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Chapter 18 - Perfect Guy
Sutton had never felt so lost and confused in her entire life. It was like she was living in a nightmare that she couldn't escape. The night of Half-Sack's wake had ended up keeping her up for two days, as she tried to get the images out of her head. It was like nothing would work. It didn't help that an innocent baby had been kidnapped from his home, innocent people were injured showing their respect for a man who had lost his life trying to protect the baby, and on top of it, she knew that Happy was going to go to prison, and she wasn't sure for how long. It was almost like her world was crashing down around her and all she wanted to do was escape with Happy to a little island away from all of the terrible things in the world.
It didn't help that she had been completely ignoring Happy, not wanting much to do with him, and knew that it was because of the pregnancy hormones. She had been going bat shit crazy over the past few days, and with everything happening, she had been on edge.
The brunette had kept trying to rationalize in her head if she was doing the right thing as she got in the shower for her baby appointment. She would be lying if she said she wasn't scared shitless of something happening to her or their baby, or even Happy. She couldn't even begin to phathom everything that has happened over the past couple of days, and knew that she was going to have to apologize to Happy for how she had been acting, but she wasn't sure if it changed her thought on their relationship.
Once she had gotten showered and dressed, she had put on her sling to keep her shoulder from moving still, and then decided to add make-up to her face to hide the bags under her eyes from lack of sleep.
Once she had made herself presentable, she had put on a pair of red pump heels since she had been not putting much effort into appearence since her surgery, and she stood in front of the the full length mirror in her room to examine her outfit.
"You look gorgeous." Sutton jumped at the familiar raspy voice, causing her to look behind her to see Happy leaning against the door frame.
Happy's dark eyes scanned Sutton's outfit, seeing the jeans hugging her hips and butt, then scanned the white low cut v-neck t-shirt that was hugging her baby bump.
"Can you put my hair up for me?" Sutton questioned quietly, and watched as Happy pushed himself off the door and went to stand behind the dark haired woman and grabbed the hair tie from her and gathered her hair and secured it with the band.
"It's kind of chilly out. Might want a jacket." Happy stated.
Sutton gave him a nod, heading to grab her leather jacket, "I should apologize..." Sutton added as she slipped her arm into the sleeve, then pulled the other part over her shoulder carefully, "I've been acting like a psycho."
"You haven't been the easiest to deal with, but it's understandable..." Happy added, eyeing the woman who had been going off the deep end with emotions since everything had happened with Abel, and then Half-Sack's wake, "Look, I just...I want to get through this appointment, hopefully find out what we are having, and then talk." Happy added, knowing that they were drifting apart since everything had been going down with the club.
Sutton gave him a nod in agreement after grabbing her purse and following him out of the bedroom and then the house, after making sure that she had locked the door as they headed towards her car.
"What are you hoping for?" Sutton asked quietly as Happy started her car, then backed out of the driveway and headed to Saint Thomas.
"Kind of hoping for a boy." Happy smirked to Sutton, "If it's a girl, and she looks anything like you, I'm gonna lock her ass up in a castle or something." Happy joked, causing Sutton to let out a geniune laugh for the first time in days.
"I'm kind of hoping for a girl." Sutton grinned from ear to ear, "I was looking at clothes online and there's the cutest outfits ever." Sutton, "But I don't care either way as long as he or she is healthy."
"Me too." Happy stated, thankful that they were just making small talk instead of being at each others throats like the last couple of days.
Happy knew that with everything that was going on, it was hard for either of them to be overly excited and enjoy the news of their baby, especially with knowing that Happy was going to be sent to prison since he was out on bail for the time being, along with several other men from the club.
"Think of any names yet?" Happy questioned.
"No, I wanted to wait until we find out the sex." Sutton explained, "I did order a few baby books on amazon, should be here in a couple of days, so we have some time to decide."
Sutton remained quiet as Happy pulled into the parking lot of Saint Thomas and found the first available parking space, and killed the engine of the car. Without wasting time, Happy and Sutton got out of the car and headed inside to make sure the baby was okay.
-SOA-
Sitting in the doctor's office waiting for her name to be called, Sutton had been debating on how to tell her parents about the news of the pregnancy. The brunette had been thinking about flying out to Colorado for a couple of days to tell them in person, but she wasn't really sure how Happy would handle that news.
