me.

He smirked, tipping up his hat the smallest bit, "Kira."

"How did you-?!"

"Shh. Give me whatever you have the most fun making." He gestured to the shaker I had just cleaned, "The image suits you."

I gritted my teeth, randomly picking a drink for him. I put the glass down in front of him gingerly and murmured, "Are you alone?"

He leaned forward, elbow on the counter smoothly, "You still single? I'll buy you a drink."

"Don't joke." I sneered, "I meant did you come alone?"

"No fun." He took a leisurely sip of his drink and said, "Yeah. I'm alone."

"Why did you come?"

"Heard from my student that you called and he asked for help tracking you."

I gritted my teeth, "Damn that Dino."

"It was your mistake." He chuckled, "You're soft. You shouldn't have answered."

They traced the phone call. I'm guessing Giannini's tech team had something to do with it.

"Whatever." I turned to get on with my work but he grabbed my shoulder. Annoyed, I turned a glare on him, "What?"

"You're not curious?"

"About?"

"Whether or not I've told everyone else that I found you?"

I'm not playing this game with this fucker. I had half a mind to pour his drink on his head but I held back, "Piss off."

"I won't tell anyone, Kira." He said, surprising me. He smirked, lifting his hand to rest his chin on it, "But how long are you going to waste your skills here?"

"Forever." I spat, "Only you and Dino know?"

"Hibari knows." He said, leaving me in frozen terror, "You only asked if I came alone. You never ask if someone was meeting me here or not."

I watched with wide eyes as Kyoya entered in a full on suit. I hadn't seen him since that day… was it a month ago now? Two months? Who knows.

He stopped, not bothering to sit. He stared at me, expression even but eyes sad. He assessed me for a moment and nodded, "Kira, I'm glad."

"... I'm not." I said coldly, averting my eyes, "Leave."

"Because I was an herbivore?" He asked in a small voice that sounded like an anxious plea, "Or because I made you a promise I couldn't keep?"

I didn't know what he was talking about but if it was going to make him leave I'd have to play along. I nodded, "Yeah. Both. Leave, Kyoya."

The look on his face broke my heart. I couldn't keep my stone-faced expression in front of the helpless look on my brother's face. It was a look that didn't suit him.

"I see." He said, tone unsteady as he reached for Reborn, "I'm going. … And Kira, I'm… sorry."

I barely heard the word sorry at the end, it was whispered out as if he was the most ashamed of having to say it. My brother never apologizes. He's not the type to admit he was wrong out loud. This is something he struggled with for a long time if he actually uttered an apology. I reached out to him but he didn't see. He had already begun his exit.

I lowered my hand, biting my lower lip and then I called out, "Kyoya!"

He froze in place, not daring to look at me again.

"... Wait for me in the lobby. If you can wait until 2AM, I'll… I want to talk to you."

He didn't say anything, only leaving the bar with Reborn following. I didn't know if he would wait. That was an absurd time but that's the time I stop working so I didn't want to just leave.

My coworker snickered, "Oh? A lover?"

"My… brother." I admitted, smiling at his astounded expression, "He's cute, right?"

"He's definitely… got this aura about him." He grinned and we returned to work.

I worked as hard as I did any day but the thought that Kyoya might not be waiting for me weighed on me. I hurried, sprinting away when we were closed and cleaned. I reached the lobby only to find that it was empty. I sighed, scratching at the back of my head in frustration.

Of course he wouldn't wait. He's not the patient type. I turned, coming nose to chest with my brother. I gasped in surprise and took a sharp step back, feeling ashamed when he blinked at me in surprise.

I hadn't felt his presence coming. I was definitely out of practice and I burned on the inside thinking I was getting weaker but this was the right answer. If I was weak, there was no chance that I could hurt someone I love.

He looked troubled, glancing left and right to make sure no one was around before stepping forward to embrace me tightly.

I was definitely caught off guard but I returned the affection by nuzzling my nose up into his neck, my arms around his middle, "It's been a while, huh?"

"I'm only glad you look well." He murmured, a hand at the back of my head and the other low on my back, "I didn't know what to think when you didn't come back."

"... I'm sorry."

"Why are you sorry?" He sounded as surprised as he could sound, drawing away to assess my expression, "I'm the one who…. Failed to kill her like an herbivore…"

Oh. So this is what he was talking about.

"No. You had the correct reaction." I murmured, ashamed, "I'm the one who… Anyways, I'm sorry. It must be lonely in Namimori all alone nowadays, right?"

"I'm fine." He said, surprisingly keeping close to me. His hands stayed on my hip and neck rather than completely falling away, "What are you doing here all alone?"

I couldn't tell him. I shook my head, "I'm also fine alone."

