A/N: I'm posting this chapter sooner than usual. The response to the last chapter motivated me to write faster and for that I can't thank you enough! Even though the last chapter wasn't one of my fav and I had trouble finding the inspiration to write, when I saw your comments it made me want to write right away and the inspiration came back!
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However don't get used to fast updates, class start backMonday and I don't know how much time I'll have to write.

Thanks to pounkcakereal20 for rectifying my mistakes. :*

chapter 17:

She jumped when she heard her phone beep signaling that the two minutes of waiting were up.

She took the stick in her hands but still didn't look at it. To say she was scared was an understatement. She closed her eyes tightly and took a deep breath. She needed to know but she didn't want to.

It took her all she had in her to finally manage to look and when she did she wished she didn't. her heart stopped when she saw the two vertical lines. Those lines that is going to change her life more than it already has and she didn't know if she was ready for it.

She wanted to cry but she knew she couldn't. Not now. Not here.

She heard the door open making her jump once again before she hid the stick in her back and turned to the person who came in. It seemed that it was just her luck because the person who came in was a nurse and she knew how much the nurses loved gossip.

"Hi Dr. Altman." The nurse acknowledged before going inside a stall.

Teddy just nodded and once she knew she was clear she threw the stick away, cleaned her hands once more and left the bathroom forever changed.

After her exchange with Teddy, Callie busied herself with work. She didn't want to think about anything and the only thing that helped her do that was surgery. Being able to sorely focused on the task at hand, knowing that she was helping someone have a better life.

That was why she was now running late home. She spent so much time working that she completely forgot the time. It was only when she received a text from Kate asking her where she was, and if she was coming home for dinner, that Callie realized how late she was.

Arriving home, Callie found Kate sitting on a couch a glass of wine in hand.

"Hey Baby." She heard the redhead say. Callie quickly greeted her before asking her where Sofia was. It was her first day back at school after her accident and she wasn't there to get her. She felt even more guilty when Kate told her that Sofia tried to wait for her but fell asleep a while ago.

"Thank you for looking after her. how did you even know that I couldn't make it, I didn't text you?"

"Oh, right! I saw on the board that you were in surgery for most of the day so…" Kate said awkwardly. She didn't know if the initiative she took to go get Sofia from school was a good idea or not. But seeing that Callie had forgotten about it she thought that it was a good thing she thought about it. Even though she knew that Sofia didn't like her much, she on the other hand really loved this her. When she saw that Callie didn't say anything she grew concerned. "Is that ok?"

"Oh yeah totally! Thank you!" Callie quickly responded. "I'm going to check on Sof, I'll be right back." With that she hurried up the stairs.

Callie didn't know what came over her but she just had the realization that Kate was getting more and more present in Sofia's life and she didn't know what to think of it. It is good, right? She's her girlfriend and there are getting more and more serious, so it's a good thing that Kate gets more involved in her daughter's life. That is what she wanted from the beginning, she should be happy but then why did she feel like something was off?

She didn't want to dwell on it, so she pushed the feeling in the back of her mind and went inside her daughter's bedroom.

Her heart melted when she saw her sleeping daughter. She felt guilty for forgetting about her. She swore to herself that she would never neglect her and yet she felt like she did and she couldn't hate herself more for it.

She walked closer and then sat down on her daughter's bed. She kissed her on the forehead brushing a few stray hairs to the side. Sofia sighed and turned on the other side.

Callie was about to leave her daughter's room when something caught her attention. Sofia was holding a piece of paper and from where she stood Callie couldn't quiet see what it was. Taking the piece of paper from her daughter's hand, Callie froze once she realized what it was.

How did her daughter get hold of this? She didn't know what to think. Can this day be over already? Seeing this picture of Arizona and her made her both angry and nostalgic. She missed the good ol' days where everything was simple. She was angry with herself for thinking that what they had was real, that Arizona really cared about her. She was angry at herself for being the stupid girl that she had been and for the feelings she still felt every time she saw the blonde's stupid face.

However, what she was feeling wasn't important right now, what was important was why her daughter was sleeping with a picture of Arizona and her.