"You talk to your parents?" Happy questioned lowly.
"No, not yet. Things have been hectic." Sutton spoke softly, "I was thinking about flying out for a couple of days, tell them the news in person." Sutton glanced to the large tattooed man sitting next to her and saw him tense.
"So you can run?" Happy questioned, turning to face her, "Don't like the idea of you leaving state." Happy added causing Sutton's eyes to narrow.
"Seriously?" Sutton let out a laugh, "You can't stop me from visiting my parents Hap."
Sutton knew that Happy was questioning where their relationship stood, especially with how she's been acting the past couple of days. But for him to say that he didn't like the idea of her leaving state, just pissed her off even more.
"You're carrying my kid Sutton." Happy started, "You broke up with me over shit I can't control, so forgive me for thinking you'll do anything crazy right now."
Sutton rolled her grayish blue eyes, "Are you being serious right now?" Sutton questioned in disbelief, "I have every right to act crazy right now." Sutton hissed lowly, "We aren't doing this right now."
Happy's dark eyes narrowed at the brunette and was getting ready to respond but was cut off by Sutton's name being called causing the short pregnant woman to stand up, with him following her.
The Tacoma killer stood in silence as the nurse gestured for Sutton to get on the weighing scales, and wrote her weight down, then had them follow her into an empty exam room. Once the nurse had taken Sutton's blood pressure, along with a few other simple tests, she had excused herself to get the doctor so he could perform the ultrasound.
"You just not going to say anything to me?" Happy questioned sitting on the edge of his seat.
"I have nothing to say to you right now." Sutton stated as she laid back on the exam table and stared up at the ceiling, "I just want to enjoy this appointment." Sutton added.
Happy let out a sigh, realizing that Sutton was definitely more stressed out, "Alright." Happy looked to the brunette, and moved to put his large hand on her baby bump, trying to picture what they were going to have.
There was a knock on the door, indicating that the doctor was about to walk in the door, causing Sutton to try to sit up, and Happy had helped her.
"Hey Sutton, how are you?" The doctor questioned once he walked in the exam room.
"I'm alright." Sutton gave the doctor a soft smile, "How are you?" Sutton questioned.
"Been pretty busy around here." He smiled causing Happy to glare at the man, "When you decide to come back, you should see if you can get switched over this way."
"I might just do that." Sutton laughed, "Can't get into too much trouble with pregnant ladies and kids."
"Exactly." The doctor smiled, "So, how is the pregnancy treating you?"
"I've had really bad anxiety and mood swings the past couple of days and feel like I could sleep for days, figured it's all apart of the journey."
"It is. Some pregnancies are different." The doctor commented, "Should we see how the baby is doing?"
Happy didn't like how chatty the doctor was with Sutton, or how she was just as chatty back to the man. Happy's large hand reached for Sutton's small hand as the doctor began to apply the gel onto Sutton's stomach once she had laid back down.
Sutton's eyes were glued to the screen as the baby appeared on it, causing a smile to form on her face when she heard the baby's heart beat, then glanced to Happy to see him smiling as well.
"The baby is healthy." Dr. Davis smiled, "Growing accordingly." He added.
"Do you think we could find out the sex, or is it too soon?" Happy questioned, causing Sutton to glance at him, "We want to know, right babe?" Happy added.
"Yeah." Sutton nodded her head.
"Let's see..." Dr. Davis moved the wand around on her stomach, as his eyes were glued to the screen, then printed off a couple of pictures, then froze the frame, "It looks like the baby is cooperating, are you sure you guys want to know?" Dr. Davis questioned.
"Definitely." Sutton grinned, wanting to know what they were going to have, and felt Happy's hand tighten around hers.
"Well, congratulations mom and dad, it looks like you will be having a baby girl." Dr. Davis smiled.
Sutton's eyes instantly filled with tears as she smiled, causing Happy to lean over and kiss her forehead, then wiped her stomach off.
"I'll give you two a minute, then we'll get your next appointment scheduled."
Happy couldn't believe that he was having a little girl. He knew that the little princess would have him wrapped around her finger, just like her mother without even knowing it. He knew that he was going to have get more guns.
"So, a little princess." Sutton grinned, with the realization of her being pregnant hitting her full force.
"You happy?" Happy questioned, wiping his cheek quickly, helping Sutton to sit up.
