A/N: sorry for the super long wait. I had some problems at Uni and some major writers block. I had to rewrite this chapter a few times before being satisfied with it.
I hope you'll like it.

I saw some reviews were people said it was too slow. I just wanted to say that with school I don't have time to write as much as I want and my chapters have to be shorter. Also I said from the beginning that this story will be a long slow burn. However, don't worry the pace is picking up (at least I think)

As usual thanks to my beta (I forgot your new name and I'm too lazy to look it up)

Chapter 20:

Today was the day. She will finally know if she can use her hand again or not.

The rest of her body had healed nicely and thanks to the PT sessions she could now walk alone without using a wheelchair.

She came to an understanding with Callie that they wouldn't have the talk until she felt like she was fully or almost fully recovered. It was taking her to much strength and she didn't want Sofia to see her in this weak state again. Especially when she'll tell her she's her mother.

She hasn't seen her mother since the day she brought her pizza. At first she thought that she was avoiding her, not wanting to talk about her father but after trying to reach her many times without any answer, Arizona was starting to get worried. She asked Teddy if she could go check in on her later in the day.

So now she sat anxiously in her bed waiting for Callie to come in and tell her if she could operate ever again or not.

A few minutes later, Callie came in with Karev, and who she presumed was an intern trailing behind her.

The intern presented her case and answered the question Alex was asking him. However, Arizona wasn't listening, she couldn't help but stare at Callie who did everything she could to avoid her gaze.

"So I am going to take the bandages of, the skin can be a little swollen and it might shock you at first." Callie started and looked at Arizona for the first time since she entered the room. "Today will only be an assessment of how the healing is going and when you'll be able to start PT for your hand."

"What about the nerve damage? Will I still be able to operate?" She didn't care about all that she only wanted to know if she would still be able to do the thing she loves.

"It is still early to say." Came Callie's response. As a doctor she hated not being able to give her patients answers and it situation was frustrating her too.

"Still early? It's been a month and a half! How long do you still need to wait?" Came Arizona's outburst. "I'm a surgeon! I can't not know if I'll be able to use my hands or not!"

"With the injuries your arms sustain you're lucky to have an arm at all! So I'm sorry but yes I can't tell you yet. I'm sorry if it doesn't help but this is all we can do now. You just need to be a little more patient, ok?" Callie tried to calm the blonde knowing that if she got started she would never stop.

Arizona deflated and sighed knowing that it would be useless to argue and get mad for something that no one could control. She looked as Callie carefully unwrapped her arm.

Her heart stopped when she saw how her arm looked, it was like she has been mutilated. She couldn't stop the tears that fell from her eyes. It was like she was looking at someone else's arm. The more she looked at it the more it hurt and the more she cried until she was full on sobbing.

Callie didn't know what to do, she didn't know if she should treat Arizona as a patient or something else. If the circumstances had been different she would've hugged the blonde or if it was any other patient she would at least tried to comfort them. However, she was now frozen on her spot uselessly.

"Leave..." She heard the word come from the blonde. It was barely audible but being so close to the blonde she heard it.

The others didn't seem to hear and so they didn't move. However, they heard it when the blonde yelled at them to leave her and they scrambled out of the room one after the other. Only Callie remained on her spot. She didn't know if it was because she was still frozen or for some other reason.

"This is all I have left…" Arizona mumbled to herself.

Callie heard her and even though she didn't know why the blonde left her, and no matter how mad she was at her it didn't stop the tug she felt at her heart from the blonde's pain.

She didn't know what to say or do so she started walking to the door. Thinking that it would be best for Arizona to have some time to herself.

"Why?" Callie stopped dead in her tracks as soon as Arizona's voice reached her ears. She turned around and look at the blonde confused about her question. "Why did you quit on us? Why didn't you tell me about Sofia?"

"Arizona… I don't-"

"No Calliope! Don't bullshit me! I lost everything, I deserve to know."

Callie knew that there was no getting out of this. The blonde was stubborn as hell and if she wanted to know something she wouldn't give up until she had what she wanted.

Callie sighed and walked back to the room and went to sit at the foot of Arizona's bed. She knew that it was going to be a long talk.

6 years ago:

She spent the night crying. She didn't know what to do. She tried calling her a thousand times and she never answered. Every time she heard Arizonas voice on her voicemail, it made her heart break a little more and she didn't know how much of this torture she could endure.

She knew she wasn't hurt because of the note she left her. But she couldn't help but think that Arizona wouldn't leave her like that without any reason.

Maybe she simply stopped loving her. She heard that sometimes it happened, people just fell out of love. But if Arizona did, couldn't she at least have told her face to face instead of being a coward and running away?

Today she woke up determined to look for her. She went to all the places she thought the blonde would likely go. They were all dead ends.

By the end of the day she was completely spent. It only left her one place to go. It was the farthest of them all and it was her only hope. She knew that if she didn't found her there she would completely break.

While driving there she asked herself why she was getting through all that trouble for someone who clearly didn't want to be with her. She couldn't help but think that there was something more to it than it seemed. She hope that with her final destination she would get the answer she was looking for.

She arrived at the Robbins's house. The sun was starting to set and she was completely spent. She looked at herself in the rearview mirror and her face reflected exactly how she was feeling inside.

