I never thought things would go this wrong in my life

I always thought i would marry owen and he wouldn't find out but i was wrong

Lying about cheating was the worst mistake of my life.

I hate myself for what i did and i don't know how ill ever get owen back

Teddy was in a break room crying into her hands making her scrub cap soaked with her tears.

She had no one to cry to , no one to talk to about her issues, she was all alone .

Teddy heard the door open and saw jo walk in " sorry i just needed a minute " she looked at jo .

Jo just looked at her " what did you do to follow your heart and butt dial him?" jo rolled her eyes " why did you do it ? you had a family and a man who loves you and you throw it away for what ? a late night booty call ?'

Teddy looked at her " i already blame myself i don't need you ridiculing me about it ok . I messed up ok ! you never messed up ? you never felt like you don't deserve happiness ? so you take the safe way because happiness and love are so new to you ?"

Teddy looked at her on the break of tears " i love owen and i hurt him , I broke the best thing to happen me. So you don't need to be judging me, I already judge myself enough " Teddy slams her Coffee mug on the counter , she was crying by now and she was at her breaking point .

She has all this built up sadness from everything. Jo just looked at her " does Owen know about any of this teddy ?"

Teddy shook her head no " he won't listen to me "

Jo looked at her " try harder " she walked away leaving a distressed teddy in the room alone .

Owen came in and didn't realize what was going on but he heard everything from the hall .

He didn't know teddy felt like this , he thought he was the reason but choosing everyone over her broke her .

He looked at her sobbing and threw things , he walked to her and hugged her " hey it's ok shh it's ok "he held her close to him .

Teddy saw the strong arms who were always there to hold her .

She looked at him and just sobbed at him for hours on end .

Owen holds her through it all and rubs her back .

He felt like the worst person in the world , he was Owem her best friend and the love of her life and he didn't know she was hurting .

Owen felt as if his world shattered when he heard that voicemail, he heard the women of his dreams with another man on there wedding day.

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Nothing would ever prepare him for what was going to happen to him .

He was depressed as Wells went on and when he really wanted to talk it wasn't what Teddy had in mind .

He sat outside of the er bay getting a break for A little bit , he was depressed .

The love of his life , His everything broke them and he wanted nothing more than to hug her and kiss her , He wanted to be her husband but fate had other plans .

When he heard that voicemail it broke him into a thousand pieces and he gave Teddy every chance to come clean and she didn't so he played it for her and walked out.

He was broken into a million pieces .

He thought about that night when Teddy had walked to him " hey i don't know when i'll get another chance but we can talk now." Owen nods softly

" I took a look at my will and in case something happens to me you would get Allison of course , I still need to ask Amelia and link about Leo ."

Teddy looked at him " owen i want to talk about us , I don't want to split them up. There brother and sister ."

her phone was going crazy and the first thing she thought was she was going to tom ." you have to go you should take that " teddy looked at him putting her phone away and got her mask backup backing up

"I'm not ok with you dieing owen " she ran into the building .

Owen just looked at her on the verge of tears.

Owen held teddy close rocking her close to him " hey look at me " he held teddy's face

Teddy was sobbing hard and looked at him, she had all this built up and didn't know how or what to do with all this .

Owen held her face " you're going to go to therapy and things will be better ok ?'he kisses her head " ill always love you teddy , i'm never going to not love you but you need to fix everything ok. You need to figure what's going on " he got up and walked away from her.

He didn't know what or where he was going but he couldn't be there right now.

He was still hurt by Teddy and needed time but he loves her and things will be better for the both of them together.

Teddy stood there looking at her feet, she hadn't heard from Owen in 3 days and she was beyond worried something bad would happen but it was Owen .

He probably needed space to think. She went to therapy and started to talk about her fears , but she had this pit that they won't be ok.

She told the therapist that she feels she's not worth anyones love and feels that she would choose someone over her again.

She had this gut feeling Owen wasn't ok but she ignored it .

She had to for the sake of her mental health, she just wanted him back in her arms again.

She wanted to cuddle on Christmas night after making love for hours like they used to.

She was scared That they will never be married , that she won't be a teddy hunt.

She got a lab coat with his name on it but it will sit in her closet, she put it on and broke down in tears about everything and just wanted these strong arms around her while she cried and she would take it all back if she could but that's not how life worked .

She didn't hate Owen; she loved him with everything she had and losing him was her worst fear.

She's lost everyone she had in her body. She wanted Owen and only him. She wanted him but nothing made her feel better .

she watched the ambulance come in but nothing would prepare her for what would happen .