Can I just say that I am super sorry for not updating in so many months. But I have my reasons.
My family has been dealing with DCYF for the pass couple of months now. It is strongly possible that my grandmother will loose my three cousins in the next few weeks. One of them, the youngest at 12, is suicidal and stuck in hospital right now. The middle child at 15 is stressed with life and wants to leave. The oldest wants to quit school at 16 to work and gain full custody of his siblings. And my grandmother was diagnosed with a terminal disease on top of things too. Don't even get me started on the hassle their birth mother and the social worker are being by trying to pressure my father and I, because we are the breadwinners paying the bills and all that nice stuff, into taking in the 12 and 15 year old when we can not take them because of financial issues, housing, and our overall lack of ability to properly care a suicidal child. We've done it before, and we are just not prepared or equipped for it.
Between dealing with that, I've been working myself ragged with school and my job, and dealing with a deep sadness that some LaLu stories have been distracting me from. My best friend, the only friend I have who's never done me dirty or backstabbed me, my sister, lost her baby a nearly 6 months pregnant. She went in for an ultrasound to find out the gender and they couldn't find a heartbeat. It was going to be another boy... Her first pregnancy was complicated, having given premature birth to a special needs baby, and we had hoped and prayed for the best for this new child. She was going to the doctors every week, but in the end... I just want to cry again. I was looking forward to having another niece or nephew to spoil.
And I've been heloping to care for my mother who after having her second foot surgery, slipped in the tub and broke a bone in her back. So while my father works, I take care of her and my little brother, when I'm home.
So please forgive me for my absence. I don't mean to, but my life feels like it's going down the drain. I'll try to push myself to update my stories soon, just please bare with me.