A/N: this is the first part of the chapter you've all been waiting for! I really hope you like it. I spend a lot of time working on it.

Thanks to pounkcakereal20 for editing it faster than usual! Olive you!

(Trigger warning: abuse)

Chapter 15 :

Arizona woke up with a start. She didn't remember falling asleep. Actually she didn't remember what she had been doing at all. Then it all came back to her. She remembered! She has a brother, Tim! What happened to him? Why didn't he come to see her? Were they even close? It seemed to her that they were.

However, she was cut out of her musing when she heard the reason of her sudden waking up. There on the far corner of her room stood her parents harshly whispering and arguing. When did her father come back?

She couldn't what they were saying but if they were whispering she assumed it was about her.

She was about to talk and ask them what the hell was going when she noticed that her mother had a small bandage around her head.

Suddenly she let out a very loud yell when she saw her father raised his hand ready to hit her mother. Her father's arms stayed stuck high in the air with her mother eyes looking at him wide.

Then everything froze and she was assaulted with images.

A few hours earlier:

Callie was sitting in the chair next to Barbara's bed. Her head was in her hands and she was trying to think about everything that happened that lead her to this point.

When Barbara fainted she hit her head wrong leading to the cut on the side on her head. Callie immediately got her checked out by Derek and thankfully it was just a minor cut, they just had to wait until she woke up.

Because of all this chaos, Callie didn't have the time to think about her conversation with Barbara until now.

At first, she thought that Barbara was messing with her and playing stupid in the hopes of Callie letting her off the hook. But then she saw the look on Barbara's face when she told her the truth and she was pretty sure that it was impossible to fake that kind of look.

How was it possible that she didn't know, after all this time? Callie cursed herself at the way she treated Barbara. She was like a second mother to her, she should've known that she would've never done that to her. But then again she thought that she would be with Arizona for the rest of their life... but look where they are now. she tried to reassure herself that she couldn't have known.

However, she couldn't help herself but to ask, what if? What if Barbara had known, would it have changed something? What if she had tried harder to get in touch with her?

She heard rustling next to her and saw that Barbara was starting to gain consciousness. The second she was fully aware of her surroundings, Barbara jolted up in her bed making Callie jump a little on her seat.

As soon as Barbara saw Callie, a sob escape her mouth and fresh tears started pouring out of her eyes. Callie immediately stood up but she didn't move, she didn't know what she was supposed to do.

Barbara looked at her and shook her head, noticing the way Callie was looking at her. She realized that all that happened wasn't a dream and she started crying harder.

"I'm- I'm so so sorry!" She barely managed to say between sobs. "I didn't know; I- I should've known."

Callie's heart broke at the sight of the woman. She looked so small and vulnerable, it was getting hard for Callie to stay mad at her.

Against her best instinct, Callie went to sit next to the woman and took her in her arms. Barbara clung to Callie's scrub top. She kept crying an apologizing while Callie just let her and rubbed her back.

After a while, Barbara eventually stopped crying and released Callie apologizing once again. It was only after checking that Barbara was in fact physically and mentally ok, that Callie asked her about what she knew.

They sat there in the little room, Barbara telling her how after their graduation her daughter came home to tell her and her husband how Callie had broken up with her. She had decided that the next thing for her to do was to join the Marines.

Thinking about that day, Barbara realized how Arizona seemed troubled and on the verge of breaking down. At first she thought that it was because Callie had ended their relationship but now she's thinking that something else might've happened.

To say she was shocked about Callie's version was an understatement. It was like Callie was talking about another person and not her daughter nor her husband for that matter. It was like she was living in an alternate universe. Surely there was a misunderstanding. She couldn't believe that they were talking about her daughter.

"Are you sure?" She asked. By the look on Callie's face, she knew that it was stupid question to ask. She just needed to be sure that's all. "It just… it sounds so unlike her and she was so heartbroken when you broke up. I even thought it was the reason she joined the Marines."

"Are you asking me if I am sure that your daughter did really took her things and left without a word? If I am sure that she really did broke my heart? Because I am sure! I am also sure that after she left me I couldn't breathe, eat or sleep! I didn't even want to live and if it wasn't for my daughter I don't think that I would be standing there talking to you right now!" Once Callie finished she was out of breath and she could see the look of regret on Barbara's face.

