Chapter 10
The petite mort had lasted quite a while before she was coming back to consciousness. She fluttered her eyes in repulsion to the light, "Is it morning?" her voice not above a whisper. she lifted her face from the warm skin of his bicep, he was looking at the ceiling, "Nope, don't you hear the party?"
"Uh, now that you mention. I Do." She sat up, running her hand in her hair to fix it, completely ignoring his eyes on her, "You okay?"
"I am fine." She reached for her dress at the foot of the bed, he frowned sitting up, his hand reached out to her back, "What's the rush?"
"I wanted to spend some time with Dad and Jer." She smiled, which felt fake to him. "Okay, but uh are we-"
"What?" she moved away when he tried to help her zip the dress, "Elena!" he chuckled, "Stop it." He crawled forward and pulled her under him, she sighed, "Damon what are you doing?"
"I am making it up to you." He grinned as he leaned down and kissed the tip of her nose, she huffed but he tipped her chin up, "Can't you forgive your old guy one last time?" he pouted, she rolled her eyes at his antics, "what difference does it make?"
"It does, I like it when you're happy." He said peppering kisses on her cheeks, "When you're all chatty and messy. Even if it's frustrating sometimes."
'As if happiness was a choice.' She thought but couldn't say it, she licked her lips, "I am happy." His soft lips made their way to her neck placing the softest kisses, she clenched the sheets suddenly feeling blood rushing to her cheeks, "Elena." He said between kisses, "Did you think about it?" his hands tracing down her arms to hold her hands against the mattress, restricting their movement. "About what?" she asked swallowing thick.
"kids."
Suddenly she grew tense, her decision was non-negotiable, why wasn't he understanding this. "Damon listen." She coughed and pushed against him to sit up, " Kids? We talked about this. It has hardly been a week."
He frowned, "Why are you freaking out? I just- it's a good subject." He stroked the side of her hair, she shook her head, "No you should get use to this, I don't want to have kids right now, and when I say now I mean for at least five to eight years for safety."
"Safety from what? No- you want to have kids when I am not able to enjoy a family?"
"Forty is not old Damon." She cupped the side of his face but he moved it away, "No you tell me what this is about."
"I've already told you what this is about, this is about me not wanting kids dying." She got up the bed, he shook his head, "That's not your problem, it's mine."
She clenched her fists, "This is unfair Damon, Family should be our decision."
"Exactly, and here you are deciding everything without me." he spat, "Listen to me Elena, I want kids."
She narrowed her eyes, hands on her hips, "wa-wait wasn't I calling all the shots?"
"Clearly you're not in that position yet."
She nodded at his answer, "Oh." He looked up as she said, "Okay, if wanting to have kids is your decision than I have a condition." He rolled his eyes, "What?"
"You have to leave this." She said with her hands across her chest ignoring the shiver that went down her spine with his sudden condescending stare. "What?"
"The Mafia, if we're having kids then-"
He interrupted, "That's out of question for me."
"H-How?" she bit her lip, he looked at her as if she was crazy, "You realize what you're saying right? This is what I do, I've done it for as long as I remember, this has brought me up, fed me, protected me, I am not leaving it, besides do you know the enemies I've made? I can protect my children-"
She interrupted, "It's not for the kids Damon." Silence fell between them before he looked at her as if he was on to her.
He raised a brow, "Wait you're not suggesting I redeem myself this way, don't you?"
She nodded as she breathed, "Exactly, I thought I was okay with this but I."
"You what? Suddenly decided you want to change me into the ideal guy you wanted to marry?" his voice a little high, "You've completely lost it."
She finally snapped, "I've lost it? All I've been is honest with you and as much as I could , I played my part! I've given you complete control of my life and being a menace is more important to you?"
"Menace? This is all you've judged about me didn't you?"
She groaned, "See? This is what I am talking about, if I didn't know you were worth saving I'd never try to interfere."
"Well I didn't ask for it, I don't need your saving Elena." He spat, "If it bothers you, be it, I am not going to change."
She pursed her lips, "Then we've reached a negotiation, you're not going to change and I am not building a future further than this." She turned around to leave but his words froze her in her place, "Someone would."
She turned around, feeling she was losing the floor under her feet, "What do you mean?"
"You heard it Elena, if you're not going to ever go through with this, I'll have to arrange someone else for it."
Immediately Rose's face flashed in front of her eyes, her smirk, her disheveled appearance, she swallowed thick, "Do whatever the fuck you want!" she felt tears coming to her eyes as she walked out of the room, her high heels in her hands.