"I see." He grimaced, nodding in empathy, "Do you have no need for me anymore?"

"Wha-? No way. You're still my precious little brother." I assured him, reaching up to cup his face as he attempted to avert his gaze, "I… You're all I have left."

"Then why did you answer the Bucking Horse and not me?" He looked so… small asking such a petty question but I suppose he is my baby brother for a reason.

I smiled, thinking he was still as cute as he was as a baby. For a moment, I forgot the worries that came with my sins and my strength. I hadn't even realized that I touched him without a care in the world, "He called every hour. I got fed up."

He smiled the smallest bit, expression becoming neutral immediately afterwards, "He does tend to do that. Annoying, isn't it?"

"Yeah." I laughed quietly, letting my hands fall away from his face, "Anyways, I'm so glad I got to see you. Please don't tell anyone else I'm here. You can visit but promise me you won't tell anyone and I'll stay right here for you."

He nodded, an instant response, "This place is crowded, I don't like it but if you are here, I will come."

"Thanks."

"Reborn's waiting in the car. I have to go but I will come again."

"Yeah." I waved as he tore himself away, my eyes followed him until he was gone. Without Kyoya, it felt suddenly really lonely but I do feel better knowing he's alright.

I returned to my room feeling a little bit regretful since I hadn't asked Kyoya to stay but it's better this way. I reached for my phone, surprised to find the boss had left a voicemail. I never thought he would bother with it.

Curiously, I played it. It was a short message but it incurred a sense of deja vu in my head.

"I told you to fly your ass back immediately when I call. I told you that you belong to me so hurry up, Kira."

"Don't forget your phone. I'll call when this is over. Fly your ass back immediately when I call."

I laughed. He never changes. I suppose I also liked that about him. I miss him. I miss all of them. Squalo, Lussuria, Mammon, Bel, and Levi. Most of all I miss the boss.

I found myself wishing that he had been the one to come today instead of Reborn but I immediately scolded myself. If Xanxus came, he was definitely going to take me back against my will. I smiled at the thought and then scolded myself for it. I have to stop hoping for someone to come take me back. It's not good for them. I have to stay away.

I went to sleep with mixed feelings that night. I was happy to have seen Kyoya and talked with him but I was kind of lonely. It wasn't enough. Now that I had a taste of my previous relationships again, I wanted to have them back. I told myself it was okay to want as long as I didn't act on it. It's fine like this.

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I told my coworker about my brother. He was apparently really curious for some reason. Finally, I asked what his deal was and the boy, nervously admitted to me that he was gay.

I nearly died. I growled at him, "I won't let anyone have my brother. Be it a man or a woman."

He laughed nervously and then asked, "You don't mind that I'm…?"

"I have a gay friend." I paused and then corrected, "Had… I guess… I haven't talked to him in a long time. I might never see him again."

I miss Lussuria.

"Oh. Had a fight?" He asked, curious again now that he was certain I didn't mind his sexual orientation.

"No. I just… I got up and moved away."

"Oh. Then I'm sure you'll see him again." He grinned and it kind of reassured me for some dumb reason.

I knew I was trying to avoid him but I really wanted this kid to be right about it. I wanted to see them again. Thinking about it put me in a better mood than usual, I returned to my room after that thinking I was satisfied with just wishing to see them even if I never saw them again. I unplugged my charged phone and blinked in surprise to find the boss had left another voicemail.

I repeated my actions from the previous night, listening to his message curiously. There was nothing but a long stretch of silence and I thought maybe he just didn't bother to hang up but it was worth the wait.

"... Didn't you say you'd come back and make me yours or something stupid like that?" He sounded frustrated more than anything but I knew he was just good at being in control when he wanted to be, "What happens if I go to you? Then are you mine?"

A knock at the door made me drop my phone. It couldn't be. This timing. No way. I cautiously went to the door and opened it, heaving a sigh that sounded more disappointed than relieved when I saw the hotel owner, "Again?"

"Yes, please." He said with a sigh, "I'll give you a little more spending money for all your troubles."

For some reason, I felt uneasy. The hotel owner was coming down to the lobby with me. Usually, he would just retire to a room himself but this was strange. I shrugged it off thinking there's nothing to worry about but when I reached the lobby, I was totally shocked to find the boss standing by the front desk. He was looking around curiously, looking over the counter at all the random things on the desk.

I darted back around the corner and hid by the elevators. No way. I shook my head, peeking out to find that it really was the boss. I turned, staring at the hotel owner who was smirking at me.

"Yeah, sorry. I'm working the lobby desk tonight. But this man came asking for you." He said sheepishly, "I normally wouldn't just let anyone see my employees but when I asked if he was related to you, he said 'I'm hers.' So, I just had to. I'm a sucker for romance. Should I not have?"