She was too tired to think about this now, so she put the picture back where she found it and left her daughter's bedroom.

Arizona and her mother didn't talk that day. Well they talked but not about the elephant in the room. However, the thing was that they wanted to talk about opposite things.

After Arizona recovered from her break down, Barbara and her made small talk. It was principally about Arizona's hand state, her newfound memory. After that, Teddy came and Barbara left tired from the day's events but promised she would come the next day.

Teddy just sat there, staring into space and not saying anything. Arizona didn't know what to say. The only thing that came to her mind was to apologized and even she knew it wouldn't be enough nor change what happen. The love of her best friend's life, her brother was dead and she couldn't do anything do save him. She knew her brother wouldn't want her to blame herself but it proved to be easier said than done, especially seeing her best friend this broken.

"Ted-"

"I'm pregnant."

Arizona's mouth opened a few times but nothing seemed to came out. She was in shock, she couldn't quiet process the information she just received. She thought it wouldn't be possible to feel worse than she did but she was wrong. Her brother could have been a father, she wished the situation was reversed, she wished that he was the one who survived and she was the one who died. She didn't have anything to go back to, no girlfriend, no children while her brother had all his life in front of him, a girlfriend and now a baby on the way.

"I'm sorry…" Arizona finally said. Teddy turned her head and looked at her for the first since she came in the room, tears falling from her eyes. "It should've been me, I'm so sorry Teddy."

"What the hell are you talking about? Wait, you remember?" Teddy suddenly said.

Arizona looked at her like she was crazy, the woman completely changed her attitude as soon as the words left her mouth.

"I..."

"Holy shit, you do remember!" Teddy suddenly stood up and embrace Arizona in a tight hug before sitting back down.

Arizona was lost, she didn't know how she was supposed to react. So she didn't do anything she sat there and waited for Teddy to initiate the conversation. However, Teddy stayed silent to.

They both stood there, Arizona looking anxiously at Teddy while Teddy was back to looking in front of her. Then out of nowhere Teddy started to laugh. The more she laughed the louder she was becoming and Arizona was looking at her like she lost her mind.

"You got your memory back!" Teddy said between laughs. Arizona just nodded. "I'm pregnant!" She said laughing harder and pointing at her belly. Weirdly enough a smile spread on Arizona's face. She knew that it wasn't funny but Teddy's laugh was infectious. "Your brother is dead..." Now she was full on laughing and sobbing and Arizona couldn't even know which one was which. By now Arizona was laughing too and she couldn't help herself even if she tried. "And your Calliope is here! This is so messed up! Everything is messed up!"

The second Teddy mentioned Callie, Arizona stopped laughing. It wasn't funny anymore.

She waited a few minutes until Teddy had completely stopped laughing and the blonde was looking back at her.

They stayed like that, in silence, looking at each other with tears in their eyes. They didn't have to talk to know what the other was feeling, they could read it all in each other's eyes and it brought more tears to their eyes.

They were both broken and hurt by the same loss. Arizona didn't know how someone could recover from such a loss or even if it was possible.

She thought she got over the loss of Callie but look at her now, feeling all sort of things just thinking about her and she wasn't even dead.

However, in her darkest time she always could count on Teddy to be by her side, comforting her while she cried. Listening to her scream and curse and in this moment she swore she would do everything in her power to help her best friend heal. She only had her now and her future niece or nephew.

She was scared but determined.

Trigger Warning.

"No! I can't!"

"Come on Callie! We need you to push, it is for your good and the Baby!" The OB said between Callie's legs.

Callie just kept shaking her head and tried to close her legs. She didn't want to do this, she wasn't ready. She wasn't supposed to this this alone!

She turned her head to the side and looked at Mark pleadingly hoping and he could help her even though she knew he couldn't do anything. Mark was the only one with her in the room. She didn't want anyone else and especially not her parents. She couldn't bear to see the look on their faces.

"Come on Callie, you need to push or the baby will be in destress. Think about your daughter." Mark told her trying to make her push. It was in hers and the baby's best interest but still Callie refused to do anything.