"Elena, there you are." Caroline touched her shoulder, Elena turned around to see her, Caroline gasped , "Elena why are you crying?"
She shook her head, "No it's just- I don't feel so good."
Caroline gestured Stefan to come and Elena frowned , "No Care I am fine-"
Stefan immediately sensed the tension, "Hey you okay?" she nodded but Stefan and Caroline accompanied her upstairs, it was weird how she wanted to lock herself alone and cry or self-pity. This was not her, she wasn't this woman, if she was anything like some months ago, she would have slapped him across the face but she wasn't angry, she was hurt.
"Will you tell me what's it about?" Caroline sighed exhausted caressing her face, she shook her head, "I don't want to talk about it, I just want to sleep it off okay?"
The door got knocked at and she instantly looked that way, even though she hated it, a part of her had wanted him to be sorry and follow her back here, apologize for making her cry but it was Grayson. Caroline got up and Stefan too followed her out of the room after greeting Grayson formally. Grayson walked in and Elena sat up wiping her eyes, "Hey Dad, how did that meeting go?"
Grayson sat on the bed in front of her and waved it off, "I rather talk about you."
She grinned, "Wow look who finally is running up for father of the year."
"Baby." He leaned forward and kissed the top of her head, "I've always wanted you to be happy, but safe too."
"I still hate that word." She pursed her lips, "You know Dad I did grow up to marry a man just like you."
Her father frowned, he cupped the side of her face, she murmured, "You made mom cry."
He nodded and sighed as if regretting, it was the biggest regret of his life, "And you know how much I regret that right."
She sat back against the pillow, "I don't have to die to make him realize it right?" Grayson shook his head, "Don't you ever say that baby."
"I am going to be fine Dad." She tried to smile, "I worry about Jer and you though, why are you putting on weight? You have that blood pressure issue, " she shifted the conversation.
"Elena." Her father interrupted, "Come home if you want to."
She instantly found herself reluctant, "It's fine Dad , if things are bad, I'll come back."
(-HMHMHMHM-)
She found it absurd how she was mad at someone so much and yet she felt horrible about herself, less about herself, how she was worrying about where he was? What he was doing? Basically missing him? She felt disgusted! He made her feel like she wasn't enough and yet she was busy focusing on him. When the lecture with Tyler ended , he excused himself to the restroom, she still didn't got up her seat, instead pulled out a plain sheet, her hands gliding the pencil expertly on the page, Soon she is finished a single thick eye brow and ran her pointer finger on it, Exactly like the real, she had picked up the blue palette when someone coughed, she turned her head to see Tyler on the door frame, "Someone doesn't want to pack up today."
She grinned, "Call me a hard worker."
He walked inside to see her work but she hid it, "No please it's embarrassing."
"Come on." He said pulling it out of grip, "Hmm that's one familiar eye structure." She sighed, "It's a little personal." He shrugged as he sat next to her, "You look upset, want to talk about it?" She shook her head, "Eh I don't know, you'll not understand exactly."
"Try me." he said in a friendly manner. She sat back, "I just- I feel inadequate. I've never felt this way." She huffed, "My husband is just what I feared, he is Grayson gilbert."
Tyler frowned, "That sounds weird don't you think?"
She shook her head with a chuckle, "I meant the personality, he just does what he wants, even if he shatters me in the process." He didn't say anything allowing her to speak and elaborate whatever had her mind so occupied, "He's a great man , it sounds weird but he just consumes me, they way he speaks, the way he behaves , the way he just, he just makes everything so amazing but then suddenly he just changes, he will leave me in the middle of the night, he will disappear for days, he will act so cold sometimes and I don't know it's like he puts me on fire and then throws me in ice cold water." She looked at him, "I am crazy right?"
He shook his head, "No, not at all, you're putting in effort, I think you're amazing." She chuckled humorlessly shaking her head, "I-I am not, how am I amazing?"
He moved forward holding her hands "Come on you're being too hard on yourself, your kind and understanding, you care about people, enough evidence is you being in love with someone like him."
"What-What? No I am not in love with him okay." She breathed deep, "Maybe infatuated, but I cant be in love with him."
He laughed, "Are you sure? Come on Elena you're not seeing what others see, he fucking kills people for a living and you explain him like he's some art."
Her jaw dropped, "Look Tyler you're being too direct about this-"
"He cheated on you didn't he?"
Her mouth shut, "Maybe."
"Elena he doesn't give a fuck about you being hopelessly in love with him, he is from the mafia, he's probably in an orgy right now." He rolled his eyes, "These men are disgusting and if you think he'll realize you're hurt, he probably already has and guess what? He doesn't care."