She sighed before opening her door and getting out of the car. She took slow steps until she standing in front of the Robbins's red door.

Before she could even knock the door was being opened and the Colonel stepped out closing it behind him.

"What are you doing here?" He harshly asked her.

"Hi Colonel. I called a few times and no one answered. I just wanted to know if you have seen Arizona?" She weakly asked.

"I saw her but she doesn't want to see you." He told her bluntly.

Callie choked back a sob not believing him. He never liked her so why would he tell her the truth?

"I.. what?"

"Look, I'm gonna be nice and tell you what she told me. I was with her when she left she wanted me to help her get her things. You are suffocating her and she doesn't want anything to do with you. So leave her alone, you are young and the world is big." He said feigning being bored. "Next time I won't be so nice. Just leave and never come back." With that he went back to his house closing the door in Callie's face.

The brunette went back to her car and broke down.

A couple of weeks later she found herself back in front of the Robbins's house and thought the first time she wasn't very well welcomed; this time it was a whole other story.

He yelled at her and threatened her. when she told him that she was pregnant with Arizona's child he said she was a liar and insulted her.

He was so close to hitting her. She has never been so scared of her life.

She asked to see Barbara or Arizona but it only made him mad and yell even louder.

In the end she ran back to her car, went back to Seattle and never looked back.

That day she swore to herself that she wouldn't be the scared and fragile little girl, she would be brave for her child.

Trigger warning

Teddy stepped out of the elevator and walked down the corridor scanning every door for the right number.

She a little nervous, she hasn't seen Barbara since she learned that she was pregnant. So she jumped on the occasion that Arizona was looking for her to tell her that she was pregnant.

She hasn't thought about how she is going to tell her. She will wing it when she thinks it is the right moment. She could only hope that she would take it well.

Teddy arrived in front of Barbara's door and knocked a few times. She waited but no one answered. However, she knew that she was in there. She asked at the lobby and they told her that Barbara hadn't left her room in a few days.

"Barbara it's Teddy! Open the door!" She said knocking again. She heard something moving inside and persisted again "Come on Barbara, I just came to check on you." She then heard the lock and the door opened reveling Barbara Robbins.

Teddy wasn't prepared for the sight that greeted her and she couldn't help the loud gasped she let out. There before her stood Barbara, one of her eyes was swollen shut and purple, the other was red and swollen. Probably because she had been crying and finally she had bruised marks around her neck. Looking at her Barbara was standing small and vulnerable.

Teddy immediately stepped inside closing the door behind her and took Barbara in her arms.

"Who did this to you?" Teddy asked gently but firm as to not scare her. Barbara tried to talk but then she started sobbing not being able to control the flood gates.

Once Barbara was finally able to talk she told Teddy everything that happened. How when she came back from the hospital a week ago she found Daniel standing in front of the door waiting for her. How he forced his way in claiming that he only wanted to talk. How he completely lost it when she gave him the divorce papers. How he slapped her and then grabbed her by the neck. How he squeezed harder and harder until her vision blurred and she was on the verge on blacking out. How it was a knock on the door from room service that saved her. How he threw her on the ground before spatting at her that everything that happened was her fault and he left to answer the door before he completely left.

Since that day she hasn't left her room, scared that he might come back and this time she wouldn't be so lucky.

Teddy had never seen Barbara so broken and vulnerable. Her heart broke for the woman she was holding. In such a short time she had been through so much. Anyone in her place would've gone mad a long time ago. Teddy's respect for her only grew. She was proud say that this woman was the grandmother of her unborn child.

"We should get you to the hospital, to check on your eye." Teddy softly said to Barbara. The older woman sat up straight and shook her head furiously.

She was scared of going out, what if he was just waiting for her outside of the door like the other day. She couldn't risk it.

"Come on Barbara, he won't be able to touch you. I'll call the cops as soon as we are at the hospital and we'll tell them exactly what he did to you. He won't get away with this I promise you" Barbara seemed to ponder what Teddy just told her and Teddy could see the fear in the woman's eyes. " I promise you you'll be safe." With that Barbara faintly nodded and allowed Teddy to lift her up and help her out the apartment.

She guessed that today wasn't a good day to tell her she was pregnant.

Once Callie finished telling Arizona everything that happened, the blonde didn't know what to say. Everything she thought happened was false and it was all her father's fault.

He ruined her life! Because of him she wasn't able to be there for Callie when she needed her the most. She wasn't there for her baby's first ultrasound, for her birth, her first word, and her first steps.

Now her daughter didn't even know who she was and the love of her life was with someone else. All this because her father forced her to do something she didn't want to. He was supposed to care for her, to love her unconditionally and want her to be happy but now she was anything but happy.

Then she remembered something Callie told her earlier and she frowned.

"You said you only found a note?" The blonde asked frowning. By the look on Callie's face it wasn't what the brunette expected her to say first.

"I… uh, yeah"

"That son of a bitch!" Arizona muttered. "I wrote you a letter, I told you everything that had happened in it, where and why I left but that motherfucker must've took it." The blonde revealed to Callie. "I can't fucking believe it!" She yelled.

They didn't have time to dwell on the new information when Teddy stormed in the room out of breath.

"Arizona! It's your mother!" With that Arizona's world came crashing down once again.

A/N: I would love for you to tell me what you thought especially since I had so much trouble writingit.