"I can't Mark! She is supposed to be here, I can't do it without her, I need her!" Callie cried. Mark's heart broke for his best friend, he knew who she was talking about and he knew how her friends was suffering. Even though she didn't usually show it, with everything that was happening now her emotions were heightened and everything just came out.

He didn't how to help her, he knew how stubborn she was and if she put in her head that she wasn't pushing there was no way for them to make her push.

"You are stronger than this Callie, you don't need her. Think about your baby, SHE needs you, you are all she has now, don't let her down before she is even born." He knew it was harsh thing to do but he needs her to push.

However, his words fell on deaf ears as Callie fainted, the pain too much for her to keep enduring. Mark eyes widened. It was bad, it was really bad!

"We need to take her to the OR now and do a C-section or the baby won't make it nor she." The OB informed Mark before they rolled her bed out of the room.

It was bad.

Three week later:

"Come on Callie opened up!" Mark yelled behind the closed door. He has been trying to get Callie to open the door for the last ten minutes. He could here Sofia crying making him grew concerned with every minute that passed.

Finally, the brunette decided to open the door and Mark rushed inside the apartment making a beeline to Sofia.

When he saw the baby, it was like his heart got crushed. The sight making him want to cry. Sofia was still in the same pajamas he has seen her last, he could smell the dirty diaper from miles away and he guessed that she was probably starving.

Without thinking he took the baby in his arms and hurried to get her cleaned up, changed and fed. When he was done, Sofia had stopped crying and she immediately fell asleep in his arms. Quietly he put her back on her crib and left in search of her mother.

It wasn't long before he found her sprawled out on the couch, drunk with a bottle of vodka in her hands.

"What the fuck Callie?!" He whispered yell as not to wake the sleeping baby, god knows she needed the sleep now. He took the bottle out of Callie hand making her protest.

He didn't know what to do with her, if someone had reported her, he could have had her baby taken away but it didn't seem to faze her at all. All she seemed to care about was getting drunk and drown herself in self-pity.

"I-"

"No stop it, I don't want to hear it!" he cut her off. "Eho are you? I don't recognize you! You are supposed to be better than this!" She scoffed making him angrier. He just wanted her to snap out of whatever she was in "Your daughter could have died, do you realize how serious that it Callie? She is only three weeks old!" She was still not out of it, she didn't even listen to him. He couldn't leave Sofia alone with her.

it was useless trying to talk to her, she didn't want to change. He turned around and went back to where Sofia was sleeping. He took a bag and packed all of the things she could need grabbed the baby dressed her so she wouldn't be cold outside and went back to see Callie.

"You know what? I'm taking Sofia since you don't seem to care about her. Shw deserves better than you. When you get your shit together you can come and get her back otherwise I don't want to see you." Callie looked at him like he lost his mind. She didn't think he would actually take Sofia with him but when she lifted her head and saw the baby in his arm with the bag slung over his shoulder, she realized that he was really taking her with him.

"You keep crying about how, you can't do this alone and that you need HER. But the thing is you are not alone, you have your parents, Derek, and me. I really thought you would be tougher than this. That you would at least get yourself together for your beautiful little girl. It seems I was wrong and that you are no better than her other useless mother!" Ehen he finished he was out of breath. He didn't bother looking back at her when he left slamming the door behind him.

That night was the wakeup call Callie needed. She realized that everything her friend said was right and the fact that he told her that she was the same as Arizona made her blood boil. She was nothing like her. She didn't abandoned people who needed her and loved her…

She realized that it had been exactly what she had been doing. In neglecting her daughter she had abandoned her when she needed her the most.

She spent most of the night crying, she hated herself for letting Arizona affect her this much. She hated herself for making her baby suffer. The more she thought about it the more she felt guilty. She realized that couldn't bare hurting her.

She loved her daughter, she was a part of her, the best part of her.

That night she promised that she world get herself back together for her little girl and spend the rest of her life making up for the pain she had caused her.

A/N: there you are getting closer to the talk don't worry!

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