She didn't know why but it hurt even more, she shook her head, "eh that's not true, he cares about me, he always apologizes if he messes up." Tyler interrupted , "But does he fix?"
Elena focused on what he says and she realized , never once was something 'fixed' just talked about, she reached for her phone, "I am going to prove you wrong right now."
"What are you doing?"
"I am showing you that one fight isnt ruining my relationship." She dialed the number, "It cancelled."
"Call again, maybe he'll care enough to pick up."
She redialed his number and brought the phone to her hair, the phone kept ringing, she almost gave up before it was picked up, she felt a smile spreading on her lips, "Hello Da-"
"Stoooooop calling!" a shrill voice spoke too loudly.
She clenched the cell phone tighter feeling everything slipping away into nothing, "Who is this?" she spat.
The call was cut and Elena called it again, her hands shivering, "switch off." She murmured, "He's- he's with someone." Tears started running down her eyes as if they were ready for this, she got up the chair, her mind playing the worst images in front of her, he threw their relationship out of the window for nothing-nothing , he never cared for her, he just wanted this idea of a family. Tyler held her arm turning her around, "Don't cry Elena, he was never okay for you." He pulled her into his embrace, stroking her hair as she shed tears on his shoulder, "I cant believe he'd do this, I was nothing-nothing to him, just a fucking deal who he wanted to knock up so he could fill in for his miserable childhood."
"Elena I'll get you out of this, shh." He kissed the top of her head, suddenly she felt too alarmed to be this close to Tyler, she literally told him everything about her relationship, what was she doing, she parted her face from his shoulder to look at him, "I am sorry , my baggage isn't yours, you shouldn't be my unpaid therapist."
"No-no-no, Elena, you think listening to you bothers me? I know you didn't choose to be here, I want to understand you."
She stared into his dark eyes as they dropped to her lips, when he closed the distance she pulled away instantly "No Tyler, I don't , this isn't a good idea."
"Elena I saw it in your eyes."
She nodded, "Yes but it would be to get back at him and not for you and I don't want to do that, that's disgusting Tyler."
He held her arms, "Elena he doesn't care about you, he's currently busy screwing someone else while you are here doing nothing, have some integrity."
She frowned, "Tyler this is insanity!"
"So you're going to do nothing about it?" he raised a brow, she stepped back, "I can't because if I ask him, he'll tell me something I don't want to hear." He looked at her as if he couldn't believe her, his eyes going from the sketch to her before he walked out.
"Just live in fucking denial."
(-HMHMHMHM-)
(a few moments earlier)
"I am really thrilled you agree with me." Damon forwarded the file to Jeremy, he rubbed his eye as he read it, "So Klaus is in Bahamas?"
Damon nodded, "It's some sex-trafficking thing of his I heard."
"He's sex-trafficking from there?"
"A lot of tourists which means a lot of drunk girls who go missing." He sat back in his chair, "So you'll be leaving after Stefan and his Blond doll for Italy."
Jeremy huffed as he looked at the file again, "And you've told my sister about this or not?"
Damon grinned, "The part about the vacation to Bahamas? Yes, after I am done with Klaus, I'll take her to Italy."
"What for?"
"We have plans for Venice." He took the file back from Jeremy and closed it, "I need all his networks down Jeremy."
His office door got knocked at and Chris, one of his men entered, short hair, brown bulging eyes and built, "Capo, they're landed."
"Come on Jeremy, I'll introduce you to some men from Italy that'll help you while you're there." Jeremy joined Damon and they took the car from the office to east coast upstate to the massive mansion. It was dark by now and the party inside was fully heated with music, gambling, naked women along with alcohol and drugs.
Jeremy stood by Damon's side handing him drinks as he bet his money on Roulette, luck (money wise) was on his side as the wheel spun in his favor. Jeremy and him celebrated with throwing back some drinks before busying themselves with liar's poker.
"Straight bluff." Jeremy's words slurred due to the alcohol. Damon chuckled, "You're screwed."
Jeremy ran a hand through his hair, "I am just fucking drunk for this now."
Damon turned around when someone patted his shoulder, he turned around and groaned, "Rose Marie, your attempts are coming off stalkish and pretty desperate."
"We just keep bumping into each other must be a sign." She smirked, he rolled his eyes, "Listen to me, I am not going home tonight you know why?"
She raised a brow.
"Because I don't want to see a woman today, not my wife , certainly not you so please fuck off if you may." He turned back to the table, Rose bit her lip touching his arm, "She is making you repel women now?"