"I'm sorry, so, so sorry Callio- uh, Callie"

Seeing Barbara on the verge of tears made Callie feel bad for snapping at her. However, Barbara had to understand that she wasn't the only one hurting in this situation. Callie spent a long time trying to move on and mend her broken heart and seeing them again brought back all those memories that she tried to burry far in her mind. Seeing them again made her question if she had really moved on and she wished that she had never seen them again. She just wanted to live peaceful life with her daughter and girlfriend and since they came it has only been a roller coaster. She just wanted to get off the rollercoaster and breathe.

"I need to go. I have patients to check on." It was a lie but she needed to get away, she needed some time to herself. "I'll send someone to see if you're good to go." Barbara didn't answer, she kept her head down, looking at her hands and just nodded to show Callie that she heard her.

Once Callie left, Barbara broke down into tears once again. She knew what she needed to talk about once her husband came back later.

When Callie left Barbara Robbins's room she didn't know where to go. The only thing she knew was that she wanted to be alone so she could think. Every day was getting crazier than the last and in the end the only thing she wanted to do was to lock herself in a room and sleep, turn her brain off. She was just tired but she knew she couldn't close herself to the world, not anymore. She had a little girl who counted on her, needed her. She couldn't do it again.

She stopped walking and she was surprised to realize where she went. There she stood in front of Arizona's room. The woman she once thought was the love of her life. The woman who once made her the happiest woman on earth but also the most miserable. It was the last place she wanted to be and yet here she was looking at the sleeping form of Arizona through the window glass.

"You're her." The sudden voice startled Callie from her thought. She turned her head and saw Teddy standing next to her. She wasn't looking at her but rather at the same person she was looking at just seconds before.

"Uh?" Came the reply from Callie.

Still not looking at her Teddy started talking. "Every night during our training Arizona would held this picture, apologizing to it and wishing it good night. Then she would cry herself to sleep. She never told me who it is only that it was the love of her whom she hurt. She was doing that every night the only keeping her sane. But now I see the way you look at her, how you interacted with Barbara and the Colonel and I get it. You're the woman on the picture, you are her great love, you are her." She finished finally looking at Callie.

"If I was her great love, she wouldn't have broken my heart the way she did." With that she left.

Teddy was the second person telling her that she was the love of Arizona's life and she just wanted to scream at them 'Why? Why did she leave then?' That was the one million dollar question she had been asking herself for six years now. The only person able to answer her didn't even remember Callie.

An hour after Callie left, a doctor came to check on Barbara and told her that if she wanted to she was good to go. Without any hesitation Barbara quickly took her things and went to her daughter's room. She needed to get answers but she knew she wouldn't get them with her daughter in the state she was in.

She arrived in the room at the same time as her husband. She saw the look of surprise on his face when he saw the bandage around her head. She walked toward him and he barely had the time to ask her how she was doing before he felt a stinging pain on his face. He looked at the red face of his wife, she seemed to be mad at him.

Daniel looked at her his mouth agape. Slowly he brought his hand to his face where his wife had just slapped him.

"How could you?!" She gritted at him. He was still looking at her not knowing what she was talking about or why she slapped him and it caused Barbara to get angrier by the second. "I can't even look at you right now!" She just wanted to keep hitting him, to smash his face on a wall. Just thinking about what he did to Callie made her want to puke.

"What are you talking about?" He finally asked dumbly.

"I'm talking about the fact that you threatened Calliope when she came crying at our door when our daughter broke her heart! How could you do this to her? To me? Depriving me of my only grandchild-"

"I did this for our family!" He cut her off, his voice raised higher than Barbara's." Her and her abomination would have ruined our daughter's life, depriving her of doing what she was always meant to do! I always knew she had a bad influence on Arizona and her getting pregnant was the last straw! I knew that if Arizona knew that she was pregnant she would've come running back to her playing house. She should be lucky she kept that thing in her belly!" The more he talk the redder his face was turning... and the more shocked Barbara was getting.

She discovering a whole new person. This man wasn't the man she fell in love with. She didn't know he had so much hate inside of him. What happened to him to become this small minded, hateful, pathetic man?

"I want you leave." She calmly said. She knew that at this point it was pointless trying to talk to him. He has been suppressing those feelings for a while now and she knew he wouldn't change his mind. "I don't know you anymore. I will stay with my daughter until she recovers but you are no longer needed here or anywhere else regarding me. As soon as I can I will send you the di-"

"Don't you even dare finish this sentence!" He growled at her. She could see his hands contracting into fists, a clear sign that he was trying to control himself in vain. "You are my wife! You can't talk to me like that! Everything I did was for our family!"

"Everything you did ruined this family! Can't you see it? Because of you our daughter is in a hospital bed! Because of you our son is dead! You killed our son and I will never forgive you!"