Romance, huh? I almost laughed. I shook my head and pressed the button for the elevator, "Will you send him up to my room?"

"Can do." He grinned and let me go up ahead before turning to go talk to the boss.

This is bad. I have to get out of here but… I wanted to hear him out. If a lazy man like Xanxus came all this way, there was probably something important to discuss. If I was in my room, I could get my ring and light up Aquilos and escape the same way I escaped last time. The windows in my room… Well they're basic hotel balcony sliding doors so I'd have no problem. I would just have to leave it open.

I entered the room and fished out my ring and gathered my things as fast as possible. I changed out of work clothes and buried my phone in my hoodie pocket and then there it was-the dreaded knock at the door. I took a deep breath and opened it slowly, staring up at his crimson eyes as he looked down at me.

Neither of us spoke, simply assessing each other. He looked normal, no wounds or bandages showing. I was relieved to see it but my heart hurt when I thought about running away again.

"Be mine." He said, leaning his arm against the door when I didn't open it all the way. He was cautiously preventing me from shutting him out, "Show your gratitude. I came all this way for you."

"Did you come alone?" I asked, finally opening the door all the way and stepping aside to let him in, "Or with a driver?"

"Squalo's the driver." He said shortly, smirking at the longing flashing across my face. He stepped inside, looking around. His eyes lingered on the lights outside the window I had left open. In the night, the city looked kind of pretty but I think he was more focused on the opened window.

I felt my blood run cold when he turned and closed it. I ran for the door and he immediately grabbed me. He gave my arm a hard yank and shoved me against the just-closed door. I was slower than I remembered. I could've definitely gotten away if I had kept up my training. I glared up at him defiantly as he watched me.

His eyes shifted to my hand, smirking as he took it up. He stared at the ring on my finger a moment and bent his head, lifting my hand up to press a tentative kiss to the back of my hand.

I stared at him, bewildered. What kind of gesture was this? He never did this kind of thing even at formal events. Why now? Why to me?

He didn't speak but he looked like he had a lot to say. He was just being cautious. It didn't suit him.

"What are you doing here?" I prompted him, feeling my heart skip a beat when he met my gaze firmly again.

"I came for you." He said as if it wasn't a big deal, "Because you're mine."

I dropped my eyes to his feet, shaking my head.

"You won't say it again?" He started, waiting for me to look up before clarifying, "That I'm confused because you're not mine but I'm yours."

I wanted to say it. I wanted it so bad but… I shook my head, "I'm done with that."

"Why?"

"Because I'm done with you." I told him simply, "I can't go back with you. I don't want to."

He leaned down swiftly, coming to a halt just a short centimeter or two from my lips. He smirked when I let out a breath I didn't know I had taken in, "You don't look too sure about that."

I intended to give him a firm shove but when my hands landed on his shoulders, he held them there. My eyes widened. My hands looked so bloody under his grip. I tried to rip them out of his grip but he held tight. I began to panic, shaking my head at him as I tried to desperately pull my hands away.

"It's okay." He said, making me freeze. He took firm hold of one hand and lifted it to his face, pressing a kiss to my palm before holding against his cheek, "I'm stronger than you. I'm always going to be."

Words that would have lit a fire in my fighting spirit now sent relief shooting through my veins. More than the feeling of relief, I felt overwhelmed by his words. When Dino and Kyoya had both blamed themselves for everything and couldn't understand my real feelings, Xanxus came and made it clear that he understood me even when I didn't explain myself. I didn't have to.

I curled my fingers, brushing his cheek cautiously and he let me take my time. When he released my hands, I cupped his face gently between my small hands. I couldn't help but smile, staring up at him in awe.

He smirked back at me and I couldn't help but think he was really charming.

I blushed darkly, embarrassed by my own thoughts and I heard him chuckle deep in his throat. I drew my hands away from him immediately to cover my face. He probably knew I thought he was attractive but he didn't have to laugh. It made me blush twice as hard.

"Back to those virgin reactions?" He looked super amused when I opened my mouth and nothing came out. He gave a short laugh when I closed my mouth looking extremely upset with myself. He shook his head and leaned in all the way this time, lips coming against mine in a gentle manner.

I squeaked, the sound muffled as he took advantage of my surprise by pushing his tongue against mine. I felt a spark shoot down my spine and I tentatively reached for his shoulders.

He welcomed it, his hands drawing me closer by the hips as he kissed me. He controlled the pace even better than he usually did. It was because I was so out of practice. Before I knew it, he was holding me up after my knees gave out. He pulled away, letting me breathe for a moment. His eyes stayed on me, assessing my reaction.