He stepped away, "This is not going to happen so go make it happen with some other psychopath, this one has-"
Jeremy threw up right in front of him, Damon scrunched up his face, "Ugh buddy, you sure you're allowed to drink right?"
"Screw you Damon." Jeremy groaned, Damon rolled his eyes holding Jeremy's arm and helping to hold up, "Come on, time to go home for you."
Just then his phone rings, he saw the caller id and kept it on the table with a huff, "Chris I am leaving Jeremy out, you take care of the cards." He told one of his men as he helped Jeremy out. The phone rang again and Rose looked down at the phone, her blood rushed seeing that name, she picked it up and stepped back so Chris wouldn't see as he was focused on the cards.
(-HMHMHMHMHM-)
She looked at the clock when she saw the car enter the gates. Three in the night again, everything from earlier, from yesterday- it was just too much, she could never love him, not someone like him, he cared about no one but himself. So she wouldn't give him kids so he was getting them from someone else now? And he expected her to be fine with it? What was she going to do anyway?
When the door to the room opened, she stood up, arms folded across her chest, "Why do you even bother coming home?"
"Shut up." He huffed as he loosened his tie and threw it on the sofa, her jaw dropped, "What is wrong with you?" she walked up to him holding his collar, "Look at me!"
He frowned as she tightly held his collar, "You're hurting me on purpose now, was this everything to you? Wanting a family? And if I say no, I am suddenly worthless."
"You think that?" he asked.
"You act that way." She pursed her lips, "I am done dealing with this, I don't understand your puzzles anymore. What do you want?"
He stepped back looking at her head to toe, "You should go pack, we're leaving tomorrow noon."
"for what? Honeymoon from hell?"
(-HMHMHMHM-)
This month was going to be the worst month of her life, she was stuck on a vacation which she didn't want at this point. She just wanted to be in bed , watch sappy movies and cry over it. The only activity she could occupy herself with was the training moves Bonnie her taught her to practice, she was still in the core strengthening part. She was reading a magazine, in a private jet with her husband on the next seat reading a psychology book, neither starting the conversation to break the ice.
She finally shut her magazine, "This will be one long month."
"I'll regain some auditory senses since Caroline has destroyed it." He murmured flipping a page, she scratched her head, "So are you going to keep that promise you made?"
He sighed, "You cant jump off the plane if I say no."
She nodded, "yeah but I can definitely afford a seat from there back home."
He sat back, and closed the book, "Did you stop trusting me at all? I'll keep my promise." He looked at her, "But it's still going to be the honeymoon from hell since the whole silent treatment of yours."
"Don't act like it matters to you." She said looking into his dangerous blue orbs , he shook his head at her, "I already told you I like it when-"
"When I am happy? Well I cant be happy because I am not happy, why is that? Because my marriage is falling apart and as absurd as it sounds I want to save it."
"Our marriage is not falling apart." He held her hands taking the magazine away so he could hold them, "We have contradictory ideas which can be negotiated one way or another."
"What do you mean?" she frowned.
He sighed, "All I mean is I don't want to lose you over this, I hurt you because of my choices, I had no right to do that." He cupped the side of her face, "I know you get annoyed when someone takes the decisions for you, knowing that I tried to force the next step in our relationship when we weren't even ready for this."
She smiled when he brushed the hair away from her face, "After all we had a Venice fairytale to bring to life and I am not giving that up for a million dollars. You're the only girl that's that kinda special." He held her chin as he pecked her lips, she moved away immediately before he could make her forget every thing , "You are not allowed to do that so soon."
He narrowed his eyes, "I know you're pissed at me, but haven't you tortured me enough but walking around in that little towel all morning."
"You seriously deserve more." She said as she rested her head on the seat, he smiled, letting his arm across her, "What would I do without you?" he said as he kissed her temple, she looked up at him, "You'll do just fine." Although he heard her he didn't want to ruin this further, he had her for a long time to himself, before they go back he would fix everything there is to fix.
He knew things couldn't just be right, Elena was compromising right now, she would give a light smile, accept a kiss on the top of her head but he knew she wasn't alright, it was weird how he knew her eyes so well now, he knew just by looking at them that she was happy or not and truly since the night when he left to see Kol's hide out, things weren't right between them and she was pretending that it was fine, which he hated, the only thing he might hate about her was this, even in the car on the way to their rest house she was keeping distance between them. He had slept for about half an hour during the flight and he was sure she hadn't.
