Sweet Dreams Are Made Of This

Chapter 75

Author's Note: Keep reviewing it makes me motivated! Merle is going to make his appearance in the next chapter and I know I'm giving him and Jewel mostly the chapter to themselves to clash. *Clasps hands in anticipation* So Review please.

Prison POV:

Rick sat down next to Jewel, the baby, Summer and Carl. "So you two decided on a name yet?" he asked as he caressed the baby's head.

"I've been suggesting names of the some of the group we've lost," Carl said as he shrugged his shoulder eating his dry cereal.

"And I told him it should be a name that no one in the group had, something just for Ladybug herself," Summer said.

"You mean Lil' Asskicker," Daryl told his niece as he sat down.

Jewel laughed. "She's going to be a week old in a couple days, and though I do love hearing you two argue about her nickname, she needs something permanent."

"Dad do you remember my third grade math teacher Mrs. Mueller?" Carl asked.

Rick glanced at Jewel then at Carl. "Yeah sure, of course," he told his son.

Jewel tried not to grin at her husband who was obviously lying.

"Her first name was Judith; do you think that's a good name?" Carl asked.

"Yeah, that's a good name," Rick agreed. "Summer you got a middle name for her?"

"Jane," Summer answered.

Jewel smiled. "Well I think we've decided on her name. Judith Jane Grimes."

"Still Lil' Asskicker," Daryl told them. "Carl you still want to go with me to clear out more of the prison?"

"Yeah, I'm done here," Carl told him as he stood up.

"Maggie and Glenn are almost ready to go on the run, I need to get my bag," Jewel said as she kissed the baby's head then Summer's.

"You don't have to go, they can take someone else, or go by themselves," Rick told his wife.

"We're short-handed now since we're down T and Carol, got to pitch in on the runs. And I think Summer and Beth both want to stay by little monkey here," Jewel told him.

"Mar's standing guard," Carl told them as he left with them.

"Be careful!" Jewel yelled after them.

Summer looked at her. "You be careful too, I'll go on the next one," Summer told her.

"Hey no one expects you to go out anytime soon," Rick told her. "I'll be back, going to walk your mom out."

"Love you, Summer, and you too Judith…oh Judy," she said as she touched the baby's face.

"Love you to mom," Summer said as she got up with the baby.

Rick glanced back at her as they walked away. "You think she notices we won't let her out of our sight for more than five minutes?"

"Yeah, but she understands too," Jewel told him as she went and got her bag. "You absolutely don't remember Carl's third grade teachers' name do you?"

Rick gave a small laugh. "No, Lori did all that," he said as he kissed her. "Be careful Mrs. Grimes."

"I will Mr. Grimes, now I got to go make sure those two behave themselves," Jewel said as she nodded toward Maggie and Glenn.

"Watch out for each other," Rick told them as he went to open the gate.

"We will," Maggie said as she got in the car. "Let's hope this place has some powdered formula," she said as she closed the door.

"And diapers, I really don't want to be cleaning cloth diapers all the time," Jewel said as she got in the car. "Or I should say that Summer and Beth don't want to be washing cloth diapers all the time," she said as Glenn pulled out of the gate.

Mar's POV:

Mar watched the car pull away as Rick came up to the guard tower. "It isn't your shift yet," she told the man.

Rick laughed. "No, just wanted to check to see how it's going."

"You mean you don't want Jewel to go on this run and you want to stand guard for a while," Mar guessed. "After what happened this past couple days, she needs to get outside the prison walls. Baby got a name yet?"

"Judith Jane," Rick answered.

"Strong name and Jane was definitely a lil' asskicker," Mar said with a smile. "It's alright to be worried bout her," she told him.

Rick sighed. "What her are we talking about Mar? Are we talking about Summer? Or Jewel? Or the baby?"

"All the above?" Mar answered. "I guess right now it's Jewel cause she's out there. But she's with Glenn and Maggie. They'll watch each other's' backs. They are all strong," she assured him.

Rick smiled. "What about you? How are you doing?"

"I'm alright," Mar answered.