"Yeah, really happy. What about you?" Sutton questioned, "I know you secretly wanted a boy."
"Baby, I'm happy. I'd be happy with a boy or girl." Happy cupped her cheek, "The only thing I'm freaking out about is if she looks anything like you, I'm going to be in a world of trouble."
Sutton let out a small laugh as she fixed her t-shirt and then leather jacket, "This is absolutely crazy." Sutton smiled to her baby bump, now realizing that her baby girl is growing inside of her, then heard the door get knocked on, then opened revealing the doctor with her next appointment information.
-SOA-
When the expecting parents had arrived back at Sutton's home, Happy wasn't surprised that the brunette had headed straight for her bedroom to sleep, causing him to roll his eyes. He had been wanting to talk about her wanting to take off to Colorado after everything that has happened, afraid that she wouldn't return.
Kicking off his boots, and laying his weapons on the kitchen island, Happy decided to strip out of his clothes as he headed straight for Sutton's bedroom a few moments later. The tattooed man hadn't slept much over the past few days, especially since he had been trying to track down leads with the other club members in order to find Abel, and then with worrying about where Sutton's head was at, he couldn't find the time to sleep, or his mind wouldn't allow him to.
Walking into the dark bedroom, Happy wasn't surprised to see no light shining through out the door besides her candle warmer as he made his way to the large bed.
His dark eyes narrowed for a moment, trying to figure out if the brunette was already asleep, and knew that if she was awake, she'd end up kicking him out of the room, so he slipped into the bed gently, and under the covers, and smiled to himself when Sutton turned to her side to face him and cuddled up against him, with his large hand resting on her stomach, thinking of their daughter.
-SOA-
Waking up a few hours later, Happy reached for Sutton and frowned when she wasn't there in the bed beside him. As he opened his dark eyes, he looked around the room almost trying to hear where she was in the house, and heard her on the phone, but her soft voice came out muffled.
Getting out of the large bed, Happy reached for his jeans and slipped them on before grabbing his pre-paid phone to check to see if he had missed any calls or texts from the club, then headed out into the living room.
The tattooed man glanced to the kitchen to see Sutton on the phone as she was pouring herself something to drink, then glanced to Happy, and moved towards the coffee machine, causing him to give her a nod.
"Yeah Tara, I'll stop by here in a little bit." Sutton stated, "Alright, yeah, I'll see you then."
Happy's eyes narrowed slightly but sat at the kitchen island table waiting for the pot of coffee and for the dark haired woman to get off the phone, in hopes to talk about their relationship and were they stood since she was being so hot and cold.
Once Sutton had hung up the phone, she had waited for the coffee to finish before pouring Happy a cup, and handing it to him. The dark haired woman looked to the tattooed man and knew that his mind was in several different directions, causing her to lean against the table.
"What's on your mind?" Sutton questioned quietly, causing Happy to look up to her and he let out a little laugh.
"Everything." Happy stated honestly.
Sutton thought for a moment, probably already knowing everything he meant, "Want to talk about it?" Sutton questioned quietly, not really wanting to argue with the tattooed man.
"Yeah." Happy stood up with his coffee cup in hand, "Let's go in the living room." Happy added, letting Sutton give a nod and followed the tall man into the living room and sat down on the couch.
Happy took a few large sips of the black coffee, and watched as Sutton cuddled up in the corner of the couch with her feet resting on his legs. He took a few minutes before speaking, knowing that he didn't want to dig a further hole with the entire issue of the club, and her leaving the state with their unborn daughter.
"This club shit..." Happy started, turning to face her, "I can handle all that." Happy stated honestly, "I've done a lot of shit in my life time, and I know you aren't use to this shit." Happy added, his dark eyes glued to the mother of his unborn daughter, "I never meant for this shit to effect you so much and I should of kept you here instead of getting involved with the club."
"Hap, it would still be the same results." Sutton spoke, "An innocent baby was kidnapped, a man died trying to protect him, and innocent people were shot at in the front of a funeral home because of the club." Sutton explained, "I love you, I love you so fucking much that it scares me, but it's not just me that I have to worry about, we have a daughter." Sutton added.