The car entered through large gates to an area covered in thick trees, followed by a path that had moon flowers on the sides, she loved how wonderful this place smelled, like summer, coconuts and roses had scented the air, the slightly cold air felt so fresh as they got out of the car, this rest house wasn't what she had expected, like a tall building. It was expanded on a large area but wasn't tall, extended garden in front of it with the most beautiful flowers. Brief stairs that lead to a house with Mahogany gables and white walls, large windows whose frames were decorated with flowers, a man on seeing them , dressed up as if he was a lawyer in a big firm, quickly approached her and Damon, "Good Evening il padrone, I've made all the arrangements, the servants rooms are at the back, accessible to you Capo." He spoke looking down as if paying respect, "Good evening Signora, I hope you had a comfortable journey."
She pursed her lips as he took out the keys, "Capo if Signora wants a tour."
"No thank you Gabriel, we'll take it from here." he took the keys, "Tell the servants to get the luggage." He turned to her holding her hand, "Let's go."
She looked around the place, enjoying the refreshing air and the amazing fragrance, "where are the guards?"
"Guards wont be needed, trust me." he squeezed her hand a little and she felt a shiver run down her spine as they entered the house, The luggage was being kept and they were given juice as she showed her around the house, "This is the living room as it's obvious." He held her hand taking her from room to room, "A library." She chuckled seeing the study with five to six shelves, , large comfortable couches near the windows, from which the view of the beach could be seen, "So you've been here before?"
"Umhm Once or twice." He picked up a remote from the desk and held it up in front of the wall, when he pressed a button, the wall slid up making Elena jump,"Ah!"
He laughed holding her from falling, "Relax."
"Oh it's a freaking screen , God damn it I thought you had a secret lair or something." She placed a hand on her fast beating heart, "That would actually be very cool but uh it's just a home cinema."
He took her outside, she raised her brows looking at the Jacuzzi outside a few feet from a large swimming pool , large chairs bordering the pool with tables that had towels, sun screen, magazines and one or two books, she bit her lip seeing the beach from here, "Andros is just beautiful."
"It is." He said lacing their fingers, she looked down at them before she turned back, "A bath here seems tempting. I'll go check the room." He let her hand go still following her inside, the only voice in the house of her white converse shoes against the wooden floor, she was wearing a bright pink sleeveless sundress that ended above her knees, her hair half up clipped back, she could dress simple and still invoke all sorts of desire in him, it didn't matter if the dress didn't cling to her body or show off her perfect long legs. When she entered the room she realized he had been following her, she turned around, "I think I should use the-"
Her words interrupted as he picked her up against the wall, kissing her hard on the lips, she pushed her palms against his chest pushing him, "Argh Damon I need to Pee, seriously just-" she made him put her back down, she breathed as he stroked her hair, "Hey Elena we should really talk about this."
"We will, after I … use the bathroom , if you please just step aside." She said awkwardly and moved away from him and walking to the bathroom, when she shut the door, he huffed, he pulled out his phone and switched it on, he dialed Enzo's number and walked outside, "Enzo is Marcus speaking yet? We've landed."
"Not yet, but I am sure he will in a few days. Klaus was last spotted at the city center with Diego. I have planted a girl there, Andie- she's a tourist according to what we have taught her, I've wired the girl, we're going to track him before this son of a bitch speaks."
"remember, I want Klaus, not Diego."
"Sir it's two birds with one stone, we'll reach Klaus from Diego." He suggested, "Should I call later or Signora still is unaware."
"Mrs. Salvatore is going to stay out of this Enzo." Damon turned around to check if she was not around, "So you don't call me, I'll call you when I find the opportunity, absolutely don't call unless it's something very important."
"Yes sir." He obeyed. Damon hung up and headed outside.
(-HMHMHMHM-)
This wasn't fair, how could she walk around the house wearing the most transparent thing she had, a white sheer shirt that covered half her thighs, he could easily see the blue bikini underneath it. This was definitely the 'you can see not touch' going on, he felt his jeans incredibly tight as she passed the study. He put the book he was reading and stood up following her, okay servants weren't in the house but they were around, and she was here dressed like every man's wet dream. He watched as she took off her sheer shirt near the Jacuzzi, putting the sunscreen all over her body, he sighed as he walked behind her, "Let me help."
She jumped a little but calmed down hearing his voice and when she felt his hands on her back, "It's fine."
"No it's not." He took the lotion from her and squeezed out a little, he applied it on her back slowly, just enjoying how soft her skin felt, how it was like a waterfall of silk. He moved her hair out of the way and leaned down placing a kiss on her shoulder, she instantly stepped away, "Uh Damon I really just- okay." She fidgeted as she moved slightly away from him and stepped into the Jacuzzi. He sighed moving back, she reached for a book on the frame when she saw him going back, her heart just twisted a weird way, "Damon."
