"You're pregnant?" Beca lifted an eyebrow. "H-How long have you known?" She cleared her throat.
"Two weeks. Finding out was probably the last straw for breaking up with him. I didn't want him to hurt the baby." Chloe said softly.
"Well, are you planning to keep it? Did you plan?" Beca asked. She wanted to understand what was going on in Chloe's head, but at the same time she didn't want to intrude and make Chloe feel like it was an interrogation.
"I-I don't really know yet." Chloe sighed. "I didn't plan it…" She bit down on her lower lip.
"Chloe, come on. You love when we go out with them! It's gonna be fun." Matt said for probably the seventh time that day.
"I already told you. I'm not in the mood to go drink with your military buddies." Chloe sighed.
"What is it?" Matt asked. "Do you have something against my friends?"
"No…" Chloe ran a hand through her hair. "I just pretty sick of having to listen to all your military talk. I hate having to pretend that whatever the wives is talking about could somehow be interesting. I don't want to go." She said
"For once it would be great if you could be supportive of me, Chloe!" Matt scoffed. "All of the other guys are bringing their wives and girlfriends!"
"Well, maybe I don't want to be your trophy tonight…" Chloe mumbled as she left the room.
Matt grabbed her arm to stop her from leaving. "I heard that. You're coming with me tonight and you're gonna smile and you're gonna have a good time. I don't want to hear any of your bullshit tonight." He sneered.
"Let go of me!" Chloe raised her voice and pulled her arm away. "I don't care what you say, I'm not going." She pushed past him and went into the living room of their shared apartment.
"Fine, I don't need you." He grabbed his coat and wallet and left.
Chloe shook her head as she sat down on the couch. She knew that he wouldn't be home until later tonight and by then, he would be too drunk to continue their argument. She hated this.
It was probably the third time she had cancelled because she just hated having to sit and listen to them talk about military stuff and pretend to be interested.
Matt didn't come home until almost four hours later. Chloe got up from the couch when she heard the door open. She leaned against the wall, watching him.
"Heeeeey! Baby, I'm home!" Matt slurred with a laugh. He tried to walk towards her, supporting himself with a hand on the wall.
"Yeah. I can see that. I can also see that you're drunk." Chloe said, folding her arms over her chest.
"No, no, not at all." Matt tried to hug her, but Chloe stepped back. "I just had a few beers."
"Sure." Chloe rolled her eyes. "You can barely walk without tripping."
"C'mon baby, let's go to bed and have some fun." Matt winked and grabbed onto her arm.
"I'm not having sex with you when you're drunk, you know that." Chloe sighed, trying to pull her arm away.
"Baby…" Matt groaned. He pressed her up against the doorframe. "I need you." He smirked.
"No." Chloe shook her head. "It's not happening." She pushed past him and went into the living room.
"You're not walking away from me!" Matt yelled. "You're supposed to take care of me when I come home!" He pushed her against the table and bend her down. Matt placed a hand on the back of her neck, holding her down. He used his other hand to pull his own pants and underwear off before he pushed Chloe's dress up and pulled her underwear down.
"Get off me!" She screamed, trying to get away from him. The hand on the back of her neck, holding her down.
"Shut up!" He said as he thrusted inside her without warning.
Chloe bit down on her lower lip as tears streamed down her face. She knew that this was wrong. This wasn't the first time that he had reacted to a fight by pinning her down and forcing her to have sex with him. This couldn't be normal. This wasn't what a loving, supporting relationship was supposed to be like. Chloe wanted to scream, kick and run away, but she knew that he would just get aggressive and it wouldn't stop him. When he finally came and pulled out, Chloe collapsed on the floor, crying, as he left the room. Chloe pulled herself up and got dressed. She grabbed her things and slipped out of the apartment. She had to go somewhere, she couldn't be home now. Chloe got in her car and called Emily, the only person who lived close to her.
"Chloe! Omg hi!" Emily said as she picked up the phone.
"Em, can I stay with you tonight?" Chloe asked softly.
"Yes! Of course!" Emily basically screamed into the phone.
"Thank you… I'll be there in fifteen minutes." Chloe said before she hung up.
Chloe drove to Emily's house and spend the night on her couch. In the morning, she explained everything. Chloe told Emily everything that had happened since Beca left and for the first time in a long time, she cried in front of someone else.
"Chlo…" Beca whispered. "Does he know?"
Chloe shook her head. "No, and I didn't plan on telling him." She ran a hand through her hair. "I've always wanted to be a mother… I just didn't think that it would happen like this, but now it has… I'm gonna keep it. Even if I have to do it alone." Chloe looked down at her hands.
"No, Chloe…" Beca took Chloe's hand. "You're not gonna do this alone."
"I don't want him to know." Chloe shook his head.
"That's not what I meant." Beca looked at Chloe. "Move in with me."