Then all hell broke loose. In a flash Daniel's hand came up and was directed toward Barbara. However, before his hand could make contact with his wife, they both heard blood cooling scream. Turning their heads, they saw that it was coming from Arizona who had awoken.

(Trigger warning)

Six years ago:

Arizona was on the University parking lot walking to her car to go home. She couldn't wait to get home. She had promised Callie that she would try to come early enough for them to have dinner together. The few weeks has been hectic for them, with the end of the semester and the graduation coming they barely had the time to see each other. However, she planned to see her girlfriend tonight. She had a surprise for her.

For weeks she has been walking with the box in her pocket. She didn't want to leave it at home afraid that Callie would find it. She hadn't prepared some great romantic thing. She only planned to be honest with her and hopefully tonight the girl of her dreams will become her fiancée.

Looking up she saw her car a few meters in front of her. She frowned when she saw a figure slumped against it. Getting closer her breath hitched in her throat. It was her father, whom she hadn't talked to nor seen in years. There he was just standing in front of her.

At first she hopefully thought that he had come to apologize and mend their relationship. But when she got close enough and saw his face she knew things wouldn't go well.

When she was in front of him and he still didn't turn to look at her, Arizona quietly called him.

"Daddy?" At first he didn't respond but when she insisted a few more time he jolted his head up as if startled by her.

"Oh Arizona! My dear gay daughter! I have been waiting for you for hours!" He slurred and she immediately knew he was drunk. Her father in this state could only lead to bad things.

"Dad you're drunk." She plainly stated. "What are you doing here? Where's mom?" She asked crossing her arms over her chest.

He looked at her and then started laughing. Arizona was startled at and confused.

"You know," He started ignoring his daughter's question, "I always thought that between you and Timothy, you would be the one following my footsteps. When you were little you always tried to do everything like me. I even called you my little soldier." He said with a fond smile on his face. "Do you remember?"

"I do" she answered with a smile on her own. She thought that maybe his surprise visit wouldn't be so bad. However, hearing his next words made her cursed herself for thinking to fast.

"But then you met this girl and you completely changed. I don't even recognize you! What the hell are you doing playing house with her? You should be in the Marines protecting your country like I did! I didn't raise you to be like that, I raised you better. This girl ruined your life. Because you listened to her you didn't even get the surgery to make you normal! Do you want to go to hell? Is that what you want?" He asked raising his voice.

To say Arizona was shocked was an understatement. Did her father really come all this way just to insult her? She was getting tired of this. After years, he comes back only to make things worse. She was fine not talking to him. What had prompted his drunk visit? "Ok, first of all, you didn't raise me, mom did, you were barely there. Second of all, if you came all this way just to tell me I'm going to hell then you can take your sorry ass back to where it came. I don't even know how mom can deal with you." She barely finished her sentence when her father slapped her face so hard it made her step a few steps back.

Everything that happened next happened so fast, Arizona barely had the time to register. He grabbed her by her hair and brought her face inches from him. By now she was scared out of her mind and tears were streaming down her face. "Don't you ever talk to me like that again! I'm your father and I will not tolerate you disrespecting me! Is that clear?" Arizona didn't respond paralyzed by fear. "You are right I didn't raise you, that's why you turned out this way but don't worry now I am here and I will make things right." Now he was whispering and Arizona could smell the alcohol on his breath making her want to puke. "After your graduation, I want you to joins the Marines like you are meant to be-" Arizona started protesting and Daniel only tightened his grip on his daughter.

She tried to move away and defend herself but he was much stronger than her. How can her father treat her like this? "I won't do it -, you can go to hell!" She managed to say but immediately regretted it when he hit her again.

"Either you do as I say or I will take care of the 'problem' myself!" Her blood froze, she knew what he considered the problem to be, Calliope.

"No…" She choked out between sobs.

"Tell me what you are going to do after your diploma?"

She knew what he wanted to say, but she didn't know if she could do it. She couldn't live without Calliope but she never seen her father in this state and she didn't know what he was capable of. She promised to always protect Callie and she would do whatever it takes to keep this promise. "I… I'll join… the Marines."

As soon as the words left her mouth her released her and she could finally breath. He smoothed her hair and caressed her face making Arizona cringed and want to puke more than before.

"Don't worry sweetheart, I'm going to fix you." Before leaving he said "Oh and don't talk to anyone about our little convo." Then he left.

Arizona bend over and finally puked all over the concrete before collapsing on the floor, sobs wreaking her body.

A/N: Ireally hope it was worth the wait! Let me know what you thought and if you have any questions.