He looked over his shoulder by the sliding door, "Hmm?"
"Join me if you want to." She gave a hint of a smile, he didn't answer for a while before he walked back slowly and took off his shirt, she buried her face in her book when she heard him unbuckle his belt and stripped down to his boxers. The water splashed a little as he sat on the in front of her, now just hating that this stupid thing was big enough for the distance, he looked at the different magazines and just sighed deciding he didn't want to read, she stole a few glances at him as he just stared at the beach. She kept her book aside and sat back, "The weather is pretty good."
"Hmm." He looked at her and raised a brow, she bit her lip as she moved towards him reluctantly and sat by his side, "It must be weird being this relaxed."
"Kind of it is. I don't hate it." He bit the inside of his cheek, "I just don't like how you're completely repulsed by me."
"You really think it's that?" she turned to him and held his arm putting it around herself, "You know what's going on, you hurt me, you took me all the way up to just push me down from there." His lips parted but no words came out as she continued, "Now you know how being shut out feels like don't you?"
"I don't do it on purpose."
"You make the choice Damon." She sat back, "And do you see me whining or shouting, even crying- at this point I am done. I just-"
"I am sorry Elena." He pulled her to him and cupped her face, "But you are supposed to talk to me, you are supposed to tell me all this, that what I am doing is less than you want."
"It is obvious Damon, if you'd care-"
"Hell I do care." He held her hand, taking out her princess cut diamond ring, her eyes widened, "What are you-"
"Just let me talk now because apparently that isn't your forte anymore." He held her hand, swallowing thick, "We did this wrong the first time, I didn't get to see you, I didn't get to know you, but now we're here, knowing somewhat, Elena, I vow to never hold back." He looked into her brown eyes shining in the setting sun, "To seize every moment I have with you, to never let you down like this okay?" he wiped away the single tear running down her cheek, "Even if I don't know fear, I'll understand yours, even if I've never felt pain, I'll try to feel yours. - I'll be the man who will try again and again until I figure it all out, make you laugh, okay what else we got?" he smiled sitting back, "Just make sure you never want to leave." He slipped the ring on her finger, "Marry me Gilbert." She smiled when he brought her hand close to his mouth and kissed the ring on her finger, "Fight me if you want to just don't push me away this way."
"You know I can't do that for longer." She circled her arms around his neck, "You can't do every time though."
He nodded, "Either I level up the game or just stop fighting at all right?" she sighed as she leaned forward and crashed her lips against him, she moaned feeling his tongue enter her mouth, his hands firmly cupping her face, he turned her to press her against the wall of the Jacuzzi, when he pulled away , he pressed kisses to her chin down to her neck, she blushed as his hands traced down her body pulling her against him, she could feel his stiff length against her abdomen and let out a shaky breath, "Damon- hey." She cupped his face making him look at her, "Christening the Jacuzzi is just not the ideal start okay honey?"
He groaned as she turned around to move but he pulled her against him, wrapping his arms around her, "Don't go away now."
She calmed down and rested back her against his shoulder, "If you say so."
"Hmm you doing what I say? That's a news." He nibbled on her ear lobe, she giggled as she elbowed him playfully, but he didn't move back, "That's unfair actually, the inaccuracy of that sentence."
"You just ignore the way how head over heels you have me for you just with that mentality." He faked anger, "Like my love means nothing." He pouted at her, she pursed her lips at his words, "Love?" she breathed out but he didn't hear the question.
"Hmm what will you do about that?" he bit her shoulder playfully, she shook her head, "You know I uh, my Mother was a firm believer in soulmates, she'd say that my Dad was her soulmate."
He saw her eyes go empty all of a sudden, she turned to him and rested her head against his chest, "And she was not the way I am, she didn't hate the Mafia like I did."
"Hmm." He had to ignore how she'd seethe at the word 'Mafia'
"She'd say that whatever the circumstances would be they were together for the long run, like them against the world stuff."
"Romeo Juliet?" he murmured ,she nodded, "But turns out they weren't Romeo Juliet , they were Sid and Nancy." She chuckled, "She walked in on him while he was with some other women, not one- many women." She swallowed thick, "Mom was pregnant at that time, I was very young when one day she took me to his headquarters and there he was drunk on top of another woman, now I didn't know what was necessarily bad about this, but Mom, she just went completely crazy, she just attacked the woman, and it was very- traumatizing, we went to my grandparents and we stayed there till Jeremy took birth, they reconciled but it wasn't the same."