My brain had melted already and the minute I saw the spark of lust in his eyes I pulled him down for another kiss. He responded by sliding his arms around my back, hands cupping my ass as he pulled me up. I curled my legs around his hips and he growled and slammed me against the door in response, lips never leaving mine.

I moaned quietly into his mouth when his fingers gripped my ass particularly hard. With just one hand, he reached for my sweater and managed to pull it off over my head, just breaking the kiss for long enough to get it off. He threw it to the ground and I heard my phone in the hoodie pocket clunk against the floor but it didn't bother me.

"Never wearing a bra." He clicked his tongue at me momentarily as he stared at my revealed chest. He didn't wait for a comeback. He drew me up a little more and clamped down over one with his teeth.

I threw my head back and screamed, fingers weaving into his hair and scratching at his scalp.

He was relentless. Any noises from me motivated him just that much more. He thrust his hips upward, brushing our bodies together in the most teasing way but it had us both reaching the ends of our patience. He gave another thrust and then another as he continued to lavish my breasts with attention.

I brought his head painfully tight against me as I felt myself come undone, screaming without a care for whether or not the hotel walls were thin or thick. I gasped for breath, head resting heavily against his shoulder as he turned and made his way to the bed. I had barely regained my bearings when he threw me down. I stared up at his bare chest and wondered when that had happened.

He caught me staring as he was undoing his belt and he smirked, pausing to bring one hand up and beckon me toward him with a finger.

Eagerly, I sat up and reached for his pants. He stood right against the end of the bed as I impatiently dropped both his pants and underwear at the same time. He hissed when I took firm hold of his freed erection. He held a hand to the back of my head, waiting when my lips pressed against the head.

I shifted my eyes up, meeting his gaze as I slowly took him into my mouth. I took him as deep as it would go, hands working on the portion I couldn't fit. I reveled in the deep growls and grunts that were slipping from his lips, the way he gritted his teeth when I sucked particularly hard at him made it clear he was trying his best to hold back.

I hummed teasingly, making him bare his teeth and snarl at me. I cupped his balls, immediately making him change from a sneer to a breathless gasp. I moved, using my hand to pump him firmly and swiftly as my lips teased the heavy sacks underneath. There was no forewarning. He fisted his hand into my hair and came hard. I was definitely surprised, staring at the dirtied sheets as he removed the hand from the back of my head to cover the lower half of his face.

He looked like he was having a hard time believing what had just happened. He cleared his throat sharply and said gruffly, "Don't fucking blame me. I haven't done it in months."

I honestly don't see the big deal with letting himself go but I smiled when he confessed he hadn't done it in a while, "Hmm? Busy?"

"Don't be an idiot." He was clearly embarrassed by what had happened, "... I can't get off doing it with anyone but you."

My heart skipped a beat at his confession. I let out a breathless, "What?"

He looked away and through gritted teeth, he hissed, "All those other women you saw, I just … It's fucking stupid! I just called them to see how you would react. Other than Coyote's daughter, I didn't even feel like putting my hands on any of them."

My eyes widened at this random confession. I had so many questions but I didn't know where to start, "Why did you sleep with her in the first place?"

"What was I supposed to do? Be a fucking loser and tell you I didn't want you to sleep with the Bucking Horse anymore?" He was so mad it looked like he seriously thought I slept with Dino.

I was baffled, "Why would you ever think I fucked Dino?"

Now he was totally confused, "You told me you slept with him! When you were sucking me off the first time, you…"

That was a long time ago but I remembered it all.

I was wiping the dribble of his essence from my chin as I asked, "Does that mean I was good?"

"You just weren't bad, trash. I've had better."

"Yeah? Well, Dino hasn't so introduce him to the woman who was better."

"I said those words because I was jealous!" I blurted, totally shocked that he had taken it to heart, "You're the only person I've ever done this with so I was… anyways, I never did it with anyone but you!"

"... Even now?" He was staring at me like I had two heads when I nodded, "You're fucking lying!"

"No! This is the first time I did anything since the last time we were together!" I swore, surprised when he knocked me backwards onto the mattress. I stared up at his frustrated visage as he hovered over me on strong arms, "I'm not happy. I don't care if you did it out of anger from a misunderstanding… If I'm not the only one, I don't want to."

"I just fucking told you I can't get off with anyone else. Doesn't even feel remotely good." He scoffed, leaning down so his lips were brushing against mine with every word, "You fucking broke me."

I laughed quietly at the way he was saying it. I reached up and pushed my hands against his cheeks firmly, "Good! Now, sleep cause I'm tired."

"Hell no." He grunted, "I haven't done it in months. You're damn near psychotic if you think I'm going to let you go to sleep after one round. That's not even one round in my book. That's half a round."

"You dirty pervert." I smiled as he pressed his lips against mine once more, welcoming his passion over.

Who was I kidding? This is right.