"What you said out in the court yard…" Rick said as he looked at her.

"About waking up every two hours? Yeah, I still do. I guess it's not something that I'm going to get over anytime soon. I'm going to go spend some time with Summer after this. See how she's doing," Mar told him.

"We aren't talking about Summer right now Mar, we're talking about you. Every time someone brings this up, you change the subject. You're part of this group, and besides being my wife's best friend and the way we found her, I don't think I've spent five minutes with you alone. I'm not going to do anything," Rick assured her.

"I know, Rick," Mar sighed as she watched the yard. "I figure if I don't think about it during the day it may not haunt me at night. But I guess that isn't working to well. And you're right, I don't share about myself. There's always to many other people to worry about, too much things to do," she told him.

"And a Daryl to think about?" Rick teased her.

"Jewel told you," Mar simply stated.

"Yeah, it's also kind of obvious the way you two are with each other," Rick told her.

"Nothing's going on between us, Daryl isn't one to share his feelings with anyone," Mar reminded him.

Rick laughed. "I know all about Dixon's not opening up," he assured her. "I'm married to one of them," he reminded her. "My daughter is one of them."

"Glad you didn't give up on Jewel. She needed someone to rely on, someone to care for her. She had to go on this run so Summer wouldn't volunteer. Jewel isn't ready for that yet. Not with everything Summer's been through. The girl needs time to regroup to focus, so does Carl. The baby is doing that for both of them. It won't be long until she's back and the two of you can sneak to the control room," Mar teased him.

"Oh just wait til you break down Daryl's defenses," Rick teased her back.

Summer and Beth's POV:

Summer handed the baby over to her. "There you are Ladybug, go to Beth."

Beth took the baby and looked at the other teen. "How are you?" she asked her friend.

"You mean after my whole break down?" Summer asked.

"You were there for me at the farm. You didn't try to kill yourself," Beth said softly.

"No, I just went into a walker infested area….I don't even remember getting there Beth. I don't remember sneaking out of the cell, I don't remember picking up a weapon. I remember going into that room seeing the walker had eaten Lori….and going bat crazy," she told the other teen. "I saw Jane..I had a full conversation with a woman who probably died at the beginning of this thing. That's not sane Beth."

Beth clasped the other girl's hand. "Summer you told me we were strong. I don't know if I could have done what you did for Lori, what you did for the baby."

"Judith Jane…" Summer said as she looked at the baby. "What did I do for her Beth? I killed her mother."

"But you saved that baby," Hershel told her as he sat down. "Summer, that baby is alive because you reacted bravely to a very bad situation. You shutting down for a little bit doesn't mean you're insane. It means you're human, very human," he assured the girl. "I went through the guilt, the pain, the asking myself what I could have done differently after the barn. You saw your friend because you needed her. I'm surprised you and Bethy haven't broken down before this. We care about you Summer, that's why we are keeping an eye on you. You all kept an eye on me after my breakdown."

"I know Hershel, it's just that you all shouldn't have to keep an eye on me. I should be pulling my weight not be a burden. We are down people," Summer reminded him.

"You are pulling your weight. You are watching this baby girl like a hawk," Hershel reminded her. "You needed to take a step back, Summer a time to regroup. This baby is helping you do it. You are keeping your word to Lori. You will get back out there when you feel ready. And until then, you are pulling your weight. Don't worry about what you are not doing, worry about what you are doing."

"Daddy's right, we've all got a job to do and right now it's helping with Judith, and it's getting yourself better. It's resting when you need to, it's talking when you need to, it's screaming when you need to. Or just rocking the baby," Beth told the other teen. "We all need some time sometimes to take a breather."

"I do feel better when I'm holding her," Summer admitted.

"Who could not?" Beth asked.

"We're here Summer. We can't imagine what you went through with Lori, so you are grieving in a whole different way than us. But don't forget, that we are all here for you. You feel like pulling away, you feel a little lost, you find one of us," Hershel told her.

Summer nodded. "I'll do my best Hershel," she told him as she squeezed his hand.

"You always do," Beth told her as she grasped her other hand.