"Sutton, I know that. I'm doing everything in my power to make sure you both are safe." Happy sighed, and put his coffee cup down and laid his hand on her leg, "The club has never seen this much bad shit in a long fucking time. It will eventually get better." Happy added, "I just don't want you running from me."
"Hap..." Sutton sighed, sitting up, "You weren't the one who pushed me to the ground to make sure I wasn't going to get hit with a bullet, you were the one walking straight into the line of fire, almost like you forgot all about me and our daughter."
Happy saw the unshed tears building in her eyes, "I knew you were safe with Kozik, Sutton. It's my job to go after the threat, it's how I'm programmed." Happy stated.
"I thought your job would be to make sure you're fucking alive to see your daughter born." Sutton moved to get off the couch, "Look, I get what you do for the club, I truly do. But, I have a little girl to think about. What the hell would I say to her when I get a phone call explaining your dead on the side of the road or something?" Sutton questioned heatedly, "What the fuck happened to we're in this together Hap? Because from where I'm sitting, it looks like the only thing you're focused on is the club, like you haven't even registered the fact that you have a child coming, the fact that you're going to be going to prison for God knows how long."
Happy's head dropped for a moment, with his ringed hands covering his face, trying to figure out what to do to make this situation better, but he knew it wouldn't be happening any time soon. The sound of his prepaid cell phone going off caused Sutton to scoff and roll her eyes, causing Happy to drop his hands to answer the phone.
Standing in front of Happy while he answered the phone, Sutton immediately knew by his face that he had to leave, "Alright I'll be there in a minute."
Sutton shook her head with a sigh and headed towards the bathroom, not caring if the tattooed man had followed her or not, and shut the door.
"Sutton...I gotta go." Happy's voice came through the door as he opened it, "They got a lead on Abel, gonna go check in with everyone. Won't be gone that long." Happy cupped her cheeks, and leaned down to kiss her, and frowned when she didn't kiss back as much.
-SOA-
Later that afternoon, Sutton found herself with Tara as she was pulling her car into Teller-Morrow garage, wanting to check on Jax, and followed the doctor into the club house.
Sutton glanced around to the club members and spotted Happy at the pool table with Tig, and noticed the crazy haired man gesture towards her, catching Happy's attention, and watched as the tattooed man approached her.
"What you doing here?" Happy questioned quietly, putting a hand the curve of her neck.
"Tara wanted to check on Jax." Sutton explained, "Find anything out about Abel?" Sutton questioned quietly.
"Yeah. He's in Belfast." Happy stated, "Come here..." Happy added, pulling Sutton towards the corner of the bar area away from everyone, "We leave in a couple of days."
Sutton's eyes narrowed, "What? You're going?" Sutton questioned in disbelief. She knew that she sounded selfish, but she wanted to try to fix things with Happy before he was going to prison, and him in another country wouldn't work.
"Yeah. Most of us are. Few of the guys are staying behind." Happy explained and noticed the tears starting to spill over, "What? Why are you crying?" Happy questioned lowly with concern.
"Because you're a fucking idiot!" Sutton snapped, causing a few heads to turn their way, making Happy grab her upper arm gently and lead her out of the club house and into the parking lot.
"Get the hell off of me." Sutton yanked her arm away from him, "You don't get it do you?!" Sutton half shouted, "You keep talking about wanting to fix this shit but you keep doing the same stupid fucking things!" Sutton shook her head, "If everyone else is going, why the fuck can't you stay here?" Sutton questioned, leaving Happy silent for a moment.
"Sutton..." Happy started, absolutely floored with the woman in front of him.
"Don't Sutton me." Sutton wiped her cheeks, "I'm trying so fucking hard to fix this shit between us, and it's like you don't even give a shit." Sutton started to explain, "Of course I want Abel home safe, but if everyone else is going, then why do they need you? Why would you want to go when you have shit here you need to deal with?" Sutton questioned slightly more calm, "You are going to prison Happy, you are going to miss out on the entire pregnancy, the birth, and God knows what else..."
"Hap, we need you." Sutton heard an unfamiliar voice, causing her to let out a laugh, and looked to the man as she saw Tara storming out of the club house.
"Babe..." Happy tried to stop the woman from walking away by grabbing her hand.
"Go, the club needs you more than I do right now." Sutton stated, pulling her hand out of his and headed for Tara's car without looking back when Happy had tried calling her name.
A/N: Thoughts?