"What?" Chloe looked up at her.
"Move in with me." Beca repeated.
"No, Beca… I can't do that. You've got your life here and I've got my life at home…" Chloe sighed.
"There's no reason that I should be alone up here. This apartment is too big for one person and you're gonna have to find something else anyway…" Beca said softly
"What about your girlfriend?" Chloe asked.
"My what?" Beca's eyes widened.
"Your girlfriend... " Chloe repeated. "I don't know.. I read it online."
"Chloe… I'm not seeing anyone." Beca chuckled slightly. "Who did they say that I was dating?"
"I don't know. It was some blonde girl." Chloe shrugged. "I didn't recognize her."
"I'm not dating anyone." Beca said. "You have nothing to worry about." She took Chloe's hand.
"Beca, if I move in here and have a baby, you aren't gonna be able to bring dates home or anything." Chloe said.
"Luckily, I don't care about that. I haven't dated anyone since we broke up." Beca smiled a little.
"I can't ask you to put your life on standby, Becs." Chloe sighed.
"I don't care about all of that." Beca said. "I don't want you to have to do it alone. I want to help you. Will you let me?" She lifted an eyebrow.
"Alright." Chloe nodded. "I'll move in with you. We'll do this together." She said.
"We'll figure out how to do it tomorrow. Let's just go to bed now." Beca said softly.
"Yeah." Chloe nodded and stood up. "Goodnight, Becs." She said before she left the room.
Beca wanted to stop her, wanted to ask her to spend the night in here with her, but she knew that it was probably a step too far right now. She wanted to reconnect with Chloe and wanted to help her through this, even if Chloe didn't want to be with her again. Beca wanted this to work. She wanted them to be able to live together, even if they weren't a couple.
Chloe woke up as she felt the bed dip down. She slowly opened her eyes, seeing Beca sitting on the bed.
"Good morning." Beca smiled. "How did you sleep?"
"Fine…" Chloe mumbled as she stretched.
"So, what do you wanna do today?" Beca asked.
"Becs, I have no idea. I've never been in New York before and I just flew in last night." Chloe chuckled.
"Alright, we could go for a walk?" Beca suggested. "I'll show you New York."
"Sounds good." Chloe nodded.
"Great! I'll make us some breakfast while you get ready." Beca got up and disappeared out from the bedroom and into the kitchen.
Chloe sat up in the bed and watched as Beca left. She couldn't believe that the younger girl wanted her to stay so badly that she offered her help throughout the pregnancy. Chloe took a quick shower and got dressed before she joined Beca in the kitchen. "Something smells good here." She smiled.
"I made eggs and bacon." Beca said, turning around to face Chloe. "Coffee?"
"Yes, please." Chloe said as she sat down at the dining table while Beca placed a plate and a cup of coffee in front of her. "Thanks." Chloe smiled.
Beca sat down with her own food. "So what do you wanna see today?" She asked.
"I don't really know." Chloe shrugged. "You could show me your favourite parts of New York."
"Well, my favourite is the studio where I recorded my single." Beca said.
"Then show it to me. I'd love to see you work." Chloe smiled.
"I can't just show up. I need to set a date with the producer, but I'll take you there someday. I promise." Beca said.
Chloe nodded slightly as she began eating. Someday. She had heard that one from Beca before. Someday she would find out what she wanted to do in life. Someday she would invite Chloe to meet her dad and Sheila. Someday, she would stop doubting herself and believe that Chloe loved her. None of it really ever happened.
When they finished eating and the dishes were done, Beca grabbed her keys, jacket and guitar case. "So, are you ready to see New York?"
"Yeah." Chloe smiled as she walked out of the house with Beca right behind her.
"So, I think that I want to start by showing you where I played for the first time here." Beca said. "When I first got in contact with my manager, he told me that it would be great idea to do some small street concerts to get my name and my sound slightly out there, so three weeks after I moved here, I went to Central park with my guitar and played for a few hours. It was probably the best mini concert I have ever played, so I'm gonna do it again today." Beca smiled.
"I'm excited to hear you live, Becs." Chloe said softly. "Is it just gonna be you with a guitar?"
"No, I wish it was, but my manager is setting up speakers and a mic for me and a few of his other artists." Beca said as they walked towards the park. When they reached the park, Beca quickly spotted her manager. She grabbed Chloe's hand and pulled her along.
"You're late." Dave, Beca's manager said with his arms crossed.
"Dave, c'mon. I'm five minutes late and the show is already on." Beca sighed.
"Five minutes late is still late." Dave ran a hand over his head. "Just get ready." He walked away.
"He's tough." Chloe said.
"Yeah. That's the music business." Beca said as she got her guitar out of the case.
"What are you playing? Chloe asked softly.
"I'm actually debuting a new song. I wrote it two weeks after Aubrey told me about your boyfriend." Beca said.
