Author's Note

hey guys,I see a couple of people have seen the first chapter to this story already and I'm glad. I hope I can tell a good story that you all will enjoy because otherwise there'd be no point to writing a story. This is chapter 2,of many as I intend to write. I'm going to kind of skip through the 2-3 week period where Reid was depressed in his apartment just because I don't feel like writing about that but if you guys really want to see it then I could do a flashback sort of thing in later chapters. My upload schedule is also pretty wack right now, honestly I don't really have a schedule,and I guess I'll just be writing when I feel like it but it will most likely be around this time. I'll try to write a chapter for this every day/couple of days but I can't make any gaurentees. anyways,it's storytime

Chapter 2

Shattering

Reid woke up the next morning,not remembering a thing he did the other night. His dark brown eyes scanned his apartment, before eventually finding a syringe next to him and an empty vial that used to be filled with something. He rubbed his eyes before getting up from his uncomfortable position on the couch. He sighed,the memory of Mauve's passing slamming back into his mind. A ringing sound suddenly filled his ears. It was some sort of jingle that repeated itself over and over. He moved towards where the sound was, his long legs carrying him into his bedroom where he found his phone which was on his bed. He picked it up and saw who was calling,the caller ID told him it was JJ calling. He intentionally pressed the red button,not even bothering you answer the phone before he hung up. He was grieving,why couldn't they just let him grieve!?

He walked back out to the living room, hearing his phone ring again. He took his cell out of his pocket, flipping open the flip phone to see who it was. JJ, again. He didn't answer, instead he closed the phone and put it into his pocket before he went and found a brown box again. He looked in it and realized something. He only had two vials of Dialudid in there. That wouldn't be enough to last him a couple days,not even enough to last him 1 day. A sudden burst of anger filled his body and he shut the case forcefully before throwing it at the floor while a yell exited his mouth. He didn't even know he yelled until after he was done. He then realized he had heard the sound of glass breaking and he quickly went to the floor, grabbing the case with shaky hands. He fumbled with the latches, managing to get them open after a couple tries only to see he had indeed broken his last vial of Dialudid,with the liquid spilt all over the case.

"No...nono...why"the words incoherently came out of his mouth as when he tried to speak sobs got in the way. He shook his head but the tears were already flowing and he laid on the floor on his side letting his tears and his sobs just get out of his body.

you're weak

Why,why did he break his only chance at relief. Relief from this vicious cycle of pathetic actions. Crying was pathetic, Sobbing was pathetic. He was pathetic. He was a grown man,they had all lost people they held dear and close. Hell,Hotch lost his wife and he handled it better then him. Reid stayed like that for the rest of the day. Staying trapped in his own pit of dispair. That night he convinced himself to get up and wipe the tears and snot off his face. He walked into his bedroom,heading straight to his dresser and opening it before his hand reached deep into his sock drawer finding what he needed. He pulled out a roll of $20 bills,which he kept in there only for emergencies. This felt like an Emergency to him. He took off the rubber band,before slipping a couple 20's in his pocket ready to be handed off to some shady dealer in a bad part of the city. He put the rubber band back onto the bills before putting them back into his sock drawer.

5 minutes later

He parked his Prius next to a very specific dark alleyway which he hadn't been too in years. He shut the car off, placing the key in his pocket before he got out and locked the door. This was a shady part of town after all and he didn't want his car stolen in his absence. He glanced around the area before walking into the dark alleyway, reminding himself he had his pistol on him just in case he had to use it. He may not be feeling like living but he had enough self preservation to bring such a thing. He walked up to a familiar looking man, happy he wasn't dead or anything like that. The man was black,and wearing dark clothing. It was essential,it helped blend in too the shadows. He approached Spencer, recognizing him instantly.

"Hey!!! My Man!"he said going in for a high five which Spencer passed up.

"Just give me what I'm here for Matthias"he said as he kept his head down.

"What's the rush? We got all night man,I haven't seen you in forever"

he said before sighing as Reid was too impatient to even act like he was a little happy to see him. He supposed he was just a dealer to him now.

"Fine, if you fuckin insist"

he said in annoyance before reaching into his bag. Reid had a sudden thought,it was very sudden but it was something he was desperate enough to do. Matthias had tons of Dialudid in there, enough to last Spencer a while. Why pay for it all when he could just steal it for free?

What are you doing?

He hesitated for a second but he wasn't coming back there anyways,he could always find a new way to get his fix, whether that be a new source for Dialudid or a different drug that has a similar effect on him. Reid suddenly pushed Matthias into the brick wall of one of the buildings that made up the alleyway

"What the hell, ma-"

he was cut off when Spencer slammed his head into the wall, knocking the man unconscious. Reid quickly took his backpack before running out of the alleyway with it. He got around to the drivers seat of the car, opening it and tossing the pack in the back before starting up the car and driving off quickly.

What did you do!

He took a couple deep breaths,the adrenaline wearing off as he realized what he had done

You fucking idiot! You always mess everything up,why don't you just kill yourself. No one would miss you

He shook his head,there was no turning back now. He had gotten his drugs at the expense of an old friend. They weren't really even friends,he was just a local customer with an itch for the one drug he was selling. He sighed before he got to his apartment. He had gotten what he needed. No need to dwell on the choices and actions he had to make to get what he needed. The only thing that matters was that he had it, finally. He pulled the bag out of the back of his car before getting out of the Prius, locking it and all the normal stuff you'd do. He moved quickly into his apartment complex, moving up there stories before getting into his apartment and closing the door.

He locked both the normal lock and the deadbolt before getting ready to lose himself in a place where pain wasn't allowed to manifest. He popped a plll into his mouth, waiting for a couple minutes before he relief came to him once again. He blacked out,not remembering a thing. His phone had rung a couple times that night but he was too out of it to answer it. The first person who called was JJ, second was Morgan,third was Garcia and finally Forth was Aaron Hotchner who after leaving mutiple voice messages just decided to leave a text message reading,'Reid,I'm checking in because everyone here is worried you. You aren't answering your phone,but I'll be coming by tomorrow to make sure you're still alive'. Reid never saw it,or if he did then he didn't remember seeing it. He would be in for a real surprise the next morning.

More authors Note

Sorry,I won't make it a habit to write two Authors Notes in these but I just have to address somethings. 1,I know I said I was going to skip this but I've decided to dwell in the first couple of days of this before I skip to a later time. If you just want me to skip ahead then just tell me. If enough people request it, I'll do it. If not then we're going to have to stick around here for a couple more chapters. 2,in later chapters there may be a little smut. If anyone doesn't want that then again leave a comment or review or whatever and let me know. Same as with 1,if enough people tell me they don't want it then I won't do it. But in this story there is a place for it later. I won't make this a story just centered around the smut but it might pop up every now and again. I'll make sure to warn you when it's in a chapter. That's all I have to say for now. If you have any requests, Questions, or concerns then let me know, otherwise I can't wait to see y'all when I write up C3. See ya then;