"Oh."
"Mom was never happy, she just made us the center of her world, we'd stay at my Grandparents most of the times until she died."
"I am sorry Elena." He said in a low voice. She looked up at him and smiled, "I am not entirely different from my mom though."
"Hmm." He raised a brow, darkness setting around them slowly, "I can't share Damon." She licked her lips, her eyes travelled down to look at his lips, she murmured, "So just don't hurt me okay- not anymore please."
"Elena no one takes your place you know that."
She shook her head, "I don't know- you have to show me." she closed the distance between their lips, enclosing his lower lip between her lips, she slowly sucked on it, "Take me to bed." She parted slightly before kissing him again, he let his hand at the back of her neck, the other around her waist, as he picked her up, she let out a shaky breath as he attacked her lips again and moved her out of the tub out, she let her legs wrap around his torso as he took her back to their room, their tongues fighting for dominance as he pushed open the door to their room and groaned when they crashed against the bed, he held her locked against his as his mouth travelled down her neck to her poking nipples, he licked her nipple through the material before he pulled it down with his teeth, she moaned as he blew on it before taking it in his mouth , swirling his tongue around it, "huh Ah Oh God."
He repeated the process on her other nipple, she pulled at her hands but he didn't let her go, "Don't move." His voice a little stern, she threw her head back, arching her back, "Please-please just, I need you right now."
He loved how she was so eager for him, as desperate as he was for her, he left her hands and they immediately went down to his boxer's band-he parted a little pulling down her panties from her legs, one of his hands traced up her back to undo her bikini top, "Definitely a yes for you." He gestured to the bikini throwing it aside, she smiled as he reached for the drawer, when she heard the peeling sound of a packet, she sat up, "No just- it's okay."
"what?" he raised a brow.
She swallowed thick, "I want to have your children." She hooked her arm around his neck as she leaned forward but he pulled back, "The other day it was the biggest fight we had and now you're ready?"
"No one's ever ready Damon." She tried to reach for him, trailing slow kisses up his bicep to his neck, her soft lips and her tongue making him forget everything, her hands tracing up and down on his chest, she moved down his body , placing soft and slow kisses, he let out a breathe, "Holy hell-" she looked up at him as she slowly started to straddle him, he sat up, "This feels twisted."
"What?" she swallowed thick as he moved away from her, "How can you change this decision of yours like that."
"Why are you thinking about it, I am giving you what you wanted." She frowned, "Once we have a baby you'll have no reason to-"
"To what?"
"To sleep around." She pulled a blanket on herself, "I know you haven't changed, I know I cant change you, I need closure Damon, I am going to put my last effort in for you before I do what mom did-"
"what the fuck are you talking about?" he shouted, as he walked in to the wardrobe getting himself a pair of jeans, "So this is what you think I am doing?"
"I know everything Damon, if me not wanting to have a baby with you was enough reason to fuck Rose for you."
He walked back zipping up his jeans, "You stop right there!" he growled, "I don't know what Grayson told you it wasn't what it looked like."
"Like what? What are you talking about?" she got up frowning, "So Dad knew?"
"El-Elena I fucking swear nothing happened with her." he moved forward but she flinched, "At the party right? When she was so happy after what every you two did, wasn't this before the baby conversation?"
"Elena these are two separate things."
"Oh my god you did didn't you? And you still had enough balls to touch me after that?" she stood up on the bed, suddenly tears running down her eyes, "I can't believe I thought I'd change you, I can't believe I waited for you every night , God knows how many bed's you've been in- all those calls."
"Elena you're completely overthinking this." He looked up at her, she jumped down the bed, "Yes! You're right! I am overthinking this, maybe this is all a lie, or maybe it's not Damon."
"Oh for the love of God, if it were true I wouldn't tell you I love you." He shouted, she shivered from the growl and swallowed thick, "You never did." She said walking to the wardrobe and putting on a white V-neck with some jeans.
"So let me say it now." He rushed to her and when she held up her arms in front of her , he held them and pulled them away, "I love you, I haven't said to you I know but just trust me when I say I do, I know I don't deserve you, you've always been too good for me-"
"So you tended to that insecurity by screwing other women? I wish I could believe you but I don't, because if it's a lie , it's the worst lie you've told me yet." She pressed her lips together as tears ran down her eyes, "Because I do Damon, I love you despite you hurting me in the worst way possible, despite you making me feel like the most inadequate person alive, despite knowing you will never give up anything for me and I would give up everything, whether it's my morals, my choices, my feelings everything." She bit down on her lip from crying out loud, "Even having a baby was a compromise but I know-"
"So the only reason you wanted to have my child was to tame me?" he raised a brows, "Because you couldn't fucking trust me."