"Ex boyfriend." Chloe corrected her.
"Yeah. Ex boyfriend." Beca nodded. "I have to talk to my manager for a minute before I start, but you can just stay here."
"Alright. Good luck." Chloe smiled slightly as Beca walked away. She looked over at the young boy behind the microphone, one of the other singers that Beca had mentioned. Chloe was afraid. Afraid of what Beca had written when she had heard about Matt. Ten minutes passed and people started filling in behind Chloe.
Beca went up to the microphone. "Hi. I'm Beca Mitchell." She smiled as a few people in the crowd cheered. "I want to play a new song for you today. This is 'Dancing on my own'." Beca took a step back and plugged the guitar in as she played the opening chords. She played the opening once more as she stepped back up to the microphone with her eyes closed as she began the song.
Somebody said you got a new friend
But does he love you better than I can?
And there's a big black sky over my town
I know where you're at I bet he's around
And yeah I know it's stupid
But I just gotta see it for myself
I'm in the corner
Watching you kiss him
And I'm right over here
Why can't you see me?
And I'm givin' it my all
But I'm not the girl you're taking home
I keep dancing on my own
I just wanna dance all night
I'm all messed up, I'm so out of line
Stilettos and broken bottles
I'm spinning around in circles
And I'm in the corner
Watching you kiss him
And I'm right over here
Why can't you see me?
And I'm giving it my all
But I'm not the girl you're taking home
And I keep dancing on my own
And no, no
Halfway through the song, Beca opened her eyes and looked down at Chloe.
So far away
But still so near
The lights come on
The music dies
But you don't see me standing here
I just came to say goodbye
I'm in the corner
Watching you kiss him
And I'm giving it my all
But I'm not the girl you're taking home
And I keep dancing on my own
And no, no
Said, I'm in the corner
Watching you kiss him
Oh, no
And I'm right over here
Why can't you see me?
Oh, no
And I'm giving it my all
But I'm not the girl you're taking home
And I keep dancing on my own
So far away
But still so near
The lights come on
The music dies
But you don't see me standing here
Beca looked out over the crowd with tears in her eyes during the last lines. When she finished she took a step back and smiled as people clapped and cheered.
"Thank you." Beca smiled before she stepped off the small stage and walked back over to Chloe.
Chloe immediately pulled Beca into a hug. "That was amazing, Becs." She whispered.
"Thanks, Chlo:" Beca smiled. She placed a kiss on Chloe's cheek before she pulled away from the hug. "I promised Dave that I would give an interview and take a few pictures. Is that okay with you?" She asked.
"Yes. Of course." Chloe smiled. "Go get famous." She watched as Beca went in front of a camera to talk about how it felt to debut her new song.
"Beca Mitchell the new rising star of Arctic Records just debuted her song 'Dancing On My Own. in front of a live audience" The interviewer said, looking at Beca. "How do you feel?"
"Really great." Beca smiled. "I've been working on this song for a while and it means a lot to me that I finally got to play it live."
"Can you give us a little peak into the song? Who is it about?" The interviewer poked around. "Perhaps an ex?"
Beca chuckled slightly. "Yeah, i'ts about my ex and the moment I was told that they were with someone new." Beca said. She had been advised to avoid any pronouns when talking about her song inspirations. Beca wanted to just casually mention that she was gay, but her manager told her to keep it under wraps, at least until her first album.
"Oh, that's a tough one." The interviewer said. "Thank you for your time. We just wanna wish you good luck with your career and new song."
"Thank you." Beca smiled as the camera turned off.
"Ready for pictures, Beca?" Dave asked. He snuck an arm around her waist.
"Yeah." Beca nodded. She leaned slightly towards him as a few pictures were taken.
"So, who did you bring?" Dave asked.
"My ex." Beca looked over at Chloe who was sitting on a bench with her phone.
"Why are you writing sad songs about her? She's clearly into you. Do something about it." He said.
"I can't." Beca shook her head. "Can I go now?"
"Yeah. sure." Dave nodded. "I'll see you monday at 1, so we can start the album."
"Monday at 1." Beca repeated before she went back over to Chloe. "I'm sorry that you had to sit here and wait." She said softly.
"Don't worry about it, Becs." Chloe smiled. "I'm pretty hungry, so why don't you show me your favourite lunch spot?"
"That sounds like a plan." Beca nodded. She took Chloe's hand as they walked out of the park. The sound of Dave's voice echoed in her head 'She's clearly into you. Do something about it'. Maybe she should. Maybe she should just go for it and tell Chloe that she had feelings for her. Or maybe not. What if Chloe didn't feel the same? What if she just laughed in her face? Beca couldn't take that risk. Especially now that Chloe was pregnant. Beca had never really been a fan of kids. Yes, she agreed to help Chloe, but she didn't want to be a mother. She couldn't handle that responsibility. Not when she was just getting her career started.