"Why should I trust you?" she gritted her teeth, "Have you ever given me a fucking reason." She shouted and pushed him, "You lied! Every time you left me all alone, I wanted nothing more than your arms around me which was around some other bitch while I waited, you threatened me that if I don't have a baby with you, you'll kick me to the curb and 'arrange' someone, well fuck you!" she pushed him again, this time harder, "Why would I trust you when everything you say is a lie! I am tired of waiting on your love, I am tired of trying to be better for you, being with you is exhausting!" she cried. "fine, if this is how bad it is Elena." His eyes slightly watery, "If trusting me is the last thing you'll do, if you think that I don't deserve anything-"
"You said it yourself, you don't need my saving." She sucked up her tears as her body had started shivering from all this crying.
"And that's the one thing you'll believe." He stepped back, "Then leave."
"W-what?"
"Go away from my life." He said firmly, his brows furrowed slightly, eyes still sparkling with tears, "I am not tying you down anymore Elena, if being in this marriage hurts you, leave."
"Damon don't say that." She swallowed thick, as she cupped his face when he was turning away, "I am miserable without you, you know that, we've been through things Damon."
"Not anymore Elena, I think it's best if we apply for an annulment." He distanced himself from her, she didn't know why but suddenly she felt numb, did she meant nothing to him? Absolutely nothing? "You just said you loved me."
"You called it a lie." He said with a deep breath, now composed fully, not angry not sad- she saw him walk past her to the walk in wardrobe to get a shirt probably while she was left there, feeling un-wanted , un-needed, suddenly she felt out of control as she ran towards him and circled her arms around him resting her head against his back, "I love you, I still love you, uh I can't go on forever without you."
He felt her tears on his back , she pressed kisses against his shoulder blades, "I am sorry, just don't-"
"No you listen to me." he turned her around , a gasp escaped her as her back hit against the wall, "whether you believe it or not, I wanted you exactly the moment I saw you all those months ago, that's the fucking reason I said yes to the deal, some how it made sense in my fucking head to throw away an orgy a night to you! You know how much I fucking waited for you, you don't! but I wanted to do something right in my damn life this time, I gave you time, I was patient with you, I let you break all the walls like they weren't fucking there, and Rose or any other woman meant nothing , I didn't craved them, I craved you, even when I had you, every other woman stopped looking good enough suddenly, no one invoke this in me like you and then i realized that I fucking fell in love with you. I went out of my way to make you happy only to have you calling me a monster and stomping on my heart."
"Damon." She breathed out.
"And it makes me want to die, that kind of impact isn't good now." He stepped away, "I will not give up this fight, I have survived hunger, bullets- traps and this is not something that will take me down, I refuse to give up now when I had it so good Elena, so go, make this easy and go." He spat, "Because I can't make you trust me baby so forget this marriage and what I put you through and go."
He walked out of there and Elena heard him throwing the keys on the floor outside. A moment later she heard the door bang shut, she sat down against the cupboard bringing her knees to her face, she rested her head on them as she broke into sobs, she begged someone like that for the first time but it meant nothing, all this love, it meant nothing.
A while later when she was almost asleep right there, the house phone rang, she got up and wiped her tears, maybe just maybe, she thought as she picked up the phone, "Signora, Gabriel here, Capo has informed me you have to leave for New York by tomorrow."
"He said that?" her voice was pressed and groggy, she huffed, "Okay I guess yes."
"When should I arrange the breakfast and the car for that?"
"No just skip the breakfast uhm get me one for six , there's not much to pack." Her voice breaking again, she shut the phone and turned away, the door got knocked at on that instance, Damon did throw the keys here, she frowned as she went for the door, "hello Elena."
She narrowed her eyes , "Uhm uh I think I know you."
"Kol- Kol Michaelson." She heard before she felt a blow on the back of her head that shoved her into darkness."
A/N
I know everyone hates me and my characters right now LOL, but it'll clear up guys (as soon as I figure it out first hehehehe)
By the way last week was my birthday so when I woke up to Scarlett2112 (Carol) 's so many reviews I was so happy , it was the best birthday gift. Also thanks for all the other reviews. Coolangel, scarlettrose, amazingaisha, jennagilbert7,dontsayno, so please if you wanna give me something, give me a review (Or a movie deal for this story) I think I'll end this in about 2 chaps, what